"wannabe alive"- lizard.

cool blinkies in KL fronting mariott hotel. xuezhen, sini, myself.

shes so happy!

the blur induced by spice girls' WANNABE:
favourite song of the night.

ode to the dead

im in studio now! and the reason im typing is that i just presented, so NOW is the only moment this week i have a zone of relief. a space of nothingness in which i can breathe. this much belated post was delayed by a harrowing series of presentations, projects, lack of and need for sleep, (2.5 hours last night! haha. and four hours on average everyday of last week. but nows not a time to gripe.. :) yay im going out tonight! guess who haha hmm. amanda heng's supposed to call me last night but she didnt, and her comps down so i duno how shes gonna see this but.. in case you do, TONIGHT'S A GOOD TIME! haha.

there is currently one dead lizard and one dead cockroach in my toilet! reminds me of picasso's quotable quote, "you can never be too careful with other people's lives. i saw a large spider about to attack an ant, and thought, what a cruel thing! and picked up a stone... and discovered to my horror i had killed them both." hahaa. you see, in the middle of the night i went to the washroom and gasped to see a grotesque flesh-coloured internal organs gleaming huge lizard (although i realise the exact same string of adjectives may be used to describe humans like you and me as well) scuttling up to the top of the door but i was too tired and preoccupied to bother to scream, so i just did my own humble toilet repertoire and minded my own business... until i left the loo and discovered to my horror that the unfortunate lizard got kiapped in the door ledge as i opened it. ack! ...the fragility of life. -moment of mournful zen silence- haha okay conscience soothed. yay! One Down.
hahahaa. must get a brave soul to...peel it off the door.. it deserves a proper burial. (read: the door deserves to be clean.)

erik's critting us individually now. today he's kind of harsh. in essence he said, that is ugly. i cant take it. redo. we have our interim crit on monday! lets hope he softens before then into like, kind encouraging putty mush. yeah right. i had so much to say but now..the words have dissipated somehow. except. gerry! you are the best! do not be anxious about anything but by prayer and petition present your requests to God, and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus! <3

GOD help, take away my tiredness. i feel like toxins have clogged up in me; i havent been exercising or eating well or sleeping well, and another crit on monday. i almost cant take it anymore apart from you i am nothing. take over, please.