Name: Shuhua
Birthdate: 22 Oct
Horoscope: Libra
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I didnt go for my sci class yesterday night. I juz had a feeling that i dont feel like going even though i've sort of recovered from my flu already...
It was about 10.15pm like that, as i was abt to fall asleep at my sofa, my youngest bro suddenly call me to look at my hamster quickly. Sigh... my hammi had passed away... (saw her last struggle to try and get up when she heard me calling her name)
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| Shasha @ 7:30 AM |
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I spend hours readin the naruto manga... hohoho... so nicee :D Haiz.. anyway now.. i'm down wif flu. If my flu neber get any better but worsen tml.. i might skip my night class.
Sigh... i cant eat well nowadays... =/
Woot.. anyway now on my way to sign up for maplesea.com. hohoho!! XD |
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| Shasha @ 7:54 AM |
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| yikes pple changin... dont follow trends blindly... |
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Yikes... sometimes i feel disgusted at how pple change. I wonder if its a gd thing or a bad thing? Or am i not used to their new personality? Its like... u noe the person for quite a few yrs.. then suddenly ur gd frenz turns into... like a total stranger to u?? o_O I shant name her.
Hm.. ok.. here i go... tis girl.. knew her for quite a few yrs le. When i first get to noe her, she appears to me as a shy, cute sweet little ger. However, recently, i find her like a total stranger to me. Like... where did the gd old yrs of friendship went to? She suddenly talk without thinking. Kind of immature when i see some of her actions now. =/ Maybe she hasnt really "grow up" yet ba. I find her getting more and more impolite now. Perhaps... someone's words are coming true... somebody is startin to show her true colours now. Sigh...
Another matter is, i used to chat wif my cousins about our smiliar interests when we are younger... but now.. whenever theres family gathering... i sumhow feel its more like "fashion n trends club" -_-" She would keep rambling about the lastest brands of handphones, those new brands like von dutch.. etc. I mean come on! I noe u noe alot abt this stuffs, doesnt mean u gotta to show off ur knowledge abt them right?? U can sit down telling me long grandmother stories abt the latest stuffs, handphone u bought...but i wont listen for them for long. ~_~ Not really interested in knowing much abt those stuffs. Heh, I'm definately not a trendy person , neither am i an old-fashion person... heex. =)
Somehow, i juz hope pple wont follow trends blindly. -_-" I dont mean u cant follow trends, but what i'm tryin to say is, at least... wear those that suits u. =) Not juz becoz, omg that item is the latest fashion watever... makes sense right? |
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| Shasha @ 2:55 PM |
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I dun feel like goin to night class today. Yet, on the other hand, i dont like the feeling to get miss out on some important stuffs. Ok, i agree that old man's teachings are kind of boring... but what to do??
Who can actually understand my feelings of isolation?? Walking alone in the evening to a unfamiliar place, sitting down in class alone for about 3hrs? No faces that i'm able to recognise. I seemed to do everything on my own. Theres a short break of 10-15 mins every lesson, but i would still stay in class.. daydreaming.. unless nature calls. Even though there are some nice pple there who would smile at me, talk to me for a while but... somehow... i feel empty. The feeling of being in that sci lab is so much different from my sci lab lessons when i was in sec sch. I dont now y... it just feel different... After the lesson ends, i would walk to the mrt station quietly, alone. By the time i reach back home, it would be 10 plus near 11 already.
Can u imagine eating lunch at 2pm... and having ur dinner as early as 5pm? I definately got no mood to eat. -_- No choice... i have to force myself to eat.. becoz if i dont, i will need to endure a empty stomach for the next 5 hours...
Sigh.. anyway.. i finally recieved the stupid dumb registration letter from clementi ITE... muz report to the campus on 26th april.Hm.. maybe its a gd thing i go ITE now first... well at least i still can have a student ez link card, means cheaper transport fees. Heh... (but i still feel sad... i check the vacancy for IT in dover ite, its full T_T)
Ok resigned to my fate~ |
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| Shasha @ 7:43 AM |
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| Wednesday, April 20, 2005 |
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Went shoppin at causeway point and a little shoppin at westmall this fashion.. muahahaa... feels so great! Ahh~ Get to eat a bowl of fried salmon rice at the B1 of causeway point... so yummy sia! >.< heh... then also get to eat the waffle ice cream at er.. forget the shop name too ^^" Juz for the 1 waffle ice cream... we waited damn long for it... haiz... but it was worth it =)
OMG! I kpo kpo go see ivan's blog... juz to check where he is posted to... and HE GOT DOVER ITE!! INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY COURSE! OMG!!!! WTF??? Y him??? Shit shit... god is so unfair!!!! How can i lose to someone like him??? I always get better grades than him .... yet my course is lousier than him? So jialat... =_= Btw... he got 1 point better than me in L1R4... (thx to my maths n sci =_=)
U noe in anime, when those characters heard bad news... they would sometimes suddenly go to 1 corner and zhi yan zhi yu...or sumthin like that... yea... thats wat my reaction is now... |
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| Shasha @ 10:21 AM |
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| arrrgggghhh! shit.. shit all shitttt |
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Wth is wrong wif me?? I feel so lazy! My mum keeps pestering me to start doing the maths assement books she bought for me. I have never like studies.. NEVER!! Sigh.. y cant i be more hardworking in studies like my cousins?? -_- Especially yixian and yihui biaojie... darn... y are they so freaking hardworking towards studies??
Cant help feeling that i'm a failure... a nobody... a sore loser... -_- My studies compare to all my female cousins... i'm the lousiest... Y??? Becoz all of them are so darn diligent.. unlike me... i'm total opposite of them! LAZIEST among them all... or should i say.. i'm the only lazy girl around? If theres laziest girl on earth contest... i sure win the first prize!
Watch "the pacifier" wif minzee at westmall tis afternoon. (was kind of surprise that she suddenly ask me to go watch wif her...) Anyway...the show is kind of touching and funny... not bad la, worth to pay $$ to watch. After that, juz jalan jalan , do window shoppin and buy a cup of soya bean frm the jollibean shop. Then we chit chat for about an hour plus at the interchange...
Dunnoe y.. suddenly tok about o lvls... minzee keep telling me to study hard... keep encouragin me not to gif up...then ask which sch i'm enrolling in... haiz.. clementi Ite sux... once i see the sch .. i already sianz half liao... super duper old... where got mood to study??? Now hoping the pple there wont make trouble for me... hopefully there are some friendly pple there... haiz... y ngee ann poly and dover ite havent sent me the news of my appeal letter... i'm getting disheartened...
So shitty... crap !! MY life is CRAPPY!! If only i can turn back.. timing.. ='( Sad... sad... |
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| Shasha @ 2:59 AM |
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Whee! New layout finally! Featuring the kawaii misha from Pita ten!(Haha... this is the first time i use blogskin make by myself for my bloggie =X) I spend many many hours on this layout, I've always wanted to have a pita ten blogskin for my blog but i just couldnt find any that satisfies me. x_x Was intending to make a peaceful, serene layout but somehow i failed to do so ... (LOlz.. and it turn out to be kind of sad, antique *spellin* like theme o_O?) Music playing is still radical dreamers from chrono cross... (but dunnoe whether u pple can hear it.. =/)
Ah whatever it is, i am quite satisfied with this skin. Haiz.. i'm tired now... shall continue updating tml or later at night... |
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| Shasha @ 6:10 PM |
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Realise i havent change my blogskin for 2 months le... guess i like tis skin alot.. >.< I always have a habit of changing skin once a month... haha... i keep searching blogskins.com, any gd graphic websites.. but juz couldnt find any better than tis one... =/
Everything is so unexpected... heard news from frenz about classmates/frenz goin tis course , that course... haiz... so strange... pple who got very gd grades... also end up in a course that has high cut off points. o_O Had a frenz who got 14 for L1R4, but end up in ngee ann nursing! (O_O it was her last choice for jae system n she got it... sux right?) And... i'm not bias/hate or think nursing is a sucky course. In fact i think nursing is one of the best courses in poly! (after graduate, sure wont afraid pple snatchin ur rice bowl one) Juz that, i feel her points, should have gone to some science based course... (kind of wasted..) Those idoitic poly adminstrators.. u think our future is a toy?? Can anyhow play wif our future??
Also heard frm jey that a female ITE graduate who is frm Higher Nitec, worked for SGH for 3 yrs, keep appealing to nanyang poly nursing course, yet the pple down there juz wont accept her.. -_-"
Seriously, i think those pple are so damn bias... shit on their sucky faces.. somehow .. i juz hope that they will do a walk in interview for the appealers of IT type courses so i'll show them i do have some skills of IT! (ok i'm not pro.. but its not like i'm a total idiot when it comes to computers.. =_=) Juz becoz of my maths, u wont accept me ?? haiz... too bad... my art is not superb... if not i would definately go to Nanyang arts sch or sumthin like that... everyday is arts, music, dance, drama... (someone slap me pls... i'm dreaming -_-)
Damn, i also dunnoe y some customers i served at my parents' shop is so KPO! I'm not related to them in anyway... yet they like to ask where i'm studying right now...(how am i suppose to ans that?? I would always look down, then i would lied i went to ngee ann or juz ignore them) Come on...i dont even know who the hell are u...where i go is ur business is it?? (tired of livin? ur lucky tis is no USA, i would shoot u down if i have a gun! muahahaa.. ok mayb not..)
