she's so weird it scares me
i don't think she likes me
and thinking of her name
is driving me insane
she's my psycho girl
my psycho girl friend
everything i say
she takes it the wrong way
she's my psycho girl
a living nightmare
she's everything i need
but i can't stand her
i can't change her thinking
but she's so good looking
and thinking of her name
is driving me insane
she's my psycho girl
my psycho girl friend
everything i say
she takes it the wrong way
she's my psycho girl
a living nightmare
she's everything i need
but i can't stand her
we spent the night in
we started fighting
since then its never been the same
thinking of her name
is driving me insane
she's my psycho girl
my psycho girl friend
everything i say
she takes it the wrong way
she's my psycho girl
a living nightmare
she's everything i need
but i can't stand her
sometimes, i wonder if the closer i get to a person, the less important i become to him or her. its like:
i get neglected (cos the person claims i noe wat he or she wld sae already aniwae)
i get physically abused (cos the person is sure i wldnt mind)
i get verbally abused (cos the person is DAMNED sure i wldnt mind)
i get insulted (cos the person is realli realli damn sure i wldnt mind at all)
i get anger vented upon me (cos as a fren, im always there for u)
i get a whole lotta shit attitude (cos as a fren, i shld noe wat to do: the right thing at the right time)
i get ignored (cos i shld noe better)
and the worst thing is
im not supposed to talk back. try to advice u wif wat i realli truly feel. cos u jolly well noe dats not wat i like to hear.
i realli dunno. i realli dun understand. it realli hurts.
and this sux.
cos im realli want to say wat i truly feel.
cos im supposed to realli be the person they think they noe. but wat if...
im not?
wat if im juz behaving lidat so dat u can feel better despite my feeling shitty?
but oh well used to it. juz hope i can continue my job as a gd fren. for that, im willing to not mind all of the above.
but sometimes it realli juz... unnerves me. makes me feel all awkward and not knowing wat to do at all.
tokin abt nobody in particular. but definitely things happen to get me started on my thinking.
oh well shall seek answers and some comfort tmr when i go to church.
God... why oh why?
i will choose to listen
and believe
the voice of truth...
spent the whole morn at CMPB reassessing my PES status. 3 hrs there, and 90% of the time i was sitting down and waiting. sianz.
well good thing is
now i can go to prom!
bad thing is
i might not slim down as much i wld haf. which is wat i and many others haf been looking foward to i guess
and i'll be wif a buncha ppl who cant carry stuff, cant walk, cant bend
and mebbe cant think as well
im now in PES C!
i almost got drunk at school at 14
where i almost made out with the homecoming queen
who almost went on to be mrs texas
but lost to a slut with much bigger breasts
i almost dropped out to move to L.A.
where i was almost famous for almost a day
and i almost had you
but i guess that doesn't cut it
almost loved you
i almost wished you woulda loved me too
i almost held up a grocery store
where i almost did 5 years and then 7 more
cuz i almost got popped for a fight with a thug
cuz he almost made off with a buncha the drugs
that i almost got hooked on cuz you ran away
and i wished i woulda had the nerve to ask you to stay
and i almost had you
but i guess that doesn't cut it
almost loved you
i almost wished you woulda loved me too
you kept me guessin'
and now i'm destined
to spend my time missin' you
i almost wished you woulda loved me too
here i go thinkin' about all the things i could have done
i'm gonna need a forklift cuz all the baggage weighs a ton
i know we've had our problems
i can't remember one
i almost forgot to say something else
and if i can't fit it in
i'll keep it all to myself
i almost wrote a song about you today
but i tore it all up and then i threw it away
and i almost had you
but i guess that doesn't cut it
almost loved you
i almost wished you woulda loved me too
you kept me guessin'
and now i'm destined
to spend my time missin' you
i almost wished you woulda loved me too
i almost wished you woulda loved me too
i almost wished you woulda loved me too
i almost wished you woulda loved me too
i almost wished you woulda loved me too...
looking at your picture
from when we first met
you gave me a smile
that i could never forget
and nothing i could do
could protect me from you
that night
wrapped around your finger
always on my mind
the days would blend
'cause we stayed up all night
yeah you and i were everything
everything to me
i just want you to know
that i've been fighting to let you go
some days i make it through
and then there's nights that
never end
i wish that i could believe
that there's a day you'll come back to me
but still i have to say
i would do it all again
just want you to know
all the doors are closing
i'm tryin' to move ahead
and deep inside
i wish it's me instead
my dreams are empty from the day
the day you slipped
away
i just want you to know
that i've been fighting to let you go
some days i make it through
and then there's nights that
never end
i wish that i could believe
that there's a day you'll come back to me
but still i have to say
i would do it all again
just want you to know
that since i lost you
i lost myself
no i can't fake it
there's no one else
i just want you to know
that i've been fighting to let you go
some days i make it through
and then there's nights that
never end
i wish that i could believe
that there's a day you'll come back to me
but still i have to say
i would do it all again
just want you to know
that i've been fighting to let you go
some days i make it through
and then there's nights that
never endi wish that i could believe
that there's a day you'll come back to me
but still i have to say
i would do it all again
just want you to know
mug from day until the night...
