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Friday, April 8, 2011

心情杂记

已经是四月了。
看着朋友们各有各的学院生活或者忙碌着打工赚钱,突然觉得自己这颓废的灵魂真的很不争气。
好了,经过一轮狂风暴雨似的争论以及心理纠结战之后,我已能为自己的未来下定论了。
我决定选择了中六来完成我的梦想。
这条路不好走,但有志者,事竟成,我永远相信这一句。
自己在spm不能达到预期中目标,那么stpm会是我的第二回。
这么难得能够有重来的机会,一定要全力以赴。
希望这意念能够时时在我脑海里,好让未来的自己不会有任何的遗憾。

刚刚路过表姐的部落格,才发现她一直以来都是用母语来发表文章。
她的成绩标青,英文也是甲等级的,为什么她不用英文来写文章呢?
我知道,这是炎黄子孙对母语的一份坚持与热诚,我敬佩。
我也应该向她学习,毕竟用自己最熟悉的语言才能完全仔细地表达自己的想法。
英文固然重要,所以也应该用闲暇的时间去进修。
母语·,是种族的象征与荣耀。

时时刻刻提醒着自己,什么是我最想要的?
我憧憬的未来是什么样的模式?
我要环游世界,我要给家人最幸福的日子,我要对社会作出贡献,我要拥有优质的下一代,我要很多的知识和经验,我要帮助很多很多的人。
最后,我要完成以上所有的梦想。

Monday, April 4, 2011

NationalService ;)

Here by I would like to express my feelings about what had happened in my life recently .



National Service,


it is Great,Awesome,Fantastic and so on .
like what they said : Pergi dengan paksaan ,Balik dengan Kenangan !
I met alotsa new friends ,including malay,indian and chinese.;)
Let me flash back whats happening among this 70days in kem karisma,kuala pilah ,Negeri Sembilan !

2/1/2011


The very first day i went to National service.
Full of nervous and sadness coz I have to leave my family for 3months T.T
went to Park&Ride,Putrajaya with my family .
oh ,i met some of my schoolmates but they wasn`t same camp with me ,Sob T.T
luckily still got Li wen and Chaermala !hiak hiak !
But actually we didn`t talk before >.<
whats on my mind was I must get closer with them ,if not i got no one to chat with me O.O


tadaa.after two and half hour reached our destination -Kem karisma !
my expression : Owh-->Wao-->haix-->haih,I`m gonna stay at here for 3months,how am i going to survive?T,T
then saw a bunch of pelatih from johor already kumpul at the hall.
then start register ,due to actually I am pelatih which do application from the 2/3 batch to 1st batch ,my name doens`t appear in the namelist .So,jurulatih was deciding let me get into whch group.
I expect get into Alpha coz Chaermala got picked into that group ,but end up i got into Bravo5 !
after that we say Goodbye to our cellphone T.T
then everyone got their own plates,cup and blanket.just like whats happening inside the Jail ..haha


the next,visit our Dorm !
thats a funniest incident which is Li wen ,me ,and Chaermala went to Dorm Wira then let jurulatih shouted at us ..ahh.malunya !(p/s:wira= guys ,wirawati= girls)
okay,the first impression towards our dorm was : OMGWTFFML !
there was way too dirty , `Ulu` and scary man !>.<
seriously,we feel like crying and wanna go back home as we thought we couldn`t stay at there for even one day .T.T
after that ,went to logistik to get our stuff such as baju celoreng,boots,sport shoes ,class shirts and so on.I am so damn regret coz i took size 16 for my clothes ,actually i should take size 14 !


After that : Lunch time !
this is the most worst things ever..the cuisine was like `urhhh,yucks u noe T.T i miss my grandmum`s cooks badlyyyyy !
night time ,cried like a baby due to Homesick !T.T
I miss my family ,friends and everything at Puchong ..
the first day was the most memorable among this 70days ;)
the 2nd ,3rd and 4th days was just for registeration.
all the pelatih come from Selangor,Johor,Pahang and Negeri Sembilan ;)
total got 47x pelatih ..Woah !


The first month in NS was like kenal-mengenalan each other.
We got separate into PK(class) for modul pembinaan character and so on.
whats happening in my Pk4 was great.I met alotsa new friends , I dare to talk infront public,I shared my Anti-Kucing-Hitam story infront everyone hahaa, I Fainted up twice due to the scorching sun ! Can u imagine when I got faint up that time ,few of my friends carry me then masuk Medic and saw a handsome doctor?I think I won`t forget this memorable incident ,never !


