Testomonial Letter

I've been feeling so much better lately! I decided I needed to write a testomonial letter for the doctors that have taken care of me and made me feel so much better.
WARNING: This is a long letter with an ugly picture! Enjoy :)

I feel like I could write a book about 2010 and I know I have enough details to do just that but I’ll try to keep my story short. In October of 2009 I noticed some weird symptoms starting to happen. I was a secretary at the time and typing fast was an important part of my job. It started to seem as if my right hand would not type like I wanted it to. I ignored this symptom and decided it would go away if I just didn’t dwell on it. My right foot started getting hot tingles in it about this same time frame, I ignored it as well. It wasn’t until the day in December when I woke up with no sight in my left eye that I decided something was really wrong. I called my eye doctor, he referred me to a specialist, I went to the specialist and was told I was just a healthy 24 year old with a fluke thing going on. I walked out of his office, blind in both eyes because he had dilated them and the advise of “come back in a week if you still can’t see.” This wasn’t good enough for me. My mom picked me up from the eye doctor in Idaho Falls and we headed straight to Pocatello. I believe it was a Myers cocktail that I received that day at The West Clinic. Dr. J wasn’t sure what was wrong either but we knew this wouldn’t hurt anything and it just might help. A week later I was still blind in my left eye so I went back to the specialist who ran more tests and decided I wasn’t lying so he sent me to get an MRI of my brain on December 23 of 2009. The MRI that was supposed to take 10 minutes, took TWO hours. I knew something was wrong but stayed positive as I left that office. A few hours later, the optometrist that had referred me to the mri called me and gave me some news. He sounded as if I was going to die, like he was giving the most devastating news of his life. When he finally spit it out what he was trying to say it was hard news to take. He said the white spots on my brain were consistent with MS or multiple sclerosis. He explained that I needed to see a neurologist and there are many options for MS patients to live long and happy lives. He was surprised at my reaction of laughter and we ended the conversation. I told my husband of 1 year at the time the news as we sat in our brand new home of 4 months. I called my mom, I cried, I was sad but again this news of “living with it” wasn’t good enough for me so I put on my “fake it ‘til you make it” happy attitude and made a plan.


I’ve never been a medication girl so the thoughts of being on medications with many side effects for the rest of my life never appealed to me. I had life to live, hours to work, house payments to make, children to be had, memories to make with the most amazing man who had only been my husband for a short time. He didn’t deserve a wife that couldn’t do all the things life has to offer. I was going to be well for the rest of my life no matter what it took. I had my MRI results sent to Dr. J and I met with him. Our plan was to stay on weekly iv’s and take a mess of supplements and over time we would see how I felt. Every week, I spent three to four hours in a recliner of the iv room. Some days were harder than others but I stayed positive. My symptoms were getting better with the iv’s as my body tried to get worse without them. I still had a lot of symptoms that were no where near pleasant and I started to feel like they were along for the long haul. I wanted these gone!

In April of 2010, Dr. J brought Dr. Hussar into my life. I knew from the first time I met him, he was going to make me well. He suggested that what I really had was Lyme disease. This disease was harboring itself in the cavitations inside my mouth where my wisdom teeth once were and also settling in my brain. Everything he said sounded very logical to me and I was ready for surgery to clean the cavitations out that day. My mom wasn’t quite so sure and needed some more reassurance. From April to November of 2010 I continued to drive to Pocatello, 65 miles from my home, to receive treatments once a week. I also continued with all of my symptoms…

• Dark spot in central vision of left eye also known as optic neuritis which came and went along with iv treatments and supplements until around July of 2010. It hasn’t been back since then.

• Right leg - hot pins and needles in foot, sometimes shoot clear to my hip. Muscles cramp even spasm, foot cramps, calve cramps, thigh cramps, hip cramps, random snakes running up and down my leg. Sometimes this leg did not want to walk and felt like I couldn’t, I made it anyway.

• Left leg - same as right but not as pronounced, both legs much worse with exercise and at night. Supplements seem to help a lot of nights so I could at least get some sleep.

• Arms - right usually worse than left but can switch in an instant, have to think about what letters I’m typing, fingers don’t want to work, hot and cold on and off, numbness and tingling rarely.

• Memory - worse some days than others, always bad, have to make lists for everything, hard to remember names, forget how to spell simple words. Forget what I came here for, where I’m going, simple phone numbers, birthdays I always knew.

• Balance - terrible! Stumble a lot, dizzy a lot, cannot stand on one leg.

