Next Chapter of my Life

Omg! My last post was in January 2011! Haha.. Hi everyone.

National Service is almost over for me. Well, not really. For those who do not know, I have to disrupt my National Service just because it clashes with my Uni. It is kind of suck because at the back of my mind, I am still owing someone 'something'. Haiz. Talking about National Service, it will be a very longggggg story. In short, my NS life was not really a pleasant one I guess. It just showed me the ugly side of human beings. I couldn't comprehend what is going through some peoples' minds and certain way they behave. Perhaps, that is one of the reasons why I am interested in Psychology. I am interested to study human behaviour and what cause them to behave in such ways.

National Service aside, I am really happy and glad that I've been to all the orientation camps and know so many nice people. Oh by the way, I will be studying in NUS, Faculty of Arts and Social Science. My first camp was the Arts camp. That was like my first ever orientation camp since 2 years ago when I was enlisted. The feeling was rather funny especially when I have not even ORD-ed. I have been explaining a million times why am I still in the army. Haha. Besides arts camp, I went to Psychology camp and Student Union Camp too.

A lot of people have been asking me which camp or orientation group (OG) is the best. Personally, I think each camp has its own fun. For arts camp, because it was my first orientation camp, all the activities were fresh and new to me. Definitely, I will enjoy it. As for Psych camp, it was really an informative one. It has taught us how to bid for our modules, places around NUS and also what Psychology is all about. Lastly, Union camp is the only chance for me to know friends from other faculties. As for the activities, it wasn't as new because after all, that was already my third camp.

As for the OGs, I am trying hard to stay in contact with them! Since I am on the topic of friends, I will briefly talk a bit more. Like what I've told some of my friends, my only worry is that those friends who will be staying in halls and Utown will slowly drift away from the rest of us. It is definitely not their fault though. The thing is, how will you not be close to the people staying around you? You will see them, eat with them and carry out activities with them for almost everyday. Besides that, do they really have time left for og outings and stuff when school starts? Hmm.. it will be difficult.

I've talked to quite a few seniors and they've even told me that it is difficult to be with friends of different major. In the end, I guess my clique will be people from my major and who are hall-less. =D Talking about seniors, I am very very glad that I've met some really awesome seniors! They will just answer every single question that we have. Even lame questions. They are not only the facilitators, advisors but also friends! Kudos to all my seniors! =D

Oh ya! One last thing before I sign off. I feel kind of sad sometimes that I am reallllly old. I am 23 years old this year. Most of my guy friends are 2 years younger and female friends are 4 years younger than me! How sad. ='( But what to do? That is life. I was a slow learner. Lol. K la I am not emo-ing. The good thing is that I am more mature than others. =) Am i? Actually not really. I have been mixing with too many people younger than me since poly days. Haha.

All the best for everyone of you! =D

Sylvester's Basic Military Training

In a blink of eye, well not really a blink,but through 9 weeks of sweat, blood and even tears, I've finally completed my BMT. Well, while many people are congratulating one another for the completion of BMT, I always think that we've only been through 9/22 of the whole National Service.

Anyway, within these 9 weeks, I've definitely learnt a lot of things. 9 weeks might seem short. But whenever I think through it again, it seems that I've been in NS for a long time. This might be due to the many activities that were happening one after another.

So what do I really learn from BMT?

This is really a tough question. Perhaps, there are just too many things that I've learnt. So much that I do not know where to start or how to start. So just bear with me if my thoughts were to be too random.

First, let's talk about the high key events I've been through. The most memorable ones would definitely be the field camp and sit test. Basically, these two events require us to stay out, in the forest for a few days without proper amenities, food and new set of clothing. Initially, I thought to myself that I can definitely go through these events without any problem whatsoever. Indeed, I did not have any major problem but what I came to realize was that I kind of dislike the feeling of being dirty. Having to wear the same old muddy, soaked with sweat and sticky uniform is really uncomfortable. During the five days four night of field camp, I have only 2 sets of uniform. Of course, since everyone is dirty, I just take it like a man. However, I never ever thought that I would be attacked by something which I never even heard of it before. That is, heat rash. Initially, I thought that some sands might get into my uniform such that every movements i make, it seemed that the sands were poking into my skin. But NO! It was the heat rash that was making me unbearable. As the time past, my heat rash got worst. This definitely restrict me from whatever I was doing. Every single movement I make was like a thousand sharp needles poking through my skin, especially my back. The pain was quite unbearable. I had the energy, the power to carry on with the activities but heat rash was holding me back.

