Dear Lord...

Why, Lord?

Dear Father,

im sorry if i was ever upset with You,

just a minute ago i wanted to blog about how unfair, cruel and heartless You are.

it is so difficult, so difficult, Lord, to control my emotions and tears when i see those little children in eternal sleep.

no man will ever comprehend Your will, Lord.

but please, help us to remember that everything is good in Your time.

Father, i pray that in this time of pain, sorrow and anguish, please comfort broken hearts and mend shattered homes.

parting is such sweet sorrow;

seeing our children die must be such terrible pain.

but Lord, these are Your children too.

just like how You had to turn away and forsake Your Son, when Jesus died on the cross,

You must be hurting now as You watch man suffer for his own actions.

please help us to see the light, as we grope in this world filled with darkness.

i cant wait to go to heaven to see You, where there will be no more pain and hate and anguish.

where we will sing praises to You everyday and our hearts will be filled with eternal joy...

... so help us now, to overcome satan's temptations, to overcome this pain and sorrow,

as we fix our eyes on You.

Amen.

SURVIVORS.

went to da qiao primary school to conduct a science workshop on saturday for LA SIA [:
it was crazy fun, nerve-wrecking, blood-boiling, heart-warming all at the same time :D yanquan said it was the first time she saw me 'losing it'. haha! and i was seriously re-considering my career choice of being a teacher. seriously. nah, but this is really something unimaginable and im really extremely happy we chose to take up the challenge we set for ourselves and im so so so proud of my group! HEH! [;




WE ROCK.


we survived 35 screaming kids! :D

you know what, i might still be a teacher afterall. i love the warm and fuzzy feeling :D
5 qualified nannies + mini teachers at your service [;

tears and internal injuries

weekend's gonna be super busy.
i really want to run away and plonk down and drop dead now, honestly.

mom was telling me bout how she'll be going for a wake service tmrw (later, as a matter of fact, since it's friday), cos her student's dad passed away after being comatised for 2months. and it's the exam period for primary school now. and another primary 2 girl, whose mom passed away too.

started crying and crying and crying.

after half a minute of sitting there, feeling extremely sad, with tears streaking down my face, yet having absolutely no idea why i was crying,

i forced myself to stop crying.

i guess i wasnt really crying over the incident. partly yeah, but i think i've been bottling up alot of stuff, subconsciously. (yes yes, everyone who's reading goes, "i knew that all along!") and it just triggered me off.

watched 3 minutes of american idol and went back into the room during commercials. i sat staring at the wall, feeling utterly upset that i stopped crying. cos it felt like only a bit of stuff were drained away.

i wont be surprised if i die really young cos of internal injuries.

smelly nappies and enormous eyes.

there are moments in life when things get really tough.


you wish you could just plonk and cry and mourn about your plight.


or escape into a world of your own,
where marshmallows grow abundant and the sky is filled with candy floss.


you might not even know what's going on, cos everything is happening too much, too fast.




stop to think. say a silent prayer.


if you're weary, close your eyes and rest a little.


go out and play, breathe in the air and cast your troubles aside!


smile.


we'll waddle towards the finish line, together. (:

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