Arrggghh... i keep getting the thinking ITE (ITS THE END) .. now i really hope i can pass my sci & maths very very well... if i cant go my favourite multimedia course in poly or at least, IT course after the 2nd try of o lvls... think i'm gonna end my life -_-
Dont look down on me! *famous quote frm Naruto* |
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| Shasha @ 2:35 PM |
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| Wednesday, April 13, 2005 |
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Y do i feel like my heart is breaking? Y do i suddenly feel so depressed now... i dont feel like eating or doing anythin.. I juz feel like sitting down in one corner, staring into a blank space....
I have been opening my mailbox everyday now... keep checking the mailbox for a particular letter. A letter of hope and happiness... but each time i would get disappointed because the letters recieved are all for my parents. How i wish i can be with my friends, filling up the registration forms for ngee ann poly... I feel so left out... i feel like i'm dropping into darkness...
Yet i still have a few frenz complaining to me about their course they r goin into... Hey come on! Be glad that u are able to go poly this year. Why complain about the course u choose! Dont u noe watever courses u choose in the JAE system earlier... u should be prepared to go in? We r fightin wif the dragon babies (much more pple taking exams than last yr) for the courses we wan... so u should have be prepared gettin into the course u dont like. (At least u still get to choose ur future, i cant even choose a single course in poly... who is more pathetic now -_-) Hate ur course so much? Retake ur o lvls la! Makes sense? (strange.. y am i writing tis here =/)
Is this life?? This world is so cruel... -_- To me especially... wat a heavy punishment i got from the heaven... |
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| Shasha @ 5:55 AM |
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I was tryin to watch magical love (features ella & hebe) show but my youngest brother keep making stupid noises behind me! -_-" Apparently, he was rushing his social studies powerpoint project the last minute (plus throwin tantrum at the same time) becoz he had lost some parts of his work and he had to retype them all over again. (Well, i'm a last minute type person too, but i had already told him to finish his hw on fri & sat =_= )
I got quite annoyed by his dumb noises already, yet my mum keep pestering me to go help him when i dun even noe whats the real problem wif him (he refuse to tell us the problem at first -_-) Then of coz, i had to abandon my show (it was about to end already, y wont u let me finish watchin it =( ) and "rescue him". Could see my father's face is boiling due to my brother's tantrum.
Whats worst, my father said something that i feel extremely not happy wif it. He said to my mum "u see, when zf ask them anythin, he sure wont get an ans or reply back" Which also meaning that we elder sibings will not help him in times of trouble n such... at that moment of time, i really got the urge to turn back n argue wif him.. but i didnt. (NAa... i'm lazy to reason wif him liao... our relationship is bad enough, i havent been talkin to him since the last time we quarrel. I dun even wish to look at him in the face now...)
Before that, an idoit keep making calls to my handphone, about 8 times like that(more like prank calls) keep calling min after min, sometimes hang up before i could ans it. Alright.. dun make me turn nasty =_= The number of the caller is : 92466599 Anybody noe this hp number? (If u're feelin naughty, feel free to harass the person wif prank calls too...)
Ok, enough of my grumbles... i managed to submit a new skin to blogskins.com (Yay!)Heres the link: click here Not very satisfied wif the layout tho... =(
Heres the screenshot:
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| Shasha @ 2:59 PM |
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Finally get to update my blog. Blogger has been screwy n laggy yesterday... making me unable to update my blog at all. -_-"
Watched the eye 10 yesterday. Its more like a comedy show than a horror show. Cant help laughin like mad at certain parts. Hmm.. but at the very first part, i find it kind of disturbin n scary =/ Dunnoe y, once the show began to play a girl being poccessed (*spellin ^^") by a demon, the smiliar scene from constantine keeps flashing in my mind. o_O |
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| Shasha @ 9:28 AM |
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Ah.. juz came reach home. Didnt get to update my blog yesterday becoz i was kinda busy or rather engrossed wif making a new blogskin. ^-^" Its almost done soon, right now juz need to add a bit more stuffs & find a nice suitable midi for that skin.
