with the pieces left...

As I pen down these mediocre, maybe even ridiculous piece of my mind now, I feel enlightenment. Hope is here where it always has been, hidden beneath layers of shadows and broken trusts, Faith keeps me strong and has made me stronger and almost complete;t resistant to challenges. Now I know that challenges are the fuel that smoothens the rough journey of life Challenges make it all a lil' bit more bearable at the end of the long track we labeled life.

The hardest, most difficult moment of my life was the second I came home one evening and realized that I am all by myself. Alone. Almost abandoned. The person I loved most left me behind and I was hanging on ropes. She had been my inspiration, the person who knows me better than anyone can possibly. Even my mother is not an exception to the fact. She knew my favourites with such immaculate details. From my favourite colour to my favorite cartoon show... And more than anything she knew my favourite dishes and would go to great extents to prepare them especially for me to savour in. Food never tasted so heavenly.

I miss her. Yes, I do. And I still miss her though a year has passed. Maybe I will miss her more by each passing year. I loved her, have never stopped loving her and will certainly NEVER stop loving her.

You will always be in my dreams and the first name in the prayers I say. You will always have a special spot in my heart and that's where you will live on until I join you up above one day...

paaty, I love you. dearly. much more than you had the chance to know. Much more than i can ever show u.

Love,
Your naughty girl,
kavita

freakin' frozen!

wow. isn't the world just a crazy place filled with our humanely-driven thoughts, desires and ambitions?? Another long year has come and gone and shockingly, THIS year has been the wildest combination of joy and pain blended so similar to a cuppa smooth-swirled cappuccino!! And with all the experience I have together with all my miserably underachieved **sobs** goals, I believe the time has now come for me to start getting to create a whole new list already. doesn't time fly or what?

The list unveils officially :)

1. study hard, consistent, attentively WITHOUT STRESS.

2. get to bed by at least 2.30 on school days and 3.00 for weekends.

3. stay chilled. it gets them when you smile and be confident :) **lol**

4. strive for it and get it accomplished in the very best possible way.

5. rock GEMA! **pheww** I'm sweating already. get new cover designs for gema, a better-organized team and strong-willed individuals on "sidang redaksi" 2010. :)

6. make CORRECT "jadual bertugas" for the prefect. NO MORE leaving names out, girl. pay attention!

7. never give up even when things get ugly. after all, NOTHING can get uglier than the turmoils of 2009. that's certain.

8. no more being emotional due to lack of self-control. NO MORE.

9. A+ for the SPM subjects. i aim high because i know that we should aim for the moon 'cuz even we we fall, we'll fall among the stars.***

10. work-out a suitable timetable for each day and follow it closely.

11. come home from school only after completing homework for the day.

12. no long afternoon naps. maximum of 3o minutes daily.

13. jog at least 4 times a week, including runs at school of course :p

14. aim high no matter WHAT!!!

15. win the drama, public speaking and any other competitions that come my way. "]

16. love everyone regardless of whether they do or don't-it doesn't matter as long as I am not doing anything wrong.

17........

the list will be continued soon :) tee-hee. long, it';s time to get writing the drama script for 2010! wish me luck amigos :)


who knew there's such a thing as ICE rubix cube?? woah!!

-keep chilling and freeze on buddies-

chiowwwwzzz! and toodles :)

love 101 :)

