Just because. 😔

INFP: Since INFPs work hard at fully accepting others exactly as they are, we do appreciate people who accepts us for who we are. Therefore please be considerate of my emotions too. (And use your common sense. You don’t need to be told twice.. And I don’t like to repeat myself.) 😔

I am a human too. 😔

(Sometimes I wonder izzit coz I’ve too much empathy? Or that it’s my fault if I pick things up too fast? Or am I wrong to learn from my mistakes quickly and manage upwards differently?) 😔

Why do I have to be the one who ‘cannot be emo or have negative feelings’? That I must portray that ‘positive image and vibes’? Don’t I have a say of how I want to behave too? 😔

就在等待的那一瞬间. 你我的回忆在我脑海里一闪而过. 那一瞬间的感觉是那么的不真实. 

Seeing the customer pushing an empty pram.. And how his wife followed while carrying the baby. The thought that flashed was ‘that’s probably how *w is right now...’ 

A sudden thought for no reason. And then I shook myself and asked ‘why am I even thinking of you?’ 

Memories will always remain as memories. No matter how good or bad those memories were. They’re in the past and will remain in the past. No point digging it up or reminiscing coz what’s left unsaid.. Undone. That’s that. 

Time has flown. I’ve moved on. That much you know. 

What you probably don’t know is how long ago I’ve moved on and long ago I’ve stopped linking things and places I see to you. And how long ago I’ve stopped looking back on our memories. Coz what those memories meant to me will never be how they meant to you. 

And that’s the reason why I didn’t reply you though I got your msgs. And probably (and hopefully) you’ve deleted my number and me out of your life. 

You were part of my life.. You taught me things I didn’t even know and wasn’t capable of. I thank you for that. 

But it is time to look forward. Let’s stop looking back and leave the memories the way they are. Beautiful memories. 

🏳️‍🌈 Everyone has the right to choose - no matter their age. 

🏳️‍🌈 Which parent will be happy to see their kid(s) depressed and having suicidal thoughts? Especially when they know they can do something to make their kid(s) happier? 

🏳️‍🌈 Why shun away from LGBTQ just because you can’t handle them and the thoughts they have? We are all humans and entitled to our own beliefs and thinkings and feelings. 

🏳️‍🌈 Not gonna say if this is a right or wrong decision because no matter what is said.. Haters are just gonna hate. 

🏳️‍🌈 Before you judge someone. Make it a point to understand their situation(s) and why the decision. Not force your thinking on them and be a keyboard warrior. 

🏳️‍🌈 And if you can’t accept it.. Then just move on. No one is forcing you to pass a comment without value.

So a couple of things that made my brain shrink these couple of weeks. 

And a human that pushed me to my maximum boiling point. 

And coupled with the fact that finally got dad’s stuff settled (kinda) and relieving my mum in a way. Now is how to make the dollars stretch. 

Haven’t really been on a holiday - less than in Feb to Perth with *o. But I guess circumstances just doesn’t allow me to head out. 

小乔.. I know you’ll be reading this. And no.. I haven’t forgotten about our date. Let me check out my schedule and let you know ASAP kk! :)

Needing a break badly so super looking forward to end of May till early June where I’ll be flying out for a dive trip in Ishigaki and then extending in Tokyo before coming back. 

It’s another 6 weeks of work with the coming 3 weeks the most 凶 of all. EMP then RLP then AFM with 2 batches almost back to back. Then ASM class subsequently. 

Oh! And I haven’t tally my ASM confirmed name list yet! Damnit. 

Yes call me crazy.. But I think I’m quite decided. Incredible India.. Here I come! ❤️

What made you feel calm today? 

Able to complete my own to-do list.

What are you grateful for? 

The birdies. For coming all the way to meet me for dinner near the west. For the laughter. 

What were 3 highlights of today? 

1) Meeting the birdies.

2) Having local breakfast today.

3) Having lunch with an unexpected gang - Jenny.. Ping2.. Christina.. Muliani.. Cecilia.. James.. Fazly. 

2017 has been a year of relationships.

Relationships between family.. Relationships between friends.

Events that happened in 2017 made me realized even more how precious life is - and how important those people close to me means.

2 weddings. 2 deaths. Many treasured catch ups. Many moments spent shuttling in between hospitals. And the many countries I visited (11 in all!) - each teaching me the value of living. 

Because of all of you.. 'I laugh a little harder, cry a little less and smile a lot more.' - Anonymous

Here's wishing one and all a Happy New Year and may 218 bring more joy and happiness to all! :)