• Exhausted - Hard to get up and do anything, including trying to work full-time.

• Hungry - all the time! Sick stomach and migraines a lot! Couldn’t eat potatoes or fruit without getting terrible headaches that turned into migraines

• Sugar worsens every symptom!

These symptoms were all very hard for me but the worst were my memory, balance, and missing out on potatoes and fruit. My entire life I took pride in remembering things that no one else did. I loved to remember everyone’s birthday and it got hard to have to look at a calendar everyday to see if I had missed someone. Also my entire life, I was a very athletic girl. I played basketball, volleyball, and softball. I was on swim team. It was hard not to be able to even dribble a ball. I missed an entire season of snowboarding because I didn’t have enough balance to even strap myself into my bindings. I was born and raised an Idaho girl, I love my potatoes. I went without potatoes for almost two years. That was a hard thing to do but it was even harder to be in bed with no light, throwing up, trying not to pull my hair out or chop off my own head in excruciating pain from the migraines they gave me. I went without fruit for about three months because it started giving me headaches. What the list doesn't include was how ugly I felt, and still feel, or how hard it was to stay positive through all the symptoms. It doesn't mention having no money, struggling to pay bills, because I couldn't work my full-time hours, which my husband and I are still struggling to overcome. It was hard but it’s so much better now!

On November 12th of 2010, I finally had my surgery! While the anesthesia was wearing off and my poor sister was wheeling me out the door of Hussar’s office in Reno, I remember taking a deep breath, looking at the sky, and thinking “I’m better than I’ve been in over two years!” He was only able to clean out two of the four cavitations that needed done on that day but when the pain in my jaw wore off, and all of my symptoms were at least 80 percent better, I was ready for more.

This is a picture I took of myself to send to my Trey Trey. He needed to see his sexy wife :)

It was the day after surgery number one. My jaw hurt but other than that I seriously felt so good.

It was swollen like this for almost a week, then the other side of my face looked the same way a month later.

I went back to Reno on December 16th and had the other two cavitations cleaned out. It was amazing. I felt even better than I did before while I was still healing. I didn’t think it was possible. By January of 2011 I was feeling so much better. I can wake up in the morning and I can stay up all day! I’m not exhausted anymore. I still have to write my lists of things to do but I can remember a lot more things. I went snowboarding, I did it and I remembered why I loved it so much. I was so proud of myself. I started going to a Zumba class. I’m really not very good at it but that’s just because I’ve never been a dancer. I can do it without pain and it feels amazing to get exercise again! Every time I leave the class I just want to cry all the way home because I can finally do something! Once you are out of the pain and misery of terrible symptoms, it seems as if they were never there and it’s hard to remember them. In fact I probably forgot to mention some in this letter. I know that is hard for anyone who is suffering to believe that but it is so very true for me.

For now and into the future I’ll be going to The West Clinic for any symptom of anything I don‘t like. Maybe an iv every month or two instead of every week. My veins that are wearing out really thank me for the last sentence. I still have more blood tests to take and some more clean up of the leftover spirochetes crawling around in my blood but for now I’ll take how I feel as the biggest blessing I’ve ever received!

I honestly believe Dr. J, everyone at The West Clinic, Dr. Hussar, his nurse Jan, and his anesthesiologist Bruce are angels! I could never say thank you enough for all that they have done and continue to do for me. This letter doesn’t even include what they have done for my family and friends as well. I consider what they’ve done for me miracle enough!

Flowers from my doctor and his wife.

They are amazing people!

Time flies!

How do months just fly by like the last four have? I'm not quite sure but they have really zoomed! Time flies when you're having fun right?

Since my last post I've still been getting my iv treatments once a week. Yes, in case you are wondering I am getting so sick of it! It is harder in the summer just because all I want to do is be outside but really it is only a few hours once a week and then I bolt out of there. I am feeling a lot better lately. The worst is my memory and balance, at least those are the only symptoms anyone else ever notices. These two are the hardest for me too, because I've always had a great memory and my balance has always been great to do all the active things I love to do. I'm getting all my information sent to a Dr. in Reno and my surgery should be scheduled by the end of the month. I can't wait and I know this is going to do the trick. I often wonder what I'm going to do with all my time when I don't have to deal with this crap anymore. Yes, I'm going to be better soon! Don't ever doubt me and don't try to tell me I won't be! :)

Trey and I celebrated our 2nd anniversary on Sunday. It is crazy to me how two years can go by just like that. I honestly keep forgetting if it has been one year or two. That may be just my brain at the moment but it really seems like yesterday I was in that wedding dress!

