Today is my worst day in TP!!!!

i overslept, so i rush to sch...
then reach class just in time, n turn on my com
my whole partition crashed...
everything is gone!!!
all my assignment, my labsheet, my tutorial...
EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!
i was frustrated...
i dun even have the mood to listen anything from class...
my hardwork in the past 5 weeks is GONE...
is very fortunately that i din gone crazy...

then i use my second hdd to boot up,
eventually i just reformat it so that i can recover my files back
it used up 3 hours+++ to make it usable
then after dbis i want to print maya out for me to handwrite it out
i plug my pendrive at tat com, so that i can print it out...
then i go toilet...
when i back from toilet,
my pendrive is GONE!!!!!!
I really wanted to scream out loud!
as sher is just sat beside me,
yet tat ppl is so bold?
just took it away like tat???
OMG....
WTH is TP???

I HATE IT!!!

DOUBLE CRUSH ON ME TODAY!!!!

i angry not because u din wait for me,
because u din tell me where u r,
and u r leaving while i standing outside of mensa already when i called...

well.. that means is time for me to leave again...

突然想起一些事

有点感伤。。

要是我没出现该有多好

要是这个世界从来就没有我这一个人那一切该会多美好

我的存在好像只是伤害

伤害了一个又一个我所爱的和爱我的人

我到底存在为了什么？

又为了谁而存在？

困惑。。。

我无法改变任何事

这些过去已经是一堆无法改变的事实

再耿耿于怀又怎样？

再后悔又能怎样？

伤害还在。

痛苦还在。

不如承认一切都是我的错

让你恨我一辈子。

听说恨比爱更容易放下。。。

第九个月过去了

一切都改变了

你离开了

我离开了

我依然失去了一切

在我的世界，

单纯的友情已经不存在了

一旦放入了感情，

一切就不单纯了。

朋友就该呆在朋友的界限里

谁也不该跨越那条线

我已经不想再次经历失去的感觉了。。。

到最后，

这条路是我一个人独自走完

我会遗憾。

而现在

比起被依靠，我更想依靠别人。。。

以前是这样，现在也是这样。。。

与其说是我在保护你，不如说是你在让我依靠。。。

我就是如此的懦弱。。

我想，

是我累了。。。

is selfishness... i think...

i am dried....

my time is really no enough for me to cope...

working really used up all my energy....

may b overused? or exhausted myself??

i am left with no energy to complete what i should do....

i am angry with myself.

i hate it, but i still do it.

y????

because i'm exhausted....

it affects my time and my energy

i am frustrated.

i have my own rules and principle

only help others when i can cope with myself

which means...

if i cant solve my own problem,

stay away from other's problem.

u can name it selfishness, i think...

but i think this is the way i believe...

if i cant solve my own problem, i have no ability to help others,

may b i would create more mess and chaos to others..

i hate it.

that kind of helpless...

i hate situation tat is beyond my control

i hate being lost

hence, i tried my best...

y just get used to the environment if left with no choice for changing?

i rather change myself to suit the environment than change the environment

which is impossible

just b myself...

i wish i could

but reality does not allows me to do so....

my time is so limited...

my strength is limited...

can i dun go home???

tat is the most stress place that i ever stayed....

I'm Just a LOSER or FAILURE...

just leave me alone...

i hate myself!

I feel like isolated....

not being isolated by others,

is me...

i isolated myself from others.

i think i need deeper thought now...

how to balance my time and my study as well as my work

is hard i noe...

but i really left no choice...

every month at least i need to earn 300SGD for my rental excluding my travel and food.

so ya....

i know what m i doing

but i dunno how can i cope with it...

is hard to explain...

so i choose not to explain anything.

just leave me alone....

after sometimes i'll be fine...

already struggled for 1 year le ma....

this year sure can struggle through de.

i just need some peace....

Please kept your mouth shut if u dun know anything!

我鄙视你！

如果你不曾用自己的手尝试做这份功课，
你根本就没有资格评论我的作品。
什么叫"no originality"？？？
你做的出那么像的模型的时候再跟我说什么是originality。
一味的向别人伸手拿完成了的功课不觉得羞耻吗？
什么时候才愿意成长？？

我不明白。。。
难道尝试是很困难的事吗？
为什么我可以克服我最讨厌的障碍，
你们不行呢？
再成长一点。。。
跟上我的步伐。。。
我们一起毕业。
不这样我没办法跟你们有共同的话题。。。
难道没发现我们疏远了吗？

attitude change eveythings

有些人在成长
我看到了。。。
不出声并不代表我不知道。
ganbatte kudasai.
我为你加油。

great....

this whole week i din show up in sushi tei...

i think my supervisor surely hate me so much...

i went for doctor today

which cost me 44 dollar just for 2 kind of medicine...

= =''

ok la...

i noe my headache is cureless by panadol la...

the medicine i get today is super strong de...

specially for migraine..

so ya...

is quite expensive..

but after medication i really felt better

but i still choose to stay at home

i practice maya today

my whole day is doing maya...

nothing else

n my body complaining now....

maya is sux.

i hate it.

from the bottom of my heart i say

I HATE MAYA!

but i still have to practice it...

i dun want to fail any subject...

coming next is French.

i noe the switching between Jap to French is hard

but this is the road i chosen,

no choice now

just put in triple effort ba....

i think i really feels better after resting for so many days

but i think my schedule next week is being cancelled by my supervisor

coz i din go to work this week ba...

haiz....

financial crisis ah....

y i agree to go taiwan leh?

make my life so miserable now....

this is another sick day...

i dunno i getting worse or better.

just my flu cannot recover

n my headache...

i think cureless le la...

later have to go work as i postpone and postpone it again n again since wed

i feel guilty for not going work

but my body is complaining and complaining

more and more severe my dizziness knock my head

what should i do?

well...

i got my salary for last month...

1k...

but it is not enough to cover my next month expenses...

omg....

i think work had make me spend more money on food and medicine...

sob....

i really lost my directions.....

i noe studies is more important than work

but i cant survive without working....

can i stop working?

i wish to stay focus on my studies....