Saturday, May 02, 2015 ♥ due to leave again.
I never expect myself to book another ticket again so soon. Let alone with people i never expect (the schoolmate). It just happened. Another 2 weeks before i am due to leave again. Hopefully i am all well by then.
♥Maine
3:52:00 AM
Many times, we gave up some things to choose what we really want. Even at the end of the day, what we had were gone, at least it's what our heart want. We should not look back at what's given up. When u choose to give up, the scars were left. Look back and picking it up again means giving it hope and not knowing if it will heal or leave more scars.
我曾经为了很爱的 放弃了原本在我眼前的 再好的我也看不见 同样的 却感觉不一样 就算明明是相同的 但心却偏偏要我觉得不同 是我选择放弃爱我多过我爱他的 选择我爱也爱我的 但却忘了爱会变质 已经不存在了 现在也没办法当做没事 原本的再站在我面前 我也不希望历史重演 之前放弃了 就是放弃了 不想给予希望过候再次放弃 还是保持现状最好
♥Maine
2:28:00 AM
Feel disappointed with myself as all along I have not been taking good care of everything. I failed somehow. Really hope to make things right one by one. Not easy so I need to work really hard. Positive mindset very important, I can do it.
♥Maine
5:59:00 PM
Cycle for a 7 min. Black out for a period. From blur blocked ears to totally not able to see a thing. Tried to call for help but look like I was mute or maybe not loud enough. Woke lying on the floor not knowing when did I fall. Manage to find my way and sit for a rest. Big small image, vision still blur and numbness. But manage to hold on to my phone dial a number. Mayb I need to talk. Need to hear a comforting voice. Despite cold but still comforting enough that what I see no longer blurry. Asked why did I call u. Maybe I have no idea too. Or mayb I just want to see u at that point of time.
♥Maine
9:02:00 PM
i can be extreme troublesome.
sometimes i am full of nonsense.
i get angry at the slightest.
cranky and sensitive as ever.
i dedinitely is a over-think stress girl
times i acted like kids, times i wanted attention.
i admit i might not be the most wonderful.
i might not be the best.
i perhaps never gave u as much attention as u should get.
i gave u too little as to what u deserve.
and i overlooked things.
u are the longest.
the nicest.
definitely the sweetest.
the one who tolerate.
forever patience when it comes to me.
always taking good care of me.
althought u know sometimes u are such a *ahem ahem*
( u should know what, if not u can ask me!)
we might on many occasions have different views and stands.
we might quarrel over the most unrelevent, most unimportant things.
we honestly might not even understand each other very very well.
i have to admit many down are cause by me.
but what's a relationship without the down?
that's our test and i hope that's what made us understand each other more.
definitely one of the point that made this relationship stronger.
lastly,
after months i might not recall totally what's written here,
but one thing i will never forget is...
I Love You =)
ps. Happy 397!
♥Maine
12:00:00 AM
