Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Hear me now
searching for the strength I thought I had inside me,
left you behind so lonely,
praying for the day that you would somehow find me.
I was young
(you were wrong)
but i tried
(I was strong)
and the years that I have lost are all I see
Hear me now.
All I can say is I am not afraid,
of the world that I have tried to push away,
I fight everyday,
but I am to blame,
I am not innocent,
but I am not afraid.
I lost all the things inside me,
(inside me)
Still have found myself with all the will to
free me from you,
I'm a slave,
unhappy,
(Unhappy)
wanting oh so much for you to someday see me.
tell me how,
(I want to)
sing it loud,
(I need you to be the one who catches all my dreams)
Hear me now
All I can say,
is I am not afraid,
of the world that I have tried to push away,
I fight everyday,
but I am to blame,
I am not innocent,
but I am not afraid anymore,
I am not afraid,
anymore...
I'm tired of sleeping,
alone I've been grieving,
the life that I gave up to feel alive,
I want to feel alive..
I'm not afraid,
anymore,
I'm not afraid,
anymore,
I'm not afraid,(I want to feel alive)
anymore,(I want to feel alive)
I'm not afraid,(I want to feel, I need to feel)
anymore,(I want to feel alive)
i'm not afraid,(hold on tight)
anymore, (let's make this right)
I'm not afraid(take me, make me, feel alive tonight)
Posted by Sui Teng at 4:50 PM
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Give me a gun and i'll finish me off myself.This is a hair pulling, shout-kick-cry till u drop dead situation.
This sickening feeling is forever haunting me.
It never leaves me.
It happens over and over again.
When will it ever change?
I tried to verbalise, but it was not appreciated.
So now i'd like to just document it.
When situations happen too frequently, emotions die off.
Now im numb and emotionless.
But u dun care.
Seriously.
Probably u need to see my motionless body to make u realise things which were happening and the things that u could have done.
Posted by Sui Teng at 7:12 PM
Monday, September 28, 2009
You and meWe used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know
Don't speak I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands I sit and cry
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?
Don't speak I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh
Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush,
hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Posted by Sui Teng at 8:18 PM
Friday, July 3, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 2:53 AM
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 1:31 AM
Monday, June 29, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 3:48 AM
Sunday, May 31, 2009
It would have been perfect without the lies~
Posted by Sui Teng at 11:59 PM
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 6:49 PM
Saturday, May 16, 2009
And it also made me yearn to be skinny!!!
This was when the heart was still bright red and full of colour!!! Now its faded !! super faded !!
I think this was when we had our year 3 IMH posting
The times when we studied at yishun mac till the sun came up
Hmm, this one i think was at cityhall. We had donuts!
Argh, the amore times shafaaa!!! i wanna get that shape again!!
The days when pakcik and me were "dating". Hilarious project!! Enjoyed every moment! Even the healthy shopping at NTUC was memorable!!
Bottom line, saya nak kurus ah.
And, mana ni semua orang?
Posted by Sui Teng at 5:27 PM
Monday, April 27, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 11:26 PM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 10:47 PM
Saturday, April 11, 2009
I made a new discovery
Probably one of the most obvious
Its funny how u think of all possible answers
From all sorts of dimensions and perspectives
Only to know
That the answer is right smack in front of you
It's not that i don't observe well
It was because it didnt matter at all, then
We tend to complicate simple matters
I'm sad that we like to leave things hanging
We don't talk about things
We just let it naturally fall back into place
However, behind the smiles and laughter,
there lies alot of doubts and questions
To some it keeps brewing
To some, they just ignore with the hope that it doesnt reoccur
And just move on
For me, i prefer to hear everything
I want to know what is in your mind
And i will definitely tell u what's on mine
I don't care if the words are gonna hurt
I appreciate honesty, very very much
And from there, we move on
For now, all i got to say is that the lack of communication
The fear of conveying messages
The lack of initiatives
The lack of listening
are the ones that weakens the bond
The simple act of listening was never in your list of actions
I'm deeply appalled by that
It goes to show how concerned you are and have been
I'm not afraid to say that things will never be the same
We will all be hiding behind masks
To hide the hideous truth
There will no longer be sincerity
We will all be forced to do/say things
just for
the sake of doing/saying it
This is how we have changed
Posted by Sui Teng at 1:53 PM
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 3:33 PM
This is probably one of the most hilarious quizzes i've ever had.
and
the result is -0.05%: Macam Paham College Girl
You speak English only and you probably don't know why sorry sorry kena naik lorry. Mats don't appeal to you at all and you've probably never been to Dbl O on a Thursday. You probably assume that minah holds the same definition as minahrep, but you are sadly mistaken my friend. Perangai stoppit sak, sebelum kau kena kicap nanti.
Posted by Sui Teng at 4:36 AM
Friday, April 3, 2009
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Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 12:59 PM
Sunday, March 22, 2009
I'm losing my focus in life.
C'mon, what the value of life now?
Get back in line you!
Posted by Sui Teng at 4:19 AM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
I found this soooo adorable.
*chuckles*
"If the person you are talking to doesn't appear to be listening, be patient. It may simply be that he has a small piece of fluff in his ear."
-Winnie The Pooh-
Posted by Sui Teng at 9:43 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
She wore shorts.
Her friend said : Eh, ur legs really very big & fat leh.
FAT
FAT
FAT
FAT
FAT
FAT
Posted by Sui Teng at 12:54 AM
Monday, March 9, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 11:21 AM
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Wow, this is really interesting.
I'm sitting at starbucks right now.
And there are 3 kids beside me.
They are probably in polytechnic cos i can somehow figure out that they are trying to study for some kinda exam.
And they are probably in accountancy or smth.
And they started blabbering about how each of them wanted to be in a different course.
Girl A wanted to be in sports management but her mom didnt allow her to.
And then Girl B said that she wanted to join nursing initially.
Girl A's reaction : EEE FOR WAT, ANGKAT TAIK ORANG!
My actual reaction: *Silence*
My intended reaction: @#$% u for looking down on nurses. I hope then someday when u get sick, no one will take care of u. Go take care of urself then. Since u tink its so disgusting to be a nurse. If u cant handle it, then its fine, but dun insult or look down on others.
Someday they are the helping hands for pathetic u.
I am juz so disappointed to hear that from a minor.
A minor.
With no manners.
Posted by Sui Teng at 3:10 AM
I feel very @!#!$%^& up right now.
Is there smth wrong wit me?
Or is it you ?
Let me be done and over with this shit.
I cant take it anymoreeeeeeeeeeeee
Posted by Sui Teng at 2:25 AM
Friday, March 6, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 10:30 PM
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Juz happen to come across this.
A quiz.
Eons since i did one.
Hur hur.
Hmm, the quiz doesnt give quite the right results i say.
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Posted by Sui Teng at 8:21 PM
Monday, March 2, 2009
Something to make me smile.
Amidst this shitty kinda life.
A funny icon.
tee hee hee.
Last of all, i would like to say
I HATE SCHOOL
Posted by Sui Teng at 9:03 PM
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 9:13 PM
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Cant cant cant wait for fridayyyy dear!!!
Posted by Sui Teng at 9:50 PM
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Yes Yes Yes
This is such a torture.
I hate hate hate all of these.
I sigh as much as i breathe.
Posted by Sui Teng at 10:19 PM
Monday, February 23, 2009
This fella is sooo cute ! hahahah!
Posted by Sui Teng at 11:37 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 12:25 PM
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 11:06 AM
Monday, February 16, 2009
-Waking up with a frown every single day-Jolted from sleeps
-In constant fear and anxiety
-A neverending torment
Posted by Sui Teng at 9:03 PM
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Thank you for being VERY concerned.I appreciate it VERY much.
Thank you for BEING THERE for me.
It certainly TOUCHED my heart.
When things started to be gloomy,
Nasty things occurred,
Harsh words were thrown upon me,
Things felt so bleak,
And i thot this is one of the worst plights of my life,
YOU OF ALL PEOPLE,
YOU
made decisions which will be warmly etched in my mind forever.
Warmly etched as i said, to emphasize the burn.
I'm burning fiercely deep within.
CAll me whatever u want but i get ignited very easily.
Maybe im the OBJECT to stay away from.
When im drowning,
TAke ur time to throw a float,
In fact, dun even bother.
I know u will come back for me later,
to come and collect my dead body.
Posted by Sui Teng at 1:31 AM
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 12:45 AM
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 9:33 AM
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 8:58 PM
It's called DROWNING IN YOUR SORROWS
Posted by Sui Teng at 8:13 PM
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 10:27 PM
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 2:37 AM
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Day 1: Line got thru! I felt super duper relieved! Happy !!
Day 2 : Line was not available!!!!!!! AAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I'm so sad!!!! I wonder how ur doing. . Is everything alright? I hope ur taking good care of urself! Pls pls pls do so. I'm worried!!
Im so gonna look like this if i cant get thru to u in the next few days!
Posted by Sui Teng at 11:40 PM
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Posted by Sui Teng at 10:55 PM
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Posted by Sui Teng at 8:58 PM
**For own's viewing pleasure**
Wow, nicole did it in about 3 months!! Amazing!!
Posted by Sui Teng at 11:51 AM
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
One of my regrets in life.
Not continuing.
Not continuing.
Posted by Sui Teng at 12:35 AM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Posted by Sui Teng at 3:25 PM
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Posted by Sui Teng at 2:33 PM
Sunday, December 7, 2008
This was how the week went...My bike got clamped by security coz i didnt park in the slot.
We had to gobble down the doughnuts b4 the movie. Ironic thing was the movie involved lotsa doughnuts! hahaha. Hilarious i tell u. Movie-Sex drive.
We suprised NAs on his bday!! I love the cake! Picture courtesy of Ms Lin. Haha
The cake w/o candles.
Orang punya bday, kita pulak sibok-sibok. Hahaha.
THe birthday boy!!
The ladies who made it happen. Hehe.
I love this candid picture!
The ladies who made it happen. Hehe.
I love this candid picture!
And also, those are the guys who made it happen.
We ended the day in style. khehe
We ended the day in style. khehe
