Erm... my mum phone me just now... said my blood test is not good.. want me to go back as soon as
possible... she heard like scared and panic... she also dunno what's going on.. just said my white blood cell is excessive and my red blood cell is not enough.. so i will dizzy always... she want me go back for detail medication prescription.. but i m pretty sure i m not leukaemia. if i m, i should be dying by this moment. xD
actually.. for those who know me long enough.. definitely will noe i will go food department for shopping when i feeling down... but none of my friend notice and show concern.. i dun need much.. just a simple 'take care' is enough to help me get back on my feet... but none did that... but it is fine also... shopping for food make me feel release and happy =)
i feeling down because of stress again.. i hate human relation... so complicated and stressfull... v part timer have a lot of conflicts with the full timer.. they dun like us, then they bully us, but they also very suffering without us... = =" tat day my part timer colleague complain to me tat a captain bully her... n all 3 of the full timer that every part timer hate is at the same section with her. she is super angry and frustrated. i comfort her n ask her dun take it to heart. but the next day, the same situation happen to me. = =" i was like.. DAMN!!! i just avoid them all day and partner with other ppl. just ignore them. coz they dun like me also.. what for i go partner with them and make me so suffer? actually... i rather i dunno all these gossip... which make me very hard to make my own decision.. i dun want to hate anyone of my colleague... because v are a team... the bond is build, the gossip break it down... i dun like this...
i considering transfer to other outlet... i dunno should i?? i might b nothing to sushi tei vivo... may be i absent wun change anything also... if i am really under medication for my body condition, may be i will transfer to a outlet that is less busy...
well... Linda comment to my status again and gave her address to me =D i m very surprise that!!! she even ask for my address also... dunno what she want to post to me... but she ask me some question that i m unable to answer... "can i sent you food or something like that or the police will take it away?" i really dunno how to answer... coz my sis send "tie dan" from taiwan before.. but is seal and send by air mail(fedex).. it reach my house also.. but i dunno other country... =(
yesterday i din go working... half is because i wake up too early for the subject streaming and meke me extremly tired after register, half is because of my headache.. i m not sure is it migraine, because i sleep a lot... eventually i cant feel anything... but the day before i felt a sudden weak in my limbs when i was working... headache and dizzy... so i just rest at home... sleep and watch CSI... anyway, i ask my supervisor they enough ppl o not, since they does not need ppl, what for they schedule me to work leh?? :-(
Monday, September 27, 2010
yesterday mornng Cedric email me. inform me that the e survey got technical problem, so everyone also cannot login. so they postpone the date. which means i need to wake up super early again tmr morning... = =" n i give my schedule ady... cant dun want to go work on tat day... more jalat...
this week got IITSC subcomm camp.. y must sleep at sch leh?? i think they want to play night walk again at 2am and watergame at the hot afternoon... think about it also felt tired le...
yesterday thought i would late for work again... coz i wake up at 10.15... means i will late about 15 minutes or more... so tired... being a xx is not good at all...
recently i read some post on fb, one of it is about the reason of being single. yup. i think it is very correct.. when you grow older, u dun easily go for puppy love anymore.. coz now you will think for the future... so i m in dilema now... i like who i m now, but i also know i might dtay single forever if i still be like this... what do i really want?
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am SHOCKED!!!!!!!
i never expect she would read my post on fb...
she read it, n comment it????
omg omg omg omg omg.......
she reply to my email too...
she always reply my email on sunday...
may b is her routin to reply mails on sunday ba...
english is not her 2nd language...
or may b i should say she doesn't has 2nd language...
so she cant handle it very well..
anyway, she tried her best to reply =D
I am so glad i have a penpal like her!! =D
this week got IITSC subcomm camp.. y must sleep at sch leh?? i think they want to play night walk again at 2am and watergame at the hot afternoon... think about it also felt tired le...
yesterday thought i would late for work again... coz i wake up at 10.15... means i will late about 15 minutes or more... so tired... being a xx is not good at all...
recently i read some post on fb, one of it is about the reason of being single. yup. i think it is very correct.. when you grow older, u dun easily go for puppy love anymore.. coz now you will think for the future... so i m in dilema now... i like who i m now, but i also know i might dtay single forever if i still be like this... what do i really want?
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am SHOCKED!!!!!!!
i never expect she would read my post on fb...
she read it, n comment it????
omg omg omg omg omg.......
she reply to my email too...
she always reply my email on sunday...
may b is her routin to reply mails on sunday ba...
english is not her 2nd language...
or may b i should say she doesn't has 2nd language...
so she cant handle it very well..
anyway, she tried her best to reply =D
I am so glad i have a penpal like her!! =D
Saturday, September 25, 2010
actually i m very tired because of the streaming stuff... which make me wake up super early to prepare but just cant login until i give up... then the stupid monthly stuff happen to me also... make me super tired n cant concentrate during working... i think around 4+pm, i was really very dizzy because of losing blood... but then i just pretend that i ok.. then i just let myself go blank and walk slowly and do work slowly... but i think my colleague is not happy with me.. because i m really slow today... yet the workload is horrible, super bz saturday.... today i work as runner... never work as runner at weekend... most of the time i partner with girls, but today is both guys.. and they are too fast and make me looks like super slow today... n i really not in good condition actually... sore throat again... still wondering should i go work tmr... haiz...
DAMN!!!! Y i cant login to esurvey??? Damn!!!!!!!!!!!
i tried a lot of times it just kept poping error said i m not allow to access. Damn!!!
then the french class ppl contact me today.. he say the french class need to pay fees de. 12 per hour. 1 class 2.5hour. whole module is 10 classes. then i count n count... is around 300++.. should b ok for 2.5 month right? then suzuki sensei called me, i told her i cant access to esurvey, then she say she will try to solve for me. but i cant select 2 CDS le. i only can choose jap. so i decided to take french outside sch.. then at the same time i can extend both language.. but i m not happy with the esurvey la!!! y i cannot login??? damn!!!!
i tried a lot of times it just kept poping error said i m not allow to access. Damn!!!
then the french class ppl contact me today.. he say the french class need to pay fees de. 12 per hour. 1 class 2.5hour. whole module is 10 classes. then i count n count... is around 300++.. should b ok for 2.5 month right? then suzuki sensei called me, i told her i cant access to esurvey, then she say she will try to solve for me. but i cant select 2 CDS le. i only can choose jap. so i decided to take french outside sch.. then at the same time i can extend both language.. but i m not happy with the esurvey la!!! y i cannot login??? damn!!!!
Friday, September 24, 2010
yes! today is my off day.. i stay at home and do whatever that i cant do when i working.. so i sleep until i start feeling dizzy, then watch kindaichi until my eyes blur, play Anno until my brain stuck and watch csi until i really feel very very tired... now i really exhausted...
today i check my result around 12. is so lucky that the network din lag this time... last sem i refresh a few time only get it... my result is quite good... is really high.. because my gpa last sem is high, i really thought i cannot maintain it this time round after the exam... so when i c it, i shock. n speechless... i got 3 Z for the 3 subject that took by all 2.1 student from IIT school. I cant believe it!! because during 1.1 i din get A for them also... n the first time i get A for CMSK. This is INSANE!!!! I never get this before... really.... but i quite disappointed for GADV. I din get A. while i put in so much time for it.. but nvm la... coz after i saw joo and ziyi's work, i think their should get A. anyway, zy din get Z for GADV.. i wondering who is the 8 person get the Z???
Tmr i going to fight for 2 level language limited seat. so i need to sleep earlier today. i decided to sign up for both language n c which 1 i get. if i get both then only i find which one to drop as jonathan chee only allow me to extend 1 CDS...
well, linda din talk to me about 2 days ady... so i quite sad about it. but i cant to anything also.. so i just keep quiet about it then.. but i told her my result n she did reply me during her lunch break. that was exciting! ya, i din wait for her last night even today is my off day... because i was exhausted last night... n not going to wait tonight also..
Nite!
today i check my result around 12. is so lucky that the network din lag this time... last sem i refresh a few time only get it... my result is quite good... is really high.. because my gpa last sem is high, i really thought i cannot maintain it this time round after the exam... so when i c it, i shock. n speechless... i got 3 Z for the 3 subject that took by all 2.1 student from IIT school. I cant believe it!! because during 1.1 i din get A for them also... n the first time i get A for CMSK. This is INSANE!!!! I never get this before... really.... but i quite disappointed for GADV. I din get A. while i put in so much time for it.. but nvm la... coz after i saw joo and ziyi's work, i think their should get A. anyway, zy din get Z for GADV.. i wondering who is the 8 person get the Z???
Tmr i going to fight for 2 level language limited seat. so i need to sleep earlier today. i decided to sign up for both language n c which 1 i get. if i get both then only i find which one to drop as jonathan chee only allow me to extend 1 CDS...
well, linda din talk to me about 2 days ady... so i quite sad about it. but i cant to anything also.. so i just keep quiet about it then.. but i told her my result n she did reply me during her lunch break. that was exciting! ya, i din wait for her last night even today is my off day... because i was exhausted last night... n not going to wait tonight also..
