oops just realised i double-posted the previous post. :/
ANYWAYS. today was a slightly happier day??? :0 yea. at least i didnt feel so sad. i think.
sheesh, i shouldnt be blooging now; but i feel it's important.. so here goes.
remember all the crazy laughter, the fun times, the heartfelt words, the warm hugs, the nutty bickering, the loving friendship??? it was just yesterday. (or at least it feels like)
maybe im kindof ignorant or smth, maybe i dont really understand the insights, maybe i cant feel the those tangled feelings cos im not really involved. maybe. but looking from the outside, it's just so, stange. i mean, i dont see the whole point of this!!! it's not solving the existing 'problem'. (if there's even one) each end has it's views, and i think it will require both ends' participation to untie the knot. seriously.
we have eyes to see, ears to hear, hearts to feel. dont yous feel anything at all? no? no? no? the rock's so big. and yet it's like it's transparent... ??? and then it's just like putting more rocks to make the big rock seem less obvious. seriously, it aint workin'.
(digress abit: my feet is cold!! i need socks. X))
continue.
just side by side, yet it feels like miles? so near yet so far.
surely the foundation of the friendship is not that weak??? i dont believe it cant withstand this. it's not so flippy floppy!! and surely both understands each other enough, to compromise, to have courage to face it TOGETHER? should talk. should listen. should understand. should patch up. :D right? and everyone is just beside to help reconstruct this again. we'll gladly chop off our arms to help! and our ears are popped open to listen! need a hug? no worries, you'll get ample supply of free and warm hugs!! <3
sorry, dont know if this sounds like gibber or ranting.. but here's just a troubled and affected soul sharing its two-cents worth. (:
january is over, how long more?
one day?
two days?
one year?
two years?
look back next time, and live to regret it? for not cherishing this dear treasure?
sorry for ranting.
(digression again: xiaoen is currently wearing two PAIRS of socks. because it's cooold! brrrr.)
yea, FACE IT.
sorree.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
tired la ._.
tired.
i shall have to try harder!!! otherwise i will die. X/
gahh. too tired to type anymore.
enough. ._.
i shall have to try harder!!! otherwise i will die. X/
gahh. too tired to type anymore.
enough. ._.
tired la ._.
tired.
i shall have to try harder!!! otherwise i will die. X/
gahh. too tired to type anymore.
enough. ._.
i shall have to try harder!!! otherwise i will die. X/
gahh. too tired to type anymore.
enough. ._.
Monday, January 29, 2007
hurt, yet comforted.
yay. new blogskin ((:
had already planned to change long time ago, but was too lazy :/ and now, i see amanda change, so i also change!!! whee~
today was a sad sad day. D: and xiaoen is still feeling down now :( hais. dont know what to say.
feeling:
guilty.
lousy.
inferior.
scared.
pfft. still, thanks chinwen for trying to cheer me up in school <3 your funny antics never fail to amuse me.
GRAH GRAH GRAH.
firstly, i forgot to go for guides punishment. =( which means that i will have to have a make up punishment for my already THIRD punishment :/ i forgot the other time too. :/ i think i've went down for most number of punishments in guides already la. :/ I MUST NOT FORGET ANYMORE. :/
next, i am going to fail my maths test with a miserable 1/10. and im 85% sure of that. which means that i've just earned myself a free pass to mr tkc maths remedials pte. ltd. wow, congratulations xiaoen.
and my mind has been stuck for the past few days. im so dead for common tests.
im gonna fail humans and maths. maybe science.
and do you know how pathetic i feel when sitting beside are geniuses??? yea you people. but still, thanks for helping me so much with my work along the way. i know im a lousy student. :/
grah. chinwen, i think i'll go for maths tuition with you. i go ask my parents first.
and i think im gonna see the dentist on saturday. braces.
and my tailbone is still hurting. owwww. yea, the other day i was competing some see-who-can-split-the-highest-in-the-air competition. with chinwen (who else?!) when i think i slightly misplaced my bone. :/ yea. but im fine, dont worry. (:
and that was only my second smiley face in this post.
sorry for being so sad.
and sometimes i also wonder to myself, am i really happy? are all my smiles and laughter REAL? yes, like what sandy said about herself, i could be looking very very happy (when i really am) and deep deep deep inside, it hurts. who knows? i dont even know. only God knows.
[in the midst of the storms,
through the wind and the waves..
You'll still be faithful,
You'll still be faithful, Lord]
i thank God for everyone around me.
and i pray that the storms will cease.
i dont know what happened, but i can feel it. and it's making me sad. remember those happy times? it was only yesterday... and now, why? i dont know, i dont really want to know. i hope things will patch up, soon. <3
feel it??
prayerful,
hopeful,
thankful.
amen =)
had already planned to change long time ago, but was too lazy :/ and now, i see amanda change, so i also change!!! whee~
today was a sad sad day. D: and xiaoen is still feeling down now :( hais. dont know what to say.
feeling:
guilty.
lousy.
inferior.
scared.
pfft. still, thanks chinwen for trying to cheer me up in school <3 your funny antics never fail to amuse me.
