It's 3am and I'm awake because I need to matriculate by tomorrow and I have yet to do so because I am a procrastinator like that.

Seriously got to rid this bad habit if I want to survive my coming 4 years. And the rest of my career for that matter.

Somehow the SMU website is really slow. Annoying the shit out of me because it doesn't seem to be loading. Or is it?

Frankly, there's this part of me that still feels rather unsettled and uncertain about my choice. Been telling myself not to have second thoughts, or rather, to just live my decision to its best. But somehow this heavy feeling is making me feel uneasy, and "What ifs" starts to appear. And yeah, all the fun camp pictures aren't making things any better.

This horrible fear of not being able to find nice people there. Or simply not performing even.

Fangirl mode on because Jayesslee (L) are back in Singapore!!! Air smells so much fresher with them around haha. Just finished convincing friends to pledge on shine portal hahaha. Am thankful for all of you :) Appreciate how they trust me.

Temp job at Piaget continues tomorrow. The watches there cost so much, 50K is considered normal to them :O Too much of it truly dilutes our notion of thriftiness as a virtue. People out there are spending money without the slightest hesitation or thought. It's almost as if they have lost their sense.

But colleagues have taught me a fair bit about life. Love talking to older, mature people who're able to shed insights that'll make me think deeper than I usually do and realise that life isn't all about What if I don't do well for Alevels. They gave a perspective that contrasted mine of branded goods being overrated and useless because they only serve the purpose of allowing their owners to show-off. Superficially, it tells a lot about a person. And the world is superficial mainly, we can't argue that. Guess there's another way of looking at things.

Have got to upgrade and be more on-top of things.

Have you ever felt that you won't be able to live without a person?

Okay maybe not literally. That was meant to accentuate the importance of a certain person in your life. That certain person, without whom you'd feel so lost and uncertain about everything, and your life would suddenly seem to have lost that splash of colour.

How vulnerable would you feel.
But actually it feels kind of good to rely on someone.

Draft of 2years celebration's still not posted up. Hahah will do so if I am in the mood to finish writing it. Oh but pictures from the photoshoot is on Facebook nowwww. I love the witty captions the boyf came up with :)