wowee!! its been an incredible TWO WEEK SPAN since i blogged! its amazing! hahaha tho i've been still coming online rather regularly... juz neglected my poor blog lorh... hahaha well im back and well i cant blog abt day by day stuff le since everything is far behind me... all i noe is F=LIBsinTETER. haiz... oh well two weeks of solid everyday stay back in sch reading room to mug has passed. not much has been achieved i wld sae. tuition everyday as usual taking up alot of my proper self-revision time. so... juz do a few papers onli. two weeks to go n i haven realli finished the syllabus. and by the time i haf, i wldnt haf done any questions to prepare myself practically for the exam. so its pretty sickening. life seems to be coming to a standstill. time passes so fast yet im left behind wif nuttin done as each 24 hrs zooms by. onli subject i haf reasonable confidence of now is econs. maths i look at laz yrs work i blur like siao. physics ok larh... juz dat i still suck at topics which haf mention of the word 'electro". den chem is almost hopeless. so im screwed. hai well on the bright side at least my mum and dad are happy to see me realli studying. i've watched considerably less tv n used considerably less internet over these two weeks. so i guess i've become a better person.
well sumthin dat i muz blog abt. ytd was the last official day of sch. frm den on... its juz j2s comin in n out of sch as dey wish. no longer will i see those familiar yet unrecognised faces everyday passing me by. sumhow these are my family. hahaha i dunno it sounds realli ridiculous, but i've come to a point whereby juz barely knowing these ppl still allows me to tok a few words and wave to em if i see em outside of sch. and of cuz those whom i've grown to become close frenz wif. its for sure dat we wld still hang out and stick tgt, some perhaps even for the rest of my life. but its juz... diff. no longer are we gonna be attached to this school now known as Hwa Chong Institution, which i still rather call Hwa Chong Junior College, or Huangcheng, or Hua Chu. frankly i dun see any difference being in the sch, or being out of the sch physically but still existing as the student population. but it juz... feels different. perhaps its juz cos im a very feeling person. lifes gonna be alot different no longer sitting wif my class at the class bench every morning and aft sch, seeing my teammates walking ard, or my huangcheng frenz whom i've regrettedly grown distant from. it seems like im on my own. even tho in sch, mugging in the reading room, everyone seems to be doing it for themselves le. no longer is it abt helping each other get by wif our everyday lives, or simply having the chance or rather now a privelege, of appreciating the presence of each other. i dunno im not making sense at all i guess. its all confusing inside. juz confunded now. hai yepz. perhaps HCJC has indeed become my second home. and i finally realise how true it is when we sing one of HC's songs: huang cheng liang zai, duo duan cu... ji ran ai shang le... you wei he bu fu chu...?
yes as i was saying it was the laz day of sch. sumhow the mood was abit down. or perhaps its juz me. took class fotos wif some teachers, and class fotos of our own at the beloved class bench. was a lil' grumpy n all dat. had lunch wif a large majority of the class, which i muz say is now a rare delight dat i hardly enjoy. realised 69 is realli a fun class to be in. thank God i was dropped in here. i haf my prejudices, and postjudices if i can put it dat way. but on the whole, 69 ROCKS! went back and mugged in the reading room. felt quite irritated by the band performing outside but when i found out it was for teachers' day, cldnt bring myself to kb them. i dunno larh. not dat i absolutely adore HC teachers (sum irritate me for dat matter) but i've grown to appreciate their presence and their sincerity in helping all students young old stupid clever or juz plain assholish. like me.
went to tuition and had dinner wif yuru wj zhiyin jm n lings. yuru was complaining abt the laz day of sch, and how it made her realli sad. strangely i was the one telling her dat she shldnt be sad cos it isnt realli all over, but deep inside me i was quite overwhelmed. abit teetering towards tears. oh well. day ended wif plenty of foto-taking.
HWA CHONG. my home.
today woke up real early for dental and now my teeth hurt real bad. went to meet the rest for lunch and we had pastamania. quite long nv eat le so quite shiok. had tuition n went to watch yuhang ann n kaihong perform at wheelock. dey realli rawk larh. dey realli r damn good. idol man. hahaha den went wif ling to coffee club xpress at wisma to study. which i din do much i admit. shortly after guan n marc came n i went to watch the 2nd performance by dat grp (called LOVE btw) at taka. still dey rock. but den came dis buncha street performers known as street culture and dey did their hip hop shit n it was mudder good. i tell u dey realli rock shit. and i saw joshua wif his stunt biking frenz doing some realli neat tricks on their bmxes. i recorded down videos. oh well n dey r realli nice ppl. some ppl think of em as juvenile delinquents, but when u see how dey realli try to work for ur donations, u realise dey haf a heart as well. perhaps even larger than urs.
went back to the place to study for another hr b4 leaving to meet my parents at yishun. dinner was fine i suppose. den came home n now blogging lorh. im realli exhausted. but... yea. hahaha shit having talked abt laz day of sch made me feel all sian again. oh well... nitez to all! JIAYOU FOR PRELIMS!
i've got another confession to make
i'm your fool
everyone's got their chains to break
holding you
were you born to resist or be abused?