GRAH GRAH GRAH.
firstly, i forgot to go for guides punishment. =( which means that i will have to have a make up punishment for my already THIRD punishment :/ i forgot the other time too. :/ i think i've went down for most number of punishments in guides already la. :/ I MUST NOT FORGET ANYMORE. :/
next, i am going to fail my maths test with a miserable 1/10. and im 85% sure of that. which means that i've just earned myself a free pass to mr tkc maths remedials pte. ltd. wow, congratulations xiaoen.
and my mind has been stuck for the past few days. im so dead for common tests.
im gonna fail humans and maths. maybe science.
and do you know how pathetic i feel when sitting beside are geniuses??? yea you people. but still, thanks for helping me so much with my work along the way. i know im a lousy student. :/
grah. chinwen, i think i'll go for maths tuition with you. i go ask my parents first.
and i think im gonna see the dentist on saturday. braces.
and my tailbone is still hurting. owwww. yea, the other day i was competing some see-who-can-split-the-highest-in-the-air competition. with chinwen (who else?!) when i think i slightly misplaced my bone. :/ yea. but im fine, dont worry. (:
and that was only my second smiley face in this post.
sorry for being so sad.
and sometimes i also wonder to myself, am i really happy? are all my smiles and laughter REAL? yes, like what sandy said about herself, i could be looking very very happy (when i really am) and deep deep deep inside, it hurts. who knows? i dont even know. only God knows.
[in the midst of the storms,
through the wind and the waves..
You'll still be faithful,
You'll still be faithful, Lord]
i thank God for everyone around me.
and i pray that the storms will cease.
i dont know what happened, but i can feel it. and it's making me sad. remember those happy times? it was only yesterday... and now, why? i dont know, i dont really want to know. i hope things will patch up, soon. <3
feel it??
prayerful,
hopeful,
thankful.
amen =)
Sunday, January 28, 2007
yoohoo! (:
grah grah grah!!!
xiaoen has been blog-hopping everyday, yet she's just too lazy to blog!!! teehee.
oh wells, i shant elaborate much; but i think our performance for pagaent rehersal on sat was pretty well done?? yea. =)
me and chinwen went crazy la. we missed our sec3s like crazy. we were sitting there, watching others perform, and we were wondering what our dearest jie jie mens were doing. we really missed you all!!!!!!! and then dunno if our eyes were playing tricks, or our brain was going nuts, we kept seeing clones of our seniors!!! chinwen was like, "hey! doesnt that girl look like ______???" (i forgot who.) and then after that we saw so many people la! there was charis (lookalike % = 90%!!), anna(shin), and alot more i dont know who. oh! and there was this girl who looked like an-ning+calean+kendra+shiting... T.T it was crazy. chinwen and i were going mad.
but hey hey! it was a happy day (: and there were some other schools doing footdrill, and i daresay, NYGG's footdrill standard is pretty high. :) [i hope!]
and ms teng is so funny!!! oh man, miss teng rocks. she taught me how to close my umbrella! :DD and she's just so amusing la! :))
oh oh! maths formula of the day! cool + cute = coot.
so coot right?
coot
coot
coot!!
yippee!!!!
yays. xiaoen is feeling happy right now.
replies to tags!!
>> zi ai: HELLO ZIAI!!! you are officially oldER again!!! happy birthday, my crazy old friend!! (oops, i forgot to buy your pres) but hey, it's the thought that counts right?? :DD <3
>> iris: yes, iris is iris right! iris = xiaoen's wonderful senior, fellow daughter of an-ning ((: hehe
>> amanda: my daughter!! NOW DONT YOU DARE. i'll scream and fan lian at you!! please dont hurt my head... pretty please??? (=
>> chinwen: hello wenny!!! :DDD lovelove too! *high fives* my dearest nutty batchmate! X)
xiaoen has been blog-hopping everyday, yet she's just too lazy to blog!!! teehee.
oh wells, i shant elaborate much; but i think our performance for pagaent rehersal on sat was pretty well done?? yea. =)
me and chinwen went crazy la. we missed our sec3s like crazy. we were sitting there, watching others perform, and we were wondering what our dearest jie jie mens were doing. we really missed you all!!!!!!! and then dunno if our eyes were playing tricks, or our brain was going nuts, we kept seeing clones of our seniors!!! chinwen was like, "hey! doesnt that girl look like ______???" (i forgot who.) and then after that we saw so many people la! there was charis (lookalike % = 90%!!), anna(shin), and alot more i dont know who. oh! and there was this girl who looked like an-ning+calean+kendra+shiting... T.T it was crazy. chinwen and i were going mad.
but hey hey! it was a happy day (: and there were some other schools doing footdrill, and i daresay, NYGG's footdrill standard is pretty high. :) [i hope!]
and ms teng is so funny!!! oh man, miss teng rocks. she taught me how to close my umbrella! :DD and she's just so amusing la! :))
oh oh! maths formula of the day! cool + cute = coot.
so coot right?
coot
coot
coot!!
yippee!!!!
yays. xiaoen is feeling happy right now.
replies to tags!!
>> zi ai: HELLO ZIAI!!! you are officially oldER again!!! happy birthday, my crazy old friend!! (oops, i forgot to buy your pres) but hey, it's the thought that counts right?? :DD <3
>> iris: yes, iris is iris right! iris = xiaoen's wonderful senior, fellow daughter of an-ning ((: hehe
>> amanda: my daughter!! NOW DONT YOU DARE. i'll scream and fan lian at you!! please dont hurt my head... pretty please??? (=
>> chinwen: hello wenny!!! :DDD lovelove too! *high fives* my dearest nutty batchmate! X)
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
thankful... for everyone around me (:
GAHAHA. i want to post more. but i shant alrighty. (: my eyes are droopy... o.O
firstly, i really want to say thanks to amanda and sandy for helping the sec2s so so so much for the thinking day thingy. your efforts are appreciated by each and every one of us little people! amanda, you are gonna be an fc. :D and sandy!! my BEIBAO! thank you two mommas for your all (: we know you are stressed, very indeed. and so are we; and we assure you we will push and push and do our best for our company! with all our tiny strengths, we'll create something big. <3 yay yay!
