the beeeeeg move

hey people,
i have decided to make the move,
well they always say,
the grass is greener on the other side.
MOVED
say YAY!
:)

the switch

i feel like i havent been here in ages.
i feel like i havent been around people in ages.
i feel pathetic.

BIRTHDAY
the birthday saw me spending some time with the girls at new york new york for lunch.
and some ice cream and cakes at swensons with the guys.
it was lovely.
much loves people

CHRISTMAS
christmas was spent with the family.
some time together for the usual gathering filled with loads of food, alcohol and classic old christmas goodies.
presents were apparantly not a big thing on this years agenda.
but nonetheless i guess its the time together that counts.
it wasnt as crazy as it used to be but hey, its the special time of the year.

TODAY
today was spent with the girls who came down to golf despite of the weather.
it saw them fooling around and justtrying to hit some balls.
you two did great by the way.
and now they truly cannot say that i'm good cos i am so darn pathetic at the game.
ms de souza's afterthat with the class.




well, lately theres been so much on my mind that i've been just wasting my time away thinking about stuff. i guess at times like this where its raining almost all the time, time is on my side and theres just been so much to reflect on for the past whole year.
from what started as a year that i would do something for myself for probably once in my life and having my year all planned out with the goal in mind that i had set at this same time of the year last year, it sure turned out a whole lot different.
i have to admit, it was a year filled with lots of tears, where i have truly realised how strong my mind is only to realise that it is weak. its been a year of many conflicting things that went through my head, and having to give in eventually. its a year where i have had so many wrong decisions only to regret them but not having the freaking guts to stand up to change them.its been a year of so much insecurities that at times i feel like just crumbling. its a year where i have felt like i have lost so much and yet have no lesson to learn from them. its been a year of feeling proud of myself and have someone else bring you down in the end. its been a year of shining and yet theres just always someone out there thats better. its been a year of having to feel second best to someone else. a year where everything you do is never enough. a year of so much disappointment from so many despite having already done your best. its been a year of feeling so darn scared of making the wrong move that i never gave myself the chance to make any choices at all. a year of feeling like its my job to please everyone else and never doing what makes me happy. a year of trying so hard only to fail in the end. its a year of not listening to my feelings and instincts. a year where there are so many bad memories that the good ones are been outshadowed.
it has just been a year filled with so much sorrow and despair.
a year where i just feel so fucking useless.


2007 will be a better year.
theres no turning back.
2006 has probably been the lowest point in my life as yet
and it can only get better.

sometimes you fall before you fly.
i'm still counting on that one.

oohlala

hey all.
i am back.
haha.actually i was back a couple of days ago, in fact i was back 3 days ago.
so the holiday was alright.
hmmm.i didnt do much shopping and it was a good time to relax except that i got really really sick on the 2nd day i was there.
lets just say that it was the first time i was in the a&e in another country.
it was quite an experience from what i can remember.(i dont recall much of it)
but well, i'm all good now.hahaha.
and the holiday was good nonetheless, i needed the break badly i guess.
i'm too lazy to blog about the trip, go to kim's if you wanna read more, i'm guessing she already lj-ed it.

so since i was back i have just been resting and chilling out in front of the tv for the past 3 days.
hahaha.pity i didnt get to catch the lexus cup this year.(i went last year and i was wow-ed by them considering that this time last year, i just started playing)hmmm. was supposed to go watch it today but the weather was being fickle and it sorta rain and stop, rain and stop for the whole day.
thus i only managed to catch it on tv.
but yay for team asia.
power to the asian girls!

anyways.
i have something to say.
i havent golfed in more than a week.
i have yet to touch my clubs at all.
and i'm feeling nervous about it.
i'm scared that i would have forgotten how to hit the ball.
so i'm keeping my fingers crossed till the next time i get to go to the range.
i'm thinking of resting somemore.haha.
we'll see.

but all will be good i'm hoping and i wanna play some good golf really really soon.
plus considering that i'm trying to forget about the game that i played just before i left, it had to be the worst game i have played since getting my handicap.
the holiday was therefore much needed.

