A note.

If a girl does not reply your smses/messages, it means she’s genuinely not interested. On a sidenote, the world should learn to type properly, proper spelling and all. We should make it a law for people to type in proper English.

Xiaoen is open to making friends. Friends, as in friends friends.

 

 

I am starting on my essay now. ): It’s going to be a long night. I shall eat something to keep myself awake. Or maybe do starjumps like what Wannqin suggested. Talking to Yanquan and Ziai today made me think about things. How do we get out of this sheep man. How far will we go in life man. Will we even make it to the starting line man.

Might not reply your tags any time soon, but here’s a note to acknowledge all your wonderful tags and thanks for dropping by. Apologies for the crap posts these few days. There’ll probably be more to come. Sunbeamm is an abode where I can speak/utter/ramble/mumble in rhymes and riddles that perhaps only God can comprehend. But it makes me feel a tad better all the same.

Current mood: afraid, worried and extremely lost. Lost as in, trapped in the middle of a vast dessert and dying of dehydration, stuck in a quicksand kind of lost.

I could go bemoaning the whole day…

I shall end off with a phrase I learnt from Ziai ‘cos it sounds cheem (er to me it does) and pro. C’est la vie. I have no idea what it means.

But C’est la vie anyway.

 

/edit-
C’est la vie: French expression for “Such is life”.

Indeed, such is life. I will get over this one-sixth-life crisis soon.

On losing hope.

 

Oh dear.

Of memories gradually fading into Neverland

Rummaging through the archives of Gmail, I chanced upon…

(SANDY THAT’S YOU RIGHT?)

That here they were, once.

Huibin. One of the coolest seniors I’ll never, ever forget.

 

All of which look so foreign, yet exceedingly familiar. I can almost feel it all, the mud, the laughter, the darkness, the trust… All of it. Somehow, lost, into the treasured forgottens of our memories. What remains are but photos, time cannot make up for the lost smiles, captured in still shots, static, stagnant.

I miss the seniors dearly.

 

One day, we too will fade into the silent memories… What we will leave behind- a love and legacy for all to follow, just as how we have trod in the paths of those before us. I wonder to myself in bemusement how juniors will Ctrl-Save Xiaoen as, in their minds and hearts next time.

 

 

It’s not a time for reminiscence and reflecting… Homework thuds silently at the back of the brain, calling for urgent attention.

 

I’m done.

Over and out. Peace.

Facebook

Sunbeamm is starting to look uncannily similar to a twitter account…

Pardon the weird title. It’s just that every single person around me has been talking about Facebook, (facebook and more facebook)  and it’s been really annoying when I can’t get access to what they’re talking about. Man…

But no, not yet. Not anytime soon.

 

Tweet, tweet, tweet…

I am… er wasting my life away at the moment.

My Roos friends, if you’re seeing this… Would you like to study with me/together this week?

 

 

 

 

 

Dear God, I have a lot to talk to You about. ): Will you come for a cuppa tea with me?

-

Feeling extremely pensive. A million thoughts racing through… of which about nine hundred thousand are pointless.

Xiaoen is pondering about how far she will make it in life.

Was going to post a one-liner post:

“I am lagging very far behind behind behind… … …”

 

 

… when I saw this.

THE SOFT SKILLS
our class was having this 'what is the point in studying' talk with mr shone that day.
to which xiaoen was totally unconvinced with mr shone's argument.
and i am going to mention xiaoen...
even though she's probably not doing really well in her maths now...
but it's like... we've got faith in her...
like how do you put it?
like we are always under the impression that good grades --> successful future crap right.
but i think xiaoen is the one person that we are confident will make it big in the future regardless of her current grades.
~
as what cherynn mentioned, her soft skills are too strong.
like she can lead, can present and speak really well.
although she's not the best team member out there, she can do projects and stuff.
like... there's every expectation for her to outdo helin and everyone else in the future lah.
she's the type of person whose abilities are greatly compromised in the current education system.
haha.
am i praising her too much?

 

Wow. Just, wow man. Seriously.

