Can't seem to put womanizer on my page.
Dammit.
So I'll just put Demi's.

Oh yeah I didn't tell you how different songs were playing in my head when I was doing each single papers.
It all started w maths paper 1..or geog..can't really remembr
&I heard th damn sony alarm clock ringing..I dunno if it's only in my head but I swear it was like for real..
Every now &then I looked up to see if th examiners realized and try t find th source in any way, but nobody seemed to hear it!!! SO I was pretty paranoid I was shaking and all tensed up doing th maths paper 1! After th paper ended, I asked Amalina &sh said I was freaky cause sh heard nth at all..prolly cause sh was at th front maybe but no one else asked me abt it so it kinda haunts me abit.
Maybe I was really panicking cause I was so slack th night before as I thought it'd be just fine when I'd been always doing maths, but apparently no.
I trembled and my clumsiness was evident all over th paper!
For geog, I had Get Back playing in my head. It was nice tho..until I forgot to draw a smiley face I promised AnnPerng I would draw..As he said it would guarantee to keep my cool &do my papers in a serene way(which is unusual for me), but yeah wth, atleast I didn't write jiayou! on th paper like Dori did during Prelims! Oh I havent asked her abt that anw, but I was laughing so hard when AP told me abt this Dori kuku-ness! I so have to clear w her abt that soon!
Oh then, Physics I had womanizer & Maths paper 2 I had Miss Independent :DD
Atleast I had all upbeat songs, not th ones that would force you to wallow on some emotional debris or anth near tt. But I'll keep th songs to accompany me w th 4 papers I've left.

&Did I tell you I nvr wrote TITRATION for chem?!
I got th solubility table mixed up. That damn sodium! All sodium salts are soluble!!
F, so thinking sodium carbonate wasn't, I wrote crystallisation when i was vividly remembering titration th night before! Nvm, takde rezeki..
Okay fine that one I can leave behind. What's worse was th next day, my compo was out of point!
Yes compo! &Speech! I'd never trained speech &it came out! I wrote as simpler as a primary 2 kid would. Oh god, what have I done?!

Oh well, couldn't dwell on it so much, but just try to ace th other interesting papers coming this way! No, except for malay! Malay's just horrible. I'm so sad. But I'll try focus intensely on it for 2 days tho. I'm gonna try okay! Gonna try!

Oh and you have no idea how much drama one week could pack up for you!
Puffff...........I'm so tired of fighting &bitching &comforting &crying &gg hungry but have no appetite for any meal..That's how wrong I've been these days!
When has food not become apart of me? Never! But now it has. Dunno what happened.

Just hang up th phone w Ummu..Sh kinda gave me a nice slap &refreshed my past for me.. okay after O's then I'll think about it...&Shit about th class conflict! Man, I'm so sorry I got all of you confused! Now I'm confused myself! &****, I gotta talk to you again. Evth after O's.. Needa clear some fucked up stuffs up &be a good lady. :D

GOOD LUCK PEEPS FOR TH UPCOMING JUNK!
(:

Be your best, drink brands :D

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1. What do you think of the most when
you are alone?
-Significanttobeother & some joyous
too-out of th world occasion.

2. When it is a rainy night, what do
you do most of the time?
-I hide. In my room.

3. When was the last time you were
out?
-Just. WM's Coffee Bean.

4. What do you do when you see a full
moon?
-Glare & at some desperate times, wish
real silently, its such a cover up;
people think i never play hopefuls.

5. Would you rather swim in the lake
or dive in the ocean?
-Lake.

6. Who would be the best partner you could cry on?
-Amalina, Ummu, used to always Nad. Sometimes I do on my own.

7. If you'll ask yourself a question
now, what would it be?
-What can you do?

8. If certain things in your life will
fall apart, what will you do?
-Either save them, or move on & make th
best out of it. Some I just don't care.

9. Favorite month/s?
-Junes

10. When your friends forget you, what
will you do?
-TRY not to get so personal or
judgmental about it. But usually, i get abit temperamental.

11. Do you talk to yourself?
-

12. Is there anything that you are
craving for right now?
-Th need t be needed.

13. Would you like to have a chocolate
right now?
-No.

14. Ever cried over something stupid?
-Who hasn't? But i believe when you cry
over smth, its not stupid in your life;
more like very important.

15. Do you like anime?
-I really have smth against them. Maybe
just some prospect of some disgusting
issues. Or i just like th idea of having
real actors than some unalive ones?

