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2013 is the worst year of my life. 2012 I was sad but I had so much more fun in school and friends. At least there were people around me back then, Now I am just alone and nothing went right this year. The only positive thing I can think of right now is my NS posting. SA commander Although I am alone all the time but on the bright side, this job isn’t as demanding as normal police NSF, my supervisors are nice people. They wont touch me for deployments or activate me on standby etc Little India It is heaven compared to Army NSF who cannot even go home and have to do shits in camps. I just wished that I have friends or a gf to whatsapp to in office. Many things went wrong, Firstly, I was in the worst bunk in during my training days. Majority of the people that my squad dislikes are in my bunk. Although they are fine within the bunk, We cannot clique and one of them is selfish. I remember him not lending me charger and fucking chao geng. Then one incident that i can remember is him lying to the provost over some small issue and trying to divert the fault to one of my squadmate then end up the whole of bunk 1 went to confront him.lol Then, secondly I didn’t get my corporal because i wanted to get office hour time to study. I wished I understood how the system works back then, I would have gotten my rank and probably Sergeant 1k allowance next month and at the same time getting my office hour -.-. Moreover, my FI seems to dislike me because I was the only fucker that didn’t pass IPPT. Well, I sort of heck care it and didn’t train much because I wanted to fail on purpose and get office work. Regret! Next, I lost my best friend. Yes! I am a sentimental person and at this age, I still take the term best friend truthfully. You wont be reading this but when I said you were my best friend I really meant it and it is very sad that we ended up like this. Until now, I still do not know the exact reason for taking a 180 degree turn and treating me like this. If It is due to her breakup, it will be unfair and harsh to me as I believed I have not left her down before and I am the innocent victim. If It is due to me liking her, I dont think she have to do things this way. I do emo over this issue over a long period of time. And it isn’t nice for you to ps me in tuitions for another person who used to ps you. When no one were there for u including your ex, I am the stupid innocent guy being there for you. Of course, my fault for being easily jealous and scolding her for nothing when she went clubbing and raging when she and her new ”used to ps“ bestie went lunch/dinner without jioing me. \ ( I won’t even do this to anyone, in fact I invited her for everything that we had during school days) , Now, we cannot even have a nice chat to solve the problem, She is so unwilling to meet me, she is like so ready to forget everything. Wow. Next, I like my best friend and got rejected. Cant blame her on this. Well , I learned that I am very nice and caring but I am not driven and not motivated in life and no goals in life. Plus I am so lazy to study. I am not as good looking as her EXs. How can I expect her to like me and rely on me for the rest of their lives? Moreover, this kind of things have to rely on feelings. If I can choose which girl i can like, I would have chosen my bro Carol. lol She is a very nice girl and LOOKS innocent and quite steady in going anywhere and eating anything! Huge plus plus! doubt she will be mean though. The day my best friends get a new bf will be sad, hope it will not come so soon or after I get over her. Next, my A levels... The phrase “ leopard never changes its spot” very true ! I am lazy and i am like forever lazy, I flunk my A lvls in 2012 and this year i am still SOOOO LAZY. I sort of gave up and started to Dota everyday after NS. FacePalm =/ I think my results probably going to be like C E E at best? I just hope I can get into NTU any courses. Uni orientations seems so Fun! I want to make many friends in Uni.lol There are still several bad things that I cant remember and lazy to type already. Oh ya, Ricky Goh, fuck u. And i wan eager to leave this place and meet Sarah ang for lunch. LOL So 2014, I just have a few simple wishes. 1. I hope to have people to go out with and talk to. 2. I want to be happy, I haven’t been happy for a long time. 3. Achieve something that will be helpful for my future. 4. NTU please.... Bonus : Meet proper GF/future wife. LOL Become Fit. LOL eh fuck , my favourite F1 Driver is in critical condition :( I hope he is alright, quited watching f1 as he retired :(( 30 Dec 2013, 12.37PM , NS place

12:34 am

Monday, July 08, 2013

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Was bored and just read some past conversation between me and tan.
Realised how pissed off they were with me last year.
Really should have heed his advises and I might not be feeling this way right down. Thankfully, they didn't fk off for good and are still here :)
Thankful for them to spend weekend with me:).

Saturday dinner was weird yet good. Blog about it tonight!

3:32 pm

Thursday, July 04, 2013

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Never feel so fkup in a long time.
My heart really cannot take it during lunch time.
Moat likely would have shot myself if I was armed.
And gonna have trekking tomorrow with commander being the leader.
I was feeling very very down.

I decided to watch despicable me 1 to prepare me for the sequel tmr (hope tmr will be fine) cos nothing to do and no mood study anyway.
And the movie expectedly make me feel much happier, and I can actually feel the warmth of a happy family from that show. Some of the part especially the way gru talks and the big boss face makes me LOL.
At least I can now sleep without feeling so Damn sad. :)

11:58 pm

Wednesday, July 03, 2013

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It sucks when someone important approach u and you tried your best to help her but it doesn't help her much.
Now she turns to other people and doesn't even tell me anything.
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4:56 pm

Saturday, June 29, 2013

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Cb, wanna watch one fking cartoon movie have to keep asking for ppl to watch with me. Feels like a fking beggar but in terms of begging for companion.
Fml - -.

1:54 pm

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

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This pic more or less sums up my life now except the used to be so happy part.
I used to be more contented.

10:49 am

Sunday, June 23, 2013

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Hope you are feeling very happy now and very surprised by your friends :)

12:01 am