The month of December

It's my favourite month once again!!~~~
Because there's Christmas Day!!!!!
Jesus's birthday!!~~
Merry Christmas to the world~~~~
Then its my birthday!!!~~~~
Happy birthday to myself heee
And it's the end of one year
Meaning its time to assess ourselves what have we done for the past one year
And set new goals for next year~~~
1) Kill ACCA F3, F6 &F7 papers (sei mei)
2) Learn some Japanese
3) Finish bible Old Testament (at least once)
4) Hopefully can move to new house again :(
5) Learn from new coming Finance manager
6) MOST IMPORTANTLY, a more Christ-like Jia Xuan :)

These few months have been busy preparing for ACCA :'(
Life has not been very easy
Seriously finally I understand work and study life is really challenging
Perseverance, determination, patient, discipline oh well
I'm sure those who are like me can list down more things

It has been quite a while since I last wrote my boyfriend Mark
Imma write about him again heeee
I know
He loves me very much
Because he is willing to change for me
Slowly slowly he is becoming a better person ;p
And he will not let me go
Thank God for changing him
Of course there's something I need to praise him
Whenever I ask this or that girl pretty or not
He has this standard answer
"Average, your the prettiest"
Vic: "Above or below average"
Mark: "Below"
Showed him another few more girls that I think pretty
All  he replied "below"
Vic: "Then me leh"
Mark:"Above........Only you and Miranda Kerr above.
And it wasn't just one or two times
It has happened many times
This bf never once fall into my trap
Although I know its not true
Thank you for the effort
Because I like it haha
I mean girls will like it
Thank you dude
heheeheh

The sudden death

Paul Walker is dead
第一眼看到面子书流传时
还以为是假的
再搜索后
心情不禁沉了下来

车祸死了
没有心理预备的死是让人最难接受的
虽然我不是粉丝
但发现他是个活在基督里的基督徒
也是一个爱上帝的人
那么多人为他的死感到惋惜
就知道他的生命影响了很多人

刚好今天牧师和我说
你刚出世时
每个人围在你身边笑
你哭
那你死的时候
是否围着你身边的人为你的死感到惋惜而哭
还是心里OS说这人终于死了

虽然世界少了一个小天使
天堂却多了一个天使
:)
Prayers to the family of Paul Walker



Revelation 717
For the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of
waters: and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes.

分手后

以前我不明白
为什么
有个基督徒的爸爸妈妈反对
自己的基督徒孩子
和不是基督徒的女朋友交往
现在
我懂了

可怜的朋友
因为和一个假装是基督徒的人交往
后来才发现原来他根本是很反对基督徒的人
狠下心分手
结果那男的变得像另个人般
有点精神分裂
还说神向他说话
可怜的朋友
第一次谈恋爱
就遭遇这情况
还要担心他会对她不利
因为他说的话太吓人了
顿时觉得他很恐怖

只能说
交往前要看清楚对方
是不是他所说的一样
恋爱也不要一个头栽进去
说容易做时难

哎
分手
这痛苦的过程
也只有神用时间治疗

马克甘
你看看
我们还有很多功课要做
一远离神
就有很多问题
要多多审查自己！！


2 Corinthians 6:14
Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what partnership has righteousness with
lawlessness? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?

Be Thou My Vision

最近好喜欢这首诗歌
还有其他很好听很动人的基督徒诗歌
最经典的Amazing Grace更是听了白遍还是打进心坎里的歌
还有无数首歌原来都是上帝感动基督徒写出来赞美神的诗歌
如果你不是真神
那些写歌的没有经历过你
怎能写出赞美你感激你让人听了心能得到安慰的歌呢

让我想起我以前的同事说
基督徒都好像很会唱歌
想一想好像是哦
上帝给很多他的仆人一把好嗓子就是要赞美神呀
上帝的计划真的太美好
自从认识你我好多的疑惑都被解开了
很感激神父打开我的眼睛让我看到你
这世界再也没有更好的事了
知道有一个爱我的上帝
人生太美好了

曾经我抵抗你，拒绝你，干你憎恨的事情
主耶稣的神，荣耀的神
你没有放弃我
谢谢你，荣耀全归于你

Matthew 13:16 

But blessed are your eyes, for they see, and your ears, for they hear.

