*Lucky*

So this morning I took Sugar out for her morning duties and as I was standing on my back porch in the bright morning sunlight I realized a lot of things...
*I have the perfect husband!
*Parents that would do anything for me!
*An amazing amount of family on both sides that love me!
*The most beautiful dog in the world, that happens to be the best dog in the world too!
*A healthy body!
*A healthy, hardworking husband that I already mentioned is perfect!
*A new house!
*A new car!
*Enough money to eat all that I want for every meal!
*More love in my life than anyone could possibly imagine!
Really, I couldn't be more spoiled! I love my life and everything in it! Love the sunshine and what the fall air feels like outside on this 2nd day of November, 2009!
Love, love, love my life!

CRASH!

Sad day for the Cobalt SS! September4, 2009, yes the Friday before Labor Day :(

The old man in the picture was driving the red Camry and ran the stop sign. The gold car hit him and the old mans car came flying into my car. I wasn't even in my car. It was parked about a foot more into the road than you see in the picture... yes it got moved that far. This is at the corner of Lomax and Emerson, I work at Valley Glass again so I was inside working.
My car really doesn't look bad in the pictures but he hit my car hard! It pushed it clear up onto the sidewalk next to it! After a whole lot of drama I finally just took the money for repairs and sold the car as it was... wrecked. So sad! I loved my little car!
Sucks you have to learn the hard way but I guess this is what you have insurance for!

I've been driving Trey's truck for almost two weeks now... yuck!
But onward and upward... new car coming soon.

AND on a much happier note, the first time homebuyer $8000 tax credit is totally real and today was a great day :)
Love my life!

New housey!

We finally moved into our new housey on August 5th.

It was a drama filled summer but we are finally getting all settled in and loving the fact that we have a house to come home to every night!

We still have so much work to do but that is just the joy of home ownership:)

Yes, my car is missing from the garage but that is a whole different day for a different blog. I no longer own my Cobalt. It was wrecked, bad enough I won't drive it ever again... so long Cobalt SS, new car on its way though! Yay!

Joys Of My Life!

~Family~

These are all of my nieces and nephews!

How do they all grow up so fast?

They are all so unique with their own personalities.

I love them so much!

They keep my life interesting and give me something to look forward to on Sunday afternoons at my parents house!

What would I ever do without my sisters and brother and their awesome spouses?

I have to thank them for bringing these amazing kids into my life!

Jace, Sydney and Ellie, Zoey, Cooper, Slade, Ezra, and my angel Oakley.

Jace is my brothers oldest and just turned 10! I can't believe it was 10 years ago that I sat in the hospital waiting for my first joy. I finally got to experience thinking he was the absolute cutest baby that had ever been born. Since then he has been so amazing! I love everything about him. I honestly don't think I've ever met a kid nicer than this little man. There was a time when I said I did not like children and would never have any of my own... This guy changed my mind!

Sydney was next, she is Torrie's oldest. Oh a little girl! She is so so so active! She was running at 9 months and hasn't stopped. The things she can pull off physically never cease to amaze me. Her dance moves and facial expressions keep me laughing!!! She sings and does little dance moves in a group my sister has her in and it is so cute. I love that I am able to go to all these things!

Zoey was two months later, she is Kendra's oldest. She was a bit pre mature and we were all so worried about her. I remember thinking she was so so small in such a big world and I was so happy she came to my family so we could help her to grow strong. She was reading at two and I can't believe how smart she is now! She will be 7 in May and she is reading huge chapter books and can give you a great summary of every book she has read. She is so smart! She also says funny things. The other day we were at grandma's house talking about playing a game on the Wii and she said "oh you have to have the NUT CHUCK to play that game" oh I laughed and laughed! For those of you who don't know, it is supposed to be a nun chuck :)

Slade was just 7 months after Zoey and finally another boy! Oh he is so cute I just want to squeeze him and squeeze him! He is the 2nd and youngest child in my brothers house. He says the funniest things! I guess all kids do. One day he was talking to Trey and said that he had been to Idaho Falls with his mom shopping all day. Trey asked how it was and Slade said "freakin' hated it" It was hilarious! He has a raspy little voice and I hope that never goes away. It is so cute!

Oakley Kate was next! My beautiful angel! My little Oakley is so so special. My sister and her husband had the blessing of bringing her into our family with downs syndrome. Though it is a struggle to take care of her extra needs I know my sister is so blessed to have Oakley. She is truly an angel. She took so much longer than the other kids to roll over or sit up or even hold her own head up but this only made it that much more special when she could finally do those things. She is growing and gets more and more beautiful everyday. It overjoys me when she smiles at me or giggles when I grab her belly. She loves Trey! Love love loves Trey!!! He loves to talk to her and hold her, which is weird because he never holds any of the other kids. It is so special to watch the way he treats her. Trey is an amazing guy with a huge heart!

