Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

W.H Auden

a leopard never changes its spots.
i should have known better than to get myself into all these. sigh.
CANT I JUST NOT EXPERIENCE THIS DAMN FEELING FOR A DAY!!
pathetic.
sometimes i really wonder if i hate you and love you, is it able to work that way?

every single fucking damn time just when i THOUGHT things were going great, you'd just have to fuck things up. DAMN IT, SERIOUSLY. FUCK OFF. FUCK OFF. URGH. because of you, i'd be in a fucking horrible mood  and i'll get him into a fucking bad mood as well. why? cause of u. AWESOME. fuck fuck fuck fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. i should just go bang the wall and maybe lose all my memories and start afresh. hopefully, without these kind of problems anymore. damn it.

how did things turn out like this all of a sudden? haiz. things were supposed to be fine, be happy and good, especially when sunday and monday's coming. IT was never supposed to come up. until today. idk how to think, how to feel, what to do.
now, where do you run to escape from yourself? if you happen to know a way, teach me. tq

happy happy happy. super duper happy :D
i love it when you call
lalala~
didn go for lectures today :x which reminds me of fmah tutorial urgh. shall do it naozxzx.. im broke now ): less than ten bucks in my wallet, sigh. cant wait for monday! teehee <3

Forgot about this poor blog.. oh well, i guess no one visits it anyway. haha year 2 started, teachers are basically fine. maybe except for BLaw :s hope JB trip comes soon, cant wait to get away. haizzzz 
green's my fav color but i dont like the feeling of being jealous! )): say one thing and do the other, its like things are on replay mode. i dont like to be cold towards you but @#!*& sigh. i shall go to the lib and borrow more books to read. at least they take my mind off all these. haiz

stay away,
step on the brakes,
stop yourself from falling.
cling on to the ropes and climb back up. 




Drop his name
push it in and twist the knife again
watch my face
as i pretend to feel no pain.


can you hear my heart shatter? 

i dislike you.
but everyone wears a mask, dont they?
i'll just have to put on mine in front of you.
(:

& the whole cycle repeats. its just a matter of how long this one takes. sigh.