已经是四月了。
看着朋友们各有各的学院生活或者忙碌着打工赚钱，突然觉得自己这颓废的灵魂真的很不争气。
好了，经过一轮狂风暴雨似的争论以及心理纠结战之后，我已能为自己的未来下定论了。
我决定选择了中六来完成我的梦想。
这条路不好走，但有志者，事竟成，我永远相信这一句。
自己在spm不能达到预期中目标，那么stpm会是我的第二回。
这么难得能够有重来的机会，一定要全力以赴。
希望这意念能够时时在我脑海里，好让未来的自己不会有任何的遗憾。
刚刚路过表姐的部落格，才发现她一直以来都是用母语来发表文章。
她的成绩标青，英文也是甲等级的，为什么她不用英文来写文章呢？
我知道，这是炎黄子孙对母语的一份坚持与热诚，我敬佩。
我也应该向她学习，毕竟用自己最熟悉的语言才能完全仔细地表达自己的想法。
英文固然重要，所以也应该用闲暇的时间去进修。
母语·，是种族的象征与荣耀。
时时刻刻提醒着自己，什么是我最想要的？
我憧憬的未来是什么样的模式？
我要环游世界，我要给家人最幸福的日子，我要对社会作出贡献，我要拥有优质的下一代，我要很多的知识和经验，我要帮助很多很多的人。
最后，我要完成以上所有的梦想。
Friday, April 8, 2011
Monday, April 4, 2011
NationalService ;)
Here by I would like to express my feelings about what had happened in my life recently .
National Service,
it is Great,Awesome,Fantastic and so on .
like what they said : Pergi dengan paksaan ,Balik dengan Kenangan !
I met alotsa new friends ,including malay,indian and chinese.;)
Let me flash back whats happening among this 70days in kem karisma,kuala pilah ,Negeri Sembilan !
2/1/2011
The very first day i went to National service.
Full of nervous and sadness coz I have to leave my family for 3months T.T
went to Park&Ride,Putrajaya with my family .
oh ,i met some of my schoolmates but they wasn`t same camp with me ,Sob T.T
luckily still got Li wen and Chaermala !hiak hiak !
But actually we didn`t talk before >.<
whats on my mind was I must get closer with them ,if not i got no one to chat with me O.O
tadaa.after two and half hour reached our destination -Kem karisma !
my expression : Owh-->Wao-->haix-->haih,I`m gonna stay at here for 3months,how am i going to survive?T,T
then saw a bunch of pelatih from johor already kumpul at the hall.
then start register ,due to actually I am pelatih which do application from the 2/3 batch to 1st batch ,my name doens`t appear in the namelist .So,jurulatih was deciding let me get into whch group.
I expect get into Alpha coz Chaermala got picked into that group ,but end up i got into Bravo5 !
after that we say Goodbye to our cellphone T.T
then everyone got their own plates,cup and blanket.just like whats happening inside the Jail ..haha
the next,visit our Dorm !
thats a funniest incident which is Li wen ,me ,and Chaermala went to Dorm Wira then let jurulatih shouted at us ..ahh.malunya !(p/s:wira= guys ,wirawati= girls)
okay,the first impression towards our dorm was : OMGWTFFML !
there was way too dirty , `Ulu` and scary man !>.<
seriously,we feel like crying and wanna go back home as we thought we couldn`t stay at there for even one day .T.T
after that ,went to logistik to get our stuff such as baju celoreng,boots,sport shoes ,class shirts and so on.I am so damn regret coz i took size 16 for my clothes ,actually i should take size 14 !
After that : Lunch time !
this is the most worst things ever..the cuisine was like `urhhh,yucks u noe T.T i miss my grandmum`s cooks badlyyyyy !
night time ,cried like a baby due to Homesick !T.T
I miss my family ,friends and everything at Puchong ..
the first day was the most memorable among this 70days ;)
the 2nd ,3rd and 4th days was just for registeration.
all the pelatih come from Selangor,Johor,Pahang and Negeri Sembilan ;)
total got 47x pelatih ..Woah !
The first month in NS was like kenal-mengenalan each other.
We got separate into PK(class) for modul pembinaan character and so on.
whats happening in my Pk4 was great.I met alotsa new friends , I dare to talk infront public,I shared my Anti-Kucing-Hitam story infront everyone hahaa, I Fainted up twice due to the scorching sun ! Can u imagine when I got faint up that time ,few of my friends carry me then masuk Medic and saw a handsome doctor?I think I won`t forget this memorable incident ,never !