We have been outside and golfing A LOT this summer! It has been so fun for us to have something we both love to do and we can do together. We have spent so much time together and I have loved every minute of it! I can't ever get enough of the people I love! Life is too short not to enjoy every second you have here on the earth!

I love summer and everything in my life right now! Positve always wins!

Always behind!

Wow, I can't believe how life has been SCREAMING by! It's just crazy how December has turned to the middle of April without even thinking about it!

So much has happened since my last post. Trey broke his back, I've been halfway laid off and so has Trey. Trey had a body cast for 7 weeks. The cast was removable and went from his hips to just under his pecs. It has healed most the way, we are guessing, we havn't had another xray yet. Xrays don't come cheap so I'm sure it will be a few weeks, if at all. Trey's such a trooper, he hasn't even complained much about how he feels. I guess that's either because he's awesome, it doesn't hurt that bad, or he knows his wife is mean and won't put up with it even though she can complain as much as she feels necessary :)

We went to Vegas on the companies dime at the end of February :) We had so much fun! We stayed at the Venetian and walked are guts out! It was a good thing there was so much walking because so much eating accompanied it that we came out almost even. Trey had his body cast on for his broken back and his sneeky belly was trying to come out the top of the thing! None of my pants would fit but we had so much fun, just the two of us. We would have had a lot more fun if it wasn't for those pesky meetings. We did learn a lot about all the new and exciting things coming from Lennox though so it was all good. I know it doesn't sound like much fun to learn about HVAC hardware but it kind of was. I got a new thermostat out of the deal and my bedroom is now much warmer :)

I've still been getting my iv's weekly. Most of the time driving to Poky at 7 am every Saturday. Sometimes I have to change the days to accomodate a lot more fun things, like bridal showers, wedding receptions, baptisms, ya know the things in life you just can't miss for anything.

Switching the days up hasn't been as hard as usual because I've only been working three days a week until last week I started another job. This one I choose my own hours and work with my Mom so it is just moving things around to try to get things done. My second job is actually really fun and exciting even though anyone reading this probably wouldn't think so. You just have to know how much I love Rigby and the people here, then maybe it will be easier for you to understand how I could love this job. My mom and dad are involved in keeping all the records straight for the Pioneer Cemetery, the one on Hwy 48 next to the stake center. So last week when I wasn't working at Valley Glass, I was over at my moms on the Pioneer computer. I learned a lot from a guy who knows everything about the computer system used to keep plots straight. The cemetery is so much more interesting than you would ever think. It is split up into wards, blocks, lots, and spaces. It is hard to keep all these straight and when I bury someone, I usually know them or their family! I never thought about 99% of the things I've been learning but it has been cool to see how things work. When we get all caught up with the things we have to do, we are trying to do some cool things. Like have a website that shows which spaces are available so you can purchase one. It will also show who is buried where and we are even trying to get obituaries and a picture of the headstone attatched to the space where the person is buried. It will do a number for family history for sure! The picture thing is going to take a long time to get figured out, it does mean physically going out to the cemetery and taking pictures of each headstone... there are over 3500 people buried there now, and space for lots more! It really is exciting. I know I'm weird :)

Lu is here!!! We went to SLC last Monday and picked him up from the airport, he goes back to Texas on Wednesday so we have just been hanging out and enjoying seeing him since it has been forever and will be forever until we see him again!

Anyway... I think that is enough update for now. It is fajita Sunday so I better get moving!

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Gliding along...

Well, I've had two iv's since the one I talked about in my last post. Both have been great.

Saturday the 16th we were in Pocatello by 8. I got an iv of just minerals this day to build me back up after being so sick from the iv the week before. I felt good, only a very mild headache.

Saturday the 23rd I didn't go to Pocatello, I went to Tetonia for Ali's wedding at River Rim Ranch! It was beautiful and I was SO happy to be able to be there. It was a blizzard outside and I forgot my camera in the car :( I wasn't going out there again! I miss my friends! Any chance I can get to see them is a great day. Saturday was fun and I wish Ali the best of luck with the rest of her life. Josh seems like an awesome guy and I'm happy for her. She looked so gorgeous!

