18 months of Eli

Guys I have five days to cram for my finals!  I'm a terrible test taker and tests are over 50% of the grade in both classes so I actually need to ace these finals or I'll be retaking next semester...

SOOO obviously I'm gonna sit down and write a blog post!  Eli turned 18 months last week!  It's official - he has delicious brown eyes and brown hair.  It looks blonde in most pictures but it's actually light brown.  Now that he's getting older people don't say he and TJ look identical anymore.  They look alike, but as he gets bigger Eli's distinct features are becoming more obvious.

Eli is very much a second child.  He loves to be involved in whatever TJ is doing, but he also knows how to go and play by himself.  He can defend himself (fiercely!) and I often have to pry the boys apart if there has been a fight over a toy.  Eli tends to be a little aggressive in groups but he is learning play dynamics and developing better social skills as I watch.  It amazes me how fast the grown and change!
 Eli isn't afraid of much, but the Abominable Snowman in the clay-mation Rudolph movie scares him every time.  Eli also doesn't talk much but he communicates fairly well when we remind him to show or tell us what he wants.  Like TJ, he's a tad behind due to our bilingual home.
 Eli is still my snuggle baby.  He's affectionate and loving and when he likes someone, he loves them.  He likes to be held and to give hugs, and occasionally still sleeps in bed with me when he's sick or teething (like right now).  I don't let him stay all night but I love having him close so I'm pretty indulgent.  He is also a mama's boy, through and through.  Thank goodness!  It works out pretty well that Eli clings to me and TJ clings to Tyler.  I don't know what we'll do when we have a third baby, everything is so nicely balanced right now.
 Eli loves books.  He will read on his own and bring them to me.  He will read book after book and would spend all day reading with mom or dad if we would let him.  His favorite books are Thomas the Train books, but we also have a Dino Dig book that he really likes.
 Eli has a crazy sweet tooth.  He's like his mama and loves anything to do with chocolate or cookies.  He doesn't like vegetables, but loves meat.  And cheese.  He's also crazy about dogs, and true to his young age, is not afraid of them at all.  I really, really want to get these boys a dog for Christmas but it will have to wait for another year.
 Eli sleeps in his own big boy bed, but has a hard time staying in bed and getting to sleep unless he is really tired.  He is still a spotty sleeper, and although he generally sleeps through the night, we still get up with him at least once a week (every night if he's sick/teething).  He takes one 2-hour nap everyday, at the same time as TJ.  It has been heaven!  I've been able to keep on top of my schoolwork all semester since I had a nice big block in the middle of the day.
Eli has had a rough month - he's learning how to play with groups and how to share.  We've seen some big improvements and I'm really proud of him for figuring things out.  We are not nearly as consistent and patient with him as we were with TJ (poor second baby) so I worry and feel guilty when he has a behavioral issue, but he really is a good boy.
 Eli is a pretty good listener.  I know that many people don't really believe that babies understand, but I don't agree with that.  Eli is perfectly cognizant of his surroundings and of the things I tell him.

For the longest time, people confused Eli for a girl.  All the time.  Even when he was dressed head-to-toe in blue.  I think it's because he's such a pretty baby.  I mean, I really think he is pretty.  I love his little face.  It could also be that he was so bald-looking for so long.  His hair is starting to come in, and it hasn't happened for several months.
 Eli helps empty the dishwasher and put away silverware.  He really loves bath time and going pee-pee on the potty before he gets in the tub (just like big brother!).   Eli loves to get tickled and get piggy back rides.  He likes rocks and trains, doesn't really like to watch TV, and loves being outside.
Eli's funny toes have partially grown back together,  I'm actually really mad about it because I didn't know that could happen, and if I had, it might have changed our decision to put him under  the knife so young.  It's just another in a long list of reasons I hate doctors (especially surgeons).  I'll take a PA over a doctor any day.  But that's another story.  Anyway, we will just leave his toes the way they are. They look normal from the top, so we won't do another surgery unless he decides he wants one when he's older.  They don't impede his walking but those toes are a little sensitive and he doesn't like us touching them.

