Saturday, September 30, 2006
5 hours 24mins 16 secs. Someone very significant has been taken out of my life.
Why do i get this? Why all the pain and sadness? Why me?
God if you are real then give me an answer. Why put someone so dear in my life and take it away? Dont ignore me, give me a damm answer!
Screw this life, screw reality, to hell with everything. It fucking hurts. It really does.
Work sucks, the insensitive manager roy has been a great bastard. I swear. So much has happened in these 3 days, work problems, friend problems, family problems now this. I just wanna be myself for a moment and just let everything out. I almost cant bear with the pain. I just wanna breakdown and cry for a moment... But, on whose shoulder?
Endless rain, fall on this heart... On this wounded soul...
Let me forget all of the pain, all of the sadness...
Matt was lost in shadow 11:42 PM
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I'm so lost without you at my side....
36 hours 47 mins and 15 secs. God please let this time be forever.
I shall miss your smile, your laughter, your care, your concern and your love. Why does this have to happen to me?
Never thought this day would come so soon...
Today, was kinda nice in a way. No one pressured me much at work. Was hanging around outport sleeping then went walking around the place. Crystal was not feelin very well so i ran down and bought her some sweet. Poor Crystal! Then went lunch with Crystal, Charlene and Zi Quan. We took cab to some kopitiam and ate there. Charlene was so nice! She bought me lunch! OMG! Haha...
Then when we got back i and Zi Quan got sent to help out at level 1. Kinda fun and slack haha. Then went to outport and tagged stuff. Then went out and Heren told me to do fitting room duty. Sat there and fell asleep and Soo hwa went and woke me up as roy was there! Then helped Char and Crystal fold clothes. Then we went back and I walked Char home again. Chatted awhile then my dad drove me home.
Going out with my lil girl now. Spending our last few hours together. Shall blog more tomorrow...
Is this our farewell...?
Matt was lost in shadow 1:19 AM
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Thursday, September 28, 2006
There is nothing but silence now... around the one i love...
Today sucks. i mean it. i mean IT REALLY SUCKS.
Seriously, what the heck have i done? Geez, bad luck eh? Started off the day pretty great... Met char and crystal and we went to pastamania for lunch! The salad was not bad ((:
Then we went for work. BORING I TELL YOU! Then i got some really bad news :(
My gal called me and told me that she was gonna go back to HK since she finished her diploma here. I WAS LIKE, WTF?!! I asked when and she said in about 1-2 weeks. Seriously, heartbroken. Then i was stoning around work and charlene and crystal was trying to cheer me up ((:
Thanks loads. You guys are teh best!
Anyways, was stoning around work as usual till closing time and i was trying my best to smile and laugh. Kinda painful but still... Hah nevermind...
Well, feeling kinda lost now. Shall blog again later. Cheers!
Matt was lost in shadow 11:47 PM
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wow. havent blogged in he longest time ever. having a job atm since its the hols. JOHN LITTLE ish good i tell you! although work sux, the people rox my sox! i mean TOTALLY! well with seb and randy, and i got to know some really good friends ((:
CHARLENE CRYSTAL RANDY SEBZ HAOYIH XIAOYING JOE ZIQUAN RANDALL U GUYS ROX KTHX! :D
Anyways, kinda shitty day for me today. though the morning was fun, char went taka with me and we went to kino! Then we went to pepper lunch to have uh... breakfast? lol. was damm full! zomg. then i went to hang round jl waiting for sebz and char to go home! stupid sebz din wait for me at mrt! was like, sooooooo pissed that i took a cab for 25 bucks. sux2beme i know. then i walked char back home and took a cab home.
I KNOW I HAVE NO LIFE SO DONT TELL ME ((:
Thats pretty much all and if u dont like me sue me :D
well lets see when i shall blog again.... till then......
Matt was lost in shadow 12:28 AM
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