Once Upon A Time

no more...

Written at 7:20 PM on Tuesday, September 30, 2008 0 comment(s)

it's the end now...it's all going to end now...i don't wanna see this happening but it's really out of my control...it's really sad... why does it all have to end this way?why does it even have to end?how will it go after it ends?will there be more suffering to come?what can i do to stop it?i feel so hopeless right now..i'm completely hopeless....plz....plz let it all find a way out...i wanna be strong..i need to be strong...

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

i don't want it to end

Written at 3:00 AM on 0 comment(s)

a lot of things,bad things have been happening recently...i have so much on my mind and i really wanna share it with someone but it's hard..it's really really hard to pour out my heart's content...so much has happen and i have so much on my mind...i feel really nauseating and i feel like puking...i'm tired,physically and mentally....

i just need for someone to be there for me....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

i'm C.O.N.F.U.S.E.D

Written at 5:12 PM on Saturday, September 27, 2008 0 comment(s)

i don't know what's wrong with some people nowadays...some people just start throwing tantrum and then give you the cold feel and then act like nothing's wrong then go around bitching to everyone that you're like this and like that...whatever...i don't give a fuck no more....i don't wanna care bout anyone anymore...just go fuck up your life and if you feel you wanna go around continuing the lies,do continue...and continue complaining if you wish so...

anyways,putting all that aside,the week began quite well as the internet connection is somehow kinda fast....probably because everyone is back for the Hari Raya cum study week-break....anyways,shall not be going back home as my parents will be coming to visit me...

p/s:can't wait to be done with the event next year...after that,i'm seriously considering not having any other events anymore....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

D.O.N.E

Written at 10:13 AM on Friday, September 26, 2008 0 comment(s)

i'm finally through with all my assignment and i'm really glad....though i don't think it is of the best quality...anyways,all i gotta do now is just to study hard and make sure i pass my first year and i wanna come back next year as a second year student...anyways,i could finally sleep for real for the first time after so long...shall have a good night rest tonight....but for now,maybe i shall just take a lil' nap and then watch a movie later and then go out tonight.....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

tired.sleepy.event.

Written at 1:10 PM on Thursday, September 25, 2008 0 comment(s)

i'm so tired and sleepy right now...i just came back from class and i know i really need to finish up my assignment as the due date is tomorrow but i feel really sleepy right now...i've been needing more sleep den usual nowadays and i'm really bum about it...

yesterday,had a lil' chat with a few guy friends of mine..they were all talking bout how old they are and how old they would be when they graduate and then one of them told me that he asked his lecturer,after living on earth for more then 40 years,what is the one thing your regret most?

his lecturer told him that he regret not having the most out of his youth and how he did not just have fun when he was younger and not worry that much that he was spending his parents' money....so, my friend den told me to just enjoy myself...i know..i really want to if i'm able....but i really do feel guilty when i spend my parent's money...if it wasn't for me,they could have used this money to go around the world and have so much fun and they could even stop working now...

sometimes in life,it's the hardships that makes us know what happiness is...

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

assignment at swimming pool

Written at 9:54 PM on Wednesday, September 24, 2008 0 comment(s)

i'm currently sitting by the swimming pool...it should feel relaxing but i feel really sleepy and yet i have to finish up my assignment and yet i have 10 o'clock class tomorrow....man,life really is working me....hmm....but at least i only have 1 class tomorrow....hmm....so if i'm able to finish my assignment by tonight then i'll be able to sleep the whole day tomorrow....anyways,i'm gonna rush as fast as i can...but there's internet...man,it's way too much distraction....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

kick ass blogger

Written at 5:22 AM on 0 comment(s)

see what i woke up to this morning....someone gave me this award today...still really sleepy so would just like to say thanks for the awards and i think you are one kick ass blogger as well..

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

L.O.V.E is...

Written at 1:16 AM on 0 comment(s)

a friend of mine told me today... friends cannot stay as friends as friendship could turn into love but love would never return to be friends....i do find a lot of truth in that...