Not forget the incident of our company-Bravo`s flag got rampas !!
we got punishment which was we have to wear baju celoreng for whole day !Gosh !
wira and wirawati started blaming each other at that moment ..haha
oh ,I volunteer myself as ketua company.teacher picked 2 among 9pelatih for 1balak(penolong) & 2 balak(ketua).Teacher tested us with few question ,i answered clamly.After I became 1balak,teacher told me the reason that she picked me is because of I very calm and confident while answering her question. Syok!haha!
Oh ya,not forget about this funny incident which was my dormates like to ask me help them to cut off their hair ,maybe they thought that i`m pro ?xD (actually NO !haha)
upon chinese new year we got 6days holiday ,so dad picked me up at kem karisma .
went back to my home sweet home ,super-duper relax coz i got Hot water to take bath,no need wash my own clothes, can eat delicious food and so on.
after Cny,went back to our JAIL xD
start all the latihan fizikal !syok !
we go through pertandingan kawad,karnival sukan,kreativiti sukan,wirajaya,kembara halangan and menembak.
Lemme pick some memorable incident to share with u guys ;))
First ,we trained ourself under the scorching sun for kawad kaki..arghh..I used sunblock for SPF 130++ also useless>.< now my skin as black as arang batu and got 2 tones for my face and body T.T
Second : karnival sukan.
there are 3 competition between company,which was Futsal,Bola Jaring and Bola tampal.
I joined Bola Jaring and at the last second only they let me participate >,<( coz i got no experience in this game competition,fine ,i`m so fed up that time).Then,Li wen and me last minute joined the volley ball competition ,Honestly ,we got no experience for it too !haha..dunno why we got that gutz to do all this.end up we got first runner-up for this competition.PROUD OK?!
Third: kembara halangan
The game that i hate the most !why ? because after go through this aktiviti only i get to know that actually i got phobia towards Height .>.< for the Monkey ride ,oh my lord ,i totally don`t have confident for it ,so I just ask jurulatih can I just jump into that river >.
Fourth: Wirajaya.
same meaning to Berkhemah dalam hutan! Most Horrible,terrible and vegetable among all the activities .!8am we started our journey to the jungle,then start berdiri khemah .each khemah got 4 people,due to our khemah not that nice and steady ,teacher wants us to redo again -.- do you know berdiri one khemah need how long ?yeap,answer is 2hours >.< FINE !
then we doing nothing inside the jungle until 9pm only start all the games.>.< i joined the game call -Kelapa Emas,is almost same like Amazing Race(TV show) ,means complete the mission.Well,50 people hold each other`s hands then walk along the jungle.No lights,No voice and nothing inside the jungle T,T so scary lar !! then first mission we saw Pak X ,with his white in colour `ghost` shirt ,one of my Malay friend get shocked and cried >.< hahaa..the next team go through Pertolongan Cemas.actually we still have the third game on 3am ,which was Keyakinan Diri= walk alone inside the jungle !!so exciting !!BUTT! when we rest inside the khemah ,raining cats and dogs then our khemah kena Banjir .lemme describe : can u imagine whole day didn`t take shower so u feel that ur hair is so DAMN itchy ?same to ur body ,itchy and STICKY ! The rain drops make ur baju celoreng wet and u will feel uncomfortable.U got no pillows when u sleep inside the khemah .A small khemah need to fill up with 4 huge human -.- ARGHH !Tak boleh tahan langsung !!Thanks God finally our beloved Komandel let us go back our Dorm,which means our activity Wirajaya completed !!yeahoooooooo.!!Reaching our sweet dorm,everyone fight for toilet to take shower,LOL.i washed my hair twice,(so damnnn itchy !yuks) then wash my baju celoreng ,boots all that,until 4am onli get into my sweet bed.6am woke up again for breakfast !HELL. The next day only we go back the jungle to get back our Ponco which used for berdiri khemah and clean up the place.
The second last Day : Majlis Penutup and persembahan ;(
morning we go throught majlis penutup.after that ,me and my dancing partner rushing to change our clothes for the next persembahan --Tarian India !!;)
we practiced the dance for one week and we really enjoy it much much much !!
A successful performance ,we did it !
and i like my Punjabi suits ;);););)
The last day ;(;(
I didn`t sleep for the whole night because i`m just very very sad that cannot meet my karisma`s buddies anymore T.T 7am,my johor and pahang friends started moving back .We hugged each other and tears rolling down ,like waterfall.T.T although we knew each other just for 70days or even less than that,but I really appreciate what I had learn in kem karisma and of course friendship with my chinese ,malay and indian friends.I love u all ;(
Don`t forget those memories in Plkn ,Never !