又 瘦了

最近
做工以来最忙的一次
连续一个星期做12-13小时的工
也不知是工作的压力
还是天天和强手打羽毛球

我又瘦了
44公斤
不是很好的体重
好怕在瘦下去
可不可以别再瘦了

改变

时间真的可以改变人
离开了学校
两年
发现好多人变了

有些人被金钱捆绑
一天到晚就想要怎样赚钱
忙来忙去忽略了怎样享受生活
多问一句话
换来无端端的被骂
我知道他很累
也很心疼
因为我知道他不快乐

在有些人特别是女生
面子书一个月就换了十多次 Profile Picture
摆着各种各样有撩人的
有装可爱的
有很性感的
有浓妆的
天晓得他们一天要花几小时的时间来自拍
要不然就花瓶也upload
天天吃什么也upload
看到什么都upload
有那么渴望注意力吗？
不觉得很浪费时间吗？

我知道每个人都有upload照片
我也没有against
我自己也喜欢
只是有些人太extreme了
化浓妆穿性感
而且定期upload
是要诱罪吗?

更有些
有了男女朋友
一天到晚就是check in 这里
check in 那里
每星期跟男女朋友照片在这里那里
好像世界就剩下他们两个
说的好听点
典型的有异性没朋友

对不起
我也没有要批评
这只是我的看法
当你太into一个东西时
请抽身出来吧
因为他往往把你的眼睛蒙住了
找回那最单纯的你

我也一直在提醒自己
不要太into世上任何一个东西/人
东西会变
人更会变
只有神的话语不变
要追求就追求个不变的东西
Love Jesus

Life can't be better

As above

My life can't be better

I have my dream job with great salary

I have the best landlord and best housing location

I have the BEST bosses and the BEST colleagues <3 div="">

And of course not to forget

BEST boyfriend and BEST family <3 div="" nbsp="">

Everything that happened in the past few months

They are what I can ever dream of

I'm such a blessed girl

Ahhhh Thank you Lord for all your beautiful blessing

Ever since I've come to know You

My life improves dramatically 

Your my role model

Your my strength

Your my everything <3 div="">

Without you I'm nothing

In fact I am still nothing 

I'm nothing 

Because God your everything

亲爱的甘甘

亲爱的甘甘，

就这样吵吵闹闹的，我们在一起也差不多一年了。期间，你让我发了很大很大的脾气，更让我很开心很幸福。有些人很羡慕我有这样的男友，更有些人觉得你不会照顾我这个女朋友。反差就是那么的大。你真的和别的男人不一样。别的男人会主动做的东西你不会，别的男人不会主动做的东西你很会。

对不起，你生日时我病了。浑身没劲。累得无法陪你看戏。不舒服得不能和你聊天聊地。对不起，还传染给你。你那么开心可是我就是提不起劲儿。病的糊里糊涂的。谢谢你的体谅。我爱你<3 p="">

太崩溃了

长期处在全公司最冷风最大的位置
再加上黑斯小姐最近不断的探访
可怜的免疫系统通知我它很累
我的生活就剩下喝水与上厕所
连同事们都说我是水桶
结果去看医生
张开嘴巴医生说
太干了水不够
那时刻
真的太令人崩溃了
喝下的水都去了哪儿啊
是白喝了吗？

下星期又是令人惧怕的一周
为什么就那么多的VVIP
为什么身为一个会计师也要见客
日本的有钱人都好可怕

希望我的免疫系统在强壮起来
我需要你陪我一起加油呀

Study! Again!

