Memories Are To Be Treasured...

I strongly recommend A Beautiful Mind to those who have not watched it yet, and to those who watched it already, watch it again. It's really, really, beautiful. I've forgotten that I watched it years ago, tv premiere in Malaysia, but I remembered it when the movie reached the part where John Nash 'sees' the little girl, Marcee, along with his 'friend', Charles. Oh man. This movie moved me to tears again. To tell the truth, I have not cried for so long from watching a movie, somehow I felt rejuvenated after a little outburst of tears. I don't really want to write a summary of the movie here. I just want to write out some thoughts and learning points of mine about schizophrenia, combining schoolwork and observations from the movie itself. Well, as I've learnt, John Nash has paranoid schizophrenia, which meant that he's always extremely suspicious of other people's actions, thinking that they are conspiring against him and so on. This is added on to...

Another quite embarrassing day. I slept at 2 plus last night, and woke up at 10 exactly this morning, being rustled up by sis cos the family friend's daughter has just reached our house in a taxi. I was like, oh my goodness, not another day of kena-caught-sleeping-in, and jumped out from the bed. Hah but too late for the teeth-brushing and refreshing of my face, since she was already walking up the staircase to our place. Anyway, after eating breakfast, all of us went out to 34th Street Herald Square to shop for her winter stuff. It was a change of our original plan where we decided to let her rest for the whole day first, and go out shopping tomorrow. However much I like shopping, today's really a bad day for me to shop since I lacked sleep, plus I was having a case of bad hair day!! Aihh..whatever la. So after sending mom off to work, we walked up and down 34th Street in search of a winter coat, some sweaters, gloves, scarves and boots. Luckily for her, Macy's is still ha...

I officially declare this week, starting today until 12/31, to be The Oldies Week. Let the music of The Carpenters, The Platters, The Cascades, Abba, Skeeter Davis, Percy Sledge, Temptations, and many many more of whom I don't know, accompany me this week long. Let the rhythmn of these songs keep me company till the end of the year, and usher in the new year. A very suitable drawing in of the year, I would think :) Thanks to that time reminiscing with Sheng Yee about English Oldies, to the dinner with dad which featured oldies, and to imeem for providing me with all the oldies floating around my ears.

Ok so now I have lost all my previous blog widgets due to my over impulsive decision to change to a blog template that "looked" quite nice. I have tried to look for a new suitable skin for the past hour but to no avail. Sigh...Must continue to search for the perfect skin! But all the nice templates belong to Wordpress! Maybe I should consider changing to Wordpress already, it looks really clean cut. I've been with Blogger for two years already, should I change?? Sigh..I shall continue with my search tomorrow..If still can't find The One, then I'll move. That's it! So you better let me find one for Blogger!! (cos ultimately, I still feel attached to my blogspot site)

So, today's the first time sis went to the ang moh side of Manhattan --- Rockefeller Center and then Times Square. The crowd was unbelievable! We reached around 5 plus in the evening, and the place is already is packed!! But of course, it's a worldwide attraction, that tree in the middle of Rockefeller Center, though I don't know why. It has been there every year since 75 years ago, something I found out only just. The decorations are amazing, as usual! Here are some nice photos we took. ( Haha some may coincide with the ones I took last year :p ) Christmas Tree at Rockefeller Center Sis and I Sisters! Times Square Great Clock Building Luckily this evening wasn't that cold, if not we wouldn't even be taking photos already cos my gloved hands don't take photos well. Anyway. Merry Christmas, everybody!! This is the season of love and giving (and receiving :p ), may everyone forget all their troubles and immerse yourselves in the atmosphere! Happy Birthday to ...