alright. i've decided to post several random pics. =)
was very amused with the posters i saw on those sbs buses. so here you go. if there's anything, just ask IRIS. :P
and oh wells, decided to take a pic of the guide board that the sec1s '06 decorated last year!! it's gonna walk into history. bye bye nice clouds (: a year has flew past!
yea. and oh! oh! oh!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!! (:
thanks for being such an adorable man. :D
i love my papa. <3
firstly, i really want to say thanks to amanda and sandy for helping the sec2s so so so much for the thinking day thingy. your efforts are appreciated by each and every one of us little people! amanda, you are gonna be an fc. :D and sandy!! my BEIBAO! thank you two mommas for your all (: we know you are stressed, very indeed. and so are we; and we assure you we will push and push and do our best for our company! with all our tiny strengths, we'll create something big. <3 yay yay!
alright. i've decided to post several random pics. =)
was very amused with the posters i saw on those sbs buses. so here you go. if there's anything, just ask IRIS. :P
and oh wells, decided to take a pic of the guide board that the sec1s '06 decorated last year!! it's gonna walk into history. bye bye nice clouds (: a year has flew past!
yea. and oh! oh! oh!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!! (:
thanks for being such an adorable man. :D
i love my papa. <3
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Thursday, January 18, 2007
heyyos. im down and im up again! press on, everyone!
why does life seem so difficult?
im falling pit-bottom. help.
it's like there are many other depressed souls out there too.
and i just keep telling myself to go on, dont give in to that horrible devil.
push and push.
so tired i cant even breathe!!!
i dont know.
i dont know.
i dont know.
why?
why?
why?
God's putting us through this test. I walk by faith and not by sight. yea, clinging on to faith that someday, the tornados will dissipate and we'll reach the end together (:
grah. but still.
shut up that tiny voice inside thats telling me break down. hey you small thing. turn it off, will you!
expectations??
sometimes i wonder how i could still be happy everyday when im already starting to break down within. is all this real? wo bu zhi dao. maybe it's because i just cant be that one leaning upon, but the one to be leaned upon. beacause im thankful for all that i have, i know i shouldnt be complainy about things. because i have NO RIGHTS TO. what's going on man?? what? what? what? what? what? wo bu zhi dao. go and ask OCBC bank la! (whoa. i can still joke when im depressed. amazing.) there's a reason and purpose why all this is happenin'. God has a plan, but i do not know what it is!! faith. trust. hope. i thank you Father, for letting me know you. in times of sorrow and despair, yet im not alone. you're still beside me, whatever happens. i can rest assured. im thankful for everyone he's placed along the way to give help.
it's time to step back. i wish i wouldnt even have to walk this path at all!!! but there's no turning back la. i was already existent on this planet 13 years ago. what to do?? no one's invented any time machine yet. too bad.
sigh my load is heavy and my back is aching. Lord help me carry my bag. please and thanks. i entrust my entire baggage to you!
please everyone, dont be so sad anymore.
let the rainbow appear after storms,
let the stars shine before morn.
let the sun rise in splendour,
and let us walk together.
when things just do not go our way,
let's all wait for one more day.
cling on to that hope and love,
ride on wings and soar above.
there's a purpose, there's a plan;
God once also, was a man.
He knows it all, He understands.
Let's just leave it in His hands.
in faith i'll walk right to the end!
fight those monsters, destroy them!
yea i'll see those gold and silver,
and halt and watch as i gaze in wonder.
soon, im telling you. really soon.
we'll be getting out of this stuffy room.
we'll get to breathe the air outside!
and fill our hearts with warmth inside.
i'll wait patiently for that day to come! ((:
hooray. xiaoen's a genius =)
okay, now i feel refreshed. so off i go to complete that toopid history assignment.
xiaoen loves you all <33
replies to tags!
>> chinwen: hey darling. just read your blog, i know you're also really stressed out recently. (we're together on this ship!) but please dont give up, let's both just press on. WE CAN DO IT. im always here for you too alright! love you (: [and eh. im not scary la.] X)
>> amanda (tan): dearest! ZAZAZAZAZA. (feel the electric waves!!!) thank you for those stuff you told me online the other day. i've really been thinking and reflecting upon them. they've kept me going all this while. :D [hope your com gets better!] loves <3
>> amanda (lim): my wonderful snr!!! thanks, i'll get over all this tension soon. (: i dont know how much to thank you for all you've put in for all of us at nygg. but i really am. thankful. XIE XIE. [now i wouldnt mind the things you do! even if it means EXPIRED MILK AND EGG YOLKS!] (heh. only amanda knows what im talking bout.)
>> meiting: heyys fc! thanks (: we're just trying our very best, we dont want to disappoint. also want to thank you and cal yes! thanks for all your patience, sometimes we know we're still 'not there' yet. SEC2s LOVE OUR FCs. i mean it! i mean it! we all jia you together yay :D go go go!!!
>> sandy: heyyos no prob okay! that's how life goes, support-support! and my arm is there for you to hold when you stand up! please be careful and take care alrighty? i think your batchmates miss you during footdrill. =) and yupps, let's all just remain friendly and warm towards our sec1s and hopefully, they'll open up soon! lovelove! hahas ((:
>> jo: heyyos. OH YES IT'S ALIVE!!! [be careful it'll come and bite you.] hehs. hahas, yepps! nygg will do it! we can. :) jolene also can do it one... alright! hold on tight, grit your toothes and GOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! [GOOOOOAL, rather.] =P eh who knows, jo the great soccer sensation in the future! stand up for e girls man. AJA! aww. baby sandy. teehee. so adorable!! X)
im falling pit-bottom. help.
it's like there are many other depressed souls out there too.
and i just keep telling myself to go on, dont give in to that horrible devil.
push and push.
so tired i cant even breathe!!!
i dont know.
i dont know.
i dont know.
why?
why?
why?