So ACCA
And this time is FOR REAL
I've finally press down the "apply" button
Congratulations to myself
5 years from now
I am a Certified ACCA
Thank you thank you

And I'm moving out from the scary old landlady house
Moving to a cheap strategic awesome big room
Hooray again!~

Year 2013 has been a very great year for me
My 2012 resolution is realising one by one
Love

Thank you God

I intend to be your last

" He is your first love, I intend to be your last. However long it takes."- Klaus - The Vampire Diaries

Ohhhh dear 

This is my FAVOURITE quote in the vampire diaries season finale!!!!!
Klaus, used to be the biggest villain in the drama
When he falls in love with Caroline
He has changed to a different person
So does Damon
From a badass to a hero after falling in love with Elena

Love can change a person
And only love has the magic

And we tends to forget how bad the person was in the past after he has changed
We are happy to see the change
And we give our blessings to the couple

But in reality
Will the person changed for good
Or will the bad side of him comes back to him, again
We do not know
The story always ends after the couple gets married

I
Always hope I am one of the girls who can change their partner to a better one
Of course at the same time he change me to a better person
My goal is very simple
I want a balance work life
I want a happy harmony godly family
I want to be more Christ like

黑，马

眼泪
心痛
都是因为它黑得太突然
黑得让人不知所措
黑得让你不禁觉得心寒
人可以坏到这样的地步

相信很多和我一样
几年前还是政治冷感的人
今天不断追看更新
希望突然看到什么转机

它突然黑的时候
真的很难过
第一次为国家失眠
可这不算什么
因为我知道
比我难过的还有整个马来西亚

我问上帝为什么
为什么又让这个残暴的君主统治
可是当我看到接下来的Bersih
人民好像开始不分种族
那么的第一次
马来西亚好像真的团结了

我就知道我不应该质问上帝
上帝让他赢一定有他的原因
我们只要耐心的等
有信心的等
要知道
上帝是个公义的神


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在这里还要恭贺我老哥
我不知道为什么我尽然有一个IQ168的老哥
那么的聪明
恭喜他拿到美国专业评审今年全世界金融科公认最好的paper
希望读者也会喜欢他的作品
再被publish到世界前三最好的journal
老哥真的太有材了
我还在干吗？

1st labor day everrr

Time fliessss
Hardly believe that I've already graduated one year plus and worked for nearly 1 year already!!!!!
Every moment of the college days feel like it happened yesterday
They say you will miss pre university life than university life
I say i miss both
Actually may be university life in US even more
OH WELL
BACK TO REALITY

First year of work
It has been a rough year
Bad log
Problematic system
Missing documents
All report is not correct
And a fresh finance student need to deal with all these shit
To science students finance and accounting are the same
Only business students understand the differences
In short,
Accounting is for recording the past
Finance is for predicting the future
So I don't have much accounting knowledge
And I don't really have a supervisor to guide me
The supervisor is so so bad that the whole company dislike her
And the boss is about to sack her at the point she finished her job
Yea this is how bad she is
Not only she didn't teach me
She pushes all the responsibility to me
But luckily I have a bunch of good colleagues
When anything happens like boss accused you after listening to the supervisor
You know your not in the wrong position when all the colleagues stand by you

Even tough i know i did wrongly (OF COURSE I have nobody to guide me hee)
But when the same field person said you did a great job
That I've already done my best
And sided me even tough I wasn't around
You know all the hard work worth it

The best comments I've ever received
"年轻人通常比较冲动，但是你没有。你比其他同年龄的同事有耐力。"
"虽然你没有accounting background，但是你比那个有accounting background的好。你懂的比他多"
"Jia Xuan already did her best" by auditor SPin
"Jia Xuan really 很厉害, so many things i wonder how could she do it, I can't do it seriously" by CChuen
"Jia Xuan you really 很细心" by April

Although I found it hard to take the last one since I'm so a blur person
But this one year does help improve me to become a more detailed person
Until today I still find it so hard to believe that I survived the first job
I really nearly quit the job for quite a few times
Somehow God has given me enough strength to hang in there
Jesus has sent Mark to help me
How do I not love Jesus?
I don't even know why I doubt you sometimes
You've given me much more than I needed

My second job
Another challenge
Set up a whole new accounting system
And key in one whole year transaction
People say accounting is an easy job
But so far
I haven't find it that easy yet hee
But I've learn much
May be in few years time I'll say it's easy

Once again
I want to thank my Lord Jesus again
Thanks for giving this job
Thanks for the increment of salary
Thanks for loving me
I love Jesus =D

Sudden increment that made my day!