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
are you gone and onto someone new?
i needed somewhere to hang my head
without your noose
you gave me something that I didn't have
but had no use
i was too weak to give in
too strong to lose
my heart is under arrest again
but i break loose
my head is giving me life or death
but i can't choose
i swear i'll never give in
i refuse
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
has someone taken your faith?
its real, the pain you feel
your trust, you must
confess
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
oh...
has someone taken your faith?
its real, the pain you feel
the life, the love
you die to heal
the hope that starts
the broken hearts
your trust, you must
confess
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
i've got another confession my friend
i'm no fool
i'm getting tired of starting again
somewhere new
were you born to resist or be abused?
i swear i'll never give in
i refuse
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
has someone taken your faith?
its real, the pain you feel
your trust, you must
confess
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
oh...
i don't wanna be the best that there is. i wanna be the greatest that there ever was.
REINCARNATE NOW.
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well its been yet another week wifout blogging. haha i feel so far away frm my blog now... oh well but heres daddy!
saturday. basket its so long ago i cant rmb wat happened. dats precisely y my blog is getting boring and dying down. i rmb the times when i had 80 readers a day. now i get 30 i shld be um-chio-ing liaoz. hmm... oh well back to blogging. er... went tuition frm 12-2pm. den... er... shit i realli cant rmb. sux i can onli rmb dat alcohols can undergo mild oxidation to become carbonyl compounds, and if its a a primary alcohol it can undergo further oxidation to a carboxylic acid. OHOHOH NOW I RMB! i went out wif tiffany!! haha yepz she bought me a bday present... which is quite cheat. cos i asked her to... hahaha its a realli cool stussy cap made of 30% straw. and den we watched the island. which i found pretty good. realli invokes thot. aniwae after the show she had to rush home so i went home as well.
sunday. eh... CHURCH DAY! hmm went to church had breakfast wif my bro at BK as usual den went back for cell grp. which was pretty normal as well. sermon was normal. lunch was rushed, like normal. den went home to study. normal. normal. normal.
monday... went to sch for national day celebrations. the band's performance was realli good i think. hahaha at least it was interesting. the onli one of the many performances displayed. oh well mr pang shaved for 5000 bucks. coolios. hahaha went to plaza sing wif the class after nat day celebrations and had lunch there. which was shiok. long time nv eat the indo bbq liaoz. den went coffeebean wif guan n nel aft the class left to mug. firz time i finished a whole chem tut by myself. hahaha the feeling quite shuang. oh well. den went to my GP tuition. b4 having some snacks at plaza sing and goin home.
tuesday nat day itself. stayed home entire day. sianz. prepared for the 60 strong crowd comin to my hse dat nite. hmmz well din watch much of NDP this yr tho i was abit excited abt it. cos there were at least 20 ppl in front of the tv. saw abit of the fireworks n toked to celine over the fone. den wrote my laz angel-mortal letter ever. hahaha abit sad. lilian, huishan, mindy, khailin, runi. no more liaoz... farewell! hahaha
wednesday no sch again. hmm cant rmb... eh... had chem tuition in the aftnn and straight after went to somerset for chem tuition. den aft dat k'lin brought us to mhmd sultan some pub claled eastside i think n had steak there. pretty good i wld sae. haha den aft dat she sent us to orchard. n i rushed to buy the waterbottle n notebook. b4 heading home sweet home.
thursday finally a day of sch. hahaha but it was a crazy day. had tests. essays. assignments. nuts. den aft sch stayed back to study till it was time for physics tuition. den had mcdonalds. for dinner dat is. den tuition le went home
friday. yet another boring day. played netball for the first time in a long while. quite tiring. but i think i nid alot more exercise. haiz... den studied aft sch again. not alot done tho. den went econs tuition. hmmm aft dat went home loh.
saturday. eh... morn woke up had bible study wif the fam. den went wif celine to cut hair. but i din get to see it commence. neither did i see the end product. cos i had to rush off for tuition b4 kenneth got down to starting. well econs tuition was normal. met up wif nel marc n guan aft tuition n studied tgt (including lings) at scotts coffee bean. kinda cramped. kinda noisy. but i got by. wif yet another chapter of organic chem. den went to pizza hut for dinner wif nel cos lings went for fam dinner while marc n guan were already dere wif their juniors for canoe jts. hmm pizza lava cheese wateva was good. quite shiok. n instead of goin walawala or chijmes we decided on our most popular hangout. haha dats my hse. went to carrefour to get the beer. but cldnt let my mum see so dey poured it into marc's nalgene bottle. hahaha quite funny. felt like monks trying to avoid ppl seeing them wif wine and meat lidat. den we watched the man u everton match. think park ji sung did pretty well but too bad he missed his chances at goal. den ended 2-0. guys stayed on for an hr more b4 heading home. cleaned up the place surfed the net checked up on fones den went to sleep
sunday... which is today. CHURCH DAY! din haf breakfast cos we arrived at church late for once and so we had our bible study. den breakfast was humchingpeng youtiao and butterfly buns. hmm went for sermon which was pretty ok... tho abit hard on the ear. went for a burger king lunch n we ended up tokin abt dota. after dat went home n took a nap. went to grandma's place for dinner b4 goin to the serangoon to study. shocked to see dat celine came as well cos she din inform me at all. studied another two chapters of organic chem. shiok left two chapts. n im gonna start working on questions liaoz. well sent her home b4 walking home myself. abit depressed sumhow. dunno y. came home watched arsenal newcastle match. think given was gay but too bad arsenal was clearly the betta team. den came online n met up wif a nasty... problem. (no marc it isnt abt u) n i din even get the chance to release all the steam i had in me. thanx hor. perhaps u shld be a little more understanding as well.
so give me all your poison
give me all your pills
give me all your hopeless hearts and make me ill
your chasing after something that you'll never kill
but if that's what you want then fire at will...
well its been a week since i've blogged. man... i seldom come online nowadays. realli sad. its supposed to be a good thing u see, cos less distractions. but i haven started mugging as of yet. which is realli bad. wadeva haf i done wif the time dat i saved frm dota and blogging and chatting on msn?????? seriously i dunno either... hai aniwae back to proper blogging
saturday. eh... had dental in the morn b4 travelling down to somerset for tuition. reached earli so went to book coms for an aftnn dota session. hmm tuition was ok i guess. was looking forward to my last dota game eva. hahaha or at least for a long while. hmm... it was not too good a game i guess. rmb my best score being 9 k 11 d. which is bad. haiz... oh well after dota slacked ard for abit b4 returning home for some rest.
sunday... CHURCH DAY! many were intrigued by my new hairstyle. or rather no hairstyle. after church had a quick lunch at sunshine plaza b4 goin back home to rest n mug for abit. went to airport swensens for dinner wif fam and ahma to celebrate my bro's bday. the food was good man... yeapz. den went home lorh
monday. embarked on my journey wif harry potter on his 6th yr in sch. hahaha started reading. sian diao. hahaha cant rmb wat happened in the day tho. went for chem tuition i rmb. den came home slept.
tuesday sama sama. not much difference. but went home to sleep b4 goin maths tuition. den went to sleep
wednesday. eh... went home aft sch too. hmm sian den went out again for GP tuition. den loitered ard for abit and saw this realli damn nice stussy cap. hahaha wif the added factor dat im bald, the cap was an object of desire. instantly. oh well went home
thursday. went to watch willy wonka aft sch. haha it wasnt good, but at least it was refreshing. hmm hmm den went to novena sq dere finished reading a set of econs notes. b4 goin to physics tuition. den went home sleep oso
friday. today. er... nuttin much. nominated prom king queen dancing king queen and angel of music. haha went curry wok aft dat for lunch which was damn full cos i drank 2 litres of water haha oh well came back sch did a few econs mcq questions den fell asleep. until jialing came and i sensed disturbance den woke up. went out to tok to her. soon joined by yingyi n guanhow. hahaha we juz stood ard watching council raise the maf deco into the air. b4 leaving for tuition. which was ok. think im beginning to pick up the pace for econs but not any other subj. especially chem n physics. hai came home n now blogging. gonna sleep soon... my arm is injured again... sian
jealousy is a tough thing to fight. sumhow im feeling more n more of it. sucks shit