Ezra came next. He is so funny and full of life! I love being around Ezra because he just comes up with the funniest random sentences. I'm sad that I can't think of any right now but they are so funny! He is also so full of energy just like his older sister. He runs and he runs and he runs! That is after he wakes up for a long time. He will not talk when he is just waking up. He just won't do it. I'm not sure if this will ever change and I think it is cute. It may not be cute to anyone else but I just think it is funny that he will not even look at you until he finally gets to the point of firing on all cylinders.

Cooper is so so cute. He runs around yelling Doe Doe... meaning Zoe Zoe is what we are assuming because he is trying to get Zoey's attention. He LOVES his sister so much and she loves him and helps him all the time. It is so stunning to watch the kids interact together and grow. When Cooper was born he had a racing heart beat and had to be taken by life flight to a different hospital. I can only imagine the horror Kendra and Jeff felt as their newborn was sick. I remember being so scared again for one of their children. These must be some pretty special babies to have made it to this wonderful family!

In August of 2007 I had a dream about a little girl named Ellie with dark black hair. She was standing up with her hand on the couch at my mom and dads new house, I guessed her to be a little under two. This dream was very real and memorable to me. I woke up the next morning and told my mom all about this dream. We decided together that this just may be my brothers next child because his kids were the only ones with dark hair. In October of 2007 I went to New York with my mom and sister Torrie. Torrie acted a little weird on this trip and I confirmed with myself that she was probably going to have another baby. And come to find out she was. While my sister was in labor in April of 2008, they were trying to decided on a name. Many names went back and forth through the family. At one point I told my sister that her baby was going to have black hair. This was a funny little comment considering her other two children were blonde as blonde could get when they were born. Well, the next day Ellie was here with a full head of dark black hair! I can't believe it's been a whole year! Ellie is a very special girl with her huge eyes and smile. She has so much personality and it's a good one. I can't wait for what is in store for Ellie. Obviously she is a very special spirit that was sent to me in a dream for a reason that I have yet to find. I love her so much!

These kids are amazing! Sorry for the novel but I'm so happy I have this picture and I just had to brag about all these special kids that are a part of my family! I love them all so much and I'm so happy each one of them are a part of my life!

Earth Day 2009

Happy Earth Day!

I love Earth and mother nature and it's one of the many reasons I love the color green.

Aren't my pictures beautiful? I love Idaho!

On Oprah today it said that there is a garbage swirl in the Pacific ocean stretching from California all the way to Japan and in some places it is 90 feet deep! Just GARBAGE in the ocean! That is disgusting. Do you ever stop to think about where that gum wrapper or cigarette butt is going when you carelessly toss it out the window? If not... do it! If that piece of garbage isn't picked up by the litter control projects, it is most likely headed to the ocean. What are you going to do when the ocean is filled with garbage? Are you going to eat the marine life that will no longer be sustained there? It will not exist. Here's a better question, what will your children, grandchildren and great grandchildren do when their oceans are filled with trash? What is so hard about putting your garbage in a garbage receptacle? That is just a start, we should be recycling all of our trash. Paper and plastic are filling our worlds landfills for no reason!

I'm mostly writing this blog for me. I know I have a long way to go but I have to start somewhere and hopefully that is changing at least one persons mind about where you put your trash!

I also know I need to eat better! How can I do that if food no longer grows from the ground? How can I do that if animals die because of the environment they are living in? I'm beginning to hate processed foods. They are horrible for us. One of Oprah's guests today said, "Imagine your Great Grandmother in the grocery store with you when you pick something up, would she recognize this as food?" This is so true. It is hard to imagine how we have come from women picking food from the ground and men hunting for meat to drive thrus and food delivery services. Think before you eat! I'm horrible at this concept and I think I've figured it out... I'm lazy! I want food now and fast food is just that, fast and yuck!

Moral of my Earth day story... pay attention to where you are putting your garbage and pay attention to what you are making for dinner and putting in your mouth!

We can change the world for the better people. I don't know what I would do if I was no longer able to take pictures like the ones at the top of this screen. I love Earth!

Happier note on 4.21.09

I'm feeling much better today! I got to go for a run around the lake with my doggy! I needed it so bad and I feel so good now. My Sugar is a little out of shape I found. I was dragging her along the whole time while her tongue was hanging on the pavement. Poor thing! As soon as we got home she drank her whole bowl of water and passed out on the floor. She hasn't moved since, I hope I didn't kill her. I'm laughing so hard at how worn out she is. She is so beautiful! I finally got some pictures off my camera so I can get some posted.

Did I mention she loves her Dad?!!! She is so snuggly and just loves getting attention!

I took this picture so you could see my view of her while I was bent over trying to blow dry my hair... did I mention she needs a lot of attention?!

This is her on Christmas morning! It was our very first Christmas as a family. Trey and I had so much fun waking up with Sugar. She was SO excited! Santa came and visited her and left her a brand new bed that she is lying on. She also got a huge green bone and a sack of all kinds of toys she could tear to pieces. I've never had a dog that actually liked to play with toys. It is so funny to watch her go pick one out of her basket and bring it over to you. Her facial expressions speak chapters when she looks at you. I don't know what Trey and I would ever do without her. We seriously treat her like a daughter. No one believes us when we say that but... then they see it! We are crazy but I love her and wouldn't have it any other way!