Besides heat rash, another problem that I encountered during SIT Test was heat exhaustion. This never happened to me. I thought I was strong and that this kind of thing will never happen to me. But I was wrong. Half way through the test, I started to have some kind of weird feelings. First, I felt the urge to pee. Secondly, I felt giddy and nauseous. It was as if that I will faint anytime. Somehow, two of the guys from my group were also feeling even more sick that the test had to put on hold while we waited for the safety vehicle to come. This allowed the rest of us to rest which eventually gave me time to recover. Lesson learnt here, drink more water. Haha...

That is all for the training part. At times, the activities were really tough but during those tough times, I will always remember what my friend once told me. The tough will never last. Just hold on to it and it will be over! Another source of motivation will be my family. I will always think of the happy times I spent with my family.

Next, the people I've met during BMT. In short, I am glad that I have a bunch of nice people staying together with me in one bunk. During these 9 weeks, I was able to meet people with new character whom I never encountered before. Instead of shunning away from them, I took a different approach and learn how to live with them. In fact, once you have a better understanding of them, it will be easier for you to live with them. It was disheartening to see my bunk mates quarreling with one another at times. Really wanted to help them to resolve but due to lack of experience and time, I took a step back.

Last thing that I would like to touch or erm complain will be something that is quite sensitive. Haha. You know, sometimes, seeing bunkmates' girlfriends waiting for them at pasir ris mrt station really make me jealous. Besides that, the person i will call every night will be my mum but not the rest. Haha... To look at the brighter side, I will have more free time to myself rather than a mandatory call to girlfriend... Haha But how nice it is if I can msg her every night...*snap* Back to reality.

Okay... think I'm done blogging for today. To all my friends out there, do msg me at times to keep me occupied at night yo! Haha...

Posting will be out this friday... good luck everyone... =)

Food for thought

Wao... It's been really long since I last updated my blog. April was my last update! Can't really imagine that.

Anyway, life for me thus far is... quite a bit of change i guess. In recent months, I've been thinking a lot a lot of things (will share some of it here). Perhaps I was too free to think so much. Haha. Anyway, if you do not know, I am currently waiting for my NS which is on 9 Nov. Seriously, I am looking forward to it. Meanwhile, I am working as a temp in a bank.

Talking about work, I seriously do not know what am I going to do next time. This is worrying. As much as I am interested in bank jobs, I kind of dislike the life of an office worker. I think it is pretty dead and I can't imagine doing this for life. There is nothing really interesting too. Thus, I am seriously thinking of a job that I have been considering for quite a long time. That is, to be a C.I.D. To some of my friends, they might not believe it or even laugh at it. Well, I don't blame them because I also can't believe some of my friends who took up some extraordinary jobs. Haha. The reason why I aspire to be a cid is because I like to solve cases and to analysis people.

Speaking about analyzing people, I might be taking up psychology in NUS majoring in some forensic science since I have a place there. By the way, psychology is under the Faculty of Arts and Social Science. If you do not know, I applied for biz schs for all three uni at the start of this year but in the end, only NUS got back to me with FASS as the only choice for me. I was pretty upset and was wondering why I couldn't get into the biz sch despite attaining slightly higher GPA than some friends and they got in eventually. I mean, not that I don't wish my friends to get in but I was wondering how they really choose. For now, I can only blame it on my c6 English O level results since that is one of the criteria. Anyway, I will still try to apply for biz for the next two years when I am in NS. Worst come to worst, psychology will be my next best alternative.