God's putting us through this test. I walk by faith and not by sight. yea, clinging on to faith that someday, the tornados will dissipate and we'll reach the end together (:
grah. but still.
shut up that tiny voice inside thats telling me break down. hey you small thing. turn it off, will you!
expectations??
sometimes i wonder how i could still be happy everyday when im already starting to break down within. is all this real? wo bu zhi dao. maybe it's because i just cant be that one leaning upon, but the one to be leaned upon. beacause im thankful for all that i have, i know i shouldnt be complainy about things. because i have NO RIGHTS TO. what's going on man?? what? what? what? what? what? wo bu zhi dao. go and ask OCBC bank la! (whoa. i can still joke when im depressed. amazing.) there's a reason and purpose why all this is happenin'. God has a plan, but i do not know what it is!! faith. trust. hope. i thank you Father, for letting me know you. in times of sorrow and despair, yet im not alone. you're still beside me, whatever happens. i can rest assured. im thankful for everyone he's placed along the way to give help.
it's time to step back. i wish i wouldnt even have to walk this path at all!!! but there's no turning back la. i was already existent on this planet 13 years ago. what to do?? no one's invented any time machine yet. too bad.
sigh my load is heavy and my back is aching. Lord help me carry my bag. please and thanks. i entrust my entire baggage to you!
please everyone, dont be so sad anymore.
let the rainbow appear after storms,
let the stars shine before morn.
let the sun rise in splendour,
and let us walk together.
when things just do not go our way,
let's all wait for one more day.
cling on to that hope and love,
ride on wings and soar above.
there's a purpose, there's a plan;
God once also, was a man.
He knows it all, He understands.
Let's just leave it in His hands.
in faith i'll walk right to the end!
fight those monsters, destroy them!
yea i'll see those gold and silver,
and halt and watch as i gaze in wonder.
soon, im telling you. really soon.
we'll be getting out of this stuffy room.
we'll get to breathe the air outside!
and fill our hearts with warmth inside.
i'll wait patiently for that day to come! ((:
hooray. xiaoen's a genius =)
okay, now i feel refreshed. so off i go to complete that toopid history assignment.
xiaoen loves you all <33
replies to tags!
>> chinwen: hey darling. just read your blog, i know you're also really stressed out recently. (we're together on this ship!) but please dont give up, let's both just press on. WE CAN DO IT. im always here for you too alright! love you (: [and eh. im not scary la.] X)
>> amanda (tan): dearest! ZAZAZAZAZA. (feel the electric waves!!!) thank you for those stuff you told me online the other day. i've really been thinking and reflecting upon them. they've kept me going all this while. :D [hope your com gets better!] loves <3
>> amanda (lim): my wonderful snr!!! thanks, i'll get over all this tension soon. (: i dont know how much to thank you for all you've put in for all of us at nygg. but i really am. thankful. XIE XIE. [now i wouldnt mind the things you do! even if it means EXPIRED MILK AND EGG YOLKS!] (heh. only amanda knows what im talking bout.)
>> meiting: heyys fc! thanks (: we're just trying our very best, we dont want to disappoint. also want to thank you and cal yes! thanks for all your patience, sometimes we know we're still 'not there' yet. SEC2s LOVE OUR FCs. i mean it! i mean it! we all jia you together yay :D go go go!!!
>> sandy: heyyos no prob okay! that's how life goes, support-support! and my arm is there for you to hold when you stand up! please be careful and take care alrighty? i think your batchmates miss you during footdrill. =) and yupps, let's all just remain friendly and warm towards our sec1s and hopefully, they'll open up soon! lovelove! hahas ((:
>> jo: heyyos. OH YES IT'S ALIVE!!! [be careful it'll come and bite you.] hehs. hahas, yepps! nygg will do it! we can. :) jolene also can do it one... alright! hold on tight, grit your toothes and GOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! [GOOOOOAL, rather.] =P eh who knows, jo the great soccer sensation in the future! stand up for e girls man. AJA! aww. baby sandy. teehee. so adorable!! X)
hello peeps
HAHAHAHAHAH.
googoogaagaa.
yays.
I LOVE FOOTDRILL. (:
hey im not kidding!
yadayada
anyways. today, after school, went to guides hq with some other batchmates + sec 3s + ms teng. to resource info for the thinking day pagaent thingy. (why is it even called a pagaent???) oh wells. yea. i began to realise how close i've grown to guides. esp after the metamorphosis (= yupps. it's a good thing yes! ho ho ho. aw it hurt when i saw how sandy was walking with her right knee all bandaged up like a bah chang. OUCH. sandy dear, please do get well soon okay? wo kan dao xin hen tong. that sounds wrong. hnn, aiya. you know what i mean la. sisterly love okay!
and suddenly. i snap out of the blogging mood.
snap.
so here you go. this post has ended.
hey wait.
it hasnt.
im looking forward to the pagaent thing okay!!
that is, IF we are going according to amanda's idea. which is very hard to do.
but we can do it right? cant we, batch maties and snrs??? yes we can. go NYGG!
hip hip hooray!
hip hip hooray!
hip hip hooray!!!!
whee~
XIAOEN IS HIGH.
googoogaagaa.
yays.