I now have Mondays and Tuesdays off from work until winter is over and business starts picking back up so I went for my iv yesterday the 25th. I got the chelation iv which is the one that made me so sick the last time. They only gave me a 3/4 dose this time to see if I could handle it and not get so sick. Guess what? It worked :) I had a really bad headache last night and had to get to sleep as soon as it started getting bad but no throwing up! Once I got to sleep, I slept all night and now I'm feeling great this morning! It seems like the symptoms are even starting to decrease.

I'm getting better and won't take anything less! Woo hoo!

Now, off to lunch with McKenzie and Sharis! Can't wait! I love my life!

The beginning...

First of all, if you are taking the time to read this really long post, I know you care about me and I want to say thank you!
Second, if you take the time to read this I DO NOT want ANY negative thoughts running through your head with me related to them. I need your positive thoughts and I need you to KNOW that I am well!

Some time in October I had something weird happen in my left arm. I didn't know then what I was in for... it felt like my arm had gone numb. I had to force my left hand to type each letter when I was on the computer, which just happens to be at home and at work. It bothered me a lot but I didn't say or do much about it. I went to the chiropractor and got adjusted, this seemed to work for a few hours and then it was back. I decided to ignore it and be positve about everything else in my life, the numbness slowly went away, but not all the way.

I've always had problems with my contacts. I've always had to take them out at night just because my eyes get so irratated. In October and November of last year my eyes started getting more and more irratated. By the first part of December I had decided to just wear my glasses for a while and see if I could get my eyes back to normal. I had worn my glasses everyday for a week when something even more out of the norm happened.

Thursday, December 10th, I was sitting on the couch facebookin' it up like usual while Trey was gone to class. I started to notice something going on with my eyes. It was like they were losing focus. I closed my left eye and could see perfectly. I closed my right eye and could see only blurriness. I figured I must be tired and shouldn't be on the computer anymore so I went to bed early. When I woke up the next morning, it was the same. I decided it would go away on its own and if it didn't I would go to the eye doctor Monday morning.

Monday, December 14th, I stayed home from work and was going to go to the eye doctor right at 8 so I could figure out what the deal was and get to work. Well, my eye doc was out of town so they sent me to the Idaho Eye Center in Idaho Falls. I guess being 24 years old and unable to see out of one eye is kind of a big deal. The Idaho Eye Center doctor took a look at my eyes, ran some tests, dialated my eyes and looked at them again. He couldn't see anything that wasn't normal. He told me it should go away on its own and not to worry because he saw nothing wrong with my eye and to come back the following Monday if it hadn't gone away.

I was a little upset about this. As many people know, I'm not a modern medicine type of girl. I just don't like or even believe in the non sense. I only went to this doctor to get a diagnosis so I could go to my own dr and get it taken care of. I was left with no diagnosis... just hope for it to go away. My eyes were now dialated for the rest of the day so I couldn't go back to work. My mom took me to Pocatello where I got an iv full of vitamins and good stuff, hoping maybe I just needed a boost. This didn't help my eye much but it did make some other pains I'd been having, and not paying attention to, lessen.

By the next Monday, December 21st, I still had extremely blurred vision in my left eye, so I went back to the eye dr at the Idaho Eye Center. He ran some other tests and still didn't see anything wrong with my eye but he did start believing that I really had no central vision and blurred peripheral in my left eye. So he set me up for an MRI to see if somthing was going on with my optic nerve.

Wednesday, December 23rd, two days before Christmas. I went and had an MRI at Teton Open MRI. I won't go into details about the actual MRI, just because I don't want anyone reading this who ever may have to go get an MRI in the future to worry about it, it will just make it far worse. It really wasn't that bad but took A LOT longer than I was told and expected.

When I finally got out of there I went to a late lunch with my mom and decided not to go back to work. I was just feeling overwhelmed. I went home to find my Trey Trey got off work early and was all showered and ready to just be with me for the rest of the day. I LOVE it when that happens. We watched tv and I napped while I waited for the results. About 4:00 the dr who had ordered the MRI called me himself. He was really a nice guy. He informed me that the good news was it looked like optic neuritis which is just an inflammation of the optic nerve and should go away on its own. The bad news is the small white spots all over the entire brain. What did these white spots mean I asked. His next words made all the symptoms I've been having for a long time make a lot more sense.

"The white spots on your brain mean you have ms or multiple sclerosis. Are you familiar with this disease?"