Not forget the incident of our company-Bravo`s flag got rampas !!
we got punishment which was we have to wear baju celoreng for whole day !Gosh !
wira and wirawati started blaming each other at that moment ..haha
oh ,I volunteer myself as ketua company.teacher picked 2 among 9pelatih for 1balak(penolong) & 2 balak(ketua).Teacher tested us with few question ,i answered clamly.After I became 1balak,teacher told me the reason that she picked me is because of I very calm and confident while answering her question. Syok!haha!


Oh ya,not forget about this funny incident which was my dormates like to ask me help them to cut off their hair ,maybe they thought that i`m pro ?xD (actually NO !haha)
upon chinese new year we got 6days holiday ,so dad picked me up at kem karisma .
went back to my home sweet home ,super-duper relax coz i got Hot water to take bath,no need wash my own clothes, can eat delicious food and so on.
after Cny,went back to our JAIL xD
start all the latihan fizikal !syok !


we go through pertandingan kawad,karnival sukan,kreativiti sukan,wirajaya,kembara halangan and menembak.
Lemme pick some memorable incident to share with u guys ;))

First ,we trained ourself under the scorching sun for kawad kaki..arghh..I used sunblock for SPF 130++ also useless>.< now my skin as black as arang batu and got 2 tones for my face and body T.T



Second : karnival sukan.
there are 3 competition between company,which was Futsal,Bola Jaring and Bola tampal.
I joined Bola Jaring and at the last second only they let me participate >,<( coz i got no experience in this game competition,fine ,i`m so fed up that time).Then,Li wen and me last minute joined the volley ball competition ,Honestly ,we got no experience for it too !haha..dunno why we got that gutz to do all this.end up we got first runner-up for this competition.PROUD OK?!


Third: kembara halangan
The game that i hate the most !why ? because after go through this aktiviti only i get to know that actually i got phobia towards Height .>.< for the Monkey ride ,oh my lord ,i totally don`t have confident for it ,so I just ask jurulatih can I just jump into that river >.


Fourth: Wirajaya.
same meaning to Berkhemah dalam hutan! Most Horrible,terrible and vegetable among all the activities .!8am we started our journey to the jungle,then start berdiri khemah .each khemah got 4 people,due to our khemah not that nice and steady ,teacher wants us to redo again -.- do you know berdiri one khemah need how long ?yeap,answer is 2hours >.< FINE !
then we doing nothing inside the jungle until 9pm only start all the games.>.< i joined the game call -Kelapa Emas,is almost same like Amazing Race(TV show) ,means complete the mission.Well,50 people hold each other`s hands then walk along the jungle.No lights,No voice and nothing inside the jungle T,T so scary lar !! then first mission we saw Pak X ,with his white in colour `ghost` shirt ,one of my Malay friend get shocked and cried >.< hahaa..the next team go through Pertolongan Cemas.actually we still have the third game on 3am ,which was Keyakinan Diri= walk alone inside the jungle !!so exciting !!BUTT! when we rest inside the khemah ,raining cats and dogs then our khemah kena Banjir .lemme describe : can u imagine whole day didn`t take shower so u feel that ur hair is so DAMN itchy ?same to ur body ,itchy and STICKY ! The rain drops make ur baju celoreng wet and u will feel uncomfortable.U got no pillows when u sleep inside the khemah .A small khemah need to fill up with 4 huge human -.- ARGHH !Tak boleh tahan langsung !!Thanks God finally our beloved Komandel let us go back our Dorm,which means our activity Wirajaya completed !!yeahoooooooo.!!Reaching our sweet dorm,everyone fight for toilet to take shower,LOL.i washed my hair twice,(so damnnn itchy !yuks) then wash my baju celoreng ,boots all that,until 4am onli get into my sweet bed.6am woke up again for breakfast !HELL. The next day only we go back the jungle to get back our Ponco which used for berdiri khemah and clean up the place.


The second last Day : Majlis Penutup and persembahan ;(
morning we go throught majlis penutup.after that ,me and my dancing partner rushing to change our clothes for the next persembahan --Tarian India !!;)
we practiced the dance for one week and we really enjoy it much much much !!
A successful performance ,we did it !
and i like my Punjabi suits ;);););)


The last day ;(;(
I didn`t sleep for the whole night because i`m just very very sad that cannot meet my karisma`s buddies anymore T.T 7am,my johor and pahang friends started moving back .We hugged each other and tears rolling down ,like waterfall.T.T although we knew each other just for 70days or even less than that,but I really appreciate what I had learn in kem karisma and of course friendship with my chinese ,malay and indian friends.I love u all ;(


Don`t forget those memories in Plkn ,Never !
 [[Li wen & me with Pujabi suits during performance ;)
[[My sakai dormates,i love them so much ;)]]

[[my sweethearts-Bee Kei from seremban ;);)]]

[[Dormates ,inside the jungle-Wirajaya]]

 [[Our Beloved jurulatih,cikgu Fazlina,she took care us the MOST !]]
[[my best malay friends ,;)]]


[[my family visited me during Hari Keluarge ;)]]

[[Cutest partner ever-kwong li wen ;)]]

[[Company BRAVO !!!]]

spm result

well,this is my result :
BM- B+
BI-A
Maths-A
Science-A
Sejarah-A-
Moral-A
AKaun-B+
Perdagangan-B+
kesusasteraan Cina-B+
Bhs Cina-B+

I`m so depress right now.I expect my bm can get A ,but..aiks.My trial got 6A`s ,but my actual result just got 5A`s.Even my family thought that it is enough for them ,but i think everyone will be greedy for their A`s .

Now is the time to choose what course should i take .I feel like dying when i think about this matter.A-levels or form 6?which one better?mum support me to take A-levels ,others suggested me to take form 6.it is a Big matter for me since i reali don`t want wasted my dad`s money on my education,thats why i prefer save the money for overseas to complete my degree.my siblings still need the money for their education,thats why i must think twice and wisely before make any decision.

.I can`t be selfish ,right?God plz give me some idea ,please ;(

Saturday, October 2, 2010

come back

I`m sooooooooooooooooooooooo excited right now..
because the things that  i lost..
now totally back to myside.
this is the biggest challenge that God gave me ..
and ..
I`ll appreciate it as much as i can .
 not forget shu mun,siew yin ,choon zhong and wan min,
u all still are my best friends and i won`t dump u all =)
TRUST ME !

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

妹妹

话说我刚从补习回到家.
(一边哼着我的至爱金曲)
才一进家门,我``妹妹`` 就说: 二姐,你发侨啊?
我的反应就是:管你什么事?没大没小的!
然后她继续说..
我的头顶就好像冒了烟似的说道: 你有没有脑的?侨都不够你啦,真的是..
然后她妈妈就一脸烧焦的样子走下楼来..
我叫了她,就继续看我的报纸..
她说到: 你哪里可以这样讲她的?什么有脑没脑的?你明知道她在和你开玩笑的!

我顿时处于一个无言的状态.拜托,好歹我也是在帮你教女儿好吗?
如果你这么厉害,她就不会那么没大没小啦.
然后她的女儿就一副沾沾自喜的样子,当然,人家有`慈母`帮她撑腰呢..

你不是应该先管下小的不可以那么没有礼貌,之后才来纠正我的语气吗?
这样岂不是让她更变本加厉,以后得罪更多人?


后记: 尊重你是同情,不尊重你是道理.
你怎样对待别人,别人也会用同样的方式对待回你!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

The very first time

woops x)
请别误会我的标题。。
这的确是我的第一次。。

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昨天是国庆日,我和家人到吉隆坡一带去吃火锅。。
我们吃的不亦乐乎,因为火锅永远都是我们的挚爱 =)
结果,不可思议的]事情终于发生了。。
今早一起来肚子疼得剩半条命。。
然后去clinic找医生求救。。
登记后,我便坐在长椅上等候。。
突然一股恶心的味道迫使我马上冲到厕所去吐。。
身体一阵阵的呕吐味让我感到尴尬不已。
医生第一句就问我昨晚去吃过什么好料来.>.<
然后她竟然说要帮我打针,因为怕我吃了药之后再吐回出来。
我也只好硬着头皮让她把那粗得像铁一样的针孔插入我的皮肤。。
谁知道原来她是要把针孔插在我的屁股上 !!
天啊,这是我一辈子都没试过的`玩意儿`呢。。
很好,到现在我依然那种痛楚。。
当我在打完针后踏出门口的第一步,我突然感到一阵晕眩,结果就昏了过去。
医生最后建议我休息个几十分钟才离开,因为我根本连走路的力气也没有。。
一回到家,我当然是转进被窝里。。一睡就是四个小时。
一张开眼睛我感觉到我的脸颊热腾腾的,而且头晕。。
公公担心我的健康所以载我多跑一趟clinic。。
医生说我发了高烧加上水分不足,所以要我吊点滴!
这也是我从来都不敢以及害怕的玩意儿。。
但我还是必须要面对现实。。
那如铁般的针孔又在一次插在我的手背上。。
我躺在病床上一小时之久后,医生才肯放我走。
天啊!我经过这次的恐怖经历我再也不敢乱吃不熟的食物了 !

Saturday, August 7, 2010

OH !!



OH MY GOSH !
WE DID IT !

