go live in the book.breaking the silence. i've been so used to not coming online, not communicating, not writing. hmm. things have really caught up with me these three weeks, doing internship at a...well, interesting, architectural firm. name of which i shall not mention to avoid being lined up and shot.
these days ive been thinking alot about work. about what motivates people to work- to whether it is ever possible to completely love your job, whether it is possible to be a boss that your subordinates love, to being a submissive subordinate like the bible tells us to be, to subordinates who gossip non stop about their bosses ( i mean, you only have one common enemy to unite em all) ... to the biblical perspective of work, to whether architecture is what i want to do for 30 years of my life before i retire. i long for work to be fulfilling, to be engaging, to be fun and peaceful-- but very often what the world washes up is the stench of work, spat out from an entire lineage of occupational forefathers who have trodden the same path, done the same things, been tired the same way, quit/retired the same. the same. the same. what i dislike most about work is the feeling that someone is constantly watching you, assessing you, holding up standards which you must keep jumping to reach. like a cat for a ball of yarn, jumping endlessly, and yet each time you jump the ball unravels and the end gets further away from you.
so anyways, enough griping. ive been with doctor for ten months! sounds kinda long, thinking of it. 2 months to a year. two weeks to a birthday! other changes in life? ive adopted amanda heng/shuyu's girls for a month while shu is off to fran-say for further stah-day. im glad all the girls are blending quite well together, us and theirs--now a big OURS. gerry and i are also still very happy with each other :) and uhm. my family has been recovering from our last setback and getting closer. so Thank God for all of that. ive gained friends, and lost some, and ive grown used to this flux-- this expansion and reduction. i thank Him for those who remain, as well as those who've left. each have and had a part in influencing the way i turned out, and i would hope it is a mutual good thing. church camp planning for december is on the way! honkhonk is always good to work with, and tessa and hannah are also happifying presences. joshua and joseph are stable and represent the male half of TNG, while uncle jeff adds direction as our...director. And whenever we are falling off to sleep... and need a little help! (i wont say in which direction), we have our very own kaifeng. haha.
so... my buddies of bloggywood, alls well with the world. my aim for the coming months is to eradicate moodiness, and to push myself to understand the field of architecture, to expose myself to it, and possibly and prayerfully, to excel. i just cant sway along in the tide of monday-thursday studio sessions and expect to get very far in the fickle tide. i need to propel forward, somehow, to set a direction and work at it. so come on felicia. stop being a bum.
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