[[My sakai dormates,i love them so much ;)]]
[[my sweethearts-Bee Kei from seremban ;);)]]
[[Dormates ,inside the jungle-Wirajaya]]
[[my best malay friends ,;)]]
[[my family visited me during Hari Keluarge ;)]]
[[Cutest partner ever-kwong li wen ;)]]
National Service,
it is Great,Awesome,Fantastic and so on .
like what they said : Pergi dengan paksaan ,Balik dengan Kenangan !
I met alotsa new friends ,including malay,indian and chinese.;)
Let me flash back whats happening among this 70days in kem karisma,kuala pilah ,Negeri Sembilan !
2/1/2011
The very first day i went to National service.
Full of nervous and sadness coz I have to leave my family for 3months T.T
went to Park&Ride,Putrajaya with my family .
oh ,i met some of my schoolmates but they wasn`t same camp with me ,Sob T.T
luckily still got Li wen and Chaermala !hiak hiak !
But actually we didn`t talk before >.<
whats on my mind was I must get closer with them ,if not i got no one to chat with me O.O
tadaa.after two and half hour reached our destination -Kem karisma !
my expression : Owh-->Wao-->haix-->haih,I`m gonna stay at here for 3months,how am i going to survive?T,T
then saw a bunch of pelatih from johor already kumpul at the hall.
then start register ,due to actually I am pelatih which do application from the 2/3 batch to 1st batch ,my name doens`t appear in the namelist .So,jurulatih was deciding let me get into whch group.
I expect get into Alpha coz Chaermala got picked into that group ,but end up i got into Bravo5 !
after that we say Goodbye to our cellphone T.T
then everyone got their own plates,cup and blanket.just like whats happening inside the Jail ..haha
the next,visit our Dorm !
thats a funniest incident which is Li wen ,me ,and Chaermala went to Dorm Wira then let jurulatih shouted at us ..ahh.malunya !(p/s:wira= guys ,wirawati= girls)
okay,the first impression towards our dorm was : OMGWTFFML !
there was way too dirty , `Ulu` and scary man !>.<
seriously,we feel like crying and wanna go back home as we thought we couldn`t stay at there for even one day .T.T
after that ,went to logistik to get our stuff such as baju celoreng,boots,sport shoes ,class shirts and so on.I am so damn regret coz i took size 16 for my clothes ,actually i should take size 14 !
After that : Lunch time !
this is the most worst things ever..the cuisine was like `urhhh,yucks u noe T.T i miss my grandmum`s cooks badlyyyyy !
night time ,cried like a baby due to Homesick !T.T
I miss my family ,friends and everything at Puchong ..
the first day was the most memorable among this 70days ;)
the 2nd ,3rd and 4th days was just for registeration.
all the pelatih come from Selangor,Johor,Pahang and Negeri Sembilan ;)
total got 47x pelatih ..Woah !
The first month in NS was like kenal-mengenalan each other.
We got separate into PK(class) for modul pembinaan character and so on.
whats happening in my Pk4 was great.I met alotsa new friends , I dare to talk infront public,I shared my Anti-Kucing-Hitam story infront everyone hahaa, I Fainted up twice due to the scorching sun ! Can u imagine when I got faint up that time ,few of my friends carry me then masuk Medic and saw a handsome doctor?I think I won`t forget this memorable incident ,never !
Not forget the incident of our company-Bravo`s flag got rampas !!
we got punishment which was we have to wear baju celoreng for whole day !Gosh !
wira and wirawati started blaming each other at that moment ..haha
oh ,I volunteer myself as ketua company.teacher picked 2 among 9pelatih for 1balak(penolong) & 2 balak(ketua).Teacher tested us with few question ,i answered clamly.After I became 1balak,teacher told me the reason that she picked me is because of I very calm and confident while answering her question. Syok!haha!
Oh ya,not forget about this funny incident which was my dormates like to ask me help them to cut off their hair ,maybe they thought that i`m pro ?xD (actually NO !haha)
upon chinese new year we got 6days holiday ,so dad picked me up at kem karisma .
went back to my home sweet home ,super-duper relax coz i got Hot water to take bath,no need wash my own clothes, can eat delicious food and so on.
after Cny,went back to our JAIL xD
start all the latihan fizikal !syok !
we go through pertandingan kawad,karnival sukan,kreativiti sukan,wirajaya,kembara halangan and menembak.
Lemme pick some memorable incident to share with u guys ;))
First ,we trained ourself under the scorching sun for kawad kaki..arghh..I used sunblock for SPF 130++ also useless>.< now my skin as black as arang batu and got 2 tones for my face and body T.T
Second : karnival sukan.
there are 3 competition between company,which was Futsal,Bola Jaring and Bola tampal.