Nite!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
I got feeling like this... She scared me ady.. May b i asked too many question or v chat too frequent... so ya... i going to stop waiting 3am.. i am tired also... =(
recently working too hard le... make me extremly stress and stresssss!!!! so i ask her how she resolve stress, then she said take the work easy, do it one by one. slowly.. may b by tat time i ask her i m too vexed... so i say is not applicable to my job. then i think she angry because of my tone. then she straight away say good night. then the next day is my off day... i think twice of what she had said, then suddently i think it can works! coz every section have at least 4 ppl working. i need not be a superman to take care of everything by myself alone. can do my order slowly, then the free ppl will take the next order. just slow down my pace, dun so demanding on myself, then is not so tough actually... so today i took practical action. i really slow down my pace and take it easy... although today is very very busy, but it doesn't affects me. coz my pace is the same, i do enjoy my work today =)
yesterday i went back to klg for reunion dinner. then i scald myself because the hot soup is too full..then i let go the bowl and it splashed to my hands.. my right hand is more badly scalded than my left... is red and swollen... but as long as i din touch my skin or contact with hot water, it does not pain.. but it affected my working speed also la... that's y today i do everything slowly and more caution... anyway, i dun really feel very pain when i scald myself.. may b the soup is not 100 degree.. may b just 90??? i also dunno... my dad say the floor got smoke and stream after i let go the bowl... my family are shocked.. but i m ok leh.. dunno y leh...
i m very tired... bye...
recently working too hard le... make me extremly stress and stresssss!!!! so i ask her how she resolve stress, then she said take the work easy, do it one by one. slowly.. may b by tat time i ask her i m too vexed... so i say is not applicable to my job. then i think she angry because of my tone. then she straight away say good night. then the next day is my off day... i think twice of what she had said, then suddently i think it can works! coz every section have at least 4 ppl working. i need not be a superman to take care of everything by myself alone. can do my order slowly, then the free ppl will take the next order. just slow down my pace, dun so demanding on myself, then is not so tough actually... so today i took practical action. i really slow down my pace and take it easy... although today is very very busy, but it doesn't affects me. coz my pace is the same, i do enjoy my work today =)
yesterday i went back to klg for reunion dinner. then i scald myself because the hot soup is too full..then i let go the bowl and it splashed to my hands.. my right hand is more badly scalded than my left... is red and swollen... but as long as i din touch my skin or contact with hot water, it does not pain.. but it affected my working speed also la... that's y today i do everything slowly and more caution... anyway, i dun really feel very pain when i scald myself.. may b the soup is not 100 degree.. may b just 90??? i also dunno... my dad say the floor got smoke and stream after i let go the bowl... my family are shocked.. but i m ok leh.. dunno y leh...
i m very tired... bye...
Sunday, September 19, 2010
how much does a person's integrity value? How do you judge a person's value??? I am confuse. I dun understand. i dun get it, what is the truth actually??? this world like full of confusion and grey area... too many hidden lies and full of unidentified behaviour... i hate it!!
today i late for work... is on purpose de. coz i really very tiring bcoz of work... i really hate this job so much! but i just couldn't quit... who should i blame? my parents? or me?? i chose this path in the first place... i chose to come sg by myself. is my fault to bring the family economy down... i hate it!!! i hate myself! y? y y??
too stress from work... n i cant express out.. that is the most sad part. i feel myself is such a failure and disgrace. y?? my mood is super down now.... i m so tired of living... so tired of being a human... i m too demanding? too strict to myself? or i heard too many rumour and gossip from ppl? which make me feel so disappointed to this job, to ppl around me? i m stress....
i told myself that i want to marry to blonded hair and blue eyes ppl. some ppl think this is so cheap! i also dunno why... may b i m disappointed to all chinese and asian guy? but when i saw the caucacian + asian couple, i dun think i belongs to that circle... ik m still too "eastern"... too shy, not opened minded ppl... can say i dun like that kind of "open".. conflict right?? i m conflict with myself. make me damn hate this kind of feeling.. like i split into 2 personalities, and fight until i dunno which one is myself...
may b i am just tired of myself... may b i lost my self confident... may b i just lost hope... may b i just lost my integrity n dignity.... may b i just too coward to face changes... may b i just too scared to accept my surrounding n the hypocriteness of the ppl around me... may b i just with to be love but scared to love again...
i need more exposure for my mind...
i need some air...
today i late for work... is on purpose de. coz i really very tiring bcoz of work... i really hate this job so much! but i just couldn't quit... who should i blame? my parents? or me?? i chose this path in the first place... i chose to come sg by myself. is my fault to bring the family economy down... i hate it!!! i hate myself! y? y y??