16. How about Japanese music?
-Ummu introduced me to it..or more like forced me to listen t them..
But I like Korean's better.

17. Do you have a girlfriend?
-Many.

18. First thing you do after watching
a movie?
-Wondering what would I do if I was in it..

19. Do you wash the dishes in your
house?
-Sometimes..

20. Can you last two days without a
bath?
-Haha, if i put my mind to it, sure,
Ofcourse! But why must I?

23. Still go to the mall with your
parents?
-Sometimes.

25. Are you brand conscious?
-Idunno.

26. Ever fell in love?
-Iguess.

27. What time is it?
-10

28. Where are you?
-Hall

29. Is it in you to kill someone?
-Haha, its what i verbally favour to
say. You know like, "Hiiish, feel like
slaughtering &then hang his head
somewhere back in th japanese occupation
over at th overhead bridge". Its very
dramatic but people seemed to understand
th prologue. But yeah, now I feel like gg on
a killing spree..maybe another halocaust.
Haha, no kidding.

30. Daydream a lot?
-No, not much. I have tough realization of life.

31. Happy with your life?
-Maybe.

32. Favorite place to eat in a mall?
-Depends.

33. So, what's been on your mind lately.
-some soul search and time and life and my future.

34. What makes you happy?
-I appreciate things quite easily.
(really, really). &i like th idea that
people are concern about me; like how
Celeste was th first one who searched
and hugged me for our west district
loss. It really touched me alot t think
that i was first in her mind.

35. So really, what can switch your bad
mood?
-Food &music. If you try and put humans infront of me,
it'll only make things worse..

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You've changed.
Wonder if you see it.
Cause I could see through.

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Wt tooooooooooooooooot am i doing here?!
Tmr's practical, & in 4 more days, O's are gonna bring its shine &darkness.
I am basically slacking, definitely no doubt.
So high expectations are all fat &impossible, so out of reach.
But am gonna chiong these few days, in faith that it will make a difference.
Okay, as if.
Atleast I did put some effort.

Anw, lemme give a shout out to Dori!
Dori, dori, where are you?
Hey, there you are!
Okay no, but eh pass my page like I pass yours okay.
You got me worried these few days, but yeah its not you who hooked me up to this once, small flame.
I believe you are stabilized with your conscience and your heart, so there is no need for questioning.
&I trust you to choose what's best for yourself because all these years I've known you, you always had your own reasoning on th forefront of your mind.
But let it chill awhile for now, cause you too are sitting for your O's.
&As much you know, we, okay I, think you are potential of doing well for O's, ya know.
Things will happen if it is meant to happen yo.
&Th convo yst was painful, no, maybe you were painful, cause you made me laugh til my nerves lost their energy.
But it was fun sharing those old pics &no, its not meant for public.
&If you expose it to th world, you know what i should do.
I am gonna miss you v much, really.

P.s. That sperm thingo ah, its still playing at th back of my mind, you horny bitch!

Dear Tiq,

If you wanna challenge wimme, I'll flee even before th war has started. You told me that th war has alr begun but I am at my worst, but you said it's just my excuse. Excuse your head lah! I will do what i can in this very, very last lap. Eh but pls, its not as if this challenge is gonna make a difference to you, or to me. Unless its this mortal enemy i know, you know. Woah, I will push myself day and night man. Honestly, i think I am gonna do better, abit or alot, it'll still taste damn good. Cause Rinnie said that everyone can change from their prelims to O's, but how much, you won't know, cause it's not about th potential anymore, its more to th duration cause th time is th main problem , agree? Yeah, yeah whatever. I'll mind my own business. But Tiq, if this bet'll make you feel better, ring me up, bitch! Haha, th rest can be settled in private.

Love ya!

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I am not famous, but you guys talk about me like I am.

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So, graduated today, tho I never felt any sense of flying free up in th sky or anth near that.
Infact, I felt quite peeved cause they made this lunch so close to O's that its disturbing th study schedule (not that I am anw, but even that, I felt quite guilty to celebrate).
Apart from th fairway country club directly infront of th school, or th food or th timing, or th seating and all, I really love every of my known idiots &bitches :D I will always love you guys, even if I didn't or never show it but you know nobody can dig that deep to know what a person is feeling right. Make me damn proud now &get on that bloody stage when you guys receive th results alright. Aiya pls, it wont be for me anw.

Okaayyy peeekturees here~

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