I couldn't help but smile, almost laugh actually. I could tell he was a little surprised at how I was taking the news. It did freak me out. A lot. I knew what the disease was and in that instant I knew that I had been having all of the symptoms of ms for months now. I thought to myself Merry Christmas! My next thought was... I will cure this! I will be a happy healthy person for the rest of my life! I WILL!

I got off the phone and told Trey. Of course I cried, I cried a lot and I did feel down. I did know deep down that I was going to be fine but it was hard news to hear. My mom called my dr and he ordered the MRI from Teton Open MRI. He confirmed that ms is what it looked like and he could help me. I was ready to be a happy girl and have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, which I did.


December 27th I got a really bad cold. It was really hard to not be depressed. I went to work Monday, and on Tuesday I left early. I took Wednesday off and my boss decided I should just take New Year's Eve off too and get better. I lost my voice Thursday night and it finally started coming back Saturday morning. I was feeling pretty good by Sunday and had gotten over being depressed and decided to start my iv therapies for the ms and get back to work Monday the 4th.

I got my first iv Sunday night and got a bad headache. I'm taking this as a good thing. A headache means that crap is moving around in my brain and I'm getting better! So the headache lasted all day Monday and I took that day off too but Tuesday I felt great and was so happy to go back to work. It was a long day but I made it and I made it through the whole week. Yes, I have the most amazing boss in the world and I work with the best people ever! I'm so happy to still have my job after taking so much time off and they actually care about what I'm going through. Well, at least they act like they do, it makes me feel better! :)

My second iv was just yesterday and it made me sicker than the last. I shouldn't go into details so I won't. The only thing I need to remember is how much I love my husband, mom, and dog. They are the most amazing people and the best dog ever! In my time of need they are there for me! Thank you! I love you more than I could ever show with words!

I don't know if anyone cares or is even wondering what's been going on with me but I just want to have something to look back on when I'm finished with this journey. I want to know how I treated others who helped me through.

And... I need your prayers and positive thoughts... ONLY positive thoughts.

*Lucky*

So this morning I took Sugar out for her morning duties and as I was standing on my back porch in the bright morning sunlight I realized a lot of things...
*I have the perfect husband!
*Parents that would do anything for me!
*An amazing amount of family on both sides that love me!
*The most beautiful dog in the world, that happens to be the best dog in the world too!
*A healthy body!
*A healthy, hardworking husband that I already mentioned is perfect!
*A new house!
*A new car!
*Enough money to eat all that I want for every meal!
*More love in my life than anyone could possibly imagine!
Really, I couldn't be more spoiled! I love my life and everything in it! Love the sunshine and what the fall air feels like outside on this 2nd day of November, 2009!
Love, love, love my life!

CRASH!

Sad day for the Cobalt SS! September4, 2009, yes the Friday before Labor Day :(

The old man in the picture was driving the red Camry and ran the stop sign. The gold car hit him and the old mans car came flying into my car. I wasn't even in my car. It was parked about a foot more into the road than you see in the picture... yes it got moved that far. This is at the corner of Lomax and Emerson, I work at Valley Glass again so I was inside working.
My car really doesn't look bad in the pictures but he hit my car hard! It pushed it clear up onto the sidewalk next to it! After a whole lot of drama I finally just took the money for repairs and sold the car as it was... wrecked. So sad! I loved my little car!
Sucks you have to learn the hard way but I guess this is what you have insurance for!

I've been driving Trey's truck for almost two weeks now... yuck!
But onward and upward... new car coming soon.

AND on a much happier note, the first time homebuyer $8000 tax credit is totally real and today was a great day :)
Love my life!

New housey!

We finally moved into our new housey on August 5th.

It was a drama filled summer but we are finally getting all settled in and loving the fact that we have a house to come home to every night!

We still have so much work to do but that is just the joy of home ownership:)

Yes, my car is missing from the garage but that is a whole different day for a different blog. I no longer own my Cobalt. It was wrecked, bad enough I won't drive it ever again... so long Cobalt SS, new car on its way though! Yay!

Joys Of My Life!

~Family~

These are all of my nieces and nephews!

How do they all grow up so fast?

They are all so unique with their own personalities.

I love them so much!

They keep my life interesting and give me something to look forward to on Sunday afternoons at my parents house!

What would I ever do without my sisters and brother and their awesome spouses?

I have to thank them for bringing these amazing kids into my life!

Jace, Sydney and Ellie, Zoey, Cooper, Slade, Ezra, and my angel Oakley.