too stress from work... n i cant express out.. that is the most sad part. i feel myself is such a failure and disgrace. y?? my mood is super down now.... i m so tired of living... so tired of being a human... i m too demanding? too strict to myself? or i heard too many rumour and gossip from ppl? which make me feel so disappointed to this job, to ppl around me? i m stress....
i told myself that i want to marry to blonded hair and blue eyes ppl. some ppl think this is so cheap! i also dunno why... may b i m disappointed to all chinese and asian guy? but when i saw the caucacian + asian couple, i dun think i belongs to that circle... ik m still too "eastern"... too shy, not opened minded ppl... can say i dun like that kind of "open".. conflict right?? i m conflict with myself. make me damn hate this kind of feeling.. like i split into 2 personalities, and fight until i dunno which one is myself...
may b i am just tired of myself... may b i lost my self confident... may b i just lost hope... may b i just lost my integrity n dignity.... may b i just too coward to face changes... may b i just too scared to accept my surrounding n the hypocriteness of the ppl around me... may b i just with to be love but scared to love again...
i need more exposure for my mind...
i need some air...
Saturday, September 18, 2010
ya... i m quite sad actually.... coz she din online for 2 days already... some sort of "down" feeling... but i can understand... she is quite busy now... coz is her exam period...
erm... let me talk about USS... i went with my roommate and her bf yesterday... thx to larry and kath for the tickets =) it is a very enjoyable experience... coz i too timid, so i dun take any roller coaster... but yesterday i was cheated by my roommate and go play mummy's revenge... she said is some adventure ride with some storyline, but then is a extreme fast and furious indoor roller coaster!!! my heart almost fall out lo... but i kept my mouth close, so it din fall out. LOL... then v go watch 4D shrek movie, is amazing and nice!!! is too real until i really thought the image is 1cm away from my nose... is really nice!! then v have dinner at goldilock fried chicken shop. the chicken is damn nice!!! coz is thai spicy flavour, so is damn nice... but not as crunchy as KFC.. then v go watch special effect studio demo and some sort of "opera" about monster rock with firework special effects.. then v run out of time ady coz my roommate too "mo" and v reach there around 8pm.. and queue took too much of our time... so ya.. v din get to play all facilities.. but i m sure i will visit again, with my sis and my family... coz i think they will like there =D they love taking photo, unlike me... photo shy... oh ya, i met melvin and his wife and desmond from result FA with his 3 children... then when v leave v get goodie bag... inside got a free McChicken set voucher... too bad... i cant get it back from my roommate.. i think her bf want it.. and a DVD of both opening and closing ceremony... I din regret for going! is really nice and memorable.. =)
ooo... yesterday i really break my record le... i sleep from 5am to 5pm... coz of cough syrup effect, i m faint until i cant wake up tat kind.. but is good for me also... coz i really rest very well... n i felt better... but due to working, i am really exhausted... anyway, my working place not enuf man power these days... i cant bear to "ponteng"... coz if i dun go work, they not enuf manpower ady, then the ppl who work on tat day will die... although i m not full time staff, but i still feel pity for them... everybody is tired, everybody is not feeling well, but they still come for work, i work so long le... the friendship bond is there... but today is really damn jalat... 6 part timer ponteng, so not enuf staff, then the customer is damn Fxxk up! super demanding and super niao!!! then the customer flow is super fast... is like they sit for 20 min and go, the next minute new customer already sat down... super tired and super "be song" ! then everyone's face damn black... dunno la.... management can simply bad mood, yet v cant de! like v r not human like tat... i m really very tired... n flu medicine din help at all... even after i ate panadol also no use... still headache and running nose... but i will still go work tmr... hopefully they wun ponteng.... if not sure like today, supper tired and super bad mood...
my kuroshitsuji 2 finale ady... the ending is not nice =( although sebastian is belongs to ciel forever, but their relation is no longer tat pure and nice le... the feel is diff... dun wish to have season 3... :(
i think tonight i wil still wait for her until 3am... if she din appear, then i go sleep...
