I've seen a heart when i thought you don't owe one.
I've been blinded by your heart when you don't owe one.
Suprises were clear, and bad things do come to an end.
I've seen it into you & i'll never trust my feelings again.
Crying over doesn't help because you expected more.
But lines were made, roses found.
Candles blown, wishes cast.
I've always followed my guts, give in and pretended nothing happened.
Guess i have had enough.
But though deep inside me always wanted to get on.
I don't hold any vengeance.
Infact, its never me actually.
All i was waiting for was you to snap out of it.
So much for that?
And beauty can only be seen after ugly.
Nothing ever meant so much until now.
Everything these past few days made me into a whole new other person,
yes including camp.
Magically, its an outcome.
Even though it lack and not packed but we personally improve,
like what we agree, we help ourselves.
& Yee Hui got a crush on Mr Kris; saying he's cute and all
since talent night that is; after the catwalk with sexy back
and chop chilli chop chilli chop chop chop.
Mr Kris bdw kept on looking at Ummu and me thinking we aren't able to do it.
Ofcourse lah he do such stupid actions !
But anw with him is so much fun lah.
And with Dori, YHui, Ummu, SYaf & Amalina around gets my mind off things for awhile.
which is wonderful after stoooooopid cry overs and emo situations.
So lately, before camp, i've been wondering why was i compromising myself.
Thought it had had to do with my self-esteem which stooped at the lowest point of all that it broke my heart to even give a smile.
ANYWAAAYY, back to stuffs.
After camp, went to eat then Abah called said he's fetching me and i'm going to the seminar straight away at tampines.
I tried reasoning with him, but it didn't make it.
Slept in the car, eyes half open;
if you don't know what it means, it shows that the person is really beat.
SOO, when queuing to register, mum was asking me whether should reg my little brother also but i told her not to because he'll bring my rep down because, urmmm you know.
But in all other things, he's just fine (:
&lady recognises me !
she waved when she's giving the talk.
Then back in car, mum was thinking of going to this Aura spa or smth but Abah say we are expecting some visitors.
SO went home & when i just wanted to dive into bed, they arrived -.-
Fidah's hair was like Katherine Mcphee's but she hate it.
Said she prefer very sleek hair.
What a waste. Everyone would want her hair !
Alright so we do some hair makeovers
& we flipped through my past baby albums and my brothers' :D
Everyone look super cute and chinese-yy
I'll scan sometime when i'm free.
& now they just left but i chose to blog awhile and then fly to my dreamworld.
So i think i'll stop here.
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