My childhood dream...

My child hood dreams are all gone now... all gone down the drain.

I am at RWS now with a indian worker. Very nice person. Give him the songs to listen.

As i was looking in the stars...Just love looking at them, always give me the stillness and the surprise. As u stare at the sky, u will definitely see stars. LOTS of them and as u look, more will appear! I just love the stars. Very little people will understand it. so little.

I find it hard to talk to people. I have problem telling people and i guess people have problem understanding it too. I just want to hide part of me, yet showing that i am still having a strong front.

Recently been struggling with finances! Very bad! last month, i suppose to be paid by church as i was working part time, but i think they forgotten about it. I have a $400 Credit money to pay. on top of that i got a 200-5k fines to pay as well. I want to take smoke lesson.

I am trying my very best to work those higher paid job. To take a smoke lesson will allow me to earn more money as the time progresses. yup.

There is a will, there is a way.

Now i need a way to find my will to find my way!

*RWS heritage room...with my labtop and my jacket and me!

friends

i met up with Khair.. amazing time i had with khair up! Catching up with him. haha! i am going to sleep le.. Not really a good day. yup..

going to think abt life when i sleep bah. ya lor..

super tired le..

Friends....

i think i need to make friends who treasure me.. and not used me..

Davin

impactlive shooting

Woke up at 11plus today. Not too bad! plan to wake up earlier tho.

When i wake up, my prayer for the day, ASTL! ASTL!

had a hair cut, and off to church to do up THE DIP live footages :)

6pm, i was at church office setting up for the shoot. This is my first time reaching the location earlier to set up! I wanted to do my best! Spirit of excellence! Told my team to wear shoes whenever we have a production. it is for safety and professionalism!

Awesome team i have serving together in impactliveTV! My prayer for our team is to get closer to God and to serve our best, to touch up our technical skills! our attitude, behavior also. I also pray for my team to grow in numbers too! :D

It was a great shoot! Next few days will be great editing too! :D

towards my night, i sin against God. This shows how much i needed God in my life! i want God to give me strength and to lead me in my walk! Even in my QT today, God spoke to me about pride. I thank God that i repented and really want to lead a godly life! He show me life with out Him and i dont want it!

Its late le, I am going to sleep le. Will pray myself to sleep :D

Life group

Yesterday was monday and it was great!!

Woke up at 3+pm. I was late for soccer game at turf city. Cabbed down. Wasted money on cab! Of of the things i told myself that i must not do is to cab. The money that i used to cab can be used for better things!

Soccer session was great! It was intense!! Did some dumb move but overall i enjoyed it!

This is the main thing for today!

LIFE GROUP!!

Clarence shared with us his mission trip! it was really awesome!! seeing how God work miracles in Cambodia really encourages me! Coz God will also work miracles in my life too! Clarence also share about how he feels towards study. Seeing those people in Cambodia without resources wanted to study so hard. Where as i, resources is plentiful!

In my poly life, i may have flunk my studies. I am not going to let my past be something that pull me down, but rather i am going to press on WITH GOD to do things i never actually dare to dream about!

and because of what God spoke to me, I actually went home to delete one game which i just finish downloading! took me awhile before i remove it completely! God didnt want me to spent time do play game, but to focus on what God has place in my life.

Editing, Designing, Animation.

During Small Group, I shared my heart on my conviction!

John mention every Saturday God wants to fill us. What container are we bring to God? a small tiny cup or a swimming pool? Before 26 march, i actually bring nothing. Didnt expect God to fill me. But this isnt going to happen this Saturday! I am going to bring a swimming pool down!

this is what i shared..

brx says that our reaction to a problem will shows our relationship with God. I totally agree with this! I always run away when problem arise! and i am good with it! I can vanish. If u ask those whom i work with, friends close to me, they will totally agree with it!

why am i feeling this way is because everytime i wanted to change, but end up the same. This make me very dishearten and thus dont want to follow God, fearing that i will upsad God again. THIS IS A FALSE BELIEVE THAT I HAVE!