Trey and Sugar put me in good moods. When I have a happy post it will most likely always be a story about one of them! I love my life :)

4.20.09

I totally had to write a blog today just so I could call it 4.20. I know I'm so immature but I told everyone in high school that I would celebrate 4.20 for the rest of my life and I havn't missed one since. It makes me laugh.

Today was beautiful and SO nice to be able to sit outside in a tank top and not freeze to death. I sure wish I could spend a lot more time outside but it won't be like this for long as the song says.

I'm really starting to dislike my job. It's a good job and the best one I've ever had but it is like sitting in a dungeon everyday. (Geez I am like negative Nancy lately, sorry!) Seriously though, if I could take a picture of my "office" and put it on here you would know what I'm talking about. No one is around me and I never see the light of day until I get out of there every afternoon. It is good that I get there at the crack of dawn, most of the time before that, just so I can get out of there and still enjoy the sunshine for a few hours. I have an extreme amount of work piled on me, my boss doesn't like me so she piles more on just so she can get mad when I don't have it all done perfectly, it is way stressful, and I do not get paid enough to deal with all that drama. I have so much to say about it but I don't do anything about it. I need to, but I also need the job right now and hopefully I still have it when I do have a baby because I have good insurance and a huge discount! So, I keep my mouth shut and go to work everyday, very unhappily. It is really starting to wear on me and I'm not sure where the positive side of all of this is but hopefully I find it SOON!

I do love the rest of my life! Trey is the most amazing husband I could ever ask for. He does everything for me and his attitude is like anything to make me happy. I love him so much and could never imagine my life without being married to him.

I also love my dog! She is so beautiful. Trey and I treat her like our daughter. She is SO spoiled. She comes everywhere with us, mostly because she is a huge pouter (just like her dad, Trey) but I also like to show her off. She is the nicest little girl and just LOVES attention. Attention, attention! She cannot get enough!!! I love her! I will get some pics on here soon but I'm off to bed for the night!

4.19.09

Well, my last post was really depressing and since I just got added to my class website I figured I better write again while I'm in a better mood.

It is Sunday morning and I'm sitting in bed with my laptop and 50 lb dog on my lap while Trey is still snoring away... not sure why, he never sleeps in, but it feels good! The window is open and the birds are chirping away. As much as I hate birds, I'm cool with them as long as there is glass or screen between us:) They sound like summer and it smells AMAZING out there. I LOVE Idaho!

Last night was so much fun with friends! I love my friends and I'm so glad that my TJ is back in Idaho and safe with mom! I love Teege and I'm so happy things have turned out like they have for him. I only wish the best. I'm sure he would be happy to tell anyone his story and it is a good one. One you would want to hear first person. I'll just say that I'm so glad he is alive and that I had the means to help him at the darkest part of his life and that he trusted me enough to lay it all on the line and knew I would do nothing but help him in any way I could.

I love being surrounded by friends and just being able to talk about anything. I especially love that my friends can honestly do some of the most stupid things but still carry on intelligent conversations :) Last night Trey and I went to TJ's moms house to play pong. Trey is SO good at this game. He makes me sick that he can be so good at random things! I love TJ's family! They are so happy to let all of TJ's friends become like family to them. TJ's mom will always be my mom! I love her and I'm so glad she was the mom at the house I chose to hang out at every day in high school. She is an amazing person and I'm so happy she likes me too!

I still miss Kyle and last night was a painful reminder that he is gone. I was at the house where I last hung out with Kyle, but it was a warm fuzzy feeling to know that we all love and miss him and we are all there for eachother. I just had to remind everyone that I do love my life and everything in it!!!

Thinking of Kyle

Today was good and bad. Just like everyday has been for the last little while. I've been so happy and on cloud nine since last year was amazing with getting engaged, getting a new job (which I thought would be awesome forever), and best of all getting married to the love of my life.Now, it is spring and spring has not been the best part of many of my years. Not much to say other than, I'm depressed. Spring is hard. I want summer!

April 27th I got some horrible news and havn't been happy since. I love my friends, they mean everything to me. My guy friends aren't just friends they are brothers to me. Kyle T. Ellsworth was one of my brothers and he is gone. Just gone. I will miss him terribly forever. He passed away February 4, 2009 and his funeral was March 30th. It was a sad sad day. I've never cried so much for so long about anyone passing. I went to the graveside service after the funeral to lay Kyle to rest forever. I will never forget it. I stood by his casket and just stared. I stared through the tears for a long long time, until Trey tapped me on the back and got me to leave.

We went to Kyle's favorite bar with a lot of friends and all had a shot in memory of our amazing friend. This time at the bar of all places was amazing and one I will remember forever because of the way I felt. Ever since I heard the news I have felt Kyle's presence with me many times, which I am so happy about. I will miss Kyle forever but I know he is in a better place. I know he suffered here on this earth... a lot and I wish I could have helped but nothing can change that now. I just have to know that Kyle is much much happier in a much much better place.These are my depressing thoughts for the day... Let's hope the future is different... Very, very different.