Okay
I'm so EXCITED!!!!!
When there's an unexpected big sudden jump in your salary
YOU'LL SO LOVE YOUR JOB!!!

I know I can't get the same salary elsewhere may be even after two years time
This is just pure coincidence
I promise to myself I'm so gonna do my work well
I'll give my best
I'll nail it down
I shall not fail you, Dear God
Thanks for the increment
I shall use it wisely

Everything has changed

说真的
自从认识了创造整个宇宙万物的创世主后
我的生命完全改变了

以前的我
做的是我觉得对的
或者世界让我觉得是没错的
世俗的东西
都想说怎样享受人生
没有所谓的对与错
只要自己觉得对就对
没错
都是自己
也就是这个自己
世界上的人都因为这个自己
才产生那么多问题

越注重自己的人
越容易被绊倒
往往得忧郁症的都是这些人

曾经我也是一样
直到我认识了耶稣基督
我才知道
原来全部发生的事情都是有原因的

为什么会有人
为什么人会死
为什么一星期有七天
为什么今年是2013年
为什么女人生孩子那么痛
为什么女人会那么情绪化
为什么男人要做工养家
为什么人是万兽之灵
为什么会有天灾
好多的为什么
原来圣经早在3千年前回答这些问题了
原来是有对和错的

还记得有个朋友说
圣经根本没说到他是神
当时信以为真
直到自己读了才看到神的荣耀

为什么有些人看不到神
或觉得根本没有神
就是因为自傲
其实我们什么都不是
根本没什么值得骄傲

那创造我们的神
谢谢你施给我的恩
让我认识你
我会向你学习
把自己更像你
希望您能继续领导我
带领我和马克做对的事情

25 Years Old

So, I’ve resigned. It’s a big relief for me. Away from the woman, away from all the messy system, messy paper work, messy double work etc. I felt awesome, at least for now. I do not know what the challenges ahead are, but what I do know is I do not want to take this crappy job anymore.

This year, I’m turning 25.

25 years old, it used to be so far away. But here I’m, turning 25.  It’s a total different stage of life. You’re an adult now. You are to make your own decision and be responsible for it. Parents can’t always be there to wipe off your mess.

25 years old, I’ve started receiving wedding invitation from friends every now and then surprisingly. I still feel young, so not ready to get marry yet. From house loan to electricity to house chores to baby, gosh the responsibility is so big. Okay, I sounds like I have some responsibility issue but yea I’m not comfortable at doing something if I don’t think I’ll do it well.

25 years old, a little bit wiser, a little bit more mature, a little bit stronger than a few years back. I’ve been hurt badly, cried enough. Changing from a strange place to another, I’ve learn to be more independent, more flexible, more understanding. All of the problems I once faced become an asset to me. I got knock down but I got back up.  I’ve learn to put down my ego. I’ve learn to learn things. And I’m still learning.