Jace is my brothers oldest and just turned 10! I can't believe it was 10 years ago that I sat in the hospital waiting for my first joy. I finally got to experience thinking he was the absolute cutest baby that had ever been born. Since then he has been so amazing! I love everything about him. I honestly don't think I've ever met a kid nicer than this little man. There was a time when I said I did not like children and would never have any of my own... This guy changed my mind!

Sydney was next, she is Torrie's oldest. Oh a little girl! She is so so so active! She was running at 9 months and hasn't stopped. The things she can pull off physically never cease to amaze me. Her dance moves and facial expressions keep me laughing!!! She sings and does little dance moves in a group my sister has her in and it is so cute. I love that I am able to go to all these things!

Zoey was two months later, she is Kendra's oldest. She was a bit pre mature and we were all so worried about her. I remember thinking she was so so small in such a big world and I was so happy she came to my family so we could help her to grow strong. She was reading at two and I can't believe how smart she is now! She will be 7 in May and she is reading huge chapter books and can give you a great summary of every book she has read. She is so smart! She also says funny things. The other day we were at grandma's house talking about playing a game on the Wii and she said "oh you have to have the NUT CHUCK to play that game" oh I laughed and laughed! For those of you who don't know, it is supposed to be a nun chuck :)

Slade was just 7 months after Zoey and finally another boy! Oh he is so cute I just want to squeeze him and squeeze him! He is the 2nd and youngest child in my brothers house. He says the funniest things! I guess all kids do. One day he was talking to Trey and said that he had been to Idaho Falls with his mom shopping all day. Trey asked how it was and Slade said "freakin' hated it" It was hilarious! He has a raspy little voice and I hope that never goes away. It is so cute!

Oakley Kate was next! My beautiful angel! My little Oakley is so so special. My sister and her husband had the blessing of bringing her into our family with downs syndrome. Though it is a struggle to take care of her extra needs I know my sister is so blessed to have Oakley. She is truly an angel. She took so much longer than the other kids to roll over or sit up or even hold her own head up but this only made it that much more special when she could finally do those things. She is growing and gets more and more beautiful everyday. It overjoys me when she smiles at me or giggles when I grab her belly. She loves Trey! Love love loves Trey!!! He loves to talk to her and hold her, which is weird because he never holds any of the other kids. It is so special to watch the way he treats her. Trey is an amazing guy with a huge heart!

Ezra came next. He is so funny and full of life! I love being around Ezra because he just comes up with the funniest random sentences. I'm sad that I can't think of any right now but they are so funny! He is also so full of energy just like his older sister. He runs and he runs and he runs! That is after he wakes up for a long time. He will not talk when he is just waking up. He just won't do it. I'm not sure if this will ever change and I think it is cute. It may not be cute to anyone else but I just think it is funny that he will not even look at you until he finally gets to the point of firing on all cylinders.

Cooper is so so cute. He runs around yelling Doe Doe... meaning Zoe Zoe is what we are assuming because he is trying to get Zoey's attention. He LOVES his sister so much and she loves him and helps him all the time. It is so stunning to watch the kids interact together and grow. When Cooper was born he had a racing heart beat and had to be taken by life flight to a different hospital. I can only imagine the horror Kendra and Jeff felt as their newborn was sick. I remember being so scared again for one of their children. These must be some pretty special babies to have made it to this wonderful family!

In August of 2007 I had a dream about a little girl named Ellie with dark black hair. She was standing up with her hand on the couch at my mom and dads new house, I guessed her to be a little under two. This dream was very real and memorable to me. I woke up the next morning and told my mom all about this dream. We decided together that this just may be my brothers next child because his kids were the only ones with dark hair. In October of 2007 I went to New York with my mom and sister Torrie. Torrie acted a little weird on this trip and I confirmed with myself that she was probably going to have another baby. And come to find out she was. While my sister was in labor in April of 2008, they were trying to decided on a name. Many names went back and forth through the family. At one point I told my sister that her baby was going to have black hair. This was a funny little comment considering her other two children were blonde as blonde could get when they were born. Well, the next day Ellie was here with a full head of dark black hair! I can't believe it's been a whole year! Ellie is a very special girl with her huge eyes and smile. She has so much personality and it's a good one. I can't wait for what is in store for Ellie. Obviously she is a very special spirit that was sent to me in a dream for a reason that I have yet to find. I love her so much!

These kids are amazing! Sorry for the novel but I'm so happy I have this picture and I just had to brag about all these special kids that are a part of my family! I love them all so much and I'm so happy each one of them are a part of my life!