cant go prom
feeling all childish
all miserable
life sucks
God pls do sumthin abt this...
wenjie reminded me of this song... NO WE'RE NOT GAY. he juz happened to sing it while listening to my ipod. damn nice...
who can say for certain
maybe you're still here
i feel you all around me
your memories so clear
deep in the stillness
i can hear you speak
you're still an inspiration
can it be
that you are mine
forever love
and you are watching over me
from up above
fly me up
to where you are
beyond the distant star
i wish upon tonight
to see you smile
if only for awhile
to know you're there
a breath away's not far
to where you are
are you gently sleeping
here inside my dream
and isn't faith believing
all power can't be seen
as my heart holds you
just one beat away
i cherish all you gave me everyday
cause you are mine
forever love
watching me from up above
fly me up
to where you are
beyond the distant star
i wish upon tonight
to see you smile
if only for awhile
to know you're there
a breath away's not far
to where you are
i know you're there
a breath away's not far
to where you are
to everyone out there:
i've dropped chem.
drop it like it's hot.
thanks for all you've done
i've missed you for so long
i can't believe you're gone
you still live in me
i feel you in the wind
you guide me constantly
i've never knew what it was to be alone
no
cause you were always there for me
you were always there waiting
and i'll come home and I miss your face
smiling down on me
i close my eyes to see
and i know you're a part of me
and it's your song that sets me free
i sing it while i feel i can't hold on
i sing tonight cause it comforts me
i carry the things that remind me of you
in loving memory of
the one that was so true
your were as kind as you could be
and even though you're gone
you still mean the world to me
i've never knew what it was to be alone
no
cause you were always there for me
you were always there waiting
and i'll come home and I miss your face
smiling down on me
i close my eyes to see
and i know
you're a part of me
and it's your song that sets me free
i sing it while
i feel i can't hold on
i sing tonight cause it comforts me
i'm glad he set you free from sorrow
i'll still love you more tomorrow
and you will be here with me still
and what you did you did with feeling
and you always found the meaning
and you always will
and you always will
and you always will
and i know
you're a part of me
and it's your song that sets me free
i sing it while i feel i can't hold on
i sing tonight cause it comforts me
wanted to gif u a poll to vote weder i shld drop chem. but blogger keeps rejecting my html code. so i guess here goes...
VOTE WEDER I SHLD DROP CHEM OR NOT! TAG ON MY BLOG! i shall take note of the figures n it wld beocme a reference for me
summertime
it's been almost a year since coral sky
all the time
i could tell that you were just untouchable
so i left alone (said i had to go)
made it like i didn't care
hey
don't let the sun go down
don't let it end here now
cause you're right
and i'm everything you're not
could I ever be the one?
summertime
i can't believe she's in my head again
don't you confuse
i might put up a fight
but i'm not bulletproof
so i left alone (just me and my patron)
summer dies and so could i
hey
don't let the sun go down
don't let it end here now
cause you're right
and i'm everything, everything, everything i'm not
hey
don't let the sun go down
don''t let it end here now
cause you're right
and i'm everything, everything, everything i'm not (cause you're right)
you're wrong
and i'm everything you're not
cause you're right
i'm wrong
could i ever be the one?
be the one...?
life hasnt been too good. got back my full results
Chem - F
Maths - E
Physics - E
Econs - D
GP - B4
well dat spells feed. coincidentally for my first block test ever in hwachong, i attained
Econs - F
Chem - O
Physics - O
Maths - D
GP - B4
n dat spells food. hmm shows sumthin huh? hahaha n dun think the b4 is there for nuttin. i think i gained at least 4 kilos over these two years
but back to serious stuff. yea results arent good. so screwed up. n i haven been mugging. skipped two tuitions. cant believe myself. im more preoccupied wif so much more stuff... dunno y. mind's been a whirl n blur ever since saturday. oh well
jialing is sick!! oh dear pls take gd care of urself! onli 4 weeks n 2 days more to a levels! get well le can mug n get 4 As!!!
