it's hard being in a relationship without trust...when it's no longer there and one can't get it back...you would know that it's time to let go....sometimes, it's really haard to let go of things that you once hold dear to your heart....and loads of tears would flow and you would weep so much your eyes seems to look like they're gonna fall off...



maybe i should let it all go...even though it might hurt for now...it might be better in the future....but the one thing that stinks the most about the future is the fact that we won't know how it is gonna be...



i really wanna get an ipod touch... *sobs* humans just have too much wants and not enough money...

I'm sitting for the Company Law paper at 8 later in the day...it's gonna be my last paper for the semester then it's home sweet home for me....can't wait to go back home...i so wanna sleep for the whole two weeks and i don't wanna think bout all those stuffs that have been disturbing me....

• don't wanna think bout exams anymore knowing how I'm gonna fail....
• don't wanna think bout whether I'll be able to go to UK....
  
• don't wanna think bout my feelings anymore and don't wanna disturb myself with my uncontrollable feelings...
• don't wanna think bout whether all that he is saying is true or not....

just wanna go back and relax and go have fun and don't wanna bother myself anymore...i know it's problems that needs fixing otherwise i'm gonna have a hard time later on when i return....

do u feel the need to be with someone just because you feel the need to have someone there?
does it make any sense if i say that one just wanna be with another because one knows that one can't have another?
see how all my life,my world just revolves around LOVE,love,LoVe and more lOvE.....
i wish one day,i would find the one and i would be so much in love that i could leave all this behind me....
sometimes, i just don't know how you truly feels because you just act differently in front of different people....
just tell me what i need to do to have the one you which i truly know....

just finish reading a friend's blog....couldn't really do anything for her but wished she would feel better soon...known that she wanted to go for the open sea swim so much...it's just because she seems to be a little too occupied with her studies,assignments and everything else this semester...if she wants, she could have my shoulder to bite....

feeling sleepy ALL the time....this is really frustrating but once i open my books,all i wanna do is just sleep...damn this aunt of mine....hopefully she leaves before i go back home...don't wanna have to bring so much tissues back for her.....

Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep. ~Carl Sandburg

love is truly meant for idiots.....and to be able to quote it, i must be a class of them....keep falling.....and as i fall, keep doing embarrassing things...don't wanna fall again...i wanna stand up and for now,i wanna stand on my own two feet...don't wanna lean on anyone again....as i lean on someone else,realize that no one could be trusted to care for you....even though you might be less selfish than others to let me lean on you for a little while, but too bad you don't wanna bear me....

my monthly aunt is here to visit me again...and man, do i feel tired and sleepy?even though i just woke up, my whole body feels like i've just came back from war....and i just keep yawning.....i really need to focus and remember all these case with weird names....it would be great if there's only 2 or 3 choices of names in this world....maybe so, cases would just be A v B, B v C, C v D....den no matter how i memorize, the case would never be that far apart...

i received a message from Agogo yesterday which goes something like this:

P/S: sorry for being moody....and i'm sorry if i'm not myself nowadays....

stress + tired =Moody Quinn

just done with one paper and yet, there's still 3 more left.... feeling so stressed out and yet, not really doing anything....it kinda feels like since you know that you're gonna fail, might as well just give up on all of it right?feels like there's too many thinigs happening and life is passing you by too fast and you can't stop it.....gonna unleash all my different colours later on...anyways, what needs to be done needs to be done right?i really should stop procastinating....maybe someone should wake me up and show me how important all of these are....i really don't wanna stay back for another year....it's gonna be even more stress and the embarrasement...not only to me and my friends but most of all...to my parents....

besides that,i haven't even finish my university application and 4 more of my assignments are not even handed in yet....arghhhh!!!!i gotta pick up now....see how lazy i am...i know that i need to finish up so much things and yet i'm not doing it...

currently trying to finish up my personal statement and yet, reading equity & trusts on the other hand....i'm so multi-tasking....haha!!!!

p/s: can't regret what have had happen....all i can do is try harder and work harder...

got this off of Tania's blog

Lifebook 2009

Health:



1. Drink plenty of water

2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar

3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants, and eat less food that is manufactured in plants

4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy

5. Make time for prayer

6. Play more games

7. Read more books than you did in 2008

8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day

9. Sleep for 7 hours

10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day ---- and while you walk, smile


Personality:

11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

13. Don't over do ; keep your limits

14. Don't take yourself so seriously ; no one else does

15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip

16. Dream more while you are awake

17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.

20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present

21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you

22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

23. Smile and laugh more

24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.


Community:

25. Call your family often

26. Each day give something good to others

27. Forgive everyone for everything

28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6

29. Try to make at least three people smile each day

30. What other people think of you is none of your business

31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.



Life:

32. Do the right things

33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful

34. GOD heals everything

35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change

36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up

37. The best is yet to come

38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it

39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.


Last but not the least :

40. Do forward this to everyone you care about.