I'm freaking pissed.
&Solemn &sedated
But light-hearted and peaceful.

Get It ???

Fine, just shuddup.

Labels: Why do ppl flatter themselves? And being so fucking self-centred? I don't understand.

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Of all th things I believed in
I just wanna get it over with
I`ve been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I`m hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I`m starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine


SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo,
Maths over (both paper 1&2!!), Humans, Eng &Lit Paper 1.
Woww, what a weeeeeeeeeeeeeek. All th papers was okay though.
Not sure if can excel cause spent my days all on E&A-maths.
Was damn relieved after Lit paper which ended solely at 4!
Wtf were they thinking putting 3 major papers in one day?
After that, went back home then met up w th class peeps to chiong for th teachers day gifts. Bought Mrs Chuah a swatch watch &Mr Ching a nike jacket :DDD
Spent th hours from 6-10 doing posters for them. &We were damn lethargic and drained out.
Its kinda sad knowing that th years in school gonna end soon &its harder to bear knowing we'll all focus on O's when th brink's getting nearer, almost touchable. It was also heart warming remembering those sentimental times when we walk back down, fingering all that's happened but came up w conclusions that we'd better let go. Jurong had been very inviting &part of it was th teachers' unconditional love. &This year really prove how supportive and cool and lame...and lame our teachers really are. I wouldn't have asked for any other teachers even if it's from other better school, or angmohs, you know. (No, Mr Ching, I'm not into that British angmoh lahhh. Anw, I never see him alr leh.)&Recently I know how concern they are about us when they willingly offer their (tennis!) time with us when we were so far from understanding &so far from th big picture. Everyday should be teachers day, so th least we could do is to give them our respect and do our best for O's. Won't be so difficult right? Ahahahahhaha.
SO, HAPPY TEACHERS DAY! (:

Labels: dying soon., TIRED

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I KNOW, WE WISH (????????????????)(Lol, I dunno)
I know we wish to have better days,
To have rainbows &milkyways to stay &guide us through
I know we wish for a different circle of beings,
To show more love &security that could build th bridge of truth.

I know I started as flicker, meant to be a flame,
But days that passed me, fill me with shame,
Still, a baby in th cradle, I gotta take my first fall,
But baby's getting next to nowhere with my back against th wall.

I know I wish I could paint my words red,
But my courage, it glowed then died down back again
To rebuild my scars of doubt &hide behind th person I've become
But I've grown to see what humans intended to gun down,
How th clouds mask th rays of th merciless burning rage.

I know I was reborn, skeptical
To block faces of monkeys with killer smiles,
&Stab them down with grateful critical acclaim,
But we survived to only find,
We're blemished with th sins all of us left unwind.

But I've woke up to see a new horizon
That th ice around my heart is slowly melting
I stayed around to find forgiveness
To feed my dream &build th bridge we burnt
Cause i found a light at th end of th tunnel tonight.



Sometimes we have to stop &ponder, where our feet brought us, &what our flaws overpowered &left behind. Because our time, is not to share our weaknesses, but conceal them with our strengths. Its okay to find yourself in th dark, alone, but its not th people who are strongest or th most intelligent that survives, it's th one who's most adaptable to change. It's time to take matters in your own hands &start facing your own music. Time to find yourself and stop tailing other girl's butt, it's fucking frustrating, you whore! Because if you think nobody gets your intentions, then you're bloody wrong, because you left it obvious isn't it? &If you think people who scurries around you, likes you, then you're wrong too, cause you're blinded by your own mischiefs, by some lie you'd rather live with. Be whatever you are since th very beginning, it's less soreful to see.

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Sometimes I still can't seem to understand how come things come and go.
I was thinking about something I read long ago.
About th nature of relationships.
Th belief was whenever a person enters your life, you should welcome them & enjoy whatever it is that they bring, even if its only for a short time. Then when it's time that they leave, it was meant to be, that it's suppose to happen, therefore, we shouldn't take it as a rejection, because when a person leaves your life, it has nothing to do with you at all. Its simply time for them to disappear &it's for th better.
But I'm tentative and not assured of th technicality of th statement. Because isn't that a one-sided view? For instance, there's a difference between when a person voluntarily leaves your life and when a person has been deliberately driven away. Reason why they withdrew themselves away from th real focus is because they felt that they were worthless, that there were particular actions th person have made to sum up th blame &finger it to him/her so that's what chase him/her away. Th person too might be assuming th different emotions &infer a person's actions wrongly &who knew it was all a misapprehension afterall? A person leaving another's life deliberately is another different thing I refuse to touch.
So th problem here,which is usually th main cause is obstinacy &unnecessary boost of pride. Sometimes people care too much about their image &their ego to give a damn about what's best or even what's happening around them. So I'm just saying that maybe pride is just crap in th end, cause doesn't it act like a barrier to th supposed bliss &reality?

You know all these while I've been trying hard to defend my mental stabilization, dignity &my future by trynna wash you away but everybody knows it never worked. Well, th funny thing is, when I wasn't at all putting an effort to try, IT HAPPENS! Yeah it happens, you somehow just flew away. I was very nonchalant but I accept it with huge grateful hands &a broader mindset. I wouldn't finger it on you; that you kinda missed your chance &that th ditch was so damn deep but I kinda thank it on time &on my strength &my growth. My heart never change, what I want really, really has. &Thats th one damn important thing I want you to know. But you never seem to be there. & I guess this is it. Yeah thats it.

Labels: We're world's apart.

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1) Went for Cadet Recognition @Compassvale to take Director's Award w Sem, Ewee, Celeste, Fara, Syaf, Izzah &Der accompanying

2) Ate @ Burger King

3) Head down to TJ to support Jurong UGs esp REDCROSS:D

4) Took lotsa peeeeeeeeeeeetures

5) Went to Ummu's new house

6) Her house is so damn cool, &her room have two shades of pink -like mine, only nicer :D

7) Got back w an empty house &th whole family is still missing, having fun :(

8) Ibu bought me a gold/bronze Carlo Rino wedge (only, sigh)
"Any other?"
"Like what"
"Clothes lah, I need more."
"Whaaaaaaat!?"
"What?"
"Say it again"
"Whaaat, NO. You should understand a daughter's desires."
"You have heaps of them in your closet but you never wore them"
"Right. But you could atleast make up to me cause you didn't show up to support me to take th damn bloody DA."
"You said you don't care."
"&You think I want to show that I do? Bad bad mom"
"Whaaat, Say...."
"NOOOOOOOOOO"

9) Goodness, I'm tired.

10) Okay fine, th shoe is nice laaaaaaaaaaaaah.


These are th peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeektuuuuuuures I took.
Kindly ask me if you want your peektures cause I didnt post alot more.










Enthusiasts



He took our peekture while we snap our own. So I said, "Okay my turn."





Kathy, PeiLing, Ying Yan :D




"Fine I'll take th pic on my own"



Nurul gile-gile nak masuk gambar












I'll do this for Singapore, so cut me from NS please



"I'll catch you damn fish!"



Aww



Look at Ewee











Meant to take a nicer pic of him, but he get so extra shy ahhhh Beng Yew.



Mei Qi & Friend at th drink stall.






Brotherhood.







Sisterhood of humanity :DD


























SO GOOD NIGHT SUCKERS
:DD
&Happy Advance Singapore!
&Good Job UGs :D
&Shuddup Momma!