Coz I needed a break. Been a hell week that has work spilled over the weekends. So a little perk me up and me-time after errand running. 

Hotate with foie gras sushi and a dab of gold. 1 piece = $12.

Fresh live unagi bowl. 

1 more hell week ahead! 

You appeared in my dream again. And this morning the first song I heard on radio was your song. Hope you are doing well! :)

I saw a photo like that being taken as I was googling for HK things to do. So I tried and love the effect the incense smoke around it. ❤️

It’s been a crazy July. Now that it’s August.. It’s a week of breather before all hell breaks loose again next week. 

Was just having a random convo that day.. And we started talking about retirement plans. Got me thinking if when I retire.. What will I be doing? An admin job at a dive resort? With perks of diving thrown in? 🤔 

Ahh.. Random thoughts before bed. After a good read. 😊

The speech that got me all teared up. 

‘So we were not financially well, my sister gave up going to college. So that I could go to college.’

And when I told *o about it this morning and he said ‘coz that may be your regret, but your personality being like this. You just bury all unhappiness and regrets and look forward. So when he dug it out it just hits you again. But after a while when you are calm, you will bury it back and continue on.’ 

Is that true? Maybe. I could go to college if I want to. But I know if I went there is no way anyone can sponsor me to complete Uni. So the decision wasn’t that hard to just go poly and pray for a chance one day. 

Even though the chance may come, I don’t think I wanna be tied down to studies anymore. I cannot stay in Singapore and not travel for the few years that I have to study. And even now without that degree, I’m lucky. I’m where I am today coz of being in the right place at the right time I guess. Who would have ever thought I am just a poly grad? 

Whatever it is, like what the bro put it so nicely yesterday, ‘we all have our differences, but I am who I am today because of you.’

Congrats my baby brother, and welcome to the family, sister! ❤️

7 years ago. 

9 years ago.

Memories. 

All this bloody fucking accommodating to people’s needs just drove me up the wall. To the extent that I just say that I don’t wanna meet anyone. Period. Don’t get me wrong. I still love them. But it’s my fucking birthday month. And for once I want to feel important. Not to accommodate to anyone. 

Being an INFP sucks sometimes. And unfortunately this is one of the times. 

Still trying to come to terms with it. 

Sorry 夜宵kaki.. I couldn’t celebrate your birthday yest. Was working late shift till 10.30pm. 😔 

Catch up next month yeah? If not then will be with the rest kk! 

Once again happy birthday to you! 😊

The one day that I just want you to be with me. 

The one day that for no reason I am emo-ing.

The one day that i just need you. 

The one day that I just wish I can be selfish. 

:( 

Has it been almost 7 years since we last met? Time really flies. 

‘真正的放下大概是

你不会删除他的聊天记录

也不会把他拉入黑名单

只是任由他躺在通讯录里

再也懒得去点开

他像你掉入床底的笔

漏在厕所的水

就定不要了 就不会再想起’

Thank you for being part of my life. 

Coz I know I was burning out soon.. And my travelling toes were getting itchy itchy. It’s been almost full 3 months since I last stepped out of the country. Super unusual I know. But then again. Work has been crazy. 

So on Friday afternoon I booked a trip to Ho Chi Minh for yesterday and came back Singapore today. 😂 

Been a eating trip + meeting up a friend + spending some time doing work. But doing work overseas is much better than doing work at home. 😂 

Anyways.. Feeling somewhat better after the super spontaneous trip. Thank you for going with me! 😘 

Ps. Hello 夜宵kaki. When are you gonna meet me huh? 😁

Unfortunately in this cruel society of ours. We punish the performers and let the non-performers off easily. 

And because of perceptions.. Just coz someone does his/her work efficiently. They’re deemed as free. But those who procrastinate and take so long to do their work becomes the ones who are busy. 

心里不平衡 at the moment. ‘Xcuse me for a moment please. 😣

So you think you can make the call and the decisions? Guess what? You’re not the immediate family. And no surprises - you have no say in what happens and our decisions. If you can’t hold a proper conversation without trying to rub others the wrong way. I don’t see the need to have to visit you for any reasons any more. 

Oh and guess what? So what if you’re my elder? Don’t push me too far. Don’t even think about touching my family. I’ve spoken loudly enough to close the subject. And you better get the hint and shut the fuck up about it from now onwards. If not. Don’t 怪我不客气. I’ve tolerated you since the day I made the decision and enrolled in Poly and my course of choice. 

Get this straight - you are nothing to me. NOTHING.