Saturday, February 01, 2014 ; 11:34 PMY
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Disappointment
Its been a while since my last post. Why I started writing again?
Well, I realized writing it here is a better way than friends or even worse fb status to show my unhappiness, anger, depress, disappointment towards my r/s.
We have been together for 4 years plus now.
Speaking of which, I cant believe what I heard from his mouth.
"I dont like to follow gf to go 'bai nian'."
How's this topic start?
I told him about my mum's elder brother's wife always asked his whereabouts, every year without fail.
So this year, I wanted him to go with me and my parents. He rejected me.
For the past few years we have been together, he had never once visited my aunt. Few years ago during the CNY period, he was occupied with work. Needless to say, I would answered my aunt that he was busy working. He had to work during CNY period. Which is true.
Before CNY, we were so excited and anticipating for the CNY to arrive because we could go 'bai nian' together. We could spend more time together. This year is the first year which he is available due to change of job. However, I was utterly wrong. I didn't know my boy was against visiting my relatives. My aunt was staying at Jurong area. He explained to me that its a distance issue and we are not "married". What if we break up?
Was he lacking in confidence towards our r/s? Well, perhaps? maybe? probably? To me, he was conveying that message to me. Honestly speaking, I'm not confident in our r/s either. We quarreled over a small issues. Commonly happens are due to 'attitudes'.
I have seen so many couples are going out to visit each side's relatives. Why he is different? Why? What for we were so excited about CNY? What's the point? How I wish he could go with me. When comes to his relatives side, I asked "when are you bringing me to visit your relatives and your godmother"? I always asked him every year and never failed to do that. And now, why would I do that since we are not even "married"? Why should I go to that extent for? Is it worth it?
Maybe we should think about our r/s once again. This mindset isnt our first time. We are aware of our unstable r/s. Just that both of us unwilling to admit the truth we are actually unstable. We are avoiding. Perhaps is not "we". Its "me". Are we holding on to this unstable r/s for years, and dragging it until both of us have lost the feeling of love for each other?
Perhaps someday.....
Thursday, November 07, 2013 ; 5:50 PMY
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This trade block issue has cause me a lot of inconvenience!
Friday, January 04, 2013 ; 11:28 AMY
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Hello James baby,
I know u enjoy reading my post, therefore I'm here to write something.
I'm happy to have u as my boyfriend. Maybe someday my husband? :D
I'll always remembered my sweet bf brought me all the way to Melaka just to satisfy my craving for a&w. Thank you.
I realised this blogger come in handy, so I'm gonna write it to let u know what I've been doing everyday without disturbing u, since u are busy with work.
Now is 1130am, I got to go prepare myself and head to school.
I meeting my classmates at 1pm for group discussion.
Bye B.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011 ; 12:18 PMY
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Last night he took a cab to come and find me. I was touched. A min ago I felt I was left behind, I was abandoned. After the next min, he came to find me which was already midnight.
I thought the feeling of been left behind is over. As it's not the first time. 2yrs down the road, I had tasted that feeling for umpteen of times. Unexpectedly, this morning.. It happened again.
The train is arriving in 2mins. But he need to top up his card. It was quite a number of people are queuing. At that time, all I think about is I don't want to left him behind, I waited for him. Although he had already told me to go without him.
Strangely we waited for the next train about 10mins. After we miss one, it doesn't have the next train arriving time. However, to pasir ris waiting time is 5mins. After 5mins, then towards jurong east waiting time appeared. And it's 5mins.
At this 5mins, he suddenly tummy ache. He said he need to go toilet. I was like.... Huh ah? What about me? In the end he cannot make it. My sacrificing has gone to waste. I was terribly upset. Myself and the problem that cannot be blamed or control.
He said I was selfish. Yes I am. Im behaving like a kid I know. He sai he need a break. Whats the purpose behind? Just wanted him to pay more attention to me that's all. Just to me. Greedy is a sign of been selfish.
All this time, he has been working hard for our future. He took up 2 jobs for his bike and for us. What's the point of future if he has neglected the present?
Monday, September 26, 2011 ; 10:49 PMY
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There goes my off day...
I played maple since morning till 2.30pm. Supposed to meet Royden for my jailbreak issue after meeting baby but he's sleeping after I reached his house.
Planned to call Royden after baby wake up. But Royden didn't pick up. And I thought if didnt meet Royden then at least a movie would be nice.
Needless to say, baby still sleeping. Totally won't wake up!
I hate it whenever he sleep deeply! We waste our off day like that! Pissed off! I feel like scolding him why he must work on our off day since the off day is the only day he can rest longer?!?! Cb! Knn! I didn't even eat lunch and dinner. He don't even care whether did I eat anything! Cb what a Bf...
Tuesday, September 13, 2011 ; 1:52 PMY
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I'm back at blogging! iPhone have a app for bloggers! I can blog anytime now.
This morning, I went to my work place to get my hair done. Rebonding and touch up colour. It ended about 3.30pm. Baby waited for me outside the salon.
We had Thai Express for lunch. I ordered phat Thai vege. Needless to say, it's super delicious! Quite costly though. $9.90! We had an argument back there and it's about I tag his name to my check in location. We reconciled after a short while.
As planned, we went to Chinese garden to buy the lantern festival tickets at $12 per person. We lingered around there, we hesitate whether we should enter now which was in the noon time or later in the evening. As they have performance at 7.15 and firework at 9.15.
We decided to go in the evening time. We headed back to my house. Baby had a short rest and as for me, I play maple.
Well, I'm back in maple again. My old friends had already quitted. Subsequently, I get to know new batch of friends. The only one old friends which was still playing was John. Unexpectedly, my Bf played just because of me. He don't play this game as he feels is a lame game. And I no longer playing Lost0fLove. I started to play female char which was my old Acc-PurpleDeviiL. Baby put in a lot of effort and time to train it from 40 to 120. Thank you baby!
Friday, December 03, 2010 ; 4:11 PMY
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It's been so long since I my last post.
Currently, imma at my bf's house. I'm so free that I've got nothing to do but to blog something.
This morning, baby went for his op TTSH.
After his op, baby told me to take cab down, but sadly no cab willing to take me there.
Subsequently, I took train.
Fetch him from TTSH to his house with his mother.
Now, he's sleeping soundly beside me.
From today onwards, he have to reciprocate at home until his vac therapy ends.
Hopefully this time round, his wound will heal up fast.
I guess we gonna give it a miss for this coming x'mas again.
His wound come firs so when his wound fully recover, we can enjoy every single day.
Right baby? :)
