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Honestly, i wanted to post an emo post today. Already had the words and everything formed up in my head already. Perhaps the rain in the afternoon washed it all away. (destroying, along with it, my ENTIRE PILE OF MATH NOTES/WORKSHEETS ah darn.)

The people around me are depressed enough already, shall not post emo stuff for now, otherwise yall will become sadder ):

I should just go and dig a hole and bury myself forever.

It gets a bit tiring, all this pretence, isn’t it?

Honestly, as a going-on sixteen year old girl, studying, food on the table everyday, a roof over my head, education, friends, family. What’s there to be so upset/troubled about?

Beats me too.

Maybe I shouldn’t go for it. I’m not up to it.

On a sidenote, I might be going overseas to study next year. Perhaps! (:

I have absolutely no short-term goals for myself for now, in terms of studies and stuff, oh dear. Mm, but at least I’ve my ambition! :D Which I’m very set on, and makes me want to grow up quickly. (Oh, adult world. Will I look back at where I am now and sigh?) Another ‘goal’ is the common secret that Sarah & I have inside us! Shhhhh. (; Haha!

Aaah, I’m sorry this post sounds so bleargh. I foresee a few more emo posts, unless something unexpected comes along the way. Mm, Graces post next week will be a happy one though! I’ll get over this soon, I hope!

I’M SO CONFUSEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. PFFT.

 

  

(Sorry I don’t know how to reply you cos I really have no idea what colour it is currently! :/)

escapism.

Blogging takes my mind off things. Temporal, albeit, but at least it makes the little heart feel slightly happier (: Photography never fails to inspire. One day, I will also take beautiful, real photos like these.

Today was a weird day. ‘ve been feeling rather weird of sorts recently. Feels like mini butterflies hopping around in my already congested brain and tummy, for no reason at all. School is beginning to wear me out a lot. A lot. Or perhaps I am the only one wearing myself out. Many things, I fail to comprehend. Perhaps I never will. Perhaps they are never meant to be understood. Thinking is good, but thinking too much is not. Am very frustrated with myself.

Anyways, here are some photos taken off Deviantart to share with souls out there who are feeling just a little down and weary. One day, we will return to eternal childhood, filled with innocence, smiles and the little joys of life. Keep going, everybody!

Somehow, somewhere, there’ll always be a friend or two alongside you (:

photospam!!

Mr Shone and our new class tee :D
hahahah we got our t-shirt before the new rule was implemented (;

hehheh so cute

 

Photo-taking yesterday! (:
Our last year together as a class, after which we’ll be graduating and leaving Nanyang henceforth forevermore already.

Cherynn, Qinyan, Naijing, Charmaine, Huier (:

table rightey, Caijing :D

Huier, Wangying, plus Sisi in the background (:

Biyuan, Yinuo (awake for once) and Audrey’s hand

Kakay, Liqi, Audrey in the background (:
this photo is very nice!

with Suattenggggggggg <3

 
Mr Lim Chow Hoon :D                          …and Totoro (x

Huier, Charmaine, Naijing, Totoro, Xiaoen, Liqi!

Xiaoen, Charmaine, Siyan, Audrey, Huili, Kakay, Mr Khoo, Helin, Liqi, Qinyan, Yinuo, Meijuan, Biyuan!

MR KHOO IS SO CUTE! I think our class is beginning to like him more and more (:
Hahahah emperor moth and the butterfly (x

Ehh, let’s call this photo, “Contrasts”.
Colour-wise and Size-wise (:

With Miss Teo :D too lazy to list down all the names.

Mr Shone! He is good at posing eh :D

Class photo [1] :D
look at Meijuan HAHAHAH!

Class photo [2]

 

Felt like crying after TDP ytd, and during class photo-taking also. D:  It’s quite sad lah, four years just flew past like that. I suppose the real feeling of farewell will hit only when we really graduate. For now, let’s cherish the next few months in school and put in all that we’ve got (:

I thought parade was quite good yesterday! (: Am really really proud of everyone for pulling it through. Praise God! the long pause in the middle of the message was because of my gloooooooooves. Hahahah was fumbling for so long with the cards lah! So malu. - -“ but Cherynn and Siyan told me that they thought I was waiting for the school to keep quiet before continuing with the message WOAH. Haha! (; On a sidenote, truly appreciate Batch08’s efforts in making the big big card and for the gifts. They are so adorable! <3

Got a lot of things to say now, but am rushing off for (our last) Thinking Day Rally. (‘: Just want to end off by saying that I’m really, really thankful for being in Nanyang Guides and 410’09 (:

ramblings

Xiaoen is… currently bottling up some feelings and is feeling very #$%^&%$ )’:

pfft.

on another note, Thinking Day Parade 2009 is tomorrow. tomorrow is Thinking Day Parade. our last parade, ever. probably my last parade in my entire life. wanted to cry very badly after lunch drill today, was (and still is) a mish-mash of emotions. must be the teenage hormones. i have a lot of stuff to say but am not in the right mental state to say anything so shall leave it for now (: probably after parade itself then.

have been feeling very restrained while blogging these days. want to blog things out but ay not suitable to be disclosed to the whole world. i think Sunbeamm will go on private/invited viewing soon. but then it’ll be weird also. or maybe a separate private blog somewhere in cyberspace. we’ll see.