Thx to all the teamates ,
and of course our pretty leader MS.ONG LEE YAN !!!
although at first I am the one who always dance wrong steps,not enough confident,and edgy all the time ..
I apologize if I make any mistake and wasted the time..
But the effort is worth !!!
OUR PERFORMANCE IS GREAT ,AWESOME AND FASTATIC !!we recieve alots of commentssssss ,which is the positif side one .!
thanks for Hari koko ,thanks for Pn.Chai,Pn.Chuah &Pn.Ang gave us a chance to present the performance infront the public ..
The very first first first performance in my high schookl life a.ka. my last 4 months in high school ..

Not forget our friends which supported us all the time ..
made the card for us and of course shouted & cheer for us !!!!!!!
Love u guys damn much lar weih..

and I found out when we are on the stage ,the feelings is like : Woahh ,damn high man !!then I just throw away the `gan jiong` and start dancing !

7/8/2010 ..The memorable day in my life !!

Monday, July 5, 2010

,,,

也许上帝就是那么喜欢折磨我。
我没有了友情,它就连我唯一能依靠的亲情也渐渐地在破坏。
就连从小看着我大的公公婆婆也应一些误会而对我感到失望?
我的出发点就只是想帮我弟弟而已,但变成是我在说他们的不好?

奇怪,为什么每次面对纠纷时我总是第一个中剑?
我的姐姐总是第一个置身事外,为什么?
就算事情根本与我无关,我也必须受到谴责,
天啊,这叫公平吗?

我到底上辈子做错了什么?
为什么要面对这么破碎的家庭?
为什么要时常面对这些纠纷?
为什么我不能安然地度过我这十七年?
为什么?

为什么孩子要像分猪肉一样,你一半我一半?
为什么把钱看得那么重?
我不要荣华富贵,我要的就只是真正的`一家人`。

如果我有个三长两短,
不会有人为我感到心痛,惋惜。
我是在承受不了这可贵的亲情,长久的友情的统统都在同一时间离我而去。
我要到哪里去借一双耳朵?


神阿,我真的希望立刻消失在这世界上,
投胎做牛做马都不想成为一个复杂的人类。


没有朋友不算悲哀,悲哀的是失去自己

没有朋友不算悲哀,悲哀的是失去自己

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    这一阵子,我接触到很多关于友情的问题,使我突然觉得,友情在一些人心目中所占的分量,似乎比我平常所想到的要多许多倍。
    我发现,这些为友情困恼不已的人,在心里上有两个因素。一个因素是寂寞,另一个因素是太缺少自信。寂寞使一个人把全部生活的重心都放在友情上,缺少自信使一个人对友情患得患失到无以复加的程度,以致一旦失去了友情,他们就找不到自己。
    没有一个人不知道重要,但是,在我遇到这几位为友情困恼的朋友之后,我觉得,如果一个人太倚赖友情,那他从友情所得来的并不是快乐,而是更多的苦恼
    我们经常在谈话中强调“一个人把快乐寄托在别人身上,总难免会失望。”这“别人”包括所有的人——朋友、父母、子女、夫妻,一切...
    交朋友,应该。爱朋友,可以。
    为朋友付出一切,值得!
    但是,你不能没有自己。

    不但要有自己,而且要信赖自己!
    因此,我想要修正大家所经常相信的一个观念,我要劝大家不要总是主动地去企求友情,而是要让友情自动地来临。
    引用一部法国电影里的话,一个人如果朋友多了,就没有朋友了!
    你可以与朋友处在一种互相吸引的地位,最好是让自己先具备足够吸引朋友的条件。换句话说,先要充实自己,让自己有光芒。这样,在交友方面,你才进可以攻,退可以守,你才不会为友情忧虑紧张,不可终日。
    换句话说,要用吸引力去交朋友,而不要施舍恩惠或阿谀的方法去求朋友。
    不要希望每一个人都是你的朋友,友情应该听其自然。
    爱朋友,喜欢朋友,用诚意去对待朋友,但不要倚赖朋友,更不要苛求朋友。能做到这几点你才可以享受到交友的快乐。
    维持友情的另一要诀是“保持距离”。
    无论两个人怎样要好,彼此之间那点应有的尊敬总是不可少的。

    许多人,和朋友一熟,就不分彼此了。当初认识时的那点礼貌与分寸也不注意了。朋友一到了互相没有敬意,不注意礼貌与分寸的时候,就快要发生误会与磨擦了。
(文/欲望之翼)

这篇文章写得太有意思了,不能没有自己

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

年少轻狂



不小心看回以前和朋友们的合照,我哭了。。
         说穿了,原来我很怀念以前曾经一起度过的光阴。


不舍,就是不舍。。
当你想起曾经一起年少轻狂的日子,你就知道拿得起但并放不下