Like daniel, i dont want to run away when problem arise, but toward God! Daniel know God is there because Daniel spend time with God daily! (Daniel 6:10) Thus knowing God will definitely provide a way out!

And what every Daniel did, He did it with excellence! He didnt slack off! Spirit of excellence!

i also added that because of my running away attitude in the past, I will need to face consequences. I told God, i dont want to let this consequences bring me down, but to press on with God! I had enough of running away!

Muen that shared something that really touches my heart. FYI, i had put him airplane for countless times. Everytime i will come out with some sort of dumb excesses!

He says, for anyone he works with, when u put airplane the third time, he will cut them off. but he didnt cut me off. God told Muen that i have potential and continue to groom me.

You cant imagine what is going through my mind! I was like.. somehow peaceful, excited too! This is my first time hearing God speaking to me asking me to held my chin high again!

It was just simply awesome man!! When things come your way, do not go away or run away like what i use to do. but to run to the very source that can help you! JESUS CHRIST!

God i thank you alot!

A new start, a new life

Its been some time since i blogged.

Met up with Alicia today. Had a heart to heart talk. pour out part my heart to her. Abt serving, scared to move forward. Fallen down and don't want to climb up.

SMS Alicia that God is so going to convict me to change! I want to change for God! I am going to this bright light! I tell you.. Its really uncomfortable! Seriously! But i know, in my heart that this is the correct thing to do!

There is a few hours to spare before Worship Experience. I went to mac to read my past blogs. I was seriously amazed on what i was last time and now. In the past, i was so optimistic. I believe i can do it. With God of cause! but now, i am so pessimist! I dont believe i can do it. I give up. I dont even try! I am like a fire where is almost extinguish..

God never allow this fire to die! God is always good! and God answer my prayer! God spoke to me in my blog!

1samuel 12:20-25

20 Then Samuel said to the people, “Do not fear. You have done all this wickedness; yet do not turn aside from following the LORD, but serve the LORD with all your heart. 21 And do not turn aside; for then you would go after empty things which cannot profit or deliver, for they are nothing. 22 For the LORD will not forsake His people, for His great name’s sake, because it has pleased the LORD to make you His people. 23 Moreover, as for me, far be it from me that I should sin against the LORD in ceasing to pray for you; but I will teach you the good and the right way. 24 Only fear the LORD, and serve Him in truth with all your heart; for consider what great things He has done for you. 25 But if you still do wickedly, you shall be swept away, both you and your king.”

God told me not to fear, but to turn and serve the LORD with all my heart! Now in mac, i feel like crying. God presence is so strong... I am listening to YOU ALONE ARE GOD! and indeed, you alone are GOD! God reign in me, Reign in the earth, You reign LORD! Today, i want Your presence Lord! I want to be touch by You God! I want to start following You!! Help me Lord! Coz i know, If You are with me, Who can be against me! I need Your strength!!!

Your love make me...Speechless!!!

Davin

Time

There is a time for everything,

And now, is a time for me to give everything to God.

Zero of me,

all of God!

Shall open the bible since a long time and to read it! study it! Understand it!

God i want to be the best for you!

Your name be praise to the most high!

My life

Whats with my life man!

Its so screw up. very the screw up. My word means nothing man.

I so feel like to lead. But i dont have the abilty, or rather to say, I dont have God with me to lead. What i am doing is not where i intended to go. I am just destroying my own life if i act this way.

God, i really need you! I am stress up. I need peace. I dont want to find You only when i am pressured nor when i am down. But i want you to be with me every moment in my life. You are good, and i will never bring You down. God, i dont want to lead my own life anymore. My life is screw up! Very!

God, I donno. I have not read the bible in a long time. Not really pray earnestly. Not really being myself. God, i need you!!

Memories, i cant erazed. I wont let it be my strong hold because God had broken it for me!

God, i need u to lead me in my ministry, in my relationship, my friendship. God i need you! help me! I felt so lonely at times. wanting to share, but donno who will listen. I had forgotten you God! God forgive me!

Thank you for always loving me dispite me not doing the same! You are good! Thank you Father!

from,

Davin