it's times like these. i wish i could extract myself from this world.




well its been a relaxed week. a week away from hq and at hta has been ultimate slack. sa course is mother boring but has given me plenty of rest. not to mention plenty of food. think i've grown fatter yet again... :(

caught pirates wif regina. it was such a good show! hahaha it was kiddish, it was fantasy, but its still darn funny. hahaha i juz appreciate shows wif humour larh. good 7 bucks spent. 2 hr 40 min worth summore. sibei tan. hmm and caught up abit wif joy larh. haha din haf much time but i enjoyed the outing. and today was the class outing to sentosa. hahaha things were draggy, and it was nearly dashed by rain, but glad we cld still haf some fun there. met yangling there. haha wad a surprise. she asked me y din i tell her i was going sentosa -_-... we played beach soccer. hahaha i scored 2! ooops. haha and we went kayaking. weiwei n i were no match for korn n qian. hahaha we decided halfway in the competition to be take our time n relax instead. hahaha after dat went to tiong bahru market for dinner. which was pretty good i suppose. not fantastic. but above average. went to play bball wif the guys at NIE. hahaha im so lousy at bball... tsktsk. better buck up...

i have an eye candy!!!! wheeeee! hahaha ooops...

its another late night. better sleep soon. nights!




well i've been complaining and complaining and complaining. kinda reminds me of wad eddie once told me. that i complain non-stop. come to think of it its true. hai. better change for the better. and sorry to those i've kept complaining to over the past few days. u noe who u are. i paiseh to say here. hahaha

so just please lemme be less bitter...

hmms. worked my first OT ytd. and my 2nd today. hai and its not even cos we're inefficient. its cos orders are given wif too short a deadline to meet, otherwise after we meet it, they change the stuff we had done and ask us to redo everything all over again. and tmr is my first duty beyond BPT. so it means i get to draw arms. wandi tells me my hands will be shaky when i draw. hahaha dunno larh. hope it wun be. eh... so... basically my first week is one of the heong-est weeks i've had since enlistment. but i've made it thru. dun think its very jialat oso. so dats good i guess.

haven gone out the whole week. guess not everyone can make proper arrangements now dat we work office hours. own committments and all. we're all busy ppl.

hmm over dinner in front of the tv, i watched the only show i would even consider watching if im on discovery channel. that is american choppers. hahaha the company that makes those custom bikes are called orange county choppers. go to their website: http://www.orangecountychoppers.com/. its amazing. their bikes look really cool. two of which are damn nice dat i've seen the whole process of building is the statue of liberty bike, as well as the gillete bike. go see man. its really damn cool. trashes harley-davidson anytime.

well guess i gotta go now. shall blog again when i haf the time. ciaoz




one wouldn't know

well guess my new job is ok... the workload is overwhelming. especially it being only my third day so far. being briefed by the previous SO, im feeling abit pressured. but after hearing wad the other ppl in the office hafta do, i suppose they are trying to ease my load already.

one wouldn't care

my dad is well already. yea thanx to all for ur prayers. i've been really worried these 3 days. but i guess its all over. hopefully he wld back to full health soon. meanwhile i will need to keep myself healthy. i dun wanna get back to being severely overweight again. as if im not now. hahaha nid to exercise to slim down sial.

one just doesn't seem to be there




i feel so little. i feel so useless. all i cld do was stand ard and watch. and u dun seem to notice...




i'm feeling sad. that you left. it's so sudden. think it only just dawned upon me. that you had made an impact in that short 2 weeks. stamped in my life, i'll always rmb you :(

i'm feeling bitter. that on my day, you din change anything for me, but on his, you actually asked me to change mine. i dunno if there was any other purpose. but it juz hit me :S

i'm feeling nostalgia. a ball game wif my buddies today. something i had been missing out for almost... 3 whole months. and i din go for class dinner as well. sumwhere inside im feeling the guilt. but i had to be elsewhere so sorry. and i'm missing bunk 3 as well. now we're all seperated. hai oh well :X

i'm feeling surprised. that you came back. i was shocked when i heard. too bad you din get to see my expression. haha i was abt to type a whole entry abt how everything really reminds me of you. but oh well you're here in person already :)




full pledged police officer.

seems dat wif dat it comes wif alot of responsibilities and pressure. i dunno. was posted to echo division ytd... and dey told us of death possiblities, how the public is scrutinising us and all dat. hai...

well bpt is over. it was certainly an experience i wld nv forget. i mean how many times in ur life do u get to stay wif 31 other ppl for 3 months? yea diff sorts of ppl diff sorts of habits, really get to see em all. but im glad to say that i believe squad 18/06 was the most unique. tho we had our arguments, our fights, but we still stood united. not winning the best squad to me was kinda expected aniwae. we were deemed as a dumping ground in the first place. but who cares. we did quality.

and while POP was a happy event, seeing others wif their frenz made me kinda sad. my mum n dad were there of cuz. but...

and while celebrations go on in HTA, i noe of sumwhere, where the ppl are weeping. i long to be wif em, to be of any help or comfort. but its not to be.

my condolences.

tay lide.
looking to revive a dead blog and renew dead thoughts.

if i rise on the wings of the dawn, if i settle on the far side of the sea, even there Your right hand will guide me, Your right hand will hold me fast.
psalms 139:9-10