唉...今天真的是超级没有脸了。自己说好了要去上教堂，要去欣赏美妙的歌声，最后怎么了？睡觉睡到过头！还让凯莉笑了我一餐。啊！我真是没有用！算了吧，今年算我自己吃亏了，错失了机会听歌。明年绝对不会再发生同样的事情！！！ 晚上刚和爸去dinner，蛮高级的。因为公司给了他两张票，本来是给他和妈一起去，可是因为妈要做工所以只好由我这个大女儿跟着去出场面，以免浪费票。今晚吃的是盘菜。所谓盘菜呢，就只不过是把所有的食物堆在一个很大的碗里，然后就这样上菜。只有一道哦！本来我连听也没听过什么是盘菜，可是今晚就有机会吃到了。不过，味道还好而已啦，我不觉得有什么特别，也搞不懂为什么其他人都说好吃。可能是我自己的味蕾有问题吧 :p 今晚是我第一次在美国出席大场面，而且还是在冬天里，心里就觉得怪怪的，好像没什么适当的衣服可以穿。不过最后还好没穿到什么不对场合的衣服，觉得自己今天还蛮好看的 :) 哈！我还花了妆出席呢！可见我是多么的要维护别人对我的看法 -.-"'　因为在美国，化装实在是女孩不可缺少的使命。虽然我从来不化妆去上课，可是这是大场面，不能避免了。呵呵，还蛮好玩的啦。这晚餐是由纽约唯一两个华文电台，1480FM 和 1380FM 主办的，邀请有兴趣的各界人士买票定位出席，而公司就买了两围桌的票。哈哈！益到我啦！:p DJ 们都很卖力的表演。今晚的歌曲都是老歌，超级好听！！想不到做 DJ 都需要有一把好听的歌声。所以说在媒体界里的人士，真的要多才多艺啊！否则就很难生存了。刚好今天和倩羽谈到了老歌，今晚就听到了两首英文老歌，我只记得一首，也就是 Top Of The World。哇噻！我喜欢！:) 还有其它华文和广东的老歌，听了也让人想起以前那些很出名的歌星，张国荣啦，徐冠杰啦，谭咏伦啦...不错不错，整个场面的气氛都很乐融融，我总算真正在美国体验过 merry-making 了 ！！至于照片，我就没有拍到自己啦，只是帮爸拍一些场合的照片而已。算啦，唉，越爱拍照的我，就越不敢在多人的地方拍自己 -.-"' 一回到家十二点多，就和钱佩雯谈天谈到一点多，然后又继续跟 natalie 聊到两点多。还没卸妆啊！已经是一堆屎的脸，再经过这样的折腾，明天一定更糟！好了，写完日记了。得去洗脸了 =X

Went for a little grocery shopping trip to Chinatown with dad and sis, as a means to show a little part of Chinatown to her. Canal Street was our first stop cos Dad wanted to show her where all the fake branded stuff are sold 'legally' in New York -.-"' Took some pictures here and there and it felt weird to be a tourist all over again at a place where I have been to on and off for almost a year. But, of course, sis would have felt different, the same kind of wonderment, almost like in a whirlwind, that I have had when I first stepped into this foreign place. We saw some carolers singing at a corner of a small junction, and the singing did add to the cheery atmosphere at the corner between Little Italy and Chinatown. It was bustling today, as usual of course, but added to it was the cold of the winter. My fingers turned numb the moment I stepped out from the subway station into the streets, even with my gloves on. After waiting in line at East Broadway for almost half a...

Finals finished on 12/20, Thursday. Sis reached on 12/18, Tuesday. I didn't study very much for my last paper, but it was just Math, so in the end I cramped on the night before and on the morning before the paper. Haha but it was real easy in the end, so I'm not worried about it. Now that sis is here, I feel so much more talkative, like can talk to her for so long, until even when we sleep still have so much things to comment on -.-"' Been watching Smiling Pasta on crunchyroll since end of exams yesterday. Not very nice, but maybe just sweet enough to make us finish the series. Just went out to shop for a pair of jeans for her this evening. We thought that her jet lag is getting better, but in the end, we were wrong. She complained and complained about being so tiring to shop during the winter blah blah. It's actually very true cos we have to take off so many layers just to try on something, and the boots as well. I was so tempted to buy things for myself too, but ...

Cream puffs. Italian style, cannoli cream filling, and a light sprinkle of icing. 正啊! The most beautiful grapefruit ever. It's worth living overseas just for this :) The 5 bars of Hershey's left. I still don't know how it lasted for 4 weeks. And lastly, I just wanna say that Dunkin Donuts ROCKS!! ;)

These sinful indulgence were sold at ten dollars for ten bars. I bought ten. Each bar barely lasted for 2 days after I tore off their wrappings. There're only 5 bars left now, and I'm supposed to leave some for sis when she arrives next week. Not sure if that can happen -.- Oh yeah..sis is coming on 12/18!! I've actually forgotten to shout it out here!!! Wheeeee!!! Excitement is coming soon!! After 12/20.