to whom i'm concerned for:
i overreacted i noe. im sorry. as i said im not in any position to haf complained or said anything at all. but similar to u, i am, too, concerned abt this frenship. dat i did not understand y things were happening the way they were. not dat i din trust u... i had my flash of doubt. but i juz thot u wld tell me if things were going on. i dunno larh. i feel so confused n frustrated. i juz hope dat all these things wld juz blow over soon. cos it's killing me.
i'm sorry i'm a disappointment
whee! went to jb ytd so here to blog abt it! it was fun!
well went to church in the morn firz. had a big grp discussion, prayer requests n stuff. think we shld haf big grp more often. at least we wld be aware of wats going on in our fellowship n stuff. yepz. hmm den stayed ard in the worship hall for a while cos i was gonna miss out on dat. sang a few songs den left for bugis. met the others, namely guan nel n ling. marc din come cos of... safety concerns. as usual n expected, ling was late n the latest :P hahaha so we took some time (due to my poor navigation) b4 finding the jb taxi stand. hopped into the cab n we cheonged into msia. hahaha it was quite fun. our uncle was damn pro. he din take the road for cars n instead followed the route for motorcycles until he saw a space n cut in straight. hahaha so we din hafta queue up. think abt 70 cars were behind us when dey shld be before us. hahaha damn zai. so we went straight into holiday plaza. wah the kfc dere damn shiok. 3pc chicken cheaper than our 2pc. hahaha n sumhow the chicken tastes betta as well. oh well den we went walking ard. first visited all the pirated dvd shops. wah biang damn tech. dey haf secret rooms for an even larger store of pirated dvds, and an even more secret store for all the porn. and the secret room has a magnetic lock! haha mata come oso not scared. zai hahaha n we were talking abt wat if we saw the CEO of a major company dat we noe inside the secret secret store. den when we accuse him he wld go: NO I WASNT BUYING ANY PARN (porn)!! JUZ BUYING MOVIES FOR MY FARMILY TO WATCH!
oh well den we continued walking and soon enuff we made our first purchase! hahaha by guanhow. he bought an adidas basketball damn tan dio. hahaha 49 ringgit larh! n it was a good ball summore. haha since dere wasnt much to look at in holiday plaza we cheonged to buy my fake nikes! haha its brown n looks very simple n it costs a mudder 72 ringgit! hahaha damn TAN DIO. sibei cheap. haha den we went back to the dvd shops n we bought 10. hahaha since we din wanna risk our balls bringing it back into singapore, we used their delivery service! hahaha and since we weren't gonna be home by then, we had dem send it to us sumwhere... SPECIAL
after dat we cabbed down to city sq. haha its a megamall larh. damn shuang. n it felt alot more comfortable den holiday plaza. more aircon, more spacious but alot more ppl as well. n dere were plenty of shops!! hahaha guan made a killing. haha bought 4 pieces of clothing i think. n all damn nice. haha he was trying on ultra tight tops n it was really funny. haha and i was quite sian diao my parents din lemme buy clothes. cos dey sae once i go army i will slim down drastically den cant wear the large clothes animore, so buy for wad??? dats good reasoning for pants, but not for tops so i found it quite ridiculous. but wth nuttin i cld do abt it. juz look at all the nice jeans n shirts n imagine if i had the purchasing power. hahaha oh btw its realli alot cheaper to do ur shopping there. everything costs half price. damn tan dio. oh well. the movie tickets there cos onli 5 ringgit on weekdays!!!!!!!! HOW MOTHER CHEAP IS DAT??? oh well we took a rest at their food junction cos all of us had tired feet. n in the end we ate mcdonalds for dinner cos i was broke n cos we din haf time to look for nice places to eat at. n i stupidly ordered a chicken burger after we ate kfc for lunch. jialing proceeded to buy her last top n we were off back to singapore!
and the smart us went back by foot! haha i aint sarcastic. we were faster than all the hondas and 170s. n it was nice to walk wif a buncha frenz n all dat. juz abit worried when a whole grp of ppl swarm ard us sumtimes. hahaha paranoia. oh well but we made it back safely wifout everything dat was said dat cld possibly happen happening. yepz. checking thru customs was a long process tho cos there were at least a 1000 ppl inside dat place. met my parents at some carpark near the checkpoint n we sent the rest to places near their homes so dat dey cld save some time going home. on the way home bought dinner for my bro n when i reached home, i was so tired i juz conked out. SHUANG DAO.
oh btw i haven been blogging for quite some time. well heres wats most impt
chem F
maths E
econs D
GP B4
tmr gonna get back physics. i realli hope i can pass.... dammit
