It's just so Sylvia,

i dont know.

Saturday, September 30, 2006

i guess it's all my fault.
i shouldnt have said stuff in the first place.
i should have known how to take charge of my emotions
i shouldnt have lost control.

i dont know.

now i cannot focus on anything.
words from textbooks just cannot be absorbed
it's what i deserve.
it's my retribution.

i dont know.

nothing seems right.
meaningless, worthless, pointless.
i cant help feeling guilty.
and my resolution failed terribly.

i dont know.
i'm sorry ):

cant study.

apparently i didnt.

i cant study.

i hate examinations.

happy or sad.

i am happy.
i am happy.
i am happy.
i am happy.
i am happy.

i am not happy.
i am not happy.
i am not happy.
i am not happy.
i am not happy.

so what am i now? hahas hehes hohos hurhurs.

not gonna let anything affect me - that's my resolution.

i'll see if i succeed.

30th. saturday.

accuracy.

there's no hiding from anything.

everything's predestined.

~~oh rejoice then~~.

eoys and psle

okay. eoys, still a long way.

lemme write down my eoys schedule.

Monday - Chinese Paper One & History
Tuesday - Science
Wednesdsay - Math Paper One
Thurday - English Paper Two
Friday - Chinese Paper Two
Monday - Math Paper Two
Tuesday - Literature
Wednesday - HomeEcons

eight more days ; nine more paper
woah stressed.

but secondary ones shouldnt be overly pressurized actually
secondary twos have their streaming
secondary threes have to sit in the hall
secondary fours have their prelims and olevels

but to us, it's just but an end of years examination.

speaking of that, even the primary sixes should be more stressed out than us
and the reason is simple.
they are having their PSLE

that four-letter-word.
P-S-L-E
cause tremendous torture to me last year.
i believe all the primarysixes are currently doing their lastminute revision now.
since PSLE will commence on the 4th October this year.
that is FOUR DAYS FROM NOW!!
ahhhh!! everybody must jiayou wor! :D

wanan tell certain people to takenote.
firstly my dis and meis,
yong guan, darwin, meiyi, yiwen.
must jiayou and give in your very best okay!
then still have others nice nice people
calyn, cuiting, xinyi and so on and so for.
basically all the primary sixes laah!
BEST OF LUCK! :D:D

okay. shant continue my crapping here.
will blog again soon.
buhbyees! :D

computer enrichment

Friday, September 29, 2006

hahas! today was my english paper one and geography paper.
both was ohkay. still manageable i think.

after exams, phyllis suxian and i went opposite for lunch
ate this la mian thing.
and uh. it's not nice.
it's microwaved.
but well. finished it.

then we went to the computer laboratory to do our flashmx.
met lots of 1/1-ers there.
all of us didnt have time to finish the project, i think.
so yeah. did it.
and we got the hyperness in us!

phyllis was mad.
she went to find pictures of ugly people on the net.
i think one looks like abraham.
yeah. and all of us were laughing our asses off.

then dicklee was there, talking about sick stuff as usual.
teaching us all about things that we shouldnt learn that this point in time.

oh yeah. there was a conversation.

Mr Ng : [ saw that the boys were not focused in doing their work ] what are you all doing?

One of the boys : We're having oral conversation

Mr Ng : the word ORAL is redundant.

understand understand understand?! pure minded people dont, so rejoice if you cant understand.
EWW! even Mr ng is sick in a way!
but no offence =/

then we saw zhaoting's flashmx, it's all about HISTORY and the TRIBES
so miss lim lah!
we had a pretty good laugh over it.

and there's a worst part of the whole thing.
suxian went blurting out that i'm happy to someone
then it turns out that someone is getting suspicious of my weird behavior already.
at least that's what i think.
cross my fingers and pray for the best!

oh yeah. suxian and i and some of the girls were there imitating some ~~bitch~~
it's not who she is that matters,
it's what she does.
so flirtatious yucks!
nevertheless,
we had so much fun laah!
and there was a point i was nearly to the extend of rolling on the floor.
:D:D

today was cool, in general i mean.
but i still remember one thing

alternate freeze thaw action

divided

i seriously cannot stand it le.
i really wanna stop giving a damn about this le la.
it's like.
on and on and on and onnnn
one by one by one by one.
wah. so much wor.

let's do fraction today.
ONE divided by ONE is ONE
ONE divided by ONEHUNDRED is ONE OVER ONEHUNDRED
which is more?
obviously ONE right.

but some things just have to be divided.

i'm sure one day it'd really reach a hundred.
wait and see. it will. it will.
and i dont see the need to waste so much time on it.
since now so many people are already spending their time on it.
losing one person to spend time on it, i'm sure it wont mind.

afterall, it doesnt make a difference to it.

oh yeah. i wanna congratulate it for succeeding.
yay congratulations maan.
i bet you must be feeling the joy in you.
so happy right.

one more or one less, i's just one.
one cannot make any difference.
especially when there are so many more.

each time a sad news come to you, what do you do?
hahas. i will stay oblivious to it.
afterall, ignorance is bliss.
even pretence ignorance.
think about it.

one by one, who will be the next?
let's wait and see.

- no questions will be entertained for this post-
i repect the way you respect me

it's not my fault

Thursday, September 28, 2006

realised it's been quite some time since i last blogged.
so yeah. here just make a quick post.
invest was yesterday. generally okay i should say (:
sighs. days of hardwork, gone like that.

today lesson was generally boring.
rebecca said i kept floating.
yeah, as in, when she speaks to me, i got no response.
ah told you i'm restless.
and suxian and phyllis said i look pale.
white lips, they got a shock.
something's wrong with me again.
my limps feel weak again.
and veryverytired.

yeah. and i've learnt a lesson today.
dont be guilty over what you didnt do
dont say sorry when it's not your fault

i stand by myself that i didnt do anything wrong.
i couldnt be more sure.
and this is all, uh expected? predicted?
afterall, it kept repeating what.
it's like a cycle already.
attitude problem, that's what that is

maybe it's the best way out?
ah i dont know.
perhaps i should stick to this decision.
ah i dont know.
and dont ask me anything.
i respect the way you respect me

tomorrow's english paper one and geography examination
and i didnt revise. shucks.
dont feel like being online for too long today
so everyone,

TOODLES!

council

Monday, September 25, 2006

okay. i'm trying to sound generally happy in this post.
wells. today my mind was totally floating in class.
as in. i wasnt paying attention to what the teachers were saying
i was in my own world. not thinking about studies and whatever the teachers said.
regarding what i was thinking about, uh you wouldnt wanna know. and i wouldnt wanna tell.
i was basically thinking about everything that is NOT related to studying.
yeah that's that.

class was generally. uh. i dont know.
told you i wasnt paying attention.
then it went to after school.
asc final full dress rehearsal.
2.30 went in council room
helped in the decoration stuffs
did styrofoam cutting
cut out the words
" SEE BEYOND THE RAINBOW "
uh dont really think it's very successful.
but the process was generally fun ((:

then yeahs. went for the rehearsal, at like FOUR
did the whole thing.
and omgomgomg.
i cannot dance la!
very weird la! cannot remember dance steps and the movements so weird!
die la! and summore tmr dance still must SMILEEE
and be ENTHU
energy level HIGH
i mean. isnt these what you apply in DRAMA?!
tomorrow is gonna be so super damn freaking malu la!
especially dancing. i am so gonna die. i cannot dance la!

okay forget about that.
after the rehearsal we went decorating the hall and putting out the chairs.
tough work this one.
then i went home like CLOSE TO SEVEN!
so tired la! and summore tmr's my jap oral!
double dies!
i haven memorise my script!
and i haven do my FLASH project
neither have i did my art!
and summore never revise for jap, eng and geog, which will all be tested THIS WEEK!

omgomgomg. i am like so stressed up la okay.
probably i dont how it.
but just look at the amount of work i have to do la!
exam fever - understand this phrase, finally.
praying hard i dont fall sick during this period in time.
okay i dont wanna blog anymore.
headache.

play with it

Sunday, September 24, 2006

there you are, playing with it again.

it's not what it is

it's just not what it is.

forget it, forget all about it.

tears

tears in my eyes ; i held them back

so, i didnt cry.

play with my emotions.

i hate the way you're playing with my emotions
sighs.
this is the main reason why i cannot trust you
haiish.
my heart's not following the way i want it to be
sighs.
i feel that i can break out crying anytime
haiish.
i'm always jealoused
sighs.
i'm always affected by you
haiish.
you know what kinda pain you caused?!
sighs.
i feel like just being honest. but i'm scared.
haiish.

i dont know whether to love you or hate you
sighs. haiish. sighs. haiish. sighs. haiish. sighs. haiish.

BOYFRIEND!

YAYNESS! i have a new boyfriend! hahahhas! =D

so happy. and i so lovelovelovelovelove my darlingggg! <333333!>

you're so supernice la can! ((:

MUACKSMUACKS to yooooo! =DD

oh yeah. and BE JEALOUS. =p

-dont care about it. i've got the hyperness in me-

true? false?

what is true? and what is false?

i dont know.

perhaps, it's just my own wishful thinking.

it's good to dream ; not good to fantasize

Boy and Girl

omgomgomg.
i've just heard a story from xxx
i really sad one.
shall post it here.
but the characters shall remain confidential.

alrights. i have two friends, which i will call them Boy and Girl in this post.
Boy and Girl were in the same primary school.
last year, Boy told me he had a crush on Girl.
but didnt have the courage to tell her.
so he continued dragging and dragging and dragging.
then finally, after psle, they went into different secondary schools.

but still, Boy and Girl kept in touch.
[ they were very good friends in primary school ]
Boy so happens to know that Girl has a stead in her secondary school
as a natural human reaction, he was devastated.
according to him, his heart was broken and blahblahblah
and THAT is not the worst part.

Boy and Girl were chatting on msn recently, when Girl suddenly went to make a confession to Boy
saying that she liked him in primary school, but didnt know how he felt towards her
Girl being a girl, was shy and kept it to herself.
upon hearing this Boy was totally in regret!
[ ahh.. sadsadsad story.. ]

Boy regretted not telling girl how he felt.
Boy regretted being such a coward.
Boy regretted not voicing out
and in turn, it cause him to lose Girl
[ omg. i feel like crying. ]

okay the reasons why i posted this
is to remind myself and all of us
do what you want to do
and dont live in regret.
it's not to urge all of you to go confessing la
[ like duhh ]
it's everything in life.
do what you feel like
do not live in regret.

and also, i want to use this opportunity to tell Boy not to be too upset
what's over is over.
just make sure you dont make the same mistake again
and jiayou okay?
i will always be supporting yoooo! ((:

long post ; sad story
sighs.. sobsobs..

oh and yeah. thanks to all the people who tag at my blog ((:
*winks* hahas!
i have a splitting headache. so i'll end it here

POOF!

new new everything

Saturday, September 23, 2006

hahas! hellos everyone!
yupps this is my new blog.
yeah loads of people asked me to change my blogskin.
so i decided to change everything

rights. this blog wouldn't be possible if wanching didnt create the blogskin using sophie's codes.
so a bigbig thanks to you both!

regarding my previous blog
uh i think i'm going to leave it there
not sure yet

but people! do relink me!
and leave a tag!