I LOVE FOOTDRILL. (:
hey im not kidding!
yadayada
anyways. today, after school, went to guides hq with some other batchmates + sec 3s + ms teng. to resource info for the thinking day pagaent thingy. (why is it even called a pagaent???) oh wells. yea. i began to realise how close i've grown to guides. esp after the metamorphosis (= yupps. it's a good thing yes! ho ho ho. aw it hurt when i saw how sandy was walking with her right knee all bandaged up like a bah chang. OUCH. sandy dear, please do get well soon okay? wo kan dao xin hen tong. that sounds wrong. hnn, aiya. you know what i mean la. sisterly love okay!
and suddenly. i snap out of the blogging mood.
snap.
so here you go. this post has ended.
hey wait.
it hasnt.
im looking forward to the pagaent thing okay!!
that is, IF we are going according to amanda's idea. which is very hard to do.
but we can do it right? cant we, batch maties and snrs??? yes we can. go NYGG!
hip hip hooray!
hip hip hooray!
hip hip hooray!!!!
whee~
XIAOEN IS HIGH.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
God is still there, whatever happens
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sheesh. alot of work. i mean it. everything is just building up, and im seriously hoping that i wont crumble down. and then there's expectations. sometimes, i just want to give my 100% in it all, yet it's so difficult. im trying, trying, trying. cant you feel it???!!! im giving up. soon.
help me Lord, to live each day as you want me to. show me Your will, that i may follow it. comfort me when i am down and weary...
im. so. tired.
as in, not just physically, but also mentally and spiritually. im just totally drained out la. [and i am gonna burst into tears now, i dont know why.]
still, i thank God for my family and friends. thank you to those whom i just chatted with. you cheered me up. cos im feeling kinda depressed now. (my ppt, which i've been editing for the past 2 hrs, just DISAPPEARED.) GONE.
GONE.
hais.
thanks amanda, your words really went right down into my heart. i thank God for you!
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:1. God uses problems to DIRECT you.
Sometimes God must light a fire under you to get
you moving. Problems often point us in a new direction and
motivate us to change. Is God trying to get your attention? "Sometimes it
takes a painful situation to make us change our ways."
Proverbs 20:30
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:2. God uses problems to INSPECT you.
People are like tea bags...if you want to know what's inside
them, just drop them into hot ever water! Has God tested
your faith with a problem What do problems reveal about
you? "When you have many kinds of troubles, you
should be full of joy, because you know that these troubles test
your faith, and this will give you patience."
James 1:2-3
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:
3. God uses problems to CORRECT you.
Some lessons we learn only through pain and failure. It's
likely that as a child your parents told you not to touch a
hot stove. But you probably learned by being burned.
Sometimes we only learn the value of something...health,
money, a relationship... by losing it. "It was the best thing
that could have happened to me, for it taught me to pay attention to yo
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:4. God uses problems to PROTECT you.
A problem can be a blessing in disguise if it prevents you from
being harmed by something more serious. Last year a friend
was fired for refusing to do something unethical that his boss
had asked him to do. His unemployment was a problem - but
it saved him from being convicted and sent to prison a year
later when management's actions were eventually discovere
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:5. God uses problems to PERFECT you.
Problems, when responded to correctly, are character builders.
God is far more interested in your character than your comfort.
Your relationship to God and your character are the only two
things you're going to take with you into eternity. "We can rejoice when we run into problems...
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:they help us learn to be patient. And patience develops strength of
character in us and helps us trust God more each time we use it until finally our
hope and faith are strong and steady."
Romans 5:3-4
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:Here's the point:
God is at work in your life - even when you do not recognize it or understand it.
But it's much easier and profitable when you cooperate with Him.
"Success can be measured not only in achievements, but in lessons learned,
lives touched and moments shared along the way"
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:LIFE IS AN ECHO. What you send out, you get back.
What you give, you receive.
WHEN YOU BRING OUT THE BEST IN OTHERS, YOU BRING OUT THE BEST IN YOURSELF.
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:The problems you face will either defeat you or develop you - depending on how you respond to them.
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:When Satan is knocking at your door, simply say, "Jesus, could You please get that for me?"
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:
Friends are God's way of taking care of us (:
sotong! says:
yes i agree!
sotong! says:
our families too.
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:
yep
i thank God for everything. let it be IN YOUR TIME.
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sheesh. alot of work. i mean it. everything is just building up, and im seriously hoping that i wont crumble down. and then there's expectations. sometimes, i just want to give my 100% in it all, yet it's so difficult. im trying, trying, trying. cant you feel it???!!! im giving up. soon.
help me Lord, to live each day as you want me to. show me Your will, that i may follow it. comfort me when i am down and weary...
im. so. tired.
as in, not just physically, but also mentally and spiritually. im just totally drained out la. [and i am gonna burst into tears now, i dont know why.]
still, i thank God for my family and friends. thank you to those whom i just chatted with. you cheered me up. cos im feeling kinda depressed now. (my ppt, which i've been editing for the past 2 hrs, just DISAPPEARED.) GONE.
GONE.
hais.
thanks amanda, your words really went right down into my heart. i thank God for you!
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:1. God uses problems to DIRECT you.
Sometimes God must light a fire under you to get
you moving. Problems often point us in a new direction and
motivate us to change. Is God trying to get your attention? "Sometimes it
takes a painful situation to make us change our ways."
Proverbs 20:30
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:2. God uses problems to INSPECT you.
People are like tea bags...if you want to know what's inside
them, just drop them into hot ever water! Has God tested
your faith with a problem What do problems reveal about
you? "When you have many kinds of troubles, you
should be full of joy, because you know that these troubles test
your faith, and this will give you patience."
James 1:2-3
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:
3. God uses problems to CORRECT you.
Some lessons we learn only through pain and failure. It's
likely that as a child your parents told you not to touch a
hot stove. But you probably learned by being burned.
