I have moved my blog
http://summersnowing.wordpress.com a simple nice place
Happy New Year! Even though it is 5 days late.
It's been one month since I blogged. OCIP trip was really an experience that I nv forget. Thank you for the bimbos, the bias ppl, the neturals, the double-faces ppl and of course my clique of friends. This trip was insanely funny. I learn how to make pau. Something thats looks easy but hard to get the folds right.
The public bathe that everyone walks around naked. Really naked. Havign ppl looking at u when u bathe. I know it is the same as in Japan. But this is really the first time for me.. i heard 2 of my guy friends were so uncomfortable at their pool that they wrapped towel throughout the experience and ppl keep looking! hahah..
Went to work yesterday. My first day of work. So many things have changed. I am learning from square 1 again=/ so tired after wearing 2.5inches heels for one whole day. Off to school for class soon...
12 hours before I am flying off, I have finally really finished packing my bag!
Haha.. 13kg.. not too heavy I guess. This will be my last OCIP trip before entering the workforce. Kinda excited about it. Just that I am getting really pissed with lots of ppl yesterday. 24hrs before flying I realized some ppl nv do what I instructed them to do!!! Literally suckign my blood yesterday. Haha..
will try to take more pictures when i am there. I have rebonded my hair. Now it is more manageable. I guess... When my guy friends asked me why i rebonded my hair just before I am going to china, my reply," Then I don't need to comb my hair there" they rolled their eyes. Haha.. Will cut my hair shorter when I am back=p
Hope that I have cleared my mind when I return. Will blog when I am back=p
Ciao~
It is barely 630am on a Sunday morning and I am awake. I can't really sleep last night even though I have complete my exams and all projects.
Should I give him another chance?
Been thinking the whole of last night and I realized the problem is with me.
Perhaps because I can only remember the lonely childhood I had in the TTSH, I am used to my family showing me concern. And till now, I can feel that they still care for me the most. That's why I want my partner to care for me, to love me like the way my family does. But I was told that care and love are very subjective. He may gave me the love and care but I may deem it as not enough.
Thinking of this, I realized the problem is not with Ian. It is with me.
Sometimes I wonder am I suitable to enter into a relationship.
Today I think i broke his heart. I know I should have waited till next week when all papers have ended. But he called. So I told him my feelings. Perhaps what happen during Week 11 was too late already, even there was slight improvement, everything became the same when it came to study and exam week. So what it is exam week? Even though there may not be exams anymore when we enter the working world, what will happen to me when you are stress over work? What will happen to my kids if we will ever have them?
Maybe I am different from others, all I need is him to be there when I am sick or need a listening ear and show me some concern. And I will be smiling the rest of my day.
But I don't wish to be treated like a puppy. When you are happy, you pat my head and play with me. But when u are stress and in bad mood, I am expected to lick my paws and stay at a corner not disturbing you. I do feel this way sometimes. Wondering why can't my relationship be like Liyun, delphine or even oxy. Smiling every week, lovey dovey every moment we see them.
I know I should not compare or envy. But how I wish...
I'm tired and it is time to study..
Maybe the 2 weeks in china is time for me to take myself away from this situation
Gosh.. today is my 400th post since I started blogging. LOL.. 4 years to hae 400 posts= on average I blog 100 times per year. haha..
Studying today in school is not very productive.. I keep getting distracted thinking of things i should not. How I wish these thoughts can stop invading my mind until after exams or until the time is right.. haiz..
I wanna go marina barriage again!! this time I wanna fly kite there. dreamt that I was flying kite there.. haha.. but dunno who was flying with me=( I guess I can only there after I am back from HK .. 6 more days to exams and X'mas is coming!! Feel like watching Love Actually again=p
First up, after exams I wanna watch New Moon on the day I am flying to China.. Going back to Hangzhou after 2 years. If I could return to time 2 years ago, I would have do manythings much differently. I guess I will be much happier. Today sarah finally shared with me that she hope that I am the always smiling and noisy sophia. And I thought I was noisy enough already=p
isn't fun how fate had toyed our life all this while...
I want to sit a swing so much NOW!! Yesterday I barely sat at the swing near hougang MRT for 5 mins and a little boy came staring at me. He gave me the look that I usually give strangers if I stepped on their foot in the train or I wanted to cut queue to get my things fast.
Damn.. haha.. so i when I asked, "You want to sit?" The little boy nodded. So trying to be a nice Jie jie, I gave up my swing. BUT HE DIDN'T EVEN SAY THANK YOU!!!
Kids today are really pampered and RUDE!! =(