The Grey

Just finished watching the movie called The Grey. It was recommended by the reader's digest. The story is about a group of people survived after a plane crashed and landed on a tundra. From the group of 7 people, once died followed another after being attacked and hunt by the wolves and coyotes. Something touched me was the determination of these survivors, trying very hard to be survived. The last survivor out of the 7 is the leader of the group. Even though he could not help each one of them, but he remained calm along the journey with encouragement of his wife in his mind. The movie ended with a black out after he met the alpha wolves at the den. It means there is an open ending. Before this movie, I don't like open ending movies. It was because I was like wasting time at watching a movie. However, I like how the director use it in this movie. It gives audiences a chance to think about the end. In this movie, it gives me a hope even though the chance of the actor to be survived is limited, but nobody knows what it will turn out if he tries to fight. Similar to things happen in our life. we need hopes and faith, only when we believe in ourselves, things can turn out differently.

My trip and my goal.

It is been almost 5months since the last blog I wrote. I had been very busy this year. I became more active in the badminton club and took part in different tournaments in the beginning of the year. Even though, I haven't really win a good prize, but I had a lot of fun games. Thanks to my dear and my mix partner, Roy who trained me and gave me courage during the games. In March, I had a very great time back to Malaysia, visited my family and friends in Hong Kong, Malaysia, And Singapore. It was really excited to see two cousins got married back home. Ever since i came to Canada, i felt that i had missed a lot of family events and the joy of it. This trip was a good trip, other than the marriage i attended i also had a family trip to Taiwan. Five weeks had just gone too fast, and I am now back to Canada. on the flights, I keep questioning myself, whether I really like to stay in Canada and at the same time missing all my family back home. I don't think I am very happy in Canada, buti don't like living in MAlsysia either. I think something is missing, then I realize I missing a goal in my life. I have been working for 2 years, no oppurtunity for advancement or in my life. other than playing badminton, seeing the money in my bank account growing slowly, basically everyday I live without a goal. I had nothing to accomplish everyday. However, I am going to change. I want to push myself to seek for a better life and better future, I want to be a pharmacist in Canada. The percentage of getting in is low, less than 20% chances, and only 55 students succeeded each year. English is one of the requirements, which is a big challenge for me whose English is the second or may be third language I learned. Despite the fact of all negativities, I Am going to try. I have a year to improve my writing, and I will have to go back to school for some courses. There is a will! There is a way. I believe if I have a faith, I can do it. Even if the end result may be is not what I want, at least I been through it and the journey of trying is an important part of life. I will start writing blog again to improve my writing, and I wish my family and friends can give courage and support. After all, I just want to find a goal in my life, to live happily and look forward to the future.

Good bye 2011

On the last day of 2011, I took sometime to remind myself what I had done for the whole year. I conclude that the year 2011 is a very smoothly gone, which is a good thing. I mostly completed the new year's resolution. I applied to become a permanent resident in Canada. I became active in badminton club, played a lot and get to know a lot of good friends from the badminton club. I got along with my co workers pretty well. I started having god parents in Winnipeg, they treat me very good, I seek advise from them when I need someone to talk to. Living alone in Winnipeg, I sometimes feel that I need family love.

One thing special happened this year was I broke up with my ex bf and started a new relationship in a short time. I knew I didn't manage the relationship issue probably, this is a thing that make me upset, and I need to improve on. After having two relationships that didn't work out, I kind of doubting the meaning of love. Now, the new relationship is still good, I don't hope for anything, just want to love each other and live happily everyday. I hope both of my ex-bf understood me, that yes, I being a little too selfish, and apologized for it. I wish both of you can find your mrs Right. I hope we can still be friend after all.

In the year 2011, I went to Banff in summer. It is a very nice place. The summer of 2011, was a good one. I am looking forward to my next trip, which is going back home in March. At the same time, I will.be visiting HK, Taiwan, Singapore and Vancouver. Since I am going back home with my bf, who hadn't been to Malaysia, I will show him around in Malaysia and have some good Malaysian food too.

Lastly, thanks 2011 and good bye.

New year resolution 2012

1. Better income and expenses management.
- keep all receipt in wallet, not in bags or throwing away
- enter income and expenses daily on iPad
- check monthly expenses and income
- plan financial saving for future

2. Part time job.
- find a part time for weekend
- earn extra money and gain experience

3. Workout and badminton
- due to having low bone density, doctor suggested me to do more weight lifting. Target once a week.
- badminton three times a week
- workout before badminton
- cycle to work during summer
- cardio, running or swimming at least once a week.

4. Personal improvement
- learn guitar by myself
- doing master program or taking other programs for self improvement.
- pick up a new hobby like drawing :)