wish me good luck ;)
erm... let me talk about USS... i went with my roommate and her bf yesterday... thx to larry and kath for the tickets =) it is a very enjoyable experience... coz i too timid, so i dun take any roller coaster... but yesterday i was cheated by my roommate and go play mummy's revenge... she said is some adventure ride with some storyline, but then is a extreme fast and furious indoor roller coaster!!! my heart almost fall out lo... but i kept my mouth close, so it din fall out. LOL... then v go watch 4D shrek movie, is amazing and nice!!! is too real until i really thought the image is 1cm away from my nose... is really nice!! then v have dinner at goldilock fried chicken shop. the chicken is damn nice!!! coz is thai spicy flavour, so is damn nice... but not as crunchy as KFC.. then v go watch special effect studio demo and some sort of "opera" about monster rock with firework special effects.. then v run out of time ady coz my roommate too "mo" and v reach there around 8pm.. and queue took too much of our time... so ya.. v din get to play all facilities.. but i m sure i will visit again, with my sis and my family... coz i think they will like there =D they love taking photo, unlike me... photo shy... oh ya, i met melvin and his wife and desmond from result FA with his 3 children... then when v leave v get goodie bag... inside got a free McChicken set voucher... too bad... i cant get it back from my roommate.. i think her bf want it.. and a DVD of both opening and closing ceremony... I din regret for going! is really nice and memorable.. =)
ooo... yesterday i really break my record le... i sleep from 5am to 5pm... coz of cough syrup effect, i m faint until i cant wake up tat kind.. but is good for me also... coz i really rest very well... n i felt better... but due to working, i am really exhausted... anyway, my working place not enuf man power these days... i cant bear to "ponteng"... coz if i dun go work, they not enuf manpower ady, then the ppl who work on tat day will die... although i m not full time staff, but i still feel pity for them... everybody is tired, everybody is not feeling well, but they still come for work, i work so long le... the friendship bond is there... but today is really damn jalat... 6 part timer ponteng, so not enuf staff, then the customer is damn Fxxk up! super demanding and super niao!!! then the customer flow is super fast... is like they sit for 20 min and go, the next minute new customer already sat down... super tired and super "be song" ! then everyone's face damn black... dunno la.... management can simply bad mood, yet v cant de! like v r not human like tat... i m really very tired... n flu medicine din help at all... even after i ate panadol also no use... still headache and running nose... but i will still go work tmr... hopefully they wun ponteng.... if not sure like today, supper tired and super bad mood...
my kuroshitsuji 2 finale ady... the ending is not nice =( although sebastian is belongs to ciel forever, but their relation is no longer tat pure and nice le... the feel is diff... dun wish to have season 3... :(
i think tonight i wil still wait for her until 3am... if she din appear, then i go sleep...
wish me good luck ;)
Friday, September 17, 2010
Oh my God..... DO you know how nice Linda is????
C'est super!!!
I only told her i will reply her email soon and write something about my work..
then i ask her to reply me something like cycling or her school stuff.
then she straight away reply on fb...
tell me about her training and what she do during winter...
i was like...
OMG.....
i din expect her to tell me these at the first place...
although i plan to ask her after few month...
but i thought she would tell me something regarding cycling information like distance of road race, specs of bike and so on...
omg........... she is so nice~~~~~~~~~~
today i really wait for her until 3++
coz i noe she wun online so early as she work today
then i ask her about her test, coz she told me she got 2 test this week
she got German and French test tmr..
definitely is harder than what i had learn la....
i knew it when i read her email reply in french last week...
too many vocab i never learn before and the language structure is so standard...
then i know a little bit of german from self learn,
is super hard...
coz it is like for I, you, they , he , she,it all different variation for 1 word.
is super memory required type of subject lo...
then she have both language subject in one day
so ya....
i only can say...
May God Bless you.. Amen.. (=_=")
NO LA!! >.<"
i din say that la...
although i have that kind of meaning...
anyway, i have faith in her
she is those kind "never say die" type..
so she definitely can do her best.
i today is 3/4 dead..
coughing coughing coughing and coughing
pain la... but my throat more pain...
and the candy i bought is not effective as compare to vapodrop
when i taking orders, i cant cough in front of the customer...
is super suffering to endure
at the end i was like "内伤"
tat kind of pain is from my heart expand to my limbs de lo...
very very painful!
but i manage to survive until now la... although is 3/4 dead..
luckily i smart enuf, i off tmr~
so i can rest and enjoy myself~
tomorrow is going to write email in 20%french + 80% english
coz my teacher din teach me vocab regarding working =="
time to say good night!
A la prochaine!