In case it’s not already obvious enough, that is taken from a wonderful tyanquan.blogspot.com, my daily source of wikipedia information, entertainment, musings, and a place where I can read about someone expressing her raw-est and most honest feelings, many a times they are how I feel deep down inside as well, except that I don’t have the guts and patience to talk about it publicly. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

As for now… block tests beckon.

I really don’t want to fail Math (again).

 

…

 

Peace out.

Give thanks;

All praise and glory be given to God! (:

Thank you for seeing me through my darkest times, please help me stay focused through this coming round of studying and getting back on track. Amen.

(:

 

 

Ps, we’re now President’s Guides! Congrats to Sarah and Xinyun, thank you for getting the award together! It means a lot that we can get this together at the final stage!

This award hasn’t come easy.
It belongs to many, many people.

The Guiders,

The Seniors,

Batchmates,

GOBO10 especially,

Juniors,

Friends,

Classmates,

The family, the ever-supportive, constantly encouraging, family.

Teachers-whom-I’ve-owed-homework,

And to every single one of you reading this.

This belongs to Nanyang Guides (:

 

 

This award belongs to God. Thank you so much, Lord.

 

All of you mean so much in my life. Dedications soon!

 

Love,
(:

maybe i should just remove this field that says ‘enter title here’

Today has been a ridiculously dark, gloomy and sappy day the entire day. It’s been cloudy, rainy, drizzly, rainy, cloudy, cold, cold, cold. Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Not a nice weather to be in.

Anyways, I feel about 3kg lighter, after being sick for the past 3 days. Stomach still breaks out in bouts of pain occasionally, but am generally fine (: ‘Ve rested, sorted out some stuff, gotten down to get some work done. Not a lot, but I feel quite accomplished already.

Woke up at 0830 today to watch the solar eclipse on Channel U. ‘Twas quite amazing really! The entire sky darkens in a matter of a few seconds, bringing the entire cityscape to blackness, before the sun’s rays emerge in a couple of minutes again. Tried to look out for the partial eclipse outside the window at 9:11am (apparently that’s the best time to do so in Singapore!) but the entire sky was so cloudy, the sun was nowhere to be seen. Saw the eclipse in India on Channel Newsasia as well. All I can say is wow, wow and wow. Have to salute the people’s patience man, standing there for hours just to witness 3-6 mins of darkness. But it’s a super duper rare phenomenon that happens only once every hundreds of years, so I guess it’s worth it.

‘Twas really quite a sight! This one’s called a diamond ring if I’m not wrong.

Felt quite smart/knowledgeable after watching the documentaries and learning all the terms/history about solar eclipse hahahah (: Praise God for His marvelous creations! Am awestruck at how mysterious and beautifully made Nature is. It couldn’t have just popped out like that, perfectly balanced, carefully calculated right? Surely someone must’ve been behind it all.

Feel like I’ve missed out a lot a lot a lot at school man! The thought of catching up with everyone else scares me. Blocks are around the corner. ): I need help with Math. Like really man. Went through Chem with Mom a few days ago, thank God for a Chem teacher at home. It was quite funny, cos I insisted she taught me using the whiteboard. I sat up really straight and raised up my hand to ask questions. Haha! I want to climb back up for Geog again. But at the current rate ah, ay. And I need to get out of Chinese remedial man! Must must must ace Chinese blocks muhahahahah. Language Arts-wise, need to brush up on crafting an opinion and presenting an arguement logically and not rah-rah all over the place. I have no plan for IH and Math.

Sigh, so many things have been messed up by H1N1. I miss CCA/everyone ):

 

Eh sorry, ran out of inspiration to post after going off for dinner. On a sidenote, found this photo on the Council website! Hahahahah. My hair looks quite cool leh! 8)

Okay byebye (: Am off to complete a few more pieces of work, wait for Mommy to come home, and I shall sleep by 1130. And henceforth lead a disciplined life. I’ll try to. (:

Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I’m so cold ):

 

PS, if you’re reading this…
Sandy, cheer up! <3

… title please?

Hahahahah I puked after posting the previous post - -"

Okay take away the hahahahah. - -"

Anws, am down with stomach flu, MC till Wednesday. ‘Ve been sleeping, eating, sleeping, sleeping. Nothing else, really. Almost died on my way to the doc’s ytd. My grandma brought me to the clinic, almost blacked out while crossing the road. Like seriously black out. It’ll be so sad if I died.

