Its been quite some time since I last wrote down what was in my mind.
There are thousand of night which I missed you.
I browsed through everywhere online using any possible name, nickname, and everyone that are related to you to search for your updated news. Every time when I tried my best to search you online, its like a revision of my memory towards you, even though I knew I am not able to get any updated news or photo which is related to you.
Its been a long time since we last contact, I thought time will fades out my memory to you, but it does not work as what I expected. To be honest, every time I heard your name, I felt exciting, emotionally, and my heart feels painful.
Once in a while, I will try to do revision on our relationship by browsing through all my diary. Every time I browsed through my diary I felt that you are a good girl, and you had given me a lot of chances to make friend, but I am always too emotional and negative, which causes me to overthink on every sentences that you replied to me.
Maybe this is a good start of a new year, that I had discovered some of my problem!
1. Lack of Confident towards myself
2. Negative thought
3. Think too much
4. Does not know how to ask question
It is the starting of the year 2020, I am looking forward to the continuous of our friend-ship!