Another great movie. Shall elaborate more another time. Dustin Hoffman is a great actor! Didn't get to watch A Beautiful Mind cos it was all rented out at the Blockbuster store I went to -.- but I got it coming in mail, so shall be watching it after the finals :)

I'm transferring to Stony Brook University next semester! Yay!! :)

For my psychology class, we have an assignment which is to choose 3 movies from a list, watch them and submit analyses for each as our research project for the course. The movies are, of course, related to psychology in some way or other. For the first time, really, I watch movies as an assignment. I realised, after watching my second movie, this kind of decreased my enjoyment of the movie, but it did increase my awareness of the overall picture/story that the movie wants to convery to the audience (which I usually don't care). For a person who is seldom able to recall scenes from movies unless prompted, this is quite a daunting task. So in the end, I feel like a reporter when I watched the movies, taking down notes about scenes and own thoughts about them, which made me unable to feel 'entertained' cos I obviously was more busy scrutinizing characters' actions and linking them back to what I learned in class. The list Prime Prince of Tides As Good as It Gets Girl, Inte...

It was as if, the heavens turned on a sprinkler, a snow sprinkler... Small, light flurries drifted down in thick lines, landing ever so gently...and if you tuned your ears to it, you can hear that exact tinkle when it made contact with the ground... It was not meant to be heavy snow, just a sprinkle of it over the bare ground... And it began when I was walking towards school after exiting the subway station, and I could feel my heart tremble with excitement, pure joy, as I felt the snowflakes touched the tip of my nose. I almost couldn't contain myself, I felt like jumping around to proclaim my happiness, to let the whole world know exactly how I felt at that moment...Well, I didn't, of course. What I probably did, was smile a lot to myself... It continued even as I was doing the English mock-exam. It was a nice and extremely serene feeling, watching the snow from the window..It may have helped me lose time in writing my essay too... It stopped as I was walking back from school...

I've just experienced the wonders of skinny jeans today, and the inhibitions it brought about too. I had a justified reason not to eat today because I left my wallet at home. I had my first experience of a stuck toilet bowl today, which due to its very, very effective sensor, flushed four times all the while while I was putting on my coat after peeing, and it overflowed with the water spreading like a blanket all over the bathroom floor. I actually had normal everyday conversations with four people today, and had laughed my eyes-become-slits, ladylike-become-witchlike laugh today. I received a diploma today, for finally completing, or as they call it, graduating from the Pharmacy Education Partners volunteer training at Brookdale Hospital. I am going to bed being very happy tonight.

I dreamed about snowing last night. And I woke up to find it really snowing. It's like so early in the season and it's snowing already?!!! Global warming is really doing its job eh? Outside. The street outside my house. I love the layer of untouched snow on the rooftop. A little clip of snowing. Err can't really see the snow falling -.-"'

You're blogging for yourself, not for others' sake. You love your blog. Your choice is yours to make. Your life is yours to live. Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. You write ok. You sing ok. You dress ok. You talk ok. You smile ok. Your eyes ok. Your skin not ok, heck care!! Don't just dream. Make it come true! You'll do just fine, girl.

It seems to me that many people try to avoid one-to-one interactions with people or friends that they are not so closed with most of the time. I always wonder why they choose to continue not getting to know that person better, when they have a chance to change that and perhaps add another friend to their good friends list. I understand that people will feel weird when they both sink into those awkward silences when both have nothing to talk about and are searching frantically for a topic to talk about. I've been through that a lot too so I do know the awkward atmosphere. Opposite to the awkward silences, are the lame attempts to maintain small talk at the feeblest of subjects that can ever crop up. Sigh. It's either this or that. What am I getting at? It's actually 2.50 in the morning but here am I still blogging. My brain is actually on zombie mode now. I personally like the idea of hanging out with a person at a time, provided I like the person, not if I dislike the perso...

