clara chan. 19. trying to figure things out.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Last Friday was the 29th student council commendation! And it was extremely significant for me, as it meant that I would be an official student councilor of sajc! Yahoo!!!!!!!! It was just surreal. I mean, after all those practices, with me screwing up by either being too fast or too slow or just doing something wrong, it was finally becoming a reality. All those practices were for that very special day.
What made it really significant was just that it was a hit of reality, telling me that yes; I am indeed in student council. Along with the fun times, came the frustration, the craziness and the workload. But to me It didn’t matter, cause when I applied for council; I was ready and willing to lead and serve. But as time went by within those few short months, I learnt that I need to lead and serve with faith and trust. Ok yes, 29-ers we heard this tons of times, but it is really true. This is what I really learnt’ all these while.
The morning started with me waking up at some atrocious hour to wear my number one. And I had to wax my hair and pin it all up so that nothing will fly when I move. So not used to it. Ok I mean yea, I had tons of gel on my hair when I was a dancer, but that was a performance! Haha but this is weird! Going to school with wax! Haha so not use lah! And when I got to school, guess what? My hair fell! So it means gel!!!!!!!! Haha cause it is harder and stronger! During assembly, it was weird standing amidst the white and navy blue, wearing close to all white, being so pro pap! Haha. But soon we all sauntered back to the cc to do last minute touches. And Malcolm said my hair was messy! So guess what? Hello hair spray! Haha I can’t believe that I had three kinds of hair products on my hair! Woah. Madness!
We departed for the cathedral soon and had two run through. Fifteen minutes before we went on, I had to pin up my skirt lining, pin up my sleeves and do other crazy stuff! Thank go for my council friends! They all helped me! Thanks! The funniest to me was when the bishop came in, my hair fell-again! So my dear partner Lynne kok quickly rushed to my rescue and pinned up my hair! Haha we managed to pin it just in time foe the bishop’s prayer! Haha I think it was Brandon low, who was damn amazed at our speed! Haha and soon, we walked out to get ready for the real deal.
I was shaking, feeling extremely nervous and worried that I might screw up just like how I always did during rehearsals. But everyone encouraged each other and gave each other comforting looks, only then did I feel much better. The bell chimed eleven times, and Lynne kok smiled at me and said let’s do this. She has been my greatest partner for this man! Thanks! Love you babe!
As I walked in, I took a quick glance searching for my buddies. I spotted mei lin who was earnestly recoding the whole thing I saw Lynette at the corner of my eye and smiled at her but she didn’t see me! Hmph! Haha I scanned quickly searching for my parents, but I could not spot them.
The whole thing went well, with the exception of minor details, but it was ok. As I walked out singing the hymn, i saw my mom and there she was beaming at me with my dad next to her smiling, I flashed a quick smile and continued walking. Memories of my whole journey towards being a councilor flashed before my very eyes. The interviews, getting permission from my choir teacher, handling bitching and rumors, being on the verge to drop out, pulling through ltc and finally being given my badge, yes I was smiling cause it finally became a reality, but I could feel tears welling up ever so gently in my eyes. But I continued smiling, telling myself that I must not cry, but I will look ugly in the photos! Haha! But really, I didn’t want to cry as we sang the song loudly and not have that funeral sound; I couldn’t help but grin form ear to ear. I finally did it, I was a councilor. After the final prayer I open my eyes and went hysterical! Tears just fell, and I let it flowed without caring. I turned to my friends and hugged them, knowing that we all went through this together, as one council. The feeling was just magical. My parents emerged from the cathedral and I hugged them thanking them for coming. But I didn't have time to find y class or my buds as I had to rush off for lunch.
Oh man lunch was fun! And the food was great! Especially the cheesecake! Oh boy was brynner right! Haha we had Mrs. Helen tan at out table too! And guess what? She is an ex dottie! Cool huh! Haha we had a bog at our table and he talked about the old sa and so on. But the best part was photo-taking time! Oh my god so fun! Romanis come here! Faith! Welfare! Volumes were high and people were yelling for various groups to come together to snap a picture. I took tons of pictures! Over a hundred! But hey it was all worth it, even though my eyes became blurry and I started seeing dots and colorful flashes of light and my jaws were aching!
Soon I had to rush back to school for choir but I hoed that it would end early so I could go for cheam’s musical with the other council people! Btu sadly choir ended late and i couldn’t go. Bummer! But I had fun with my choir group! Haha talking crap in macs! They rock too! I better end here yea, be back soon!Love you 29th sc!!!!!!!!! And my choir gang Too!
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Monday, July 10, 2006
BACK! Finally! Yes, I’ve been away for a long long time! All thanks to common test. Which I’m so goanna fail. Haiz. But what to do. Such is the way of life.
Well, yesterday was cousin Amy’s wedding! Ok, she may have been legally married for something like a year now, but hey what kind of marriage would it be without dinner? Haha ok my thinking. But I was going for the dinner half heartedly as today was my geog paper! Like hello! I need to study. Well ok fine, whether I study or not I will still fail, but as least if I did study, I wouldn’t fail that badly.
I do feel bad now for pulling a long face when I realized that the dinner started more than an hour late just because my cousin’s friends where taking forever to do some ludicrous stuff. But I mean, I got to do work and I have school the next day! And an exam!
But the night got better, we met cousin jiaxuan’s girlfriend, whose name is so hard to spell. But she’s really nice and pretty too! Just found it a bit hard to talk cause we were sitting across form each other with this huge flower arrangement, which was blocking everything.
I finally met up with my cousins too after an eternity. But I couldn’t spent much time with them, cause on sat while they were watching the combing hair ceremony or whatever it is called, I was sitting in the living room trying to cram geog. And on Sunday morning, I was, yup you guessed it, studying. But oh wells, such is the way of life.
But throughout the whole night, I couldn’t help but feel a tinge of sadness. Uncle Simon wasn’t there to see his daughter get married. I know this was a way to fulfill his wish since he was so excited about this wedding, but I felt that something that happened shouldn’t happened, but oh well, his wish is now fulfilled uncle Simon, rest in peace.
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