I joined Bola Jaring and at the last second only they let me participate >,<( coz i got no experience in this game competition,fine ,i`m so fed up that time).Then,Li wen and me last minute joined the volley ball competition ,Honestly ,we got no experience for it too !haha..dunno why we got that gutz to do all this.end up we got first runner-up for this competition.PROUD OK?!
Third: kembara halangan
The game that i hate the most !why ? because after go through this aktiviti only i get to know that actually i got phobia towards Height .>.< for the Monkey ride ,oh my lord ,i totally don`t have confident for it ,so I just ask jurulatih can I just jump into that river >.
Fourth: Wirajaya.
same meaning to Berkhemah dalam hutan! Most Horrible,terrible and vegetable among all the activities .!8am we started our journey to the jungle,then start berdiri khemah .each khemah got 4 people,due to our khemah not that nice and steady ,teacher wants us to redo again -.- do you know berdiri one khemah need how long ?yeap,answer is 2hours >.< FINE !
then we doing nothing inside the jungle until 9pm only start all the games.>.< i joined the game call -Kelapa Emas,is almost same like Amazing Race(TV show) ,means complete the mission.Well,50 people hold each other`s hands then walk along the jungle.No lights,No voice and nothing inside the jungle T,T so scary lar !! then first mission we saw Pak X ,with his white in colour `ghost` shirt ,one of my Malay friend get shocked and cried >.< hahaa..the next team go through Pertolongan Cemas.actually we still have the third game on 3am ,which was Keyakinan Diri= walk alone inside the jungle !!so exciting !!BUTT! when we rest inside the khemah ,raining cats and dogs then our khemah kena Banjir .lemme describe : can u imagine whole day didn`t take shower so u feel that ur hair is so DAMN itchy ?same to ur body ,itchy and STICKY ! The rain drops make ur baju celoreng wet and u will feel uncomfortable.U got no pillows when u sleep inside the khemah .A small khemah need to fill up with 4 huge human -.- ARGHH !Tak boleh tahan langsung !!Thanks God finally our beloved Komandel let us go back our Dorm,which means our activity Wirajaya completed !!yeahoooooooo.!!Reaching our sweet dorm,everyone fight for toilet to take shower,LOL.i washed my hair twice,(so damnnn itchy !yuks) then wash my baju celoreng ,boots all that,until 4am onli get into my sweet bed.6am woke up again for breakfast !HELL. The next day only we go back the jungle to get back our Ponco which used for berdiri khemah and clean up the place.
The second last Day : Majlis Penutup and persembahan ;(
morning we go throught majlis penutup.after that ,me and my dancing partner rushing to change our clothes for the next persembahan --Tarian India !!;)
we practiced the dance for one week and we really enjoy it much much much !!
A successful performance ,we did it !
and i like my Punjabi suits ;);););)
The last day ;(;(
I didn`t sleep for the whole night because i`m just very very sad that cannot meet my karisma`s buddies anymore T.T 7am,my johor and pahang friends started moving back .We hugged each other and tears rolling down ,like waterfall.T.T although we knew each other just for 70days or even less than that,but I really appreciate what I had learn in kem karisma and of course friendship with my chinese ,malay and indian friends.I love u all ;(
Don`t forget those memories in Plkn ,Never !
[[Li wen & me with Pujabi suits during performance ;)
[[Our Beloved jurulatih,cikgu Fazlina,she took care us the MOST !]]
[[Company BRAVO !!!]]
spm result
well,this is my result :
BM- B+
BI-A
Maths-A
Science-A
Sejarah-A-
Moral-A
AKaun-B+
Perdagangan-B+
kesusasteraan Cina-B+
Bhs Cina-B+
BM- B+
BI-A
Maths-A
Science-A
Sejarah-A-
Moral-A
AKaun-B+
Perdagangan-B+
kesusasteraan Cina-B+
Bhs Cina-B+
I`m so depress right now.I expect my bm can get A ,but..aiks.My trial got 6A`s ,but my actual result just got 5A`s.Even my family thought that it is enough for them ,but i think everyone will be greedy for their A`s .
Now is the time to choose what course should i take .I feel like dying when i think about this matter.A-levels or form 6?which one better?mum support me to take A-levels ,others suggested me to take form 6.it is a Big matter for me since i reali don`t want wasted my dad`s money on my education,thats why i prefer save the money for overseas to complete my degree.my siblings still need the money for their education,thats why i must think twice and wisely before make any decision.
.I can`t be selfish ,right?God plz give me some idea ,please ;(
.I can`t be selfish ,right?God plz give me some idea ,please ;(
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