and and and i miss my friends very very very much.
i wanna go out soon.
when dixie comes back, we'll go out again.
and the birthday's coming.
i have yet to have plans but i'm probably having dinner with the family so lunch with the friends would be nice.
soon soon.
and i cant wait.

wonderwoman!

hey all.
sorry for the lack of updates.
been busy busy busy all week.
thursday saw me meeting up wth the two lovelies.
ikea-ed in the morning with the wonderful breakfast.
we had loads of fun.
we had a nice breakfast even though we had to wait pretty long but nevermind.
anyways we walked about, played around and decided to rest after that.
anyways. check out this kong zi guy.
i called him kong zi, just look at his hair.
amusing to the max.
hahaha.





















check out the big big big big heart.
this one does not have feroz but he was once in the same suit.
how funny.
i thought it was really funny.
i was pretty much amused by the big red walking heart with two little swinging hands.


we basically chilled out at starbucks after that and just talked for a whole lot of the time and it was good. it was much fun and i always have a great time just being with them.
time with the two of them is the most wonderful thing you can ever imagine.

i love love love the both of you all the christmas trees, all the gingerbreads, all the stuffed turkeys and all the candy canes in the world!!
:):):)

scotty doesnt know

hey all.
whats a better day to start the christmas mood than to get a new christmas tree.
hahaha.
yay so after the much needed packing of the shelf, daddy and mummy decided that we deserved a new tree this year.haha.so we headed down to the christmas shop which by the way sells almost every christmas thingy and we got a new short tree.hahhaa.after so many years of the tree being taller than me, for once we're getting one which i can reach the top.
say yay!!!
i bought so so so many christmas deco thingys.hahhaa.
i'm such a sucker for the special day in december.
hahahaha
i'm telling you christmas is like my favourite day in the year, maybe 2nd to the birthday, but who really cares when it's so close to each other.hahaha.
i love love love love love december.
(thats 5 loves for you man)

anyways, today saw me just lazing around at home in the morning, watching tv.
oh yeah,i caught eurotrip on tv today.
it was so good i'm telling you, me and kim just laughed our assess off.
seriously funny.
hahhahaa.
love it.

afternoon saw me cabbing to the club for some putting practice.
its much needed i'm telling you.
hahahaha.
i bet daddy was impressed by my dedication.
(YEAH! COMEON!)
it was good albeit all the sore backs and legs.

anyways.
i see myself doing loads of christmas shopping soon.
i mean with the new tree, it's just screaming presents! presents! in my face.
well i told you i was nuts about christmas.

YAY!
i still very much like what we have.
the telepathy.
much loves
:)

wake up

so i chipped my way to success today.
ok so maybe not success but hey it was good.
hahaha.
yay.i can finally chip properly alright.hahaha.
or so i think i can after the what 2hrs++ of chipping.

ohhhh.
I WANT TO GET A LJ!!!
i like all the smiley faces thingy.hahaha.
it is so darn cute.
i wanna switch.
i am so sick of my blog.
ewwwwww.
i want to put nice smiley faces thingy.
hahhaa.

so todays been boring so far except for the confused feelings that i have been feeling the whole of today.

someone should just wake me up from this dream.
i feel kinda dumb dreaming like that
but then again,
i like what i dreamt.
lets make it real!
hmmm.
i dont know.
i'm not sure myself.

i'm still happy.
no worries
:)

i wish you knew

hey people.
its gonna rain again.
hahhaa.
and i miss everyone now.
every single one.
i havent seen you guys in a long long time.
and i'm feeling so cranky.

anyways
pw oral on thursday was alright.
hahhaa.
except that i thought the teachers didnt really know how to ask proper questions.
seriously, the other 2 groups had sucky questions.
poorthings.
thank goodness for our questions,
it was somewhat more appropriate.
so yay.
now that pw is officially over.
its all gonna be good.

theres gonna be service learning on monday
we're gonna go chitchat with the old folks.
its gonna be good.
hahhaa.
i can talk to old people,
hahha, wow i'm sure we can click.

anyways.its all good now.
and good is good.
i'm happy despite the rain.
yay
:)


ps. i love the way we communicate:)