Oh then right! WAHPIANG I TELL YOU AH.

Hahahah sorry I suddenly feel very ji dong. After crossing the road, I taboleh tahan (cannot take it in Malay, fyi) already, so I sat down on the ground (in the middle of a coffeeshop that was closed, super unglam ): ) I think my grandma was quite shocked. This auntie came along and was very concerned, cos my face was really quite white and I was breaking out in a lot of cold sweat. She asked my grandma (in Chinese), “What happened to her?” Gran told her I was sick and giddy. Then she asked (WAH BEST THIS ONE I TELL YOU.) “Oh, is she your maid?”

Oh tian. I almost passed out immediately.

Do I look like a maid? ): Gran said it’s cos I’m too dark ): ): I was wearing a t-shirt with fbts okay. ):

Sad.

Never mind. I’ve run out of stories to say. Thank you to every one of you who’ve smsed/ tagged/ called to show concern! <3 And for all the get well soon-s and smiley faces and all. It means a lot (:

Yanquan’s SMS-es made me laugh a lot yesterday. Hahah eh but you never sms me today ):

The Roooooooooooooooooooooooooooooos called me just now after PLC. Aiyoh I love them to bits! (: Squishy.

Haha okay really nothing to say already. I shall go and do something constructive with my life. (I’ll probably end up sleeping again, really.) On a sidenote, I’ve eaten enough porridge to last me the whole year. I’ll probably not eat porridge until I really have to again. …

Peace out.

Knock out.

High fever + MASSIVE puking = not a pleasant feeling ):

I. Am. Alive.

The past six hours has been sleeping/ checking temperature/ puking/ sleeping/ fever/ drinking water. But I am very much alive and well now. (: And I feel slimmer after all the puking. (: Hahahah.

Was looking through gmail just now, some of the entries for the Mini-Competition are amazing man! Woah! To juniors reading this, good job and give yourself a pat on the back (:

Okay haven’t got much to say now. The stomach still feels a bit funny and strange. Hopefully I’ll be well by tmrw! (: Cannot afford not to go school O:

Some photos… (Hopefully Windows Live Writer doesn’t die on me ): )

 

GOBO10 PGA Closure @ Swirl! (:

 
It is good, man. It is good. ‘Twas first time for all of us there; Xiaoen is definitely going back there next time. Thought the service was rather good (:

Oh our way there… Epic.
Hahahah! Chinny we can totally get a career in impersonation.

 
Scrabble-ing (:
And those were my tiles. O: Sad.

 
-insert caption here-
Chinwen I can start a folder of you in my photo album already lor.

Wannqin looking intellectual.
Kinda.

Eh you know she won us at the game of scrabble! O: Shocking.
Do not judge a book by its cover, really.
Do not judge Wannqin by her specs/hair, really.

Playing/eating…

 
The other table doing UNO.

This is how Chinwen eats.

This is how Chinwen and June eats.

THIS, is how Sarah eats.
Fork, nice, cut, put into mouth nicely.
Indeed, she sets a role model for us all to follow.
Oh btw! They’re all eating Pratza-s.
Prata + Pizzas! (:

Mango sorbet…

Mango, What-is-that, Chocolate

Chocolate…

And I became Wannqin’s paparazzi for the day.

More of her.

Chatting dubiously.

…

Chin.

Hahahah eh my face is so smooth!

Chinwen brings out the retard in you.

 

Kapap Self-defence Course!!
We learnt how to fight against cheekopeks and rapists/robbers.
’Twas a really insightful course. Learnt alot, and felt very empowered after that.
The instructors were really good!

Group shot (1)

(2)

No photos of what happened during the course, but it was great fun, lots of punching, squealing. Friendships were broken (joking) and we all got hit in the face at least once. Am interested in taking up another course! … I run out of things to say.

Photos of Racial Harmony Day are with Mr Shone. It was the first time NY ever had smth like that, as far as I can recall, ‘cept for Chinese New Year, people rarely dress up. It was great fun seeing everyone in their ethnic costumes!! :D

 

Okay am off. Tired and queasy ):

Adios (:

true.