sleeping clock totally conked out the past few days, i am absolutely burnt out. looking forward to the weekends, albeit forseeing that there wont be much time for rest with all the SIAs and stuff also. havent got a dress for graces camp yet. maybe i should go for formal dinner with t-shirt and shorts O: haha kidding, the miss graceful title is waiting for me, remember? (;

trip to kranji war memorial today was… i dont know how to describe it. in a good way, in a good way. would’ve loved to take photos, but i happily left my handphone and camera in the canteen. i think i’ll go back one day. it’s a beautiful place. peaceful, quiet. first time there and definitely not the last. again, not in the right mental state to post about personal feelings about the trip so yup (:

we always wish we can turn back time, dont we? if i could turn back time, i would do many many things differently. (: sometimes i think to myself why am i such a failure ._. okay cancel that ‘sometimes’ and add in ‘many a times’.

eyes are drooping already. severe lack of sleep yesterday. i need to sleep more, so that my eyes can grow bigger than someone’s. i need help with math math math. mathhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. chem crash course with mom over the weekends i guess.

i want to go on a holiday/escape to another part of the world! :D

for now, it’s one step at a time. homework beckons. off to polish boots! (:

Lord, i commit tomorrow’s parade into Your hands. You know our weaknesses and You are our only source of strength (: thank you for seeing everyone through footdrill sessions, through the sun, through the rain, through sweat, through blisters, through injuries, through cough, sore throat, flu… tomorrow we’ll all be working hard for one goal, to deliver our best as one contingent and one Nanyang Guides, i pray that things will turn out well tomorrow. empower each and every one of us Lord!

yay g’night everybody (:

pffffffffffffffffft!

 

WOAH!

This is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G O:
the painting looks weird at the beginning, but watch allllllll the way till the end! :D

 

Gladys, the most adorable little sister I’ll ever get in entire life is officially fifteen. Tried to type an SMS but ended up deleting it away - -“ (sorry Mei!) Y’know that kinda feeling when this person is so close to you you’ve already said every word possible and no words can describe anymore? Haha! Will write you a letter soon :D love!

`kaleidosc09pe

We,

The Peer Support Leaders,
The Board of Monitors,
The Board of Elected CCA leaders,
The Student Council,

The Student Leaders of Nanyang Girls’ High School

Pledge to serve cheerfully
As we lead
Upholding our school motto

To work as one
Esteeming the other as better

And to seek to inspire
A greater love for our school
And our community

Class was in Audi today :D feels different (and great, but of course! ;)) I need to declare my love for our Auditorium. I think we tend to take it for granted eh, going to it for assemblies and stuff. Mm, must learn to appreciate things around us (: I think I’ll miss the Auditorium when we leave Nanyang :/

Do you realise I’m typing with proper capitalisation and all! :D

MASSIVE PHOTOSPAM BELOW (:

Stephhhhhh! Acting shy ;D

 
With some of the Apples (: Peiting looks like a boy with a skirt. :D
AND IM AS TALL AS STEPH, HAH! :D

 
The Mentally Unsound and the Sane.




Below are some shots taken before the invest commenced- (Pardon the repitition, and some are blurred out!)


Empty chairs, patiently waiting to be filled.

See how the metal chair legs reflect onto the stage floor! So pretty!

HAHAH my classmate asked me, “Eh what is Kaleidoscoge?”

Liqi excitedly talking to Kakay (:
Poor Kakay, she lost her handphone on the bus today. ):

Blurred out. But Liqi looks so cute!!! :D

Blurred :/ Qinyan, Liqi, Jinjin (:

…and again (: much nicer this time! :D

And nobody bothers about Huier and Audrey fighting in the background - -“

Eh this photo is so cool!!! Does it appear to you that the focusing is on Qinyan’s hand? (: Very nice effect! :D

The little kids behind decided to stop fighting and behave properly (:

Charmaine, Oh (;

Emcees(: They did a good job, so kudos to them! (:

Aaaaaaah, the lighting! ): Overexposed :/
But when all the SLs stood together, it was really really nice (:
Fantastic work :D

NYPSL FTW! :D
heh, legs together, right hand over left, smile without showing your teeth, bow 45 degrees (:

And again (:

NYSL2009 onstage.

Another one (:

Seated(:
See how graceful and professional everybody is! :D

People might go, “WAHPIANG need so exaggerated one meh?!!”
You do not know how absolutely painful it is to sit for so long in that position. It’s madness.
(Evelyn, remember? :))

I challenge you to try it mannnnnnnnn! :D

Watch out, NYSLs’09 all have strong strong legs now! (:

HAH! Stephhhhhhhhh.
(Caught ya, legs are supposed to be together yo! x))

And another one.

Part of NYPSL Exco’09 (: The colours look really good in this photo! (:

Another.

Mr Shone! ^^ The Camera Guy :D
Yay we love Mr Shone (:

the Boy With The Skirt on her way out to receive her badge (:

(:

NYPSL Exco’09, waiting patiently for Enhan to walk over to take their bows (:

“1, 2, Bow” (:

Walking back(:

Getting ready to sit down!

Mr Shone happily snapping away (:

NYSC ACE (:

Ms Yap (:

Another one (: This one the colour too bright.

(:

(:

Mr Shone(:

Poise, ladies! (;

Mr Shone again…

This was a really cute moment! :D
Enhan presented flowers to the senior who spoke, and the senior hugged her onstage (:
So cool lah!

The dance :D :D :D
(Got too engrossed in the front part, didnt take any photos >D)
It was really very, very nice when everyone came onstage together in their different coloured tops!

More…

Even more…

LOVE THIS PICTURE. Can you imagine how all of them were feeling at that moment!
WOAH right! :D

Finale.
It is but the beginning.

 

 

Other random stuff-
` THE VIRUS HAS RETURNED TO MY COMP IM REALLY ANGRY AND SAD ):
` Almost got a heart attack in the morning explaining the commands to the school. It was the most impromptu I’ve ever done in my entire 15 years of life. I speak fast when I’m nervous, you realise.
` This post has come to an end, thank you for reading (: