Interesting week I had. Falling in and out of love. Of course not human! But shows.
Mad about a korean series- Coffee Prince. Fairy tales ending. Something that doesn't happen in real life.

BUT

Who cares?! I just love the story. Damn funny and exciting. Now it has only been broadcast till Episode 8. The serial will complete on the day school starts. ^_^ Great, isn't it? Just nice for me to rush into studying.

Today I treat Da Jie to lunch. Spoke about Kiat bro and his girlfriend, Lynette. Lynette has a stable job in Penang. However, my aunt told her to quit that job and accompany my cousin as he seeks a job in Singapore. She indeed quit her job. Came to Singapore with him and my cousin secured a job at ST. But lynette went for interviews and interviews. None was selected her. Sad sad. So when I asked my sister over lunch, whether will she do like what lynette did, she asked me the same question too.

My answer- I will not do like what she did. Then guess what, both of us held our cup and said, "Cheers." I think that is why my sister and I decided to stay single. =p

It has been long since I last met him. Really miss him sometimes. If he had not chosen the route of going to Melbourne, we would have been in the same school. What's more? I have a very close friend in school. The number of SRJCians are very few in school. The girls are mostly attached by now. Saw fiona with a SMU guy always. Cindy hanging with another bunch of "popular" guys while I am the much quieter girl than before. Really miss my days in JC and secondary school.

What can I say? Having surrounded by friends, laughing and enjoying the day away. But I realised we all have to grow. Friends are people we seldom meet, but always care for. It is funny when u look back, thinking friends are people who are always there by ur side, same hobbies and same frequency of thoughts. But it once in a while turns out that the person whom u thought had forgotten about you is the one that lend the helping hand. Care for you often when he/she not in need of your help. Unlike the people you thought were friends.

People that chose to make friends with the people that allows them to gain, friendship has became something that is like business. How much gain the other party can bring you? Will he/she lend me a helping hand when in need? Will the other party feel gratitude for what I have done? Will I gain anything in future is I had help?

The thought that "I will be rewarded" was long gone as life complicates. No longer this thought is seen as a bonus but often a hidden condition when reaching out to a person in need. I miss that crazy friend of mine, who never had those ugly thoughts. Miss you pal. Do well in studies yeah?!

I am totatly bewitched. I love the books. The ending was what I had wished for, of course, except the death of Fred, Lupin, Tonks, Dobby, Colin and Mad-eye Moody. Not forgetting George losing ear. But the death that hit me hard and worst was Snape.

A talented man who was deeply in love with Lily Evans. A person who sacrifice all for the woman he loved. Someone who was so brave yet died for the worst reason I can ever think of. Showing no signs of love, yet protecting the son of the woman he loved but bears the looks of his enemy. Every word and action was actually protecting that boy. However, allowed the whole world to misunderstand him, yet stand strong on his principle. Still, till his very last breath nobody understand him. Only memories could wash him pure.Sorting was held too early. If had been later, he may had been the happiest man on earth. For I had cried each time I read the previous books in this series. "Coward", harry potter had called him in the Half-blood Prince Book. For I saw him as a "Hero".

A consolation was the romance betweem Hermonie and Ron. Sweet couple. And Ginny fighting against Death Eater Professors with Neville and Luna.

I love this last book of the series. Dumbledore was a perfect person afterall.

I have changed. Since that incident 2 years ago I've been much more immune to quarrels and getting my feelings hurt. Weird isn't it?

Today da jie found out how much I earn a month, S$1500 for the past 2 months and slightly more this month due to the conference in Bali. She was fuming mad. When elders say, "Money matters will hurt kinship", I never believe. Cause I thought as long there is give and take, it should be fine. Moreover, kinship cannot be measured by physical value. She said those hurting words. Say I dig a hole in her pocket and stuff even though I am earning that much.

Does she know how envious I am when I see my friends being pampered with gifts by their sisters? Or though not gifts, their sisters would share stuff among each other. Mine was not like that. What is hers is hers. Occasionally I would take her stuff without permission and be prepared to face the music when she finds out. Never did I mention these feelings to her. Because I know my sister is who she is. But it is always inevitable to compare. Though I am in such a state, I never fail to pamper them and myself=) I will always buy food that I think it is delicious and bring it home. But never did my sisters appreciate it. But instead, they say I always try good food without them. Dining as a family outside is a very huge expense. Most of the time, when I eat with my friends I uses the money I earn during holiday or the money I scrimp and save from my daily allowance. While my elder sister save her money, I spend and save at the same time. But these efforts of buying food and little gifts are never part of their memory.

Last year christmas I was in Shanghai. I used my own money to buy Da Jie a shawl because I know her new HDB Hub office will be cold on rainy day. Bought Sarah little hair clips too. The money dad and mummy gave me was untouched. The night I returned home, I secretly slipped those cash into our family foreign currency wallet. While my christmas bonus was in China currency and I still returned it to my parents, sarah and jie's bonus were safe in their banks. I once thought these actions of mine will be secret till i lay six feet under. How many times I wanted to say all the handling of cash was done. But I held back. It only make them look ugly and petty over money. So I took the image of being a spendthrift and sister who love spend money and digging holes out of people pocket. Who can remember the sister who paid hundred over dollars on their clothes? Who can remember the girl who treats them to the lunch after movies?

I am pampered by the older generations maybe because they saw what was in me. Deep inside I am somebody who put others before myself. always thinking whether I am hurting another party. Am I?

Sometimes, even family members that are so close to you cannot take the jokes you crack. Then, who can?

okie.. I started out wanting to type how unlucky I was today. I wanted to whine. But I guess my guy friend had a worst day than me.

I woke up early this morning, thinking that I should go for a jog before heading down to town to watch Harry Potter. But my shoes went missing. two greens socks were left along the corridor. My shoes were stolen. Freak! I was so mad. A bad start.

Second thing happened to me is on the train to town. A madman stepped on my foot everystep I took. His sharp sandal base left scratches on my foot.

I snapped. after which whoever comes in my way shall die. throwing temper is my forte. My parents feared me the whole day. I was uncontrollable.

Third thing, i saw a miss call on my phone just. Returned the call and an angry lady answered. I snapped. Then my guy friend voice came. "I'll call u back soon"
Next, I was so angry and embarrassed. I drop him a msg. "so gonna kill u when I see u again!!!"

He called. He was suppose to leave for hong kong tmr, but now, he lost his passport, car keys, handphone, house key and wallet. Replacement will sure cause a bomb.

I am comforted. But feel real sad for him. haiz...

Haha.. so long nv update my bloggy. Kinda busy finishing drama serial before school reopens. Turned 20 last tuesday. Many birthday wishes, gifts and memories. Friends are people who will always be there.

Not suppose to demand or feel sad when somebody forgets.
But there is somebody that really touched my heart. I thought he forgot about my birthday. No wishes, no calls, nothing.

While waiting for my hair to dry, he called. 30mins to midnight, he called.

Me: Hello?

Him: Happy 20th birthday!!! I may not be the first one to wish u happy birthday, but I will be the last before the day ends.

Me: *lol* I thought you forgot about me. Surprise surprise... Where are you now? Bet still loitering outside.

Him: So smart. I am still outside.....Actually I'm at ur house downstairs.

Me: Huh? really? don't bluff me!

Him: Look down ur window now. (*phone call ended)

I turned around, placed my laptop down and open the window. There below, he stood.
Suddenly, he shouted, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! May all ur dreams come true. You must be happy k!"

That night, I felt a little sweetness in my heart. How I wish he was not my cousin. So guys f u all read this, this method may be a very sweet way to tell the girl u are there. That girl who two time my cousin, you don't know what u just lost. =p

I am turning 20 in few more hours. Believe me, nobody will understand how happy and scared i am. having my age starting with a digit two means more maturity and responsibility.

I am somebody who fears great resposibility. Who does not?
My new age resolution?

Be contented with my life. Till tmr.. sweet dreams.

I wonder why some people take their lives for granted. Life may not be easy, be it love relationship, family, career or friends.

Just read the entertainment news today. A guy with bright future is gone forever. NTU grad in Comms, part-time dancer and instructor for Mediacorp and someone who can sing. What does he take life as? How tough his life was, he should not have ended it like that.

Mummy once told me that if we every end our life so childishly, we will have to go through such circumstances for the next 7 lifetimes. If we had ended our life because we think there is no solution to our problems then many would have taken that step. Life is never easy.

Though I do not know that guy personally, but if he really commited suicide because he is depressed that he lost his love, he is definitely not somebody I'll respect. A person who only knows how to escape from problem using this method, only one word can describe him. Foolish. A bright future, family and friends are with him, though not by his side all times, he should had treat his life more preciously.

Sad ending.