25 years old, everything has been great for me. Thank God. I love my 25 years old. I don’t feel old. I feel wiser. I feel prettier. I feel more confidence. I feel good J

Humanity

Last night company dinner
6 or more were drunk
2 were completely knocked out
I was awake
Very awake and was watching the people who drunk and not drunk
What shivered me was one colleague who wasn't drunk
She appeared completely merciless to other colleagues who were drunk
First
She keep asking whether we wanted to leave
Cause she wanted to take the same MRT as us
Then she said she's going to scold those who drunk next Monday
Then what gives me creeps was when she said
"Just leave the two knocked out people sleep here la, wait until they awake, then can drive back already. Leave them here, normally after 4 hours they'll awake and by the time they can go back themselves"
"They are man what. Nothing to scared of what.
Please note that the two drunk guys were completely drunk
They can did nothing except sitting and vomiting
Hello? How can they take care of themselves when they were not sober at all?
I was thinking what if she's the one who was knocked out
Will she ever want people to just leave her there?
I don't understand why some people can just be so cold-blooded

I don't know if it was because of her unmarried status that caused her to be so emotionless
Or it was because of her cold-blooded nature that caused her can't get married
My company has the most unmarried old women
The two obvious traits that i found in them are very hot-tempered and show no sympathy towards the needy people
So I tell myself
I want to get married!
I don't want to be like them in the future
Scary

SAY NO TO PIMPLESSSS

Oh dear
I do not know why
WHY
Why is there acne outbreaks in my face
And its A LOT
I do not know the real cause
Is really the stress from work causing all the outbreak
Or is there something else
I used to ignore the acnes in my face because its few and negligible
Normally I just let it dry out and fall itself

NOW
It's so scarrry that I wanted to scratch them out whenever i look into the mirror
:(
Many people are scolding me for not taking care of my face
Okay
3 months time
I shall kill all the acnes
Let no pimples survive at my face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHH!~~~~~~~~~~

Our first Valentine

Our first Valentine

From not knowing how to pick a flower to this bouquet of flower
It took Mr Gan nearly 2 hours
According to him
He's an expert now
I shall wait for your next bouquet of flower to see your expertise in this huh
Xie xie ni~~

Happy Valentine's Day
Thanks for not running on that day
Thanks for the flower making
Thank you dear dear

Our love

Mark & Victoria <3 p="">

Love the way you look into my eyes and say "Such a beautiful girl" 

Love the way you hug me and say "I love you"

Love the way you got nervous when I got mad

Love the way you give in to me when I got really mad

Love the way you call me "Dear dear"

Love the way you say "Dear, your the best!"

I've never felt such a love before

Love from you

Love from God

Thank God for bringing you to me

Thank God for opening up my heart to You

Thank God for you no longer force me to go Bedok with you

Thank God for you voluntarily carry my things now

Thank God that we do not sins against each other

Thank God that we love each other

Thank God that we love God

Pray that God will continue to lead us in our daily life

Pray that we'll grow more righteous, loving and forgiving each day

And pray that we will keep our faith strong

Amen

Sunday school

Because I don't quite speak fluent English

I was forced to speak in English

Well done

More and more people wants me to speak in English

So I need to familiarize myself more with this lovely language 

Think in English

Speak in English

Pray in English

So that chou ah dear won't have a chance to laugh at my English HNG

Thank God today once again speak to me through the pastors 

You reminded me how trivial the problems I'm facing now compare to the things your handling

All the problems I'm facing is just so tiny in your eyes

Just like when a kid cry over a broken car toy

We adult see it as nothing at all

We even laugh at the kids crying over small thing

But of course God permits the "problems" happen because He know that we've got something to learn from it

Dear God

Your wisdom is beyond our understanding

Just like a kid will never understand the things their parents do for them

I still remember there's this time when dear dear and me was in Bintan

Dear wanted to go cycle but it was raining heavily

I thought i can continue with my nap

Who knows seconds later the rain stopped amazingly

Totally stopped

I was shocked 

But then I realized that with God nothing is impossible 

God has answered dear's prayers

Today pastors was saying his testimony

He has had so many times that the rain just stopped suddenly and that he can continue with his preaching work

Have faith and God will do the rest 

Would you marry me

"Would you marry me"
4 words that carries the most responsibility
Normally guy say it only once in a lifetime
After much considerations

Likewise
Normally girls were asked about this question once
But
I've lost count on how many times you've said to me
Until its no longer a surprise to me
Can't believe you even send to Van's phone!!!

What are you thinking Mr Gan