Thursday, September 16, 2010
OMG.... i overslept.... =_=" damn it!!! i dun like late for work.. although it is ok, as long as i go work, management is happy.. but i just dun like it...
last night i watch yugioh until 3++.. that's y i so tired now... luckily tmr no need to work, can sleep late and wake up late =D around 1am linda was online last night...have a short chat with her, then she offline le... may b is because of tiredness from training i think.. she is friendly and nice indeed. but i think i shouldn't step in any further... if not, i can never come out from this..
yesterday my colleague bring me to c her crashed girl.. i think she is ok only... but in my colleague's eye, she is perfect... my colleague is too shy to talk to her, then bring me for cover.. my colleague blush when she saw her and acts stupid =_=" this make me remember that time i ask linda for photo.. i also very stupid and dunno what to do... is like... idiot... hahaha... but this is only the process la... i take linda as my idol, not deep relationship... i noe what i should do and what shouldn't.
i m on the train now.. today cough more but my diaphram not that pain le.. tolerant!!! later must control not to make myself cough... endure!!! yesterday i finish 15 sweets to sooth my throat.. today dunno need how many... i want to recover from sick la... suffering lo.... T-T
last night i watch yugioh until 3++.. that's y i so tired now... luckily tmr no need to work, can sleep late and wake up late =D around 1am linda was online last night...have a short chat with her, then she offline le... may b is because of tiredness from training i think.. she is friendly and nice indeed. but i think i shouldn't step in any further... if not, i can never come out from this..
yesterday my colleague bring me to c her crashed girl.. i think she is ok only... but in my colleague's eye, she is perfect... my colleague is too shy to talk to her, then bring me for cover.. my colleague blush when she saw her and acts stupid =_=" this make me remember that time i ask linda for photo.. i also very stupid and dunno what to do... is like... idiot... hahaha... but this is only the process la... i take linda as my idol, not deep relationship... i noe what i should do and what shouldn't.
i m on the train now.. today cough more but my diaphram not that pain le.. tolerant!!! later must control not to make myself cough... endure!!! yesterday i finish 15 sweets to sooth my throat.. today dunno need how many... i want to recover from sick la... suffering lo.... T-T
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
this morning is like... i drag myself up from my bed... the first movement i do this morning is coughing and coughing = =" PAIN LA!!!! my diaphram is so pain until i cannot sit properly... now i try to control my breath, cannot breath in too deep, coz will cough... so painfull... last night i sleep quite late.. i think?... coz my brain dun let me rest.. then i manage to chat with linda via message on fb... she own 3 bikes, and she is suisse champion on road race 5 times in a row... i was like... OMG.... she is like 17 only lo... OMG... then i am too tired and close my eyes... i think i fall into deep sleep after 1 hour ba... n i feels so tired now... yet i still drag myself to work... hope i wun faint during work ba... i decided to do everything slowly.. let the newbies clear the trolley.. i dun think i got strength to carry heavy stuff today... as long as i din cough, i think i will be able to tahan until close shop... hopefully?? n i din go class bbq le.. coz sher say until 11pm only... when i finish working and reach bugis should be around 11pm ady ba.. so i din go le.. sorry ya...
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
as you know.. i went to blood test today... is quite scary experience for me actually... not because of i scared of blood, is because of i saw ppl fainting in front of me... my family have thalassemia inheritance, so my sis also inherited too.. then she is period too, then when the blood is taken, she fall unconcious.. all of us were shock. coz like 15 ml of blood only... then she faint... i dunno what to say actually... then i just kept quiet.. but actually, i got trauma ady...
this is my hand after blood test.. bruise sia... hopefully my hand can lift heavy stuff.. coz i need to use quite a lof of my left arm during working...
Oh ya.. Linda won the race again!!! she is so good at sport la! even when she is busy of school stuff and din go for so many training as usual, she still won the race... talented is so diff from hardworking ppl.. haiz... she still have 2 test this week, i only can wish her good luck but nothing else, coz i can do nothing to help other ppl's academic right? most important is language problem = ="
i m not feeling well... may b because of sg weather is diff to klg again... may b my body just get used to klg weather. then i back to sg again... then my body cannot tahan n complaining lo... when i come back, i took medicine and sleep immediately... but it get worst after 3 hours of sleep... then i took medicine again, and sleep again... at the end i cough until i wake up with dizzy feeling and neusea.. now i took more medicine again and wanted to sleep.. but my brain already wake up after 6 hours of sleep... the medicine make me drowzy, but my brain refused to sleep... n i am crying since 6 hours ago... i think is my body crying. not me... feel so uncomfortable.... my lung pain because cough too much... my nose is stuck even after i tried 2 type of medicine... why my body is so weak??? why i cant b stronger and live without medicine for 1 month???? i hate medicine so much!!!
this is my hand after blood test.. bruise sia... hopefully my hand can lift heavy stuff.. coz i need to use quite a lof of my left arm during working...
