clara chan. 19. trying to figure things out.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
i don't know
HEY PEOPLE I’m BACK!!!!!!!! Haha! Ok so I’ve been away for close to a month but hey, busy yea? Haha! Anyway don’t cha love my new blog skin? Haha I do! So boho! So prêt-tay! And I did it myself for the first time! Haha the last time yew liang and bev helped me out. But I still have no idea how to link! Haha! So note to self. Figure out how to link.
So yea, this past month has been nuts. Common test. Don’t ask! I knew I would do badly but not until like that! Oh man sucks and major disappointment, especially for econs. MAJOR! Oh well. Such is the way of life and I got to work harder! I’m like on the brink of retaining and I don’t want that to happen! If I do retain, which I do hope that it won’t happen, I will lose my sit in the 29th student council! Oh no! not good !not good at all! No more wackiness with them! Oh man, the horror! Shudders! It will be so hard to be with my dear 29 too! Og 29! Oh man! We have not been meeting up for lunch thanks to make up! But oh wells, let’s work our butt off so after that we can play! Bbq my place? Choir! Having a much better time since I got to know them better and we do crazy stuff! And a7! Oh man! No more a7! Not good either. And the worse part of all! Studying for another year the old same stuff! BORING! Ok clara, WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
At least my h1 maths grade is making me a hell lot better! BUT I must not get complacent, I must work! I must not retained!!!!!!!!!! Ok there is seriously something wrong with me.
Anyway, as some of you may know, I’ve been making frequent trips to the hospital to visit my paternal grandfather. Yea, it has been really hard. Ok not so obvious that I’m actually really terrified of losing him since I’m still doing stupid stuff and screwing up and whatever. But I am really scared. Each time my parents call, fear overwhelms me. Nothing can be done to cure him and we are just hoping and praying. Because of this, I have toned down slightly, and get frustrated and irritated more easily. I snapped at people quickly and no longer have as much patience as I used too. To all those that I have snapped at and yelled at, I’m really sorry. I didn’t mean too. I have no idea why but I get really frustrated easily now. I’m so sorry. Despite all this, I got to remain strong. I got to be me-clara chan. I cannot let it affect me in every way, I need to learn and grow. I hope a miracle will happen, and that he will recover. I pray.
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