Sometimes we only learn the value of something...health,
money, a relationship... by losing it. "It was the best thing
that could have happened to me, for it taught me to pay attention to yo
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:4. God uses problems to PROTECT you.
A problem can be a blessing in disguise if it prevents you from
being harmed by something more serious. Last year a friend
was fired for refusing to do something unethical that his boss
had asked him to do. His unemployment was a problem - but
it saved him from being convicted and sent to prison a year
later when management's actions were eventually discovere
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:5. God uses problems to PERFECT you.
Problems, when responded to correctly, are character builders.
God is far more interested in your character than your comfort.
Your relationship to God and your character are the only two
things you're going to take with you into eternity. "We can rejoice when we run into problems...
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:they help us learn to be patient. And patience develops strength of
character in us and helps us trust God more each time we use it until finally our
hope and faith are strong and steady."
Romans 5:3-4
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:Here's the point:
God is at work in your life - even when you do not recognize it or understand it.
But it's much easier and profitable when you cooperate with Him.
"Success can be measured not only in achievements, but in lessons learned,
lives touched and moments shared along the way"
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:LIFE IS AN ECHO. What you send out, you get back.
What you give, you receive.
WHEN YOU BRING OUT THE BEST IN OTHERS, YOU BRING OUT THE BEST IN YOURSELF.
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:The problems you face will either defeat you or develop you - depending on how you respond to them.
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:When Satan is knocking at your door, simply say, "Jesus, could You please get that for me?"
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:
Friends are God's way of taking care of us (:
sotong! says:
yes i agree!
sotong! says:
our families too.
(: i am arisen. ___ ||: VINDICATED! --- says:
yep
i thank God for everything. let it be IN YOUR TIME.
my new-found mom! <3
i finished chi SIA! qian yan plus 1st du hou gan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh sheesh. I LOVE ANNING. she's my dearest MUMMY!!!!!!!! and iris is my jie jie, cos anning's her mom too! (: hahas. thank you mom, for pei-ing me for the past i-dunno-how-long. at least talking to you helps me stay awake! i cant wait to see your shiny boots! =)) [anning has been polishing her boots while i was doing my du hou gan] AND yes, really did hear a RAT. as in mousey mousey rat. freaked out. and mom (i dont mean literally) started experiencing psycological traumas, she felt something brush against her leg. hahas, i was scaring her and all that. muahahahahaha.... be careful... you'd never know what stuff are around you!! ;P anyways, thanks for being such a wonderful mom! (you really sound like one!!!) love ya! (:
alrighty, it's late already. (: (hoho, no. it's early.) good morning everyone X)
oh sheesh. I LOVE ANNING. she's my dearest MUMMY!!!!!!!! and iris is my jie jie, cos anning's her mom too! (: hahas. thank you mom, for pei-ing me for the past i-dunno-how-long. at least talking to you helps me stay awake! i cant wait to see your shiny boots! =)) [anning has been polishing her boots while i was doing my du hou gan] AND yes, really did hear a RAT. as in mousey mousey rat. freaked out. and mom (i dont mean literally) started experiencing psycological traumas, she felt something brush against her leg. hahas, i was scaring her and all that. muahahahahaha.... be careful... you'd never know what stuff are around you!! ;P anyways, thanks for being such a wonderful mom! (you really sound like one!!!) love ya! (:
alrighty, it's late already. (: (hoho, no. it's early.) good morning everyone X)
Saturday, January 13, 2007
just keep walkin'! =)
oh dear... all the stress is piling, piling, piling...
i know i shouldnt complain much, cos it seems alot now, but if i were to look back next time, i'll most prob go "gahh." still, it's pretty stressful. and it's only the third week!!
i will try my best. really really. even if i cant put in 100%, it should be at least 90% i hope?? =) i guess many are struggling to cope with life and stuff too. be it schoolwork, work, whatever. i guess sometimes we have to count our blessings. even if it's teeny-weeny. tho there's unhappiness, worries and troubles, we still are blessed. and God's watching over each and every one of us! and i know im safe in His arms. thanks dad (:
homework, SIAs, footdrill! ... bla blah. still, I CAN DO IT!! quote from jolene.. "aja aja fightin'!!!" talking about jolene, somehow, whenever i visit her blog, i always feel very happy. i dont know why ((: jolene's a very true person, and i guess that's what makes everyone like her! :D jo, thanks for being so YOU!
we all just have to move on in life; even though there are people who try to trip us along the journey, there are rocks and boulders that hinder us on our way, we just keep walking and walking, holding on to each other, believing firmly in hope. soon, we'll just reach there! and waiting for us is a wonderful place, where the streets are lined with gold and silver, it's abundant in love and joy, no more pain and hatred and sadness... keep believing!!! <33
to everyone out there, hold on tight and just keep walkin'! we'll reach the end together alright!! (:
hooray the blog's showing some signs of life!!! yippee (((:
i know i shouldnt complain much, cos it seems alot now, but if i were to look back next time, i'll most prob go "gahh." still, it's pretty stressful. and it's only the third week!!
i will try my best. really really. even if i cant put in 100%, it should be at least 90% i hope?? =) i guess many are struggling to cope with life and stuff too. be it schoolwork, work, whatever. i guess sometimes we have to count our blessings. even if it's teeny-weeny. tho there's unhappiness, worries and troubles, we still are blessed. and God's watching over each and every one of us! and i know im safe in His arms. thanks dad (:
homework, SIAs, footdrill! ... bla blah. still, I CAN DO IT!! quote from jolene.. "aja aja fightin'!!!" talking about jolene, somehow, whenever i visit her blog, i always feel very happy. i dont know why ((: jolene's a very true person, and i guess that's what makes everyone like her! :D jo, thanks for being so YOU!
we all just have to move on in life; even though there are people who try to trip us along the journey, there are rocks and boulders that hinder us on our way, we just keep walking and walking, holding on to each other, believing firmly in hope. soon, we'll just reach there! and waiting for us is a wonderful place, where the streets are lined with gold and silver, it's abundant in love and joy, no more pain and hatred and sadness... keep believing!!! <33
to everyone out there, hold on tight and just keep walkin'! we'll reach the end together alright!! (:
hooray the blog's showing some signs of life!!! yippee (((:
Monday, January 08, 2007
GAHH.