Studies apart, I would like to touch on my friends for now. In general, for the past few months, most of my guy friends are in the army while my female friends are either working or studying. There isn't really much opportunity for us to bond or even meet up. Everyone seems to be busy with their own stuff. Well, no one is to be blamed here but still, I believe that if one is sincere and cherishes the friendship, we will still be friends. Unfortunately, I kind of got into some disagreement with one friend but this incident really make me think even more about... human beings. I will constantly ask myself this and that and constantly look for answers to my thousands of questions. Haha... Having said that, I am really blessed that I have a few friends whom I really really cherish and I hope that our friendships will last forever. Orh, by the way, if you've realized, I don't really like to publish (on FB especially) names etc to say who and who are my best friends whatsoever. Personally, I think that it is really inappropriate as you should know that other friends will see it. I mean, it is not that I am hiding who my best friends are but I think that eveyone on my FB list might be my good friend. I will feel slightly disappointed if one never publish my name if he/she announced publicly that who and who is his bestie right? Especially when I thought that I am his bestie. Haha. But of course, this is my personal thought la. So, instead of thinking who my best friends are, why not cherish each and everyone of them? =)

Personally, I really think that time, place and common topics will affect the friends whom you have. There are friends whom I think we will be close but because of time(Time here refers to year of graduation, schools... etc), we are kind of separated.

Of course, there is Facebook and other social networks which keep us updated about our friends whereabouts. While it is good to a large extent, there are cons too. It is interesting seeing updates by some friends. At times, it can really tell us what some friends are thinking about and their characteristic. Interestingly, some people are complaining about fellow friends seeking attention by updating some unusual status. But come to think of it, isn't updating of status all about seeking attention, be it good or bad. Haha.

There are just so much things to talk about the topic, Friends. Maybe I should write it down another day.

Lastly! Relationships... While I am amazed how some friends can find new bf/gf in such a short period of time, I am worried about mine! Come to think of it, there is little opportunity for me to interact with females! Lol. No la, I am not desperate. Of course, it would be a lie if I say I am not attracted to any girls now. The problem is... she is so near but so far... ='( Haha... (In Singapore but no chance to meet)

Anyway, wish me all the best in NS! =)

My First Yoga Class

My first time to the yoga class was indeed very interesting. Haha... Though some of the moves were funny, I must admit that the instructor was really great. He could actually use his head to support his whole body! I've also learnt the importance of breathing and the different ways of breathing in and out!

Anyway, must really thank Jacq for accompanying me to the yoga class despite her weekly yoga classes. If not, I wouldn't have the chance to even step into the studio. Really hope that she will join one day and I will have my very first friend in Fitness First! Haha... Thank you Jacq..! =) I've learnt a lot from her too! Orh and I hope that she is feeing okay despite not having a balanced meal yet again. Sorry! =(

Anyway, I've been busy working at Tamakawa Super, a Japanese retail shop selling mostly Japanese tibits. I must say that the people there are really nice and friendly. Totally different from the people from the past F&B outlets I've worked for. So hopefully, I will be able to work there till I'm getting into NS.

Speaking about NS, I haven't gotten my enlistment letter! So sad man.

It's Over...

This is it! My Poly life has come to an end! Looking back now, I am wondering if I've really grown up but still, I really appreciate all the happy moments I had for the past 3 years. Like what I've said before, there were 2 biggest regrets during this journey but uncountable happy memories. I've made a lot of friends, seen a lot of people and learnt a lot of things. Though my life in poly might not be as exciting as others, I am thankful for it.

In my course Accountancy, I must really thank all my friends who were with me throughout the 3 years. Though we had disagreements at times, I am really glad that in the end, everything is resolved and we were back to the same old us. The last semester was indeed, one of the craziest semesters with crazy projects and stuff. Tension was high within my group and group members were unhappy with one another. It was pretty sad and definitely, a tough one. Fortunately, we managed to pull it through and although till date, we never really speak out, I hope that we will put those bad memories aside and continue to be good friends.

Anyway, to all my Accountancy friends (be it you are my close friends, not so close friends or acquaintances)who are reading this, I really appreciate for who you are and I hope that few years down the road, when we happen to see each other, we could still say Hi!