1. I can be myself when I'm with you.
2. You fill up my senses, like the mountains in spring time.
3. You love me even with all my faults.
4. You are so beautiful to me.
5. I don't have to vacuum before you come over.
6. You're never boring.
7. Even when I'm grumpy, you still like me.
8. You let me give you a detailed description of how I spent my day.
9. Your idea of romance is dim lights, soft music, and just the two of us.
10. We both know that together we can work out anything.
11. You never make fun of me, even when I look like a clown.
12. Because you make me feel like I've never felt before.
13. I can tell you anything and you won't be shocked.
14. You never say, "Are you going to tell that story AGAIN?"
15. We can talk about everything or nothing--it's always okay with you.
16. You're the light in my life, you're the inspiration.
17. When you hold me tight, everything becomes alright.
18. I love sharing rainbow walks with you.
19. You always seem to know when things aren't going great.
20. Your undying faith is what keeps the flame of our love alive.
21. You never intimidate me.
22. You know how to bring a smile to my face.
23. You're always on my side.
24. We can talk over the telephone for hours together even if I've seen you an hour before.
25. You're so dependable and trustworthy.
26. When I need to cry, you lend me a shoulder and a tissue.
27. When I'm with you, nothing else seems to matter.
28. 'Coz a smile from you can chase away all the blues.
29. When you listen, I know you're really listening and not just waiting for your turn to talk.
30. You and me together...we can make magic.
31. When you're around, everything's fun.
32. We're a perfect match.
33. We both really can't do without each other.
34. Thinking of you add a wonderful touch of love to my every day.
35. You've taught me the meaning of love and sharing. Our world is more complete because of it.
36. You understand me...even when I'm sobbing.
37. Every moment spent with you is one filled with fun.
38. Your idea of a big night out is just the two of us.
39. Your love gives me the feeling that the best is still ahead.
40. With you I feel, as if in a single lifetime, I have known the joy of a thousand years.
41. You at least pretend you're going to do what I suggest.
42. You never give up on me and that's what keeps me going.
43. You're as helpful as therapy, but you never charge me for it.
44. You're simply irresistible.
45. Sometimes you call just because you're thinking about me.
46. I can feel it, in the warmth of your touch, 'cause it touches my heart and soul.
47. For your sensitivity and support.
48. I love your smile...I really do. =)
49. Your terrific sense of humor...you know how to make me laugh.
50. I love you because you bring out the best in me.
51. You never get mad at me...even when I drive you up the wall.
52. 'Coz you're amazing, dazzling, and extra nice.
53. You understand if I forget something worth remembering.
54. In the story of my life, the best chapters are filled with you.
55. You always know just how to spoil me.
56. You're a good sport even when I'm not.
57. Every heartbeat belongs to you.
58. It's in the way you look at me and in your warm embrace.
59. Every time I look at you my heart misses a beat.
60. Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure.
61. You're the one who holds the key to my heart.
62. I like sharing crazy times with you because you add the spice to my life.
63. When we're together, time just comes to a halt.
64. You can read my innermost thoughts.
65. Your loving gaze is enough to carry me through a long day.
66. You bring to me joy beyond measure.
67. Your idea of fun is laughing really hard and playing practical jokes.
68. You never snore while I'm talking to you.
69. Honey, you're that someone who makes happiness happen.
70. I feel so at ease in your arms.
71. Because of you, no matter what may come tomorrow, today my life is more complete.
72. Since the day you came into my life, everything's perfect.
73. We share the right kind of love.
74. You always say what I need to hear.
75. All I need to do is look at you and....be dazzled ALL over AGAIN :)
76. You're cool--no matter what the time, no matter what the place.
77. All the little things you do make such a big difference in my life.
78. I want to stay forever with you.
79. I can see my dreams come true in the ocean of your eyes.
80. You've taught me the meaning of love.
81. The softness of your voice is like satin on my soul.
82. You're so cuddle-some.
83. I love all the ways you give.
84. I just can't imagine being me without you.
85. You're my anchor in life's ocean and most of all, you're my best friend.
86. You're always on my mind. I just can't do without you.
87. Just a touch...and I lose my heart all over again.
88. You've seen me at my worst and you still love me.
89. You're so magnetic...I just keep coming back to you.
90. Love is what you mean to me...and you mean everything.
91. You are my theme for a dream.
92. You're someone I can be goofy with.
93. I enjoy being with you.
94. You'd give up your favorite pastime to be with me.
95. I can ask you a dumb question without feeling dumb.
96. Whenever I need it most you're there with your all-purpose hugs.
97. You excite me, delight me, ignite me.
98. You know all my secrets...and keep them.
99. You're too hot to handle.
100. I've had the time of my life and I owe it all to you.
101. There are endless reasons why I love you but the most important is...darling, knowing you is loving you.

favouritezzz

in this post, I've decided to be a lil' personal. This is a post about me and everything that revolves around my world. :)

my favourites:-

F&B:-
food: the spiciest tomyam in town!

drink: 7E's slurpeeee!n ice-blended honeydew or pineapple. hot chocolate-especially when it's pouring outdoors

cake: raspberry cheese from Secret Recipe! OMG!! i LOOOVE cheese

pizza: any topping with loads of pineapple and EXTRA cheese :)

ice-cream: Baskin Robbin's mint with chocolate chips

soup: Campbells! lol

fruits: pineapples, honeydew, strawberries and kiwi :)

fastfood restaurant: kenny roger's roasters'

burger: mcchicken

greens: kangkung. LOl :p, pucuk paku and salad leaves[WITH thousand island, OF COURSE!]

carbonated drinks: justea and vanilla coke!

chocolate: dark with almonds

sweets: iced lemon tea.haha

indian sweet: laddu. i know, i know!

dessert:cuppycake**MWAHH**

malaysian: rojak!nasi lemak(sambal lebih yer?)!

indian cuisine: roti canai!

chinese cuisine: chicken rice :p

malay cuisine: ketupat and rendang ...DODOL!!

italian: spaghetti with tomato-based sauce.NOT creamy! no way. mac and cheese! OMG!

thai: tomyam!!

