clara chan. 19. trying to figure things out.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
thoughts
I know this is a long overdue entry regarding choir and I do apologize, especially to my choir peeps. haha but yea, been thinking about a lot of stuff and I haven’t; really had the time to pen everything down.
But to choir first, I think you guys all know how I feel about choir lah, so I shall skip the details. I won’t say I miss choir cause the truth is I don’t. I don’t miss the insane practices, whatever rubbish that I didn’t want to be put through and whatever nots. But I can tell you that I miss the laughter, the c cubers especially and the things I’ve learnt. I guess it was my hatred for the practices and stuff that I missed out on quite a bit of fun. From my earlier entries I stated that choir wasn’t something that I had passion for anymore, but I went ahead due to me owing my seat in sa to that. but what kept me going where the people. The people that I’ve met, who till today I still talk to and dream about hanging out more with. They are the ones that made me cry that night and the ones that made a huge difference in my life. And what they did, wanting to make sure that it was worth it for everyone was so incredibly touching that I just let my tears fell.
I’ll admit the emotional attachment I had to council was definitely not there for choir. That’s why my tears didn’t flow like it did during council stepping down. But it fell, eventually, seeing the hurt on their faces that everything was going to be different for them. But guys, we’ll still there for you guys, no matter what. =)
So to the end of my choral journey, cheers. =) and thanks guys, you know who you are for everything! Love you.
Bt2 is long over and prelims are looming around the corner. Thank goodness I didn’t screw my blocks that badly, but I did still fail chem. And my lone a was such a low a. so I need to work harder, A LOT harder. But I find myself being unable to do so. Cause there’s so much on hand, I’ve lost all the time that I desperately need to study. Please don’t let me screw prelims. Please please.
And I find myself getting irritated just so much easier these days. And it isn’t good. I just need an outlet to let go and relax. I want to thank all those who have been listening to me whine and complain and letting me commit my “murders” haha so that I can sorta let go. Hahah so yea, I need a more legal outlet though. Haha yea anyway, just feeling really confuse these days over-I have-no-idea-what. Just confused and irritated and lost. Hope I’ll be able to get over it soon.
Anyway prom go yea? Support the 30th! I know they’re trying hard.
3:09 pm