Oh ya.. Linda won the race again!!! she is so good at sport la! even when she is busy of school stuff and din go for so many training as usual, she still won the race... talented is so diff from hardworking ppl.. haiz... she still have 2 test this week, i only can wish her good luck but nothing else, coz i can do nothing to help other ppl's academic right? most important is language problem = ="
i m not feeling well... may b because of sg weather is diff to klg again... may b my body just get used to klg weather. then i back to sg again... then my body cannot tahan n complaining lo... when i come back, i took medicine and sleep immediately... but it get worst after 3 hours of sleep... then i took medicine again, and sleep again... at the end i cough until i wake up with dizzy feeling and neusea.. now i took more medicine again and wanted to sleep.. but my brain already wake up after 6 hours of sleep... the medicine make me drowzy, but my brain refused to sleep... n i am crying since 6 hours ago... i think is my body crying. not me... feel so uncomfortable.... my lung pain because cough too much... my nose is stuck even after i tried 2 type of medicine... why my body is so weak??? why i cant b stronger and live without medicine for 1 month???? i hate medicine so much!!!
Sunday, September 12, 2010
I m so tired... because i fall sick again.. = =" Kluang's weather is one day rain, one day very hot.. may b that is the reason of my sick ba...
these few days i m not able to wait for linda because of my sick.. as well as my mum will nag at me...
but, she did reply to my message. everyday o! is very excited to know news from her =D is like knowing news from idol... She have race today.. hope she won the race XD
tmr i going to get blood test.. so my mum dun let me sleep too late.. i thought i can wait until 2am, but my mum dun let me.... haiz... i got cold and sore throat... n my mum dun let me have medicine after 10pm coz will affect my blood test result... T-T so now i am at a very tired and suffering status... tmr i going back to sg to prepare for my work... so ya... is not good... :(
these few days i m not able to wait for linda because of my sick.. as well as my mum will nag at me...
but, she did reply to my message. everyday o! is very excited to know news from her =D is like knowing news from idol... She have race today.. hope she won the race XD
tmr i going to get blood test.. so my mum dun let me sleep too late.. i thought i can wait until 2am, but my mum dun let me.... haiz... i got cold and sore throat... n my mum dun let me have medicine after 10pm coz will affect my blood test result... T-T so now i am at a very tired and suffering status... tmr i going back to sg to prepare for my work... so ya... is not good... :(
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
yesterday i slept around 4am.. a little bit dissapointed... but i'm fine...
she din online at all.. may b just because she is bz of school stuff or training ba...
but i m happy today =D because she reply to my message..
coz i told her tonight i cant wait for her and i going back to m'sia, cant wait for her for few days..
haha.. i dunno why she reply me at afternoon, but i m happy about it. XD
today i totally din study at all..
some sort of given up??
may b...
my brain is refuse to study, even language..
so i sleep a lot today, and watch CSI a lot...
now i going to sleep... coz i need to rest my mind for tmr exam...
jiayou jiayou!!!
i got 4 days of holiday start from tmr!
woohoo!!!
time to enjoy myself =D
she din online at all.. may b just because she is bz of school stuff or training ba...
but i m happy today =D because she reply to my message..
coz i told her tonight i cant wait for her and i going back to m'sia, cant wait for her for few days..
haha.. i dunno why she reply me at afternoon, but i m happy about it. XD
today i totally din study at all..
some sort of given up??
may b...
my brain is refuse to study, even language..
so i sleep a lot today, and watch CSI a lot...
now i going to sleep... coz i need to rest my mind for tmr exam...
jiayou jiayou!!!
i got 4 days of holiday start from tmr!
woohoo!!!
time to enjoy myself =D
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
WooHoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is sooooooooo Worthy!!!!
Glad that my roommate wanna ton tonight,
cause me still cannot sleep at this time...
My waiting is WORTHYYYYYYYY!!!!!!
after my long long long waiting time,
i manage to chat with her!
sooooo lucky!!
she always appear offline on fb, so it is very rare to c her online.
today chat quite a lot..
i really feel very happy =D
chat about season, schooling, vacations, eyes!
hahaha... idiotic me...
When she ask me,
"now is 3am at singapore right? why are you not sleeping ? What are you doing at this time?"
i suddently speechless...
cant say "i am waiting for you.." right?
later she scare of me.
idiot me... really should bang the wall...
i said, doing nothing.
idiot right??
anyway, i am really in good mood now!
finish DBIS and get to chat with her!
WooHooooooooooooo!!!
3am is so great!!!!!!
I love 3am!!!
It is sooooooooo Worthy!!!!
Glad that my roommate wanna ton tonight,
cause me still cannot sleep at this time...
My waiting is WORTHYYYYYYYY!!!!!!
after my long long long waiting time,
i manage to chat with her!
sooooo lucky!!
she always appear offline on fb, so it is very rare to c her online.
today chat quite a lot..
i really feel very happy =D
chat about season, schooling, vacations, eyes!
hahaha... idiotic me...