His heart murmur is still present, it hasn't improved or worsened.  We will continue to see a cardiologist every few months until it resolves. (I don't know if I ever even blogged about this.  We have also consulted with a geneticist to see if he has an underlying condition and they don't think he does, but TJ has a heart murmur we have to get checked out this year and if his is like Eli's we will go talk to them again).
 The bottom half of our tree is pretty much bare from Eli picking off the ornaments.  He just cannot help himself!  At least he isn't opening the presents....
 We love our sweet Eli boy.  He is such an important part of our family.  It is so crazy to me that when TJ was this age, I had a newborn!  It was so hard but I know we were meant to have both these boys here with us right now.
Update:
18-month statistics
Height: 33.75 inches (89th percentile)
Weight: 27 lb (84th percentile)

Eli has jumped from being in the 50's and 60's in percentiles to the 80's.  I thought he was going to be a more petite kid but "petite" doesn't really apply here.

to everyone who has ever judged another mom

Dear world, just wanted to let you know I've finally fallen of my high horse. Mrs. super-perfect-mom whose kids would NEVER be the playground bullies had Eli bite THREE kids in public today, and had to pull TJ out of the playplace at chic-fil-a because he had a younger kid by the shirt and was THROWING him around. So, a huge sorry to all of you who I secretly thought were bad parents because of how your kids behaved. You're all amazing!

Second, I've learned that if I judge someone, I will inevitably turn into that person.

That girl is getting married HOW OLD? She really should have finished college first.

They are having KIDS? Does he even have a bachelors degree yet?

Wow, I cannot believe her kid just did that. My kids would never do that.

Who yells at their kids like that? What kind of a parent is he/she?

TJ sleeps well, therefore, I must be a better mom than all those mom's whose kids don't sleep well.

Well.

I've eaten my words.  I'm sorry.  


Here's what I am finally figuring out:
Most parents are really trying their best.  Sometimes their best sucks (this sentence is about me).  But they are trying and probably still feeling like they aren't doing enough.  

Also, I'm never going to get that magical mom wisdom that solves every problem.  I kept thinking it would happen someday but I'm still just me, still just a person, and don't really know what I'm doing.  Lately things at our house have been ca-razy.  I've been super stressed, Tyler has been super stressed, and therefore, our kids are acting like maniacs.  I've never felt so out of control in my life.  It's been incredibly humbling and I cannot wait until it's over.

This is a super random post but I just want to clarify - I'm not looking for sympathy, things are hard all around.  I really just wanted to remind myself and everyone else that we need to be more forgiving.  

Your kid fell in a gorilla cage?  That could totally have happened to me.  Keeping both boys in my line of site at all times is impossible unless they are strapped down. 

You snatched a microphone away from a little boy? I snatch things from my kids all the time.  Especially when I'm stressed and don't know what they are about to do.  Thankfully it's usually not caught on camera.

You just dragged your screaming toddler out of the store with tears running down your face?  Yep, just did that.  

So...as President Uchtdorf says, when you are judging, being critical, or thinking that someone else is a bad mom (unless they are hitting or starving their kids, in which case you are probably right), "Just stop it."  

Instead of putting blame on everyone else, lets take a little responsibility back.  It takes a village, people!  Maybe when your child is hit/pushed/bitten on the playground, be nice to the mortified mom instead of lecturing her (thankfully, everyone today was SO kind and forgiving).  Maybe grab the strangers kid BEFORE they run into the gorilla exhibit.  Maybe think a kind, sympathetic thought instead of a malicious, judgmental one.

Lets stop being an angry mob and start being a village.  

pixiversary

Exactly one year and one day ago, I cut my hair off!  This post is basically a bunch of super embarrassing selfies documenting my short hair over the last year.

Before:

 Ug.  That first cut was SO awful.  After another trim I finally found another stylist and things got WAY better.  Here's the thing - I really wanted that awful weird bang thing cut.  It was just awful.  I wanted all my hair under four inches long.  I never really got that, so there is a good chance I'll do another pixie cut in a few years.  A shorter pixie cut.

 Firs time trying to curl/wave it. 
 I started using product to get a little more shape and in the mornings my hair was always super weird.  By about eleven it was just about right.
 First cut with a different stylist.  I was MUCH happier!  I wish I had pictures of the back.  She used a razor to shave off some of my neck line so it was crisp and perfect and the layering was so cute.
 Getting the hang of curling.  This picture kind of shows the stacked layers in the back.
 Pretty much the entire time we were in Dallas I kept my bangs pulled back.  I was so sweaty and greasy, and my hair looked awful after about 5 minutes outside anyway. 

 Getting close to an a-line.  Plus, how cute is freshly-bathed baby?

 Family picture day - literally one of the best hair days of my life.  I have no idea how it happened and I cannot get my hair to look like that again.
 First ponytail in almost a year!
 These are my pics today.  But me and my hair looks super weird so that's awesome.
 I'm right at what I would call a "bob" stage. 
The back is a little weird right now.  I've been growing out the top layers but cutting the very bottom layer to avoid the mullet look.  It's nearly long enough that I can stop doing  that, though, and just let everything grow.  I'm hoping to do a longer a-line, then a real bob once the front is long enough.  I'm a little sad because I loved the look of stacked layers in the back.  It was so cute and easy to do with a blow-dryer!  Part of me wants to keep it this length, I really like it short but not super short.  But I also want to keep growing it out, and that's less commitment so that's what I'm doing.

My "bangs" are usually weird and in the way.  I'm thinking I might crop them into some long strait-across bangs.

aquarium day


The Living Planet Aquarium did a $2 day.  I'm not usually a discount day person, battling the crowds is so awful, but the last few weeks have been really stressful for the boys because Tyler and I both had big adult stuff (exams and papers) that we had to take care of, so this week I wanted to go do some fun, kid-centered things.  I specifically wanted to go to the aquarium, and when my sister-in-law messaged me the discount day flyer, I jumped on it.

We got up and going so we could be there before it opened at 10.  I figured their would be a line, and there was, so I was glad we were there in time to get in with the first wave.  We spent about 15 minutes (maybe less?) waiting but the line moved pretty fast, so it wasn't too awful.  They also had exhibits outside, like a crocodile skull, leopard fur, and a giant conch shell, to keep everybody entertained.


The kids were thrilled!  They were both so busy, neither could fathom why I was making them sit for a picture.  They just wanted to look at the fish!


It wasn't crazy for the first little while, just about as busy as the last few times we went.  By the time we were finishing up, it was turning into a madhouse.  A few field-trip groups showed up, which was awful for us and them, since everyone else there were moms with tiny kids.


TJ's favorite exhibits were the otters (who doesn't love otters?), the fish tank being cleaned by a scuba diver, the Asian otter exhibit being cleaned by a zookeeper, a bird exhibit, and the giant coin-donation-spiral thing.  We donated lots of pennies.


Eli just loved the fish.  Really loved them.  Fish is one of the few words he says so he just ran from tank to tank saying "fshh fshh fshh!"  It was super cute.  It was interesting to see him interact with the big crowds of kids.  He behaved in some ways that I've never seen before, but that explain the problems he's been having in nursery lately.  So that's good, I guess. Now I just have to figure out how to deal with my cuddle bug who is secretly super aggressive.


We had to take a snack break so I could sit down for a minute.  The boys were just moving so fast and the "amazon" exhibit was so hot and muggy!


My favorite exhibit was the big shark tank.  There were several blue tang's in the tank and when we walked in to the viewing room, TJ ran up to the glass and said "Look!  Dory!"  I had sat down but he made me come see.  "Look!  It's dory!"  And then a shark swam by ... "Shark!  Oh no!"  It just cracked me up to hear his dialog.

