I can't differentiate whether is the fever m sore throat that make me so fatigue or just the body clock problem... Anyway, I struggle so much in hoe afternoon just to keep myself awake n concentrate to read a chapter of notes.. So tiring.... I gonna fix this body clock problem first. So I Conan sleep before 11 everyday and wake up ard 8 to adjust it back since I have two morning paper next week.. Time to change!

考试是向自己证明自己学会了多少，来个完整的句号。何必在乎自己与他人的差别？自己究竟学了多少，明白了多少，以后可以实践多少，都是在于自己。之前一直害怕，一直压力，现在只想对自己说，尽力就好。answer to myself will do. 不管接下来结果是fail还是pass，我不后悔。因为我已经尽力了。明天开始写summary，看看我记得多少，明白多少。现在临时抱佛脚也已经来不及了。不如专注于我已经学会了的，加紧练习。加油。

finally~ i survived after 8 night of ton night. then followed by 1 whole day of rest. i sleep for 12 hours. without conscious... i think i am really too fatigue after all these ton night... age ar.... really cannot take so much ton night day. tmr going to end this sem by submitting all my assignments. will survive thru!!! just a little bit more!

math, i will conquer you!!!!

我真的很讨厌花多余的力气entertain不必要的应酬，不必要的人。

最近的我就连讲话都懒。。

每天忙忙忙，但却不知道在忙什么。

烦死了。

我真的觉得累了。追来追去，真的很不必要。

现在突然觉得花力气去烦这些太不值得。

该来的始终会来，不管你喜欢或不喜欢，我不愿意改变。

该改的不用说也会改。既然需要我改变来迎合，那是不会发生的事。

要嘛接受这样的我，要嘛离开。没有第三个选项。

累了烦了

还是专注于自己能做到的事最牢靠。

Bring me away from all these troubles please..

Leave me alone

tat day I told my mum regarding the flower incident. They she say, 还等什么？赶快接受了咯！你都几岁了，在等就没有了咯！then I kinda pissed off but I can't say much coz She is my mum... But I ask myself, am I that lousy that I should anyhow accept anyone who like me but I barely know that person? Am I so not worth to own the happiness where the person who love me happens to b the person I love too?  I kinda questioning myself a lot... Then I just reply my mum that, I will let him wait. If he can tahan my bad temper and able to wait until I fell for him, then I accept. I can take care of myself without any guy. A companion is good to have, but not mandatory. Furthermore, a companion means more responsibility and more commitment. If I'm unable to contribute into a relationship, no point getting into a relationship in the first place.

Yesterday I was so pissed and I couldn't find a way to cool down even after I tried music and games. Then he happened to say something wrong at that point of time. So he became the trigger point that causes me lost tempered. I wrote a very long complaint and send to him, n then he just stunned and shut up till this morning. He reply to the complaints but I just ignore him for the whole day even after we met each other in class. So I guess he retreat ady. I feel like a bad person, but if I kind to others, I am cruel to myself. At this point of time, I should put myself in the first priority before I have the strength to care about others...  I guess I am doing good to him too since I am not interested in him, I shouldn't waste his time n effort on me. 长痛不如短痛.