What’s on my mind recently? 

Planning to pick up riding. 🤣

Just so when I can go back home, I can rent a bike and ride at my own time. And that I can be sure I won’t be falling like how I did the last time round! 🤣

But I’m not planning on getting the license, just wanna do the theory and practical and know how to ride can le. 

Let me continue to think about it for a bit! 😂

不值得等。

更不值得伤心。

Started at 12.14pm. Finished at 12.30pm. And I kinda shut the other 2 tables of diners up. 

Coz they were teasing each other to order beer over lunch. (They met by chance.) But my beer came and I started drinking. And I was alone at that point in time. It was peaceful silence as I consumed my glass. 

Second (expired) bottle at 3.06pm. At birdies’ house. 

Third one at 7.48pm while having dinner with *o. 

Now having the last (I hope) at 9.13pm. 

It’s a bad thing to have high alcohol tolerance. Coz I wasn’t even slightest drunk after all this. Totally sober. Totally feeling what I don’t wanna feel.

 At my least favourite place again. Just like 3 years ago. Sighz. 

And when I was waiting, your post just popped up. About needing the ‘forget me state’. Exactly what I needed. Just wanna get drunk for a while and forget about all this. 

And that’s the weird thing about me. I may seem ok on the outside or even carefree. But when I’m all alone now, I’m trying to find my coping mechanism. 😣