"Love is friendship set on fire."

but even so,many people would risk the friendship in hope for something better...

"Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it...It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more."

do you know how people would always say things like love has no boundaries and how when people are in love,nothing is i and u..it's always us..

"Love has no awareness of merit or demerit; it has no scale... Love loves; this is its nature."

and how people would say things like love makes the world go round?

"Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile."

but even though i know how much love would make me happy and yet sad,i'm always willing to get myself involve...

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness."

i know how much it hurts,and i still fall for it all the time...why am i so silly? because of the happiness it always brings when we are together...because of all the sweet things you do for me...because you always make me fall for you...

Love is truth

Love is pure joy

Love is giving freely

Love is a free gift

Love is freedom

Love is powerful

Love is amazing

Love is considering and honoring others... their whole being - ideas, beliefs, feelings...

Love is unconditional

Love is awesome

Love is respectful

Love is...Listening

Love is... Light

Love is... Truth

Love is... Intimacy

Love is... Romance

Love is... Trust

Love is... Joy

Love is.

Love is... The Journey...

Love is... What to you?

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

Happy Birthday, Szien

Written at 12:23 AM on 0 comment(s)

today is the 24th of September...which is also my dearest sister's birthday....it's her 15th birthday....hmmm,getting older day by day....anyways,here's a lil' something dedicated to her....

A Very Special Sister

For many years we’ve shared our lives

One roof we once lived under

Sometimes we laughed, sometimes we cried

Through winter storms and thunder

The younger years have faded fast

We’ve gone our separate ways

But through all time our friendship lasts

Our bond in life remains

As summer brings the happy times

The autumn winds will whisper

A closer friend I’d never find

Than the one I call my Sister.

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

meme

Written at 12:30 AM on Monday, September 22, 2008 0 comment(s)

i just finish a tag and pats for myself...just felt like letting everyone know,i love you guys....sorta felt like my picture here..anyways,class is at 12 tomorrow...so not going to sleep early but the medication i just took really made me felt sleepy like hell...anyways, toodles...

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

Written at 10:18 PM on Sunday, September 21, 2008 0 comment(s)

the last person to tag u is:
szien

what relationship of u wif him/her:
sister and sister..haha!

your 5 impression towards him:
very young
keep bullying me
always owe me money
loves my very much
keep cheating my money

The most memorable thing that he/she has done to u:
kiss me

The most memorable words that he/she said to u:
i love you

if he/she becomes ur lover, u will:
die

if he/she becomes ur enemy, u will:
die

if he/she becomes ur lover, he/she has to improve on?:
loving me...haha!!

if he/she becomes ur enemy, the reason is?:
he tag me too freaking much.

The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?:
love her with all my heart..haha!

The overall impression of him/her is?:
she's got a nice sister...

How do you think the people around you will feel about you?:
hmm,happy,i hope...

The character for yourself is?:
cheerful

On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?:
self-consciousness

The most ideal person you want to be is?:
myself...

For the persons who care and like you, say something about them.:
thanks?i love you too...

Ten people to tag:

tien
yiling
melissa
hsu leng
daphne
abby
chen hueh
phey shan
phey yee
szien

Who is number 2 having relationship with?
yiling:me...

Is number 3 a male or female?
melissa:female

If number 7 and number 10 be together would it be a good thing?
chen hueh and szien:NO...N-O...

How about number 5 and number 8?
daphne and phey shan:hmm...do they swing that way?

What is number 1 studying about?
tien:not yet...

When was the last time you had a chat with them?
some everyday,some weeks ago...

Is number 4 a single?
hsuleng: as far as i know...

Say something about number 2.
yiling:something

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

results are back

Written at 11:17 PM on Thursday, September 18, 2008 0 comment(s)

my results are back...i haven't got dengue...so thanks guys,for worrying...i'm sorry if i have not been replying on msn...don't really feel like chatting...right now,i'm having rashes and they kinda sorta itch like hell...i'm going to go to bed now...else i'll scratch and scratch my skin off...

xoxo,

Su-Quinn