When she ask me,
"now is 3am at singapore right? why are you not sleeping ? What are you doing at this time?"
i suddently speechless...
cant say "i am waiting for you.." right?
later she scare of me.
idiot me... really should bang the wall...
i said, doing nothing.
idiot right??
anyway, i am really in good mood now!
finish DBIS and get to chat with her!
WooHooooooooooooo!!!
3am is so great!!!!!!
I love 3am!!!
Monday, September 6, 2010
Should i say "Omedetou" to you?
actually i should, right?
I hope to c everyone owns happiness =)
although i dun have tat kind of luck...
today i quite sad as well as quite happy.
sad because i kena bluff..
again n again...
i hate being a fool...
but i dun know y...
i just cant angry at u...
i really dunno the reason...
i happy because the toughest paper is over!
although i did a tough war today with DBIS,
i think i should b able to struggle through ba..
cant get A, but definitely can pass!
i start to slack now..
i plan to wait for linda tonight,
but i think i cannot make it..
coz my body is complaining now...
coz of the medication effects, i very tired and drowzy...
3am i think i really cmi...
tmr start to play games!
WooHoo!!!
Holiday is coming!!!
oh ya, i start to self-learn German also le..
is quite similar to french, but is tougher i think...
some pronouciation is quite hard...
i think i m too silly la...
anyway, i m really enjoy myself!
= Anata ga watashi no shiawase desu =
actually i should, right?
I hope to c everyone owns happiness =)
although i dun have tat kind of luck...
today i quite sad as well as quite happy.
sad because i kena bluff..
again n again...
i hate being a fool...
but i dun know y...
i just cant angry at u...
i really dunno the reason...
i happy because the toughest paper is over!
although i did a tough war today with DBIS,
i think i should b able to struggle through ba..
cant get A, but definitely can pass!
i start to slack now..
i plan to wait for linda tonight,
but i think i cannot make it..
coz my body is complaining now...
coz of the medication effects, i very tired and drowzy...
3am i think i really cmi...
tmr start to play games!
WooHoo!!!
Holiday is coming!!!
oh ya, i start to self-learn German also le..
is quite similar to french, but is tougher i think...
some pronouciation is quite hard...
i think i m too silly la...
anyway, i m really enjoy myself!
= Anata ga watashi no shiawase desu =
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
I dun feeling well... cold palm and cold feet..
i think i should stop waiting for her appear every night..
because i noe myself too well.. sleep late make my immune system super weak.. any diseases can easily knock me down...
sometime i think back... may b this is not worth at all... coz sometime i dun even receive any respond from her... i do like her. but is just pure friendship kind... i do envy her.. she still have the chance to make her life colourful.... actually... i feel really lonely... and i need someone to talk to... but... unfortunately... she cant understand my language and generation gap is there....
i think i m born in a very fortunate country... although is not a perfect land... but at least our education system is quite useful to me.. coz i got the chance to learn english since i was very young... at least when i graduated from secondary school, i can speak fluent english, chinese, malay... unlike other country... they only learn english in secondary school... so they can only speak very basic language... i felt i am very fortunate after met people from other country..
When i was young, i HATE language very much. because i dun dream to go oversea. but now, i Love it very much.. language is hard, but it is very fun also... and also because it make me have more advantage than others... but now i only can choose between jap and french to advance in next semester... my CU is max already... n jonathan dun let me take CDS in year 3... haiz.... y i din study hard in sem 1.1 leh? now so regret about it...
i think i should stop waiting for her appear every night..
because i noe myself too well.. sleep late make my immune system super weak.. any diseases can easily knock me down...
sometime i think back... may b this is not worth at all... coz sometime i dun even receive any respond from her... i do like her. but is just pure friendship kind... i do envy her.. she still have the chance to make her life colourful.... actually... i feel really lonely... and i need someone to talk to... but... unfortunately... she cant understand my language and generation gap is there....
i think i m born in a very fortunate country... although is not a perfect land... but at least our education system is quite useful to me.. coz i got the chance to learn english since i was very young... at least when i graduated from secondary school, i can speak fluent english, chinese, malay... unlike other country... they only learn english in secondary school... so they can only speak very basic language... i felt i am very fortunate after met people from other country..
When i was young, i HATE language very much. because i dun dream to go oversea. but now, i Love it very much.. language is hard, but it is very fun also... and also because it make me have more advantage than others... but now i only can choose between jap and french to advance in next semester... my CU is max already... n jonathan dun let me take CDS in year 3... haiz.... y i din study hard in sem 1.1 leh? now so regret about it...
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