Anyway...I went Jurong Entertainment, popular then Imm wif guoxiang to do some window shopping. Juz remember that i need to buy a chemistry assessment bk for my night class. So ex sia... 1 bk... already $13 plus. =_=
Then went to IMM, gx treat me a piece of toasted bread wif scrambled egg frm Hans so i treat her a cup of chocolate milkshake and... takoyaki (octopus ball: bought frm the pasar malam at jurong entertainment). Hehe... i also cant resist the temptation frm the delicious cakes displayed there so bought 1 more american cheese cake for myself. Wahaha... now so full =_= (which is a gd thing >.>)
My dumb bros ate all the fries, ahh whichever food that seems edible/appetising for dinner... leaving only fish bones & yucky food for me. (gd gd!! well done!! =_=) There goes my dinner~ sobz
Sigh... i still need to do a sci homework for my night class. haiz.. boring.. so sianzzzz..... |
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| Shasha @ 11:27 AM |
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Ahh.. i juz suddenly remember... tml 5th april is my youngest bro's birthday. Lolz... i didnt realise that until i saw a small birthday cake on the table. I still can ask my bros, "how come theres a cake on the table? whose birthday is coming?" =S *gonk*
Then my youngest bro immediately gif me a stare and say "WhAT?? U dunnoe??" (hehe...water muz have gotten into my brains) Haiz... I dunnoe what to get for him anyway, guess maybe tml i bring him to Toys' R' Us ba...(but i'm kinda lazy to go jurong point =X)
Sigh...suddenly so tired... my eyes juz keep wanting to close by itself. Guess i'll sleep early tonite. hehe... |
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| Shasha @ 1:25 PM |
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Doris juz sent me a very nice & shiok program. Its a stress relief game where u can use punch, slap, karate chop etc.. on a shitty looking person. *evil* Muahahaa... i juz had some fun using those shots at that poor guy and the guy is of coz some animated cartoon character la.. not real photo de.
Anyone wans to try out that program? Hehee... juz send me a msg at msn & i'll send u right away. *muahahaha*
Ahhh... i think i'm a naruto siao fan liao. I keep thinking now, hmm how nice it would be if i can use those ninjutsu, genjutsu or taijutsu (ninja techniques)... that will be so cool man ! >.< *dreaming* |
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| Shasha @ 8:41 AM |
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Whee! Watched Naruto episodes yesterday. My da di had downloaded quite a few of them and somehow we spent our whole afternoon watching them before goin to my parents shop. XD
This anime is sure addictive! Juz need to watch one episode and ur hooked ! XD hehee... think i got abit influenced by the show liao. Besides the comedies, the storyline is quite touching too...
Ahh.. after watching those episodes, i begin to admire a few more characters. (wahaha) Some of them are suave while some of them are juz... so damn cool! *-* Hehe.. |
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| Shasha @ 6:30 PM |
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Well, in the end, i didnt went to clementi ite to appeal for business IT course. Haiz.. I ate my dinner at 5 plus pm today. (which is very early for me, my dinner time is always 7plus or 8 de) Then keep rushing myself, have to meet jeysita at 5.45pm. Hehe... i'm late again of coz ! v(^-^") hehe...
Met her at 6pm like that, at bread talk then both of us bought a bread each. Managed to reach the classroom pretty early too. We keep chattin and waitin for the teacher to arrive. By then it was already 7.25pm like that. I was hopin that the maths teacher will not be a fierce one =_= Then at the same time, i keep turning around to see my classmates, wa, all so matured (mostly twenties, sum abt their late twenties sia) and i think me and jeysita is the youngest in the class ba. Haiz... anyway, another teacher came to inform us that our maths teacher is on MC today. (NICE! Wasted trip today...) That lady still can say "april fool's joke huh?" Haiz.... "nice" joke but also gd for me la, can do abit of shopping today. Hehehee....
Juz now watched my da di playing Fatal Flame 2 game. Woot, see him blasting those horrid ghosts with a special camera. (SHIOK ah!) Haiz... but he plays for a while only... he juz told me too scary to go on liao, his heart beats very fast (lolz! >.<) Now i'm tryin to convince him to continue playing that game. =X Hahaha... |
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| Shasha @ 1:33 PM |
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No mood again... 1st april... april fool's day is the last day to appeal/accept the ITE course. Y april fools day? =(
I read through the ITE faqs... i'm like omg! We can only apply for relvant course after we graduate frm ITE? Yikes... damn... now i have 2 choices, stick wif my sucky no interest business adminstration course (ok, its not really sucky, juz that i have no interest in tis course =_=) or appeal for business-information technology in same ITe west. I have accepted the offer for business adminstration in clementi ITE and also check the vacancy avilable for higher Nitec courses le, information technology in dover ite is not on the list ! (OmG! *faints*)
Ok... lucky business-IT in clementi ite has indication that there are sufficent vacancies left. Heh heh.. guess i muz wake up in the morning of april fools to open my mailbox. (Hopefully can find successful appeal reply for either IT course in ngee ann poly or dover ite T_T) If not, i'll hav to make a trip down to clementi ite to appeal for business IT le. Last chance for me to straighten my thoughts. =/ Hmmm...
Haha... i spent a whole night making a new layout for my webby. Yea, my webby looks so brand new, romantic n full of fantasies now (*-* self-praise lolz)
Go see my website ba! The content is not finished yet but.. worth to take a look now! =P Click here to see my webby Muahahaaa.... my master piece... featuring romantic legend of tidus n yuna. =P |
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| Shasha @ 3:59 AM |
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