GAHH.
i've decided.
this blog is officially declared brain dead. X_X
so, a miracle might happen, and it might revive again suddenly one fine day,
or it might just die a natural death.
rest in peace blog!!!
tagboard will still be alive tho. =)) hooray!!
AND BOOHOO. im feeling like so guilty now. i forgot to go for guides punishment today!!! rarr. sorry renice. and everyone. ._.
gahh. today's last day of sec1 orientation.
gahh.
gahh.
gahh.
sorry, but the only thing i can thing of saying now is.
GAHH.
i've decided.
this blog is officially declared brain dead. X_X
so, a miracle might happen, and it might revive again suddenly one fine day,
or it might just die a natural death.
rest in peace blog!!!
tagboard will still be alive tho. =)) hooray!!
AND BOOHOO. im feeling like so guilty now. i forgot to go for guides punishment today!!! rarr. sorry renice. and everyone. ._.
gahh. today's last day of sec1 orientation.
gahh.
gahh.
gahh.
sorry, but the only thing i can thing of saying now is.
GAHH.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
happy new yr!! 1st day of sch. (:
yadayada. 1st day of school??? i was like "huh. im still in the christmas mood!!!" oh very wells.
the day started off, i ran into class screaming... cos i was just so excited about seeing everyone!!! :DD
hmmm. saw my junior in class 110. (: i was really happy to see all the sec 1s! seriously, 1st day of school in nanyang feels like yst. im still living in 2006 lorh, i keep saying, "next year..." and i keep addressing the sec 3s '07 as sec 2s. =.= now i must tell myself, i AM SEC 2. HAIS.
whoa, i think my sec 1 class (106!) is pretty enthu (: well, they took quite some time to warm up tho. aiya, but it's the same for all sec 1 classes on 1st day of school! they will be noisy soon. really really. =)) enthu enthu enthu!!! being enthu is very very tiring, i learnt. but still, it's worth it! i love my sec 1s <3 ooh! and there's someone who wants to join guides in 106!! woohoo! (uh oh, i forgot to ask for her name...) hmmm. tmr then ask (: hahas, i think i am very childish lorh. i love playing those ice-breakers thingo. it's fun! lol, but it was kinda leng3 chang3 today when we played whacko, cos the class still not very sure of each other's names yet. and then right!!! suddenly one of the girls shouted "xiaoen!!" the whacker, sec 4 psl, was turning round and round... finally she went, "who's that??" ..... LOL!
alamak. most of the canteen vendors changed!!! where are all my familar uncles and aunties??? the sec 1s were asking me, "what food is nice??" i was like, "i have no idea, so sorry, alot of stalls are new... " AND. the drinks machine price increase!! to 50 cents!!! (lol, the few of us found out after our meeting thingo) like.. OH NO! hmm, was it anning that said to boycott the machine?? and iris was going, "i just bought an ice lemon tea from the thing!!!" cheat people's feelings. hmph. aiyo, so many things in the school change!! principal change, canteen change, teachers change... boohoo! wells, let's hope and see that it will be for the better!! =))
from what i observed, the sec 1s like wanton mee. T.T i think.
hahas!
oh, today then i know that cannot wear earsticks to school!! i never knew. hmm, @ the audi, ex-class mons had to go onstage to draw lots to see what we will be doing for lsc'07. uh, i quite suey lorh. i got CLEANLINESS. *smiles* but then again, cleaning toilets is fun!!! anning will agree with me!!! :)))
hmm, after sending the sec 1s back to class, i went back to 212. ok. i had TWO surprises. (or do i say SHOCK.) hais, two twelevers will know what im talking about la. i do not want to elaborate further. :/ [okay, but i promise you guys i'll do my best!! ;) ]
muhaha. after school, we stayed back to make door gifts for the sec1 cca exhibition!! yay we rock. (: it was fun, and i think it's nice! (yes it is, sandy!!) yupps, hopefully, they will appreciate. <3 we had so much fun talking and doing crap stuff. i declare that the sec THREES (im brainwashing myself) are mad one lorh. really. you know who you are, dear seniors!!! haha :DD but then, it was so sad can? everything we talked about was somehow linked to JOLENE. and then we really got sad la. and we started scolding whoever that mentions her name. which was like, we scolded each other alot of times. LOL. hahas, im reminded of her, 'aja aja fightin'!' oh no, im getting sad again. :'(
hais, enough. look FORWARD, and SMILE! :D =) :) X) ;)
im an optimist you see.
whoa, im very tired. i couldnt sleep at all last night. kept thinking, and thinking. okay, i dont know if i was thinking or dreaming. HAIS. i keep thinking/dreaming of guides nowadays. (more specifically, after guides camp) is this called patriotic or what?? i do not know. (:
replies to tags!! (hahas, it's kinda late i know)
>> everyone: thank you! im well already!! :D
>> sandra: hello! it's 2007!! God bless you this entire year! :))
>> chinwen: thank you dearie!!! hmm, sorry ah. still havent link you. :P
>> iris: heyys very-oh-so-amusing snr!!! teehee, happy new year pull your ear!!! love you too! whee! <33
>> joey: hahas! pai seh, im getting quite lazy bout the blog... :) will update as much as i can okk?? happy new year btw!!! :)
>> jolene: JOLENE!!!! WE ALL MISS YOU!!! (okay, i think you know that already... :)) and i keep forgetting im sec 2!!! hahas. and hows life @ vj?? :DD AJA AJA FIGHTIN'!!!