american: french fries?? LOL

stuffs:-

colours: white, lavender, baby pink and sky blue

shops to shop in(lol): voir, nichii and miss selfridge

shoes: jimmy choos (can i have one? plzzzzz??)

watch: swatch (butterfly)!! :(

accesories: anywhere at all.

jewelry: poh kong and tiffany & co

bags: anywhere :) different is good :)

scent: vanilla, lavender and rosemary. each scent by its own :)

movies and songs:-

chick flick: Bridget Jones' Diary 1 & 2

romance: titanic, of COURSE!

comedy: Home Alone

adventure: 2012? LOL

book-based: twilight and new moon, ssoon to be eclipse and breaking dawn too!! :o

tamil: Jeans

hindi: kabhi khushi kabhi kham & kuch kuch hota hai, mohabattein TOO~!!

songs from movies: vaaranam aayiram

animated movie: finding nemo!! LOL

my angel ♥

Angels. An amazing being acknowledged to be pure and free from evil. Their beauty is extraordinary that it may hurt our eyes to even glance their way. Maybe angels are simply mystical creatures to most of us but I personally think contrarily.

I dare say that angels exist. Yes, they do. And no, you do not just see light when you look their way. I don't.


You see, my angel stays with me and well, she certainly is not a character from one of my fantastical stories. She is human, composed of 208 bones, packed with biconcave-shaped red blood cells and breathes oxygen like the rest of us mortal being. She is without a doubt, my mother.

She is an angel in her own rights. Not only is she caring, helpful and undeniably hardworking, she is also an amazing mother who would do anything humanly possible for her children-my brother and I. We do have our regular arguaments but they never last long, have never and will never. Sometimes, I wonder whether the both of us are connected by a a strong magnetic bond or something similar. Regardless of how much I try to, I cannot refrain myself from speaking to her. it's SIMPLY NOT DO-ABLE AND VERY, VERY IMPOSSIBLE.


She is in my every beat of my heart and her name is one that never fails to appear in each prayer I say.

So Mum, listen... No matter how vengeful or filled with raged I appear to be, it's simply an illusion.

It's not anger, neither is it misery. I call it LOVE.

How much do I love you, you may ask. And what I say is that, I love you deeper than the four oceans and higher than the blue sky above.
Nevertheless, I know that you love me much more. ♥
I will do you proud. I promise. It's a dare :) And I have taken it.

♥ lastly, just want to say...

Mum, I am sorry for hurting you so very often.
Teenagers can be very emotional but I know that I am a very naughty girl. Well, after all, I am YOUR lil' girl :)

>Here's to many more crazy mother and daughter chats!

my blue butterfly

yes, i am a teen-an outrageously crazy-minded one but that is not keeping me away from reaching great heights in my life. Nothing is impossible in my eyes. I have very often told this,"Reach for the moon because even if you fall, you'll fall among the stars." How so very uplifting this quote is.

i don't want to give up.
I certainly don't want to give in.


Challenges are not just obstacles.
Because obstacles make me strong, iron-like and almost non-malleable.

Every ending is a new beginning.
We just don't know it at that time.

I want to fly with the wings of a blue butterfly.I want to fly away to the land of love, a place where people love each other and do not expect anything in return...

I want to go to the land where its nationalities are no longer dwelling in the comfort of materialistic wealth. I want to experience something different and I truly hope that such a place still exists. Maybe it's not out-of-this-world just yet.

i will continue flying...

:) here's to mankind and genuineness :)

optimism for survival

the end is near.it may be a false alarm, brought up simply to trigger fear in our hearts. But we know the truth, regardless of how much we try to deny it. Denial will no longer bring us anywhere because now, our wildest dream is unfortunately revealing itself slowly but surely in front of our very own eyes.

economical crisis, mass suicide and the eruption of the long awaited eruption of the Yellowstone are not the only signs that the end is closing on. Humanity as we know it is also coming to a disruptive end. People, including myself are selfish, hypocritical and not bothered of how the world revolves.It's always me, myself and I. It' a mad-rush out there, they say but I know now that humanity ends when we act inhumanely.It's not just indicated physically, it's much more obvious religiously.

How many youngsters of this modern time make time for prayers? Are we forced to pray or do we do it willingly, with true will and a pure mind? Not many. Ask yourself these questions. When you say your prayers, do you think of yourself first before you do others or do you give priority to those you hold close to your heart? Do you care for those whose lives have been painfully-stricken by poverty? Does your heart goes out to the many homeless young children who just want some clean water?

I know that I am a bad being. I have not been good enough. But I know that I still have time to repent my mistakes and correct them-soon.


Yes, I am an optimist. I said it. Now, its time to prove it :)
The end is near and each second means much.

I'm not a pessimist, neither am I a sadist. What I truly know is that I can do nothing much but to have faith.