Who Am I...

My Mother passed on June 3rd...peacefully at home. Hospice...was there to take care of hugging me and helping get Mom ready to be taken to the funeral home. It was tough the last 2 months when we finally got hospice, because we had no critical care nurses to relieve me and I was on 24/7. I just tried to keep her happy and comfortable. We said everything we needed to say to each other...a lot of love there, I am so grateful for that opportunity...I did not have that with my Dad, who passed unepectedly. This has been the most painful, yet insightful, journey in my life. I would do it all over again...even though it took it's toll on me physically and mentally. I will never be the same Suzi...hopefully a better Suzi...one who doesn't have the time or energy to waste on toxic people. I am ridding those from my life and now I need to look deeply into my soul and find me again. This recovery period will be a difficult one since Mom and I were like 2 peas in a pod...I keep finding that I want to call her or just see her there and tell her things...then I remember she isn't physically there. I miss her so much...and I stayed in her bed with her until they came to take her to the funeral home. I wanted to apply her make-up. It was so peaceful and helped me...like a final gift I could give her.

David Bowie - Heroes (live)

For my Mother...you are my Hero.