Thursday, June 12, 2014

Conqueror/Slave.


Current Christianity teaches us that we are conquerors. We are above only and not beneath, not behind in any good thing. We have been raised with Christ and are seated in heavenly places. And don't get me wrong, I believe in all that with my whole heart. 

But just as most important truths are grounded in paradox - I've been realizing recently the other side of this story. It all began with reading childhood classics, C.S. Lewis' Narnia stories. In one segment of the Lion, witch and the wardrobe, he notes that Aslan was accompanied by many creatures, one holding his crown and the other his standard. I was thinking, eek! would I want to do that? To have a role prescribed as "armour-bearer" or "flag lifter"? Then I caught myself: would I be unwilling to do menial tasks for the king?

So the other side of the story that hit me was this: I am not used to submitting. I am not used to the idea of service. I am not trained to recognize at a deep, fundamental this-is-how-i-do-life way that just as I have been given authority, I was also placed under authority. If I was, prayer time would be very different. I would be asking in every situation- how can I serve those around me? How can I be the best employee to my boss? How can I bless my pastor and cell group leader? How can I be of help to my colleagues? How do I bless my parents? 

Very often, submission within the Asian culture is taken as suck it up and keep quiet. (And secretly complain to fellow friends/colleagues/inside your head) But maybe submission is not such a bad word. 

Jesus said, "you are my friends if you do what I command." The psalmist noted, "The secret counsel (friendship) of the Lord is for those who fear Him, and He reveals his covenant to them." Nowhere is it promised that friendship with God exists on level terms- and why should it when we are talking about the supreme being who is not circumscribed by laws of time and space but instead created those laws? 

Submission, then, is obedience. It is humility without self-grovelling. It is also stewardship- recognizing that any influence I have comes from a higher source. This is how authority works: through a chain of command where instructions are passed down through persons of different weight. Perhaps the centurion's faith came from this recognition: "I too have people under me, I say go and he goes. Come and he comes. Therefore, just say the word. And my servant will be healed."

It is the power to become a servant- a slave, even, without despising oneself. Because of a deeper conviction that royalty does not mean I am above you. It is a selfhood that is not defined by relative terms but in absolutes. Competitiveness, striving is redundant because there is no game. There is no "one up" to get over another. Help me to remember, Father, that I am your child. In that absolute relation, I find my peace and my(self). 


Wednesday, June 04, 2014

Keys

Key words of the past year:

1. Covenant
2. Wilderness
3. Hope
4. Peace
5. Calling = Identity
6. Gifting = Ability
7. Anointing = Purpose

Ever felt like you're on the brink, the edge, the cusp of something new?
Can't explain it but I feel like I'm on the edge of a page that's turning.

When I was young I used to listen out for my dad whistling and jangling his keys at the corridor outside our main door. I'd run to the door in glee to greet him, and he'd pick me up by my feet and flip me upside down til I broke out in shrieks of laughter. (I must have been really little) it's the same kind of anticipation- listening out for something round the corner.

These days whenever I step into a space- like the hawker centre, or BCA, or anywhere, really - I feel like I'm gonna bump into someone. It's a strange feeling, but also strangely familiar- like I've been here before. Something unusual happened here last time.

"I'll wake you up when it is time."