"MOOOOM there are SHARKS behind us!  Why do we have to take a picture?"
I'm really glad we went and did something fun!  I was really glad we went early when we got out and saw the crazy line.  Once we got home, the kids were totally exhausted.  TJ had a total meltdown.  He was so tired, it was almost funny.  He's never like that!  Poor little guy.  Once everyone was wound down and in clean diapers, they crashed hard!

me and the boys

 2014: Me and TJ (8 or 9 months old)

2016: Me and Eli (15 months old)


family photos

This year, I finally got over myself and hired a photographer I loved for family pictures.  Her rates were (what I consider) reasonable and I've followed her work for over a year.  I booked way back in the spring, so I've been looking forward to this for a long time now.

This is one of the views of where we did the photo shoot.  Obviously, the bathroom wasn't in it, but I just loved the colors in the background.
 We got the pictures done pretty fast, I only scheduled half an hour.  This turned out to be perfect because by the end, TJ was almost melting down.  Eli was still totally game for being bribed with fruit snacks but I guess all the horse poop and rocks were too exciting for TJ to stand still and smile.

The pictures were up in American Fork canyon, so we thought we'd drive through the mountains to take a scenic way home.  It was so beautiful but very, very windy.  We found out on our trip back from Washington that TJ gets carsick in mountain passes.  I get a little carsick too, but I have the ability to articulate when I need the car pulled over.  Poor TJ hasn't gotten there yet.  At the end of the pass, he was crying and saying owie but there was nowhere to pull over until we got to Vivian park.
Within a minute of us getting out of the car he started throwing up.  Poor little guy.  But the carsickness cleared up after that, so I took off his pukey outer layer and he and Eli threw rocks in the stream for a while.  There was a play set and a train and a digger at that park but all they wanted to do was throw rocks!  Kids are so funny.
 I snapped a few photos since we were all cute and matchy-matchy and I'm going to have to wait two weeks to get our edited photos back.

The kids did not want to take a picture with me...
 ....but were more than happy to take a picture with Tyler.
 Little stinkers.  It was really a fun day though.  We brought back a bunch of apples from Tyler's parent's house, so in the afternoon we made and canned apple sauce, and this morning Tyler made an apple pie that looked amazing!  He used pre-made crust but it still tasted yummy.  It was a very fall-ish weekend and I loved it.

pumpkin patch love



 There is a little pumpkin patch nearby that we love.  We went once last year at the end of October and I wished we had gone more often.  It was super cheap to get in and the kids were free and it was just a ton of fun.  This year I've decided not to miss out and we've already gone twice!  I took the boys one morning by myself.  It was a total blast, and perfect until buses full of school kids rode up.  Then it got so crazy.

 Both the boys love the giant bed of corn.  It's so theraputic to play in.  If only Eli didn't try to eat it all...

Eli also loved the animals.  He petted all of them!  TJ was more wary.  He petted the kangaroo, then decided to try to pet the geese (oh, TJ) and got bitten.  Those birds are just in an awful mood, molting and stressed and NOT PETTING ZOO MATERIAL.
 Eli laid face down and would stick his face in the corn and lick it.  It was greeeaaaat.
 TJ's favorite thing was the hay rides.  We did it twice!  He was so excited about riding the tractor (even though we were riding behind the tractor... but whatever).
 On Friday, we went back with Tyler to do the corn maize and pick some pumpkins.
The first order of business was to play in the corn.  Obviously.
Since Tyler was there to help this time, both the boys got to do the slides.  Once TJ went down, he wanted to go over and over!  Eli loved it too.

Next was a hay ride.
 Finally we got to do the mazes.  We primed TJ with the two kid-friendly hay maizes.  He was crazy about it.

 We did the corn maize, and let TJ pick where to go.  During the maize, Eli picked up some corn to munch on.  It was grain corn so I can't imagine it tasted that good but he got a few bites in before I confiscated it.
 I don't know if it was luck or what, but he found the way out in under five minutes.  I was super impressed and he was running and cheering when we got to the exit!  It was so cute.
 I'm hoping to go a few more times before the end of the season.  It is still so warm here, we want to be outside as much as possible!