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Life Til Today

“You never stop loving. Once you love someone honestly, truly, you will never be able to un-love them. You only find someone you will love more. At that time, your old love will not feel so strong. But it is a heart, it will never let you forget something that ever made you happy” Just, looking at my blog links, it’s pretty sad. Practically none of my friends are updating or even allowing their blog to be alive. Bet they be surprised that I still blog on and off, I mean, isn’t it like 8 yrs ago kind of thing? I think that keeping such blog entries reminds me of how much I love to read and write, and also having the privilege to be able to do so. Back to my current life status update, I guess ‘blessings in disguise’ may not be too bad a sentence or too a scenario to describe because I finally found the job that I looked for!!! Sales coordinator, tho this time round im in the Sales and Marketing dept instead of catering dept. Story goes was I took a one week break afte...
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Best Version of Myself

One of the main reasons why im glad this blog is somehow somewhere alive is cause i usually be able to read back whatever that i had experienced and probably just laughed it away. Then as you grow older you realised you tend not to document everything because not sure what is worth noting down for... So just as i was about one more month down to finishing my probation.. Dad got a mild stroke (thankfully) and after taking a month unpaid leave and coming back again after a month. I realised it has taken a toll on me. I became restless and start to make mistakes at work. Its okay to make mistakes at work but idw my dad to be the reason. Most importantly, i blamed myself for being ever so tired after work, not able to spend time with him much.  And thus i started travelling life with him. I do love to travel.. but maybe just not indo. LOL. and guess the main growth i have (which i finally felt like a decent adult) is that im able to fetch my dad arnd as he rented a car. ohh ohh ...
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Who?

Who still blogs nowadays.. legit. and the ans is me~! Nah, feeling a little bored and just reading some old posts which, awakened some of my memory. I think its true how time eases everything and i do feel sad reading at what i've typed but i know, these too shall pass. Keeping a little update here before i update my diary too. Easier to type than write, or should i say just getting lazier as u get older. I accidentally gave myself to another person unknowingly.. But when the other party is so sure that he has no other feelings for me. I think that feeling sucked alot. but im fine with it. Maybe its my karma for hurting some people in my past. But i hope that we are still friends. in the future. But when the time is up and i will get my closure. I will stay strong and be faithfully waiting again. but in the meantime, this shall be where i rant all my feelings. Now im sure that im ready to go into a new rs, but is the guy ever there? Is is that hard to find someone u like a...
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R e s e t

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Presses the reset* just kiddingz. If only life is that easily being replaced. Then again, it is all those memories that make you to who you are. After the relentless thoughts of re-opening my blog. yepp i did it. Sent a few more resumes, packed my room. Threw away things that i should have long thrown but i was too sentimental. I ended up keeping the photos in cd-rom. Well, they were once happy memories. I think i can proudly say that i am getting better, naturally. In the past i tried soooo hard to move on, forcefully. Guess time really is the best medicine. But no, im stuck in the denial mode of dreading to start a mundane life of working.. wae yo... where has my motivation and positivity of the future went to???? damn. Okay. drama time! watch out for this space while i continue to update where i left off. woohooo ^^
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生命中有很多东西 能忘掉的叫过去 忘不掉的叫记忆

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我不是一定要你回來  只是当又把回忆翻开 除了你之外的空白   还有谁能来教我爱 Have been reminiscing alot recently. looking back at memories, thinking about life. I spent the most hours alone, thinking about what i want. Trying to find back my p4 blog but couldnt remember the link name. but i confirm its damn lame one lol. and just realised friendster is closed down alr. omg???  And so this is my last blog post before i officially close this blog. Thank you all for ur utmost support. Okay la from what i know is there are still some of my hardcore fans out there but cfm less than 5. hahahaha. thanks for letting me share all my thoughts and happening even tho u guys may seem not interested or boring. and those special peopo of whom i have dedicated some of my posts. Those memories~~~  Just wanted to say that congrats to kpk for winning 2nd runner up when all of us were least expecting it. Think her life is pretty good, got height, got beauty, got friends, got bf (shld see the moment when she was ...
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Be brave

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不该想你 但想你了 不该爱你 却爱了 不该受伤 却伤了 不该发生 但却发生了 
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我的心真的受伤了

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我以为我会报复   但是我没有 当我看到我深爱过的男人  竟然像孩子一样无助 这何尝不是一种领悟   让你把自己看清楚 被爱是奢侈的幸福  可惜你从来不在乎 啊~  一段感情就此结束 啊~  一颗心眼看要荒芜 我们的爱若是错误   愿你我没有白白受苦 若曾真心真意付出   就应该满足 啊~   多么痛的领悟 你曾是我的全部  只是我回首来时路的每一步 都走的好孤独 啊~  多么痛的领悟 你曾是我的全部  只愿你挣脱情的枷锁 爱的束缚  任意追逐 别再为爱受苦 Waking up these few days feeling empty, as tho i lost a big part of me. During the nights, i will attempt to sleep earlier, so scared of the raging thoughts. overthinking as usual, clouding myself with misery and sadness. will be closing my blog on 4oct. i still do like writing but i dont wanna maintain this blog anymore. sorry peeps. Life has been so tough on me that i literally feel like dying. aft that, i will proceed on to my road of recovery. but right now, pls let me mourn for our love. at least. 如果爱情是一场赌注 那么这场赌注 我彻底地输了 输得一塌糊涂 卑微着 那段回去你身边的一个多月 是我人生 最不自爱的日子 可以再给更多 可是够了 不想再给了 谢谢身边的人和和朋友们 一直以来给的支持 是你们给我力量 很庆幸 我没失去你们...
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