>> sandy: LOL! is this... fate??? *gasps* hey but it's a good thing yea! JIA YOU in your road to seriousness. =)
>> amanda: HELLO!!!!!! thanks! and yepps, you too yes! all e best for '07! =DD
it's late but yes....
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!! (hahas. pull your ear!!!) :P
alamak. i cannot change font, font size and font colour with blogger beta!!! NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cheat my feelings.
hahas, good night! <3
new year resolution(s):
- be GUAI1
- brush up chi
the day started off, i ran into class screaming... cos i was just so excited about seeing everyone!!! :DD
hmmm. saw my junior in class 110. (: i was really happy to see all the sec 1s! seriously, 1st day of school in nanyang feels like yst. im still living in 2006 lorh, i keep saying, "next year..." and i keep addressing the sec 3s '07 as sec 2s. =.= now i must tell myself, i AM SEC 2. HAIS.
whoa, i think my sec 1 class (106!) is pretty enthu (: well, they took quite some time to warm up tho. aiya, but it's the same for all sec 1 classes on 1st day of school! they will be noisy soon. really really. =)) enthu enthu enthu!!! being enthu is very very tiring, i learnt. but still, it's worth it! i love my sec 1s <3 ooh! and there's someone who wants to join guides in 106!! woohoo! (uh oh, i forgot to ask for her name...) hmmm. tmr then ask (: hahas, i think i am very childish lorh. i love playing those ice-breakers thingo. it's fun! lol, but it was kinda leng3 chang3 today when we played whacko, cos the class still not very sure of each other's names yet. and then right!!! suddenly one of the girls shouted "xiaoen!!" the whacker, sec 4 psl, was turning round and round... finally she went, "who's that??" ..... LOL!
alamak. most of the canteen vendors changed!!! where are all my familar uncles and aunties??? the sec 1s were asking me, "what food is nice??" i was like, "i have no idea, so sorry, alot of stalls are new... " AND. the drinks machine price increase!! to 50 cents!!! (lol, the few of us found out after our meeting thingo) like.. OH NO! hmm, was it anning that said to boycott the machine?? and iris was going, "i just bought an ice lemon tea from the thing!!!" cheat people's feelings. hmph. aiyo, so many things in the school change!! principal change, canteen change, teachers change... boohoo! wells, let's hope and see that it will be for the better!! =))
from what i observed, the sec 1s like wanton mee. T.T i think.
hahas!
oh, today then i know that cannot wear earsticks to school!! i never knew. hmm, @ the audi, ex-class mons had to go onstage to draw lots to see what we will be doing for lsc'07. uh, i quite suey lorh. i got CLEANLINESS. *smiles* but then again, cleaning toilets is fun!!! anning will agree with me!!! :)))
hmm, after sending the sec 1s back to class, i went back to 212. ok. i had TWO surprises. (or do i say SHOCK.) hais, two twelevers will know what im talking about la. i do not want to elaborate further. :/ [okay, but i promise you guys i'll do my best!! ;) ]
muhaha. after school, we stayed back to make door gifts for the sec1 cca exhibition!! yay we rock. (: it was fun, and i think it's nice! (yes it is, sandy!!) yupps, hopefully, they will appreciate. <3 we had so much fun talking and doing crap stuff. i declare that the sec THREES (im brainwashing myself) are mad one lorh. really. you know who you are, dear seniors!!! haha :DD but then, it was so sad can? everything we talked about was somehow linked to JOLENE. and then we really got sad la. and we started scolding whoever that mentions her name. which was like, we scolded each other alot of times. LOL. hahas, im reminded of her, 'aja aja fightin'!' oh no, im getting sad again. :'(
hais, enough. look FORWARD, and SMILE! :D =) :) X) ;)
im an optimist you see.
whoa, im very tired. i couldnt sleep at all last night. kept thinking, and thinking. okay, i dont know if i was thinking or dreaming. HAIS. i keep thinking/dreaming of guides nowadays. (more specifically, after guides camp) is this called patriotic or what?? i do not know. (:
replies to tags!! (hahas, it's kinda late i know)
>> everyone: thank you! im well already!! :D
>> sandra: hello! it's 2007!! God bless you this entire year! :))
>> chinwen: thank you dearie!!! hmm, sorry ah. still havent link you. :P
>> iris: heyys very-oh-so-amusing snr!!! teehee, happy new year pull your ear!!! love you too! whee! <33
>> joey: hahas! pai seh, im getting quite lazy bout the blog... :) will update as much as i can okk?? happy new year btw!!! :)
>> jolene: JOLENE!!!! WE ALL MISS YOU!!! (okay, i think you know that already... :)) and i keep forgetting im sec 2!!! hahas. and hows life @ vj?? :DD AJA AJA FIGHTIN'!!!
>> sandy: LOL! is this... fate??? *gasps* hey but it's a good thing yea! JIA YOU in your road to seriousness. =)
>> amanda: HELLO!!!!!! thanks! and yepps, you too yes! all e best for '07! =DD
it's late but yes....
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!! (hahas. pull your ear!!!) :P
alamak. i cannot change font, font size and font colour with blogger beta!!! NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cheat my feelings.
hahas, good night! <3
new year resolution(s):
- be GUAI1
- brush up chi
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