Fan-made. Nice! Sixteen Going On Seventeen. Love their dance! My Favourite Things I like the song but my favourite part was that "Hello!" that Maria said to the Captain when he came in :p Do Re Mi So Long, Farewell! Gertl is so CUTE!! I love this! Edelweiss. Very sweet. Love the part when he gazes at her so lovingly. Climb Every Mountain. Distorted background noise, but the music is clear enough :) Very impactful. Fan-made. Best. The Sound of Music is the best musical ever produced and it's something that I'll never ever get tired of watching. Love it.

爷爷打孙子。 爸爸在一旁看见了，开始拼命打自己。 爷爷问爸爸，为什么你要打自己？ 爸爸说，你打我儿子，所以我就打回你儿子啊！ -.-"'

Because of the volunteer work at the hospital, I had to go for physical check-up again. This time, luckily, at the college health clinic which provides free physicals for its students. However, I still need to pay in the end because I need to get a tetanus shot which costs $20, a TB skin test for $5 and a blood titre for varicella immunization which costs $10. It's really too bad for me to lose all my health records back in Malaysia and I didn't even get my health book back from Queensway. So now I have to keep discovering new things that I'm supposed to have been vaccinated against but still have get new shots for them due to the lack of evidence -.-"' This goes as a warning to people out there to keep everything ready in their files! And also, unlike me, remember to get vaccinated against everything that you're supposed to before going overseas to study -.-

Not the fiery-red species but still nice :) While waiting for the bus. Old Town Road. Outside Smith Haven Mall. Forgot to take the mall itself though. It was a beautiful but cold day. From mom's room window. Glaring sun. Believe it or not. My first walmart adventure. Not very exciting though. And not exactly that cheap too. Pine tree directly in front of the window. Plain beautiful. Trees again. One example of the house of the upper-class in America. Belongs to a Chinese doctor who owns a hospital back in China. Lastly, my solitary ride in the entire subway compartment. Scary.

Haven't been shopping for so long!! Since today's the day after Thanksgiving, most shops have the post-Thanksgiving sales, which are so hot! At first we decided to go in the afternoon, to allow mom to have some sleep before the shopping, but haha after we found out that Macy's post-Thanksgiving sale is starting from 6 am till 12 noon only, we decided that mom will have to go there straight from work and I'll have to wake up at 7 am to take the bus and join up with her. It was so cold today, but very bright and sunny. During the bus ride, I saw such beautiful scenery, the trees of all different shades and colours stretched out along the way, rows of quaint shophouses lined the Village of Setauket and Port Jefferson dock area, and I saw sea again after so long!! Upon entering the mall, whoa, it was such a huge, bustling place! There was a huge crowd already by the time we reached, about 8 plus. After a short breakfast, we headed straight towards Macy's. Actually, we d...

Don't be deceived by the sunny background. It's actually below 5 C. Haha I just had to take some photos of these pretty trees before their leaves fell. Even though it's just a few days ago that I took these pictures, these trees are already half bare, well, due to the strong wind we have here. Anytime can blow you off course, seriously.

Sometimes I don't know which of the programs of causes that I advocate do actually benefit the people that they are supposed to reach out to, but, I'd rather take that chance and support cos' it's FREE ;) So here it is, another program initiated to help end poverty - FreeRice However, this time it does not only help others, it helps yourself too. It improves your vocabulary! Haha so this was one the cures for my writer's block last night :p Thus far, I have reached Level 40. Hoping to play more and learn more! Visit the website to find out more if you don't already know what it is about :)

I'm currently experiencing writer's block!!!! I just can't write the essay!!!! And it's due tomorrow!!!! AAARRGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I asked mom last week, when was her good ol' days? Mom replied, after marriage, there will be no 'the good ol' days' anymore. I felt so sad after thinking about it some more. She said, after marriage, you'll be hanging out with your husband most of the time. after having children and build up a family, it will be your sole priority from then on. you'll no longer have time to catch up with friends from the good ol' days. you'll find yourself always on the search for excuses for not knowing about this person's baby or the other person's marriage or another's successful career. Sometimes, you won't even have time for your brothers and sisters anymore. After brooding about this for one week, I think I can understand why it will turn out that way in the end, but I don't see it as applicable to everyone. Mom has her point of view because she's a working woman and she even had her own business to manage. If this is true for everyone, how...

Temperatures are getting below 0 C tonight. Tomorrow it will stay between 0-5 C. Yet, the owner doesn't seem like he's going to turn on the heater tonight, again. We have been suffering in the cold house for a few weeks already and they JUST DON'T CARE!! Hello? We pay our rent regularly every month!! And the rent is not cheap!! Why should we be subjected to this form of torture?? Every night when I go to sleep, it feels like entering a bed of ice! Every night I huddle on my chair, shivering with a blanket around me, trying to study as late as I can until I cannot stand the cold any longer. This situation that we are in now is sort of like the scene portrayed in an advertisement of a gas company in America. It was winter time and it had just snowed. A mother and her daughter were standing beside the kitchen stove, trying to turn it on in order to get some heat. ( I presume that their heater has malfunctioned). There was no gas. And then, tada! The gas company's van came ...

或许他们的头发看起来还很乌黑，还带着一点深褐色。 那也只不过是多谢染发的功劳，掩饰了他们真正的发色。 其实，在那些颜料底下，白发已经比黑发多出几倍了。 可是为什么，已经是到该享福的时候了，为什么他们还在那么努力，那么辛苦地出去做工赚钱？ 为什么别人在他们这一把年龄已经可以放慢脚步，到处去走走看世界，而他们还在那么拼命地在外面搏杀？ 他们的努力会是值得的吗？ 举头三尺有神灵。 天有眼，神是会看得见的。 而我，是会被收的。 p/s 今天 Daylight Saving Time 结束了。今天多出了一个小时的时间，实在是来的再恰当不过了。本来做不完的事情，都可以完成了。接下来的两个礼拜，会很忙，很忙，很忙。淑颖很忙！！！

Nah it didn't happen to me. I just want to make a note on my first Halloween Day in America, where it's taken so seriously. Seriously, Americans really do know how to enjoy their Halloween. My dad saw bunnies and angels, my bro saw witches/ wizards, and I saw mummies, and angels too. Kids as young as 4 years old tottering around in their mini-costumes, smiled at me when I was walking home. A bunch of teenage Asian girls already in their costumes walked past me, toward the subway station, giggling and trying not to be so conscious of their costumes. Parties, parties and more parties everywhere. Anyway, that's my summary for Halloween Day in my case. Maybe next year's I will be directly involved with it? Sure hope so! It's looks really fun :) This is just starting but please let the cold weather go away! The sooner the better!!

Poring over my chemistry textbook, my mind drifted away... I was getting married. I was dancing with my dearest husband whom I love with all my heart. To the song: I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing. I know I will start crying in a while. I did. Just a few trickles of tears down my cheeks. To the song: I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing. Back to reality. Funny thing is, can a person who has never been in love, know what is it like to be deeply in love? I love my daydreams.

本来就是个很忧郁的人。 在没有朋友的陪伴下，变得更严重了。 这次，连周杰伦的歌也帮不上什么忙，因为《不能说的秘密OST》里的钢琴和吉他歌曲，让我听了更感伤，更失落。难道我越来越糟糕的心情，一部分是由于听太多《不能说的秘密》了？我一个礼拜前开始每一天都在听这个OST，上课搭车时，休息吃饭时，放学回家时，回到家用电脑时。。。一直不断地循环播放整个专辑。 我想真的是因为这个原因啦。 不应太担心了。适应期还没结束而已罢了。 要多久呢？

I was suddenly brought back to this particular evening. It was a 403 class outing at East Coast. In fact, the only one ever organized on that scale with such a big turn-up among our class. After the BBQ, a group of us were walking down the pedestrian path. I was walking with my gang. We were playing with Jon Jung's skateboard. I was trying on it, my first ever skateboard experience in my life. My own stupidity made me step on it with my left foot, instead of my steadier right. I went on it, pushed the skateboard lightly with my free foot, and there I was moving slowly and wobbly on the skateboard. Credits to my stupidity again, I tried to go a little faster though I wasn't even balanced. Standing on my weak left leg, pushing harder with my right foot, I almost toppled as I lifted my right foot. On either side of me, there was Elaine and Xenia. To this day, I still remember their hands catching me on both sides to prevent me from toppling down. It was their hands that caught me ...

I miss Singapore terribly. I missed Far. I missed Elaine. I missed Xenia. I missed Natalie. I missed Bernice. I missed Xiu Yuan. I missed Woei Lin. I missed YeQin. I missed Poh Xuan. I missed Kai Rou. I missed Kah Hwee. I missed those who had always brighten up my day whenever we meet on occasions - Yunshan, Felicia, Zhiwei and other QSS people. I missed them who made my days so happy even during stressful times. I missed having friends and company. I missed all the talking, all the joking, all the fun, all the crap, all the laughter. I just want to go back in time.

th- direct -tory bathroom yea Hi! How are you? I'm good. You? control culture Hey howzitgoin? f f f f f f

It's no wonder how people are instantaneously cheered up when they receive a card from a friend. Everytime you received a card out of the blue, you'll feel so warm and fuzzy inside even before you open the card and find out who sent it. It's something like the assurance from that card in your mailbox that someone out there, an old friend of yours maybe, still cares for you and will still find time to write you a card to wish you a happy birthday no matter how busy they are. Even though my birthday has long past, I am still being surprised by belated greeting cards. There are 3 in total. The first week after my birthday, I received one from Far. Despite sending it one week before my birthday, it came one week after it. It came as a surprise because I thought she would be busy with university stuff already. How glad I was when I know that she took time to write and have even gotten it all prepared one week before :) Thank you again, Far! Next, 2 weeks later, I received a card...

I find this very amusing, but there is a nagging thought at the back of my mind, are we being mocked?

秋天的风已经开始在吹了，气温也一下子降低了很多。唉，气候的转变就可以来得这么突然，让我们都来不及应对。那天看见阳光普照，就只穿着一间单衣和牛仔出门，怎么知道被骗了。后来一整天就这样被那冷风吹得就快变冰了，还好课室里都是温暖的，至少上课时不用抖着听课。 这将是我人生的第一个秋天。冬。春。夏。都经历过了。非常好奇。这个秋天究竟会给我带来什么呢？我有一个小小的预感，这季节会给我带来一些意想不到的东西。希望是好事吧。。。

I feel bad for making Jonathan Lethem's work look that bad. After I re-read the whole book for an English assigment, I find that I understood him better, and actually started liking his sense of humour. He's not the quirky type, neither is he the direct smack-in-your-face type. As I said, he's those twirling round and round type and in the middle, you have catch his humour, if not you'll miss it and that's really too bad for you. Another one is that he'll write seriously for two whole pages and out comes one sentence that will make you laugh out straight just by imagining what he just said. Anyway that's not really my point. My point is that I am suddenly caught up in an arts fever. That's inspired after reading Jonathan Lethem. He's into the clean, orderly type of arts, surrealism, however he grew up watching his father, Richard Lethem, drawing paint-drippy, abstract exhibitionism was the term used. Not to mention naked bodies. I prefer surrealism a...

Apparently, Mother Nature mourned together with New Yorkers yesterday, on the 6th anniversary of the September 11 event. It rained the whole day, never stopping. It began when I was walking towards the subway station early in the morning, without an umbrella..Soon drenched of course, and had to ask mom to bring me an umbrella in case it happened again in school. And due to the wait, I missed 3 trains and was almost late for chemistry lecture. What a day it was...It's really hard to say it's a coincidence that it rained. It was really too perfect a timing. I had been quite lazy to post updates these few weeks. There were too many required reading for my classes. I'm taking English, Psychology, Chemistry and Math this semester. The thing is, for chemistry and math, which consists of pre-calculus, I've already learned mostly everything in A levels. At first I thought I could transfer my A levels credits, which I know I can after consulting the credits evaluation office. Ho...

是谁遗失了你 我愿陪着你找回自己 不懂到底是为什么，这段词感动了我。

Jay Chou World Tour Live Concert in L.A. Date: 12/24/07 (Monday) Time: 7:30-10 PM Venue: USC's Galen Center 3400 S. Figueroa St. Los Angeles, CA 90089 Tickets: More Entertainment 388 E. Valley Blvd., #223 Alhambra, CA 91801 (626)457-8788 / (626)457-9088 http://www.more99.com Ticket Prices: $58, $98, $138 VIP : $178, $228, $288

昨晚我在梦里和同学们一起玩过关。

It's such a nice movie! Though the quality from Crunchyroll is not really that good, but I'm really glad that it's posted up so quick, but of course, the person was scolded by some hardcore Jay Chou fan for not supporting Jay's production :p I personally appreciate the upload because it will never ever be aired over here. So Crunchyroll is my only means of getting in touch with Asian stuff. Luckily :) Orientation Day was fine. I went alone but met some new friends to hang out with. People here are really friendly, especially the blacks. The white people, well, I had a feeling that two white girls in my group sort of looked at me with disdain, though they tried not to show it of course and also on another nerdy girl, as in seriously the nerdiest of nerds that I've ever seen before. But she's a person with a unique set of thinking which we all found out during the book discussion session and it certainly blew my mind away when she was talking ;) No bonding games, ...

What an eye-opening trip! I was truly amazed by the wonder of the actual scene before my eyes. The trip was decided hastily when mom decided that she wants to take a break from work so there we headed towards :) This packaged trip includes two places, the Niagara Falls and the Corning Museum of Glass. After travelling on the bus for more than 10 hours upstate, we finally arrived at the Niagara Falls State Park. The Niagara River was just by the road that we took to get there. It looked just like any other peaceful river flowing down, but hah, when we saw it from above an observation deck/elevator tower, where the river poured its contents 90 degrees downwards, it was a totally different sight to behold. The power, the impact, as the waters tumbled over to the rocks at the bottom and the thunderous sound made was really a magnificent picture altogether. A brief introduction of the Niagara Falls. It is made up of three waterfalls actually, the American Falls, The Canadian Falls and The B...

But I don't feel anymore excited than I was when I turned 20. The number 2 in front probably numbed me long ago. Now that I'm actually a real adult, I suddenly felt that there are a lot of responsibilities crushing down on me. There were things that I, as the eldest child in the family chose to ignore till now. I realised that there's no more trying to pretend that things will always go my way and that I should really stop taking things in life for granted. My education, for example. There was one day when it suddenly hit me strongly that my parents have no obligations to fund my university costs by themselves, they could've let me get a loan or work part time or something to get by and repay the debts after I graduate. I had already failed them once for A Levels but they continued to put high hopes in me. Suddenly I found myself going through a lot of what-if's. What if I don't do well in college? What if pharmacy is not for me? What if I can't graduate? Wh...

While I'm clearing my desk for the upcoming starting of school, I found this set of notes that I brought back from work after I quit. I've almost forgotten I've written such things during the bored times at work. Read on. I am surprised by myself again after re-reading these notes that I've written :p NOTE 1: Once in your lifetime, you will meet someone who will change your life forever. That person might or might not be the person that you will be with for the rest of your life, but the changes done in your life will be with you always. Untill you meet that person, your life will be nothing but an empty shell. You might not feel empty just yet, but the instant you found that other half, you will soon realise, what is life about. this is written, when two colleagues of mine got together. the girl managed to influenced the guy not to smoke anymore. for me, I think that signals a really strong relationship to me, the guy willing to sacrifice his addiction and go on the ro...

还有五个小时就要回美国去了。心情非常糟糕。想不到一个月的时间过得那么，那么得快。。唉！我也不懂用什么来表达我今天的心情了。只知道这一回去就会很久很久不能再回来马来西亚了。我的朋友们，谢谢你们无论多么忙都抽空出来陪我。能够在这一趟回国与你们见面，我真的真得非常高兴！没能见面的朋友们，对不起，以后一定有机会的！ 我得去做最后准备了。再见马来西亚！再见新加坡！

This is 11 days after I've first landed at KLIA after my departure last December. It still felt kind of weird. It's not like I left for that long, how come I am still unable to get used to the climate here? I can still remember the moment I stepped out of KL sentral station, waiting at the taxi stand there. WAH SEH! The heatwave!! Whooshhh! into my every pore! activating every one of my sweat glands, making all of them work AT ONCE! and MY FACE! My a-little-better-and-more-beautiful face! :p In just a few hours, it's spoiled! Aihh...and there's nothing I can do but to take all these side effects quietly. Anyway, my main aim of this post is not to complain actually. It's to present some of the food that I've eaten from the moment I stepped out of the airplane at KL :D All of these are just from KL as I spent almost one week there after I landed. I haven't eaten a lot yet in Singapore, so maybe those will come later in another post :) Some random photos taken ...

I can't wait for 4th of July to come! I'm heading home that night on a 11.55pm plane from JFK airport!! Haha the date coincides with America's Independence Day, so I really hope to catch the fireworks before I set off that night :) So, dear friends, IF you have something that you want, or something that can be bought only in NY, you can let me know, then I'll try my best to get it for you. Try only, okay? No promises though :p Yippie yay yay, Yippie yippie Yay!! :D Can't wait to see sis!!

有时候真的不懂得怎么分清楚谁是你的朋友谁是你的敌人。或许敌人这词用得太重了吧，嗯，应该是说对自己不利的人，对自己有不良企图的人。 我正在怀疑是我自己放不下心去相信别人，还是真的没有人可以给我放心的去相信？ 她是真心跟我做朋友的吗？还是另有他意？我真摸不清啊。有时候我的心告诉我她是个好人，难得一见的好人。有时候呢，心里却又悄悄地告诉我，这人要小心提防，也许她正在做一场好戏吊我上钩。好矛盾啊！ 我真的认为她是我的好朋友。我只是害怕她把我当成猎物看待。 这世界有我这种人真是个错误。像我这种常常怀疑别人对我不怀好意的人，真的不值得拥有好朋友。怀疑心太重的我，是应该改过吗？是应该开始全心全意地去相信别人吗？我还是感到混淆。等我再长大一点吧。也许到那时候我可以开始冒险去相信他人，而不用连累家人了。好，那我就等着看了！

也许是我在这社会上还属于是一颗很嫩的树吧。 出来社会工作后，所经历的事情，所看到的人性，和理想中的世界是差的那么，那么的远。虽然我根本就知道这世界是绝对不可能像我的理想世界那样完美，可是我还是感觉非常失望。难道人性真的就是这个样子的吗？人与人之间难道就没有真诚的感情存在吗？是不是当你有利用价值时就拼命献殷勤，而有朝一日你不再有利于他了，就真的可以翻脸不认人了？ 很恐怖。我真的不敢轻易相信别人说的话，不敢以为自己真的那么会察言观色，能够看出一个人的德性。更不敢轻举妄动，想说的话也在脑子里打了几转才敢开口。 真得很恐怖啊。其实在还没进入餐馆做工就已经听人说过在餐馆工作不简单啊。人情世故都得处理妥妥当当，要不然你就死定了。不是被人陷害，就是被人踩在脚底，不当人来看。 而我的问题在哪？我想应该不是我不会做人吧？而应该是我实在是还没看够这世界，觉得有些事情真的是看不过眼，但还是无可奈何因为我什么也帮不上忙。 唉！这世界就是这个样子啊！ 人性的丑恶，虽然还没看够，可是就这短短几个星期日夜的接触已经足够让我惊叹，一种米养百种人啊！ 其实也没什么啦。有很多是有口难言啊，所以只好在网上发发牢骚。现实世界里，我就只能忍着咯！加油啊！黄淑颖！！你一定能熬过去的！

Obviously, the ties between Singapore and US has never been better. This year, a new annual event has started, which is called the Singapore Day. For this first ever year, it is held here in New York City's Central Park's Wollman Rink. I don't know whether it will be held forever in NYC, but well, we'll see in the future :) The reason that I actually knew about this event is...my dad's company, Yeo's, is the corporate partner in this event. Yeo's is the official drinks provider for this event, which is really very good for promotion. Thus with the corporate pass that dad managed to get us, we entered the rink without much hassle. Cause otherwise, we would have to register online to get passes and to choose our goodies bag. Yeah, the traditional goodies bag that almost every Singapore event will give out, though in this case, they included really distinct and very Singaporean stuff in the bags. It was estimated that almost 5000 people would attend this event....