Now for Ambassador, I am really grateful to be in this CCA/organization because it has always been an eye-opener for me. I really love the things that I was doing from course counselling at various secondary school to major events such as Open House etc. It made me think that it is really important to do things that you are interested in. As for my fellow Ambassadors, I've watched the seniors graduated and juniors being promoted to seniors. Each and every year had been exciting because I got to meet new people and work with new people. Unfortunately, some of the Ambassadors are so talented or special that I find it a little difficult to mix with. Having said that, I really admire and am really proud of all the talents in Ambassador!

People has always been saying that Ambass has got a lot of politics whatsoever. While I have no choice but to agree to a certain extent, I never really got involve in any. So I guess I am still okay with it. I guess each and everyone has certain expectation which ultimately caused unhappiness etc. I also believe that this is the period where we will make silly mistakes or will make the wrong decisions. Thus, I think everyone should be given a chance! Hopefully, we will get it right the next time round. It is always easier to say than to be done. Thus, I seriously hope that the Exco this year will do a good job. Really hope that the attendance and commitment for Ambassador will be improved. Haha... I have faith in this year's Exco!

So to all the NP Ambassadors out there, I wish you all the best and do Ngee Ann proud. =)

Lastly, my 21st Birthday was just over and I was really happy on both 9 March 2010 and 10 March 2010. These 2 days were so far the happiest days since long time ago. I am really thankful for those who made this possible. Thank you. Thinking back, I can't really believe that I am 21 years old now. I have a greater responsibility and I have no chance for making any wrong decisions. Sounds scary at times.

Orh ya, by the way, many of my friends had asked what is the feeling like to be a graduate. Well, I must say that at the start, the feeling was great. However, the feeling gets a bit weird after a few months. It seems that your life is kind of aimless and friends started to drift away. We all have different commitments and some of them even started working. No matter what, I hope that all my friends are doing well! Jia you yo!...

Here I am in TCC and this place really brings back lots and lots of memories. If I am not wrong, this place was introduced to me by one of my friends I made during the FOC camp. Haha.. ( That was like so long ago). Though I kind of forgot who she/he was, I would like to thank that person. Since then, I've brought many many friends here.

Till then, I shall update this blog again when I receive my NS Letter! Haha...

Welcome!

Happy New Decade everyone... =)

May you be healthy and happy always! =)

Soul-Searching

Have been feeling kind of down these few weeks. Feeling that the world, or on a smaller scale, my world is getting scarier. I tend not to know how to react to certain things and act in a correct or appropriate way. I am scared. I am worried. I am fearful that I can't adapt to the society. However, I love and want and will continue to be myself.

Everyday, I will see how others react to certain things and learn from them be it negative or positive. Perhaps, this is one of the reasons why I do not have confidence in myself. I am worried that I might make mistakes and that others will laugh at me.

On the other hand, I am also worried that the things I say or the things I do will offend someone around me. I would always love to have a good working relationship with everyone even with those people whom I have negative impression of. While it is difficult at times, I am doing my best. I am now trying to understand and see things from their perspective. Till now, I have not seen much benefits from doing that but still, I will carry on doing it. At the very least, I could somehow understand their reasons for doing it.

Sometimes, I will feel that people might take it for guaranteed if I were to be too nice. I would always like everyone to be working happily together. Thus, I do not get agitated easily. I do not want to see unhappiness in them. However, the society is just too complicated for me to understand how it works. Hiaz... I just want to lead a simple life man. Unfortunately, definition of simple life is different for everyone. Thus, it leads to a more complicated world where everyone is seeking for their simple life.

Sometimes, when I go through Facebook and read the comments by others, I will wonder if some of the comments are meant to be pleasing certain people or are from the bottom of their hearts. Of course, I will not speculate it as speculation is the root of evil. No matter what, I believe that people who do things with ulterior motive will eventually fail.

On the lighter note, I've recently went for the Ambassador Mass Briefing for Open House. I must

say that the attendance was disappointing. (Though it does not really affect me) Somehow, I

could see this 'red flashing light' in NP Ambassador. Hiaz...

By the way, so sorry for the random thoughts above. I am bad at phrasing words and making

sentences. Hahaz... By the way, to all those who are having hols, have fun. =)