 

(taken from Sandy’s)

except that I didn’t wear really wear dresses at six.

I give up trying to upload photos. Windows Live Writer what is wrong with you! ): Bite you. ):

Am slipping into a mood of utter sian-ness. I want to go and sleep… and wake up with all my work magically c0mpleted.

Anyways,

It

is

Over.

!!!

 

After 2 months (is it?) of this long, tiring, yet fulfilling and mind-blowing journey, it is finally over. Whatever the outcome, President Guide or not, we’ve given our best, fought the good fight. And now it’s time to move on with life. (ie start clearing all your overdue homework, Xiaoen.) I wish there could be some sorta copy and transfer function, to share with all the juniors everything we’ve learnt. Inspire them, as how we’ve been inspired. But anyways, am looking forward to Swirl on Wed (: I will do a nice long reflection on this another time, I promise!

 

Week 2 was a major bummer. Quit bumming around, man. Counting down to blocks. Please don’t screw up again. Anyone wants to teach me differentiation? *pearly smile*

 

This is so pointless, goodbye. Life beckons.

 

Gone too soon
Michael Jackson (1958 – 2009)

Like A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon

Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon

Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon

Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon

Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon

Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon

Gone Too Soon

 

 

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

-

It’s 11:02pm and my supper is cooking in the kitchen. (That sounds grammatically wrong, but ack.) Menu for the night? Baked rice. With extra cheese and luncheon. Yep, no more instant noodles. I have upgraded my supper diet. First time cooking, I hope it turns out fine. If not I’ll resort to instant mee again. My stomach is growling. This is bad. So much for shedding weight.

I should just start a twitter right. But I dislike word limits. And it is lame telling the world everything you do, like what I am doing now. Why am I bothered to tell you that I am hungry and am waiting for my baked rice to cook.

 

 

…

 

 

Hey you guys. I am hungry and am waiting my baked rice to cook.

What should we do?

Xiaoen is talking to Ziai now and BAM! BAM! BAM! BAM! BAM! a lot of things are flying at me now, hitting me straight in the face. I suppose Ziai’s getting hit in the face too.

Anyways, I bought a Dora the Explorer colouring book at the Pasar Malam. Plus a pair of giraffe earrings.

 

Okay bye. Am off to go on wallowing.

 

[edit 10:20pm- Can I add that my colouring book comes with a 110-sticker page? :D]

This is what I learnt today…

 

“We have the tendency to think, but not to act. We have the tendency to feel, but not to act.

If we go on thinking and feeling without acting, we soon are unable to act.”

- C.S. Lewis

Which is why we need to learn to take action and do things as soon as they come to mind. And it is a lesson I need to learn.

 

Happy Youth Sunday to all you out there, be it the young, old and the young at heart!

Xiaoen is a sappy mop.

 

NDP theme song 2009- What do you see

 

Oh dear, I actually started crying at the bridge. The lyrics somehow hit a twanging chord in me.

What do you see
When life makes you take on a mountain
You’ll see that nothing’s gonna stand in your way
Together we can share the strength of a million
And the courage of a million more…

The video has captured Singapore most beautifully! Love the part when the silhouette of the Singapore flyer stands against the illuminated background, with the ever-changing sky and clouds. Amazing.

‘Ve heard of Electrico before, but didn’t know much about them. Now after this video, they are really a band worth watching out for. Local talents have a long way to go in terms of breaking into the global markets, or even into Singaporeans’ hearts, but I think it’s good if we can show more support for budding artistes and their art.

 

This is where I won’t be alone.
For this is where I know,

I’m home.

Of life and robots.

If only we could, in life…

Ctrl + Z,

Ctrl + C,

Ctrl + V,

Backspace,

Delete,

Ctrl + S,

Print screen,

Fast forward,

Rewind,

Ctrl  + End,

Ctrl + Alt + Del,

Alt + Tab

…

…

…

 

If only computer process and keyboard shortcuts were applied to life. Life would be good. Life would be weird